Tell the lord, the princess has climbed the wall

Chapter 324 No love, no hate

"Also, the reason why I haven't told you about this matter.

One is that I really never loved her, and I don't think it's necessary.

The second is that I also feel that I am afraid that you will think too much, because of someone you have never loved, because of her, it makes you feel uncomfortable, so it is not worth the loss.

It would be easier to say that people are dead. "

"But she didn't die. She is still in such a miserable situation. Even if you have no feelings, after all, you have known each other for so many years, and you really don't have any compassion. Do you want to help her or something?"

Hearing this, Zuo Mu complained a little for Cheng Mo.I feel that Cheng Mo's life is really in vain. Not only is her own sister unreliable, but she even gave her love to the wrong person.

"Miss, your husband and I are just an ordinary person, I am not Guanyin Bodhisattva, and I have no obligation to save sentient beings.

In my husband's mind, among all the women in the world, I am the only one in charge of your affairs, and other women are not within the scope of my obligations. "

Seeing Zuo Mu's posture, he was actually standing in someone else's position, Sima Cheng helplessly explained,

"Besides, everything in the world has its cause and its effect, and the poor person must have something to hate about her.

Even if she had no choice but to marry Wu Zhong, no one asked her to seduce Wu Bin.

I don't believe that she, the mistress of the prime minister's mansion, didn't hint at it first, but Wu Zhong stood there, and with Wu Bin's courage, he dared to make her idea first.

In fact, there is one more thing you don't know. When the mother was seriously ill, Cheng Mo fed those medicines to the mother herself? "

This news was beyond Zuo Mu's expectation, and he couldn't help but turn pale with shock, "How...how is this possible? How did you know? Since she loves you so much, there's no need to kill your mother? Could it be a rumor? "

"It's absolutely true!" Speaking of his mother's death, Sima Cheng's voice sank again unknowingly, "Wang Taiyi said it unintentionally once he was drunk, and Wang Yue heard it with his own ears. The medicine was actually prepared by Wang Taiyi himself. .”

Feeling Sima Cheng's heartache, Zuo Mu hurriedly put his hand on his chest, hoping to give him some comfort.

"Since that's the case, then... have you ever hated her?" After a pause, Zuo Mu asked softly again,

"I haven't even loved before, so how can there be hatred." Sima Cheng took Zuo Mu's hand and kissed it lightly on his lips, and said in a deep voice,
"Besides, she was also used by others at the time. Even without her, there would be someone else who would have done this. So, the end result is not the same."

"You see things quite clearly, and your words are very high-sounding," Zuo Mu said deliberately, not wanting to see Sima Cheng in such a low mood,
"I see, the reason why you hide so many things from me is because you don't believe me, don't you have confidence in me?"

"Silly girl, I don't have confidence in you, I have no confidence in myself,

I am afraid that you will think too much, and then alienate me because of these, and even leave me in the end. "

Sima Cheng hugged Zuo Mu even tighter, and explained in a hoarse voice,

"You may not believe it, but I used to think that perhaps the relationship between me and Cheng Mo could be considered love.

The woman is beautiful, the man is handsome, and her family background is similar. She lives in the eyes of the world's envy all day long, and her scenery is infinite.

But since I met you, I know what true love is,
And the ones before, at best, were just vanity and playful, there was no emotion to talk about, let alone love.

For her, she will come as soon as she comes, and she will take a quick look at her. If she leaves, she won't think about it if she doesn't see her for a few days or even a few months.

It's not like you, it's like a deadly poison to me, if you don't see me for a day, it's as uncomfortable as losing your soul.

Maybe love is like this, even if I knew it was impossible at the beginning, I still fell in love with you hopelessly, even if I forcibly tied my hands and feet not to look at you, but when I closed my eyes, I was still thinking about you.

Every day, even if he is forced to pretend to be indifferent to you, he will still sneak into your room while you are fast asleep, sit by your bed, and watch it all night.
I never get tired of looking at your face.

If she smiles, my world is like being illuminated by the sun and the spring is bright,
As soon as you cry, cloudy clouds suddenly cover up, like a person standing in a wilderness with nine people in the cold, with one heart lost in the cold.

When I wake up in a thunderstorm night, I will wonder if you will be afraid to sleep alone,
Every time I ate a good thing, I would think how good it would be if I could eat it for you too.

Every time I see you crying silently alone in your sleep in the dark night, I feel more pain than someone taking a knife out of my heart..."

This is the first time Sima Cheng described his psychological feelings to Zuo Mu,

Although he didn't say it, Zuo Mu knew that what he was talking about was their previous life.

Zuo Mu listened so seriously that he almost forgot to breathe, and almost burst into tears a few times.
"Actually, I also often dream about those previous scenes,
In the dream you never speak, cherish words like gold, ignore me, cold like an iceberg, have been married for so long, and have never even looked at me for real, so in the end I feel that there is nothing Hope to live. "

After a while, Zuo Mu found his own voice and choked up,

"If you hugged me like this at that time, tell me that you really care about me and love me, but it's just a last resort. I would never be willing to leave you alone."

"I think so too, but I don't know what to do."

Now that everything has been said, Sima Cheng also confessed frankly,
"At that time, I didn't know if I had a tomorrow, let alone what was waiting for my future, whether my revenge would be successful,

Or maybe one day before I started to do anything, I suddenly fell ill and couldn't wake up after sleeping.

I'm afraid that if I fail, you will suffer if you follow me; I'm afraid that if I die, you will suffer.

Therefore, I had no choice but to forcibly suppress my heart and endured not to tell you.

I thought that if I did this, you would be sad, you couldn't help it, you would choose to leave, and you would return to Xixia, because after all there is brother Xue waiting for you there.

However, I didn't expect you to be so stupid that you would walk the road of no return. "

When he said these words, apart from self-blame, there was deep pain and helplessness in Sima Cheng's voice.

Zuo Mu has never seen him so helpless as a grown man since he knew him for two lifetimes.

At that moment, Zuo Mu suddenly discovered that everyone is equal before love.

Even Lord Kang, the God of War who was once so powerful and invincible, would sometimes hide his heart carefully when he was so unconfident, afraid, and weak, not knowing how to love someone.

"It was only later that I realized that I was wrong. Not only did I succeed in revenge, but I also fully recovered my body.
But at that time, I lost you forever. "

(End of this chapter)