sadomasochism double

Chapter 114

Li Chen yawned and seemed tired.

"An Yue, I'm tired and want to rest."

"Then I'll go first and see you tomorrow."

"No need." Li Chen waved his hand and closed his eyes, "I'm just here to fulfill my wish. So, I wanted to show off to the girl I like before I die, but I didn't expect...hehe..."

Li Chen laughed again, but didn't open his eyes, "Let's go, An Yue, live a good life with Zhuo Yang. Don't come to see me again..."

"Li Chen..."

"Let's go, I'm really tired." Li Chen slowly closed his eyes and pulled the brim of his hat with his hands, completely hiding his grief.

I want to say something more, something to say, I never knew I was such a poor person, but at this juncture I couldn't say a word.

Li Chen's breathing slowly became even, as if he really fell asleep.

I stood at the door for a long time, looking at the man on the bed.It seems that some things are my nightmares, close your eyes, and when you wake up, he will still stand in front of you in a normal and healthy way, being mean to you and swearing at you.

However, when I opened my eyes, I found that it was not a dream, but just my subconscious hopeless desire.

Goodbye Li Chen.

However, how much I do not want to say goodbye.

When leaving the hospital, Zhuo Yang was already waiting at the door.

"You... how do you know I'm here?"

Zhuo Yang pinched out the cigarette, and came over to hold my hand, "I just found out about Li Chen, their family is in a mess now, after he was admitted to the hospital, the family was busy with who would inherit the Li family, and no one came over."

"These people really have their consciences eaten by dogs!" I was indignant, Zhuo Yang rubbed my head, "He already knew it himself, maybe he is more open than us."

However, although Zhuo Yang said so, I still feel that Li Chen is very pitiful.

Recalling the time when he was at sea, even if it was Chinese New Year, he didn't want to go home, maybe it was because he knew it a long time ago.

Home—has never been his warm haven, but his shackles.

"He really didn't..." Is there no way to treat it?Although cancer is currently medically incurable, there are always specific examples.

"It's late." Zhuo Yang said, his voice was a little low.I can understand the sadness of my childhood friend slowly leaving my life to a world I was never able to go.

"Zhuo Yang..." I took the initiative to shake the man's hand, "I suddenly realized that there may be many spiritual injuries and tortures in this world, but they are far less than the pain. So... Zhuo Yang, give me Guaranteed, you will be healthy, as you said, we will last forever... If you can't do it... then, don't..." Don't give Song Yu a kidney transplant...

The hands were pinched tightly, Zhuo Yang turned his head and smiled at me.

"As I said, I have already decided on this matter. No matter what, the debt you owe can only be repaid by me... And, I will never break my promise to you... Believe me, I won't break my word, absolutely not."

Mrs. Song came to me suddenly.You must know that after Song Yu's accident, Mrs. Song classified me as a user who refused to come and go. I couldn't even enter Song Yu's ward, and I was respectfully invited out every time, let alone seeing Song Yu.

"Mrs. Song... hello." Despite being stunned, she still should have the courtesy she should have.

Mrs. Song was still glamorous and noble as always, she glanced at me, then at Zhuo Yang behind me with even more contempt, and finally uttered a few words very reluctantly.

"Ayu wants to see you."

Thanks to Mrs. Song, I haven't seen Song Yu since his accident.According to Wen Li, his condition is very bad. At first he wanted to see me, but Mrs. Song suppressed them all.

In this regard, Mrs. Song's strength has been brought into play unprecedentedly, and Song Yu, as a patient, has nothing to do.

It was the first time I saw Song Yu after that incident.

"Song Yu." I walked carefully to his bed, but before I got there, tears had already flowed down.

"I'm very sorry."

"You're always saying sorry." He raised his hand, his eyes were gentle, and the brows were still friendly, "Don't say sorry...don't ever say sorry to me."

but--

Does he know that my sorry can never be finished to him.

After asking about my physical condition, Song Yu looked at me, and finally fixed his eyes on my bare fingers. I felt a pain in my heart, and slowly retracted my hand.

"I know Brother Zhuoyang helped me get a kidney transplant, and I know he did it because of you... Yueyue, do you still decide to go back to him?" After a pause, Song Yu suddenly said.

I turned my eyes away, unable to nod under such gentle eyes.

"Hehe..." Song Yu seemed to be smiling, "Yueyue, if... if it's because of me, then I would rather not have this kidney... I don't want you to be in trouble...but..." Song Yu's sigh There was a soft sound in my ear, "What I'm afraid of is that some things have never changed. You are actually very paranoid about feelings. I really want to ask...you still love him, don't you?"

Love--

Impossible not to love.

When he treats me badly, I fall in love willingly.What's more, he holds me in the palm of his hand now.

I was really too stubborn. After so many things happened, I still walked towards him firmly.

"You used to love..." Song Yu shook his head, with helplessness in his eyes, "Speaking of love is too heavy... Yueyue, I just want to ask you, have you ever been tempted by me?"

tempted?

Song Yu is such a good man, I am a normal woman, how can I be indifferent to a good man.

"But being tempted is not the same as living for a long time. Ayu, you are too young, you deserve a better girl, and I can't walk anymore. Once I reach a stable nest, I don't want to move anymore. Maybe you will say that I am too much , saying that I have no self-esteem... But, there is no self-esteem in love, especially the person who fell in love first..."

I turned back slowly, "It's useless for me to say anything. I just hope you live well...better than me, that's my greatest hope."

There was a long silence.

Song Yu closed his eyes silently. For too long, too long, I thought he had fallen asleep.

"Yueyue, the last question, following him, will you be happy in the future?"

"Yes..." I smiled, and slowly sat down on the bed, "I can't guarantee the future, I can only tell myself... Life is an experience, and it takes pain and sorrow to make me feel better." Only when I grow up can I cherish the world I have even more. Whether it is love or friendship."

I slowly took out the ring from my clothes pocket, and I put it in Song Yu's palm.

"Thank you for giving me the most beautiful day of my life. Now... I want to say sorry." Since we were together, I am happy.But the boy I like did something he didn't want to do, and even received indelible physical injuries.

The most beautiful sunshine is not mine after all.

And Zhuo Yang and I have been entangled too much together.No matter what happened in the past, or what will happen in the future, the grievances, love and hatred in this life can only be shared with him.

Song Yu clenched her hands tightly, and it took a long time before she said: "Okay... That's great... If this is the case... If this is the case, your life will be better... I accept... I accept everything."

He lowered his eyes, and there were crystal tears on his long eyelashes.

The wind whizzed past, and snowflakes flew all over the sky, gradually covering his icy body.

No one found out.

Even she, who he loved so much, didn't find out.

As if he had never existed in this world, he was as clear as snow, and finally disappeared without a trace like snow.

This is the last fragment of Song Yucheng's famous work, which can also arouse countless sad emotions in people.At this moment, I hurriedly turned my head away, unable to see Song Yu on the hospital bed, and quickly escaped from the ward.

I thought I could do pretty well, I just didn't think...

From the beginning, from the beginning I promised him, in fact, the harm was doomed.

At the door, Mrs. Song was already waiting there.

I wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes and nodded to her, "Mrs. Song, I'm leaving first."

"Wait..." Mrs. Song stopped me, "After the operation, I will take Ayu back to the United States. I hope this is the last time you will see each other."

"I..." There was a heavy stone in my heart, my heart hurt, I couldn't say anything.

"What's the matter?" Mrs. Song came over and smiled contemptuously, "Eating what's in the bowl and still thinking about what's in the pot? They're all reunited with Zhuo Yang, and they still show such reluctance to A Yu... ..."

"I'm sorry." Saying sorry has become a habit, I took a deep breath and said, "I just didn't realize it all at once. It's good for him to leave...It's also good to be able to do what you like...to be able to create your own life. OK."

(End of this chapter)