sadomasochism double

Chapter 116

Because I can't bear it, I can't bear to embarrass the man I like, and I can't bear to let the man I like be hurt because of me.

So silently back to the position of friends and subordinates.

Moisturize each other.

It is better to forget each other in the rivers and lakes.

When Li Ruobing came to pat me on the shoulder, Li Si had already left.

She said that the smell of the hospital was bad, and neither she nor the baby liked it, so she left first.

She walks gracefully, neatly and cleanly.

Her back was straight, as she said, she didn't lose, she walked steadily, and she walked upright.

Li Ruobing continued to pat me on the shoulder, and followed Li Si for a few steps, "Honestly speaking, I think you are really a few blocks away from others... No matter your appearance or IQ... you are far behind others... But... You are also a little better than her."

"What?" I was curious, do I have any advantage over Li Si?

"Yeah." Li Ruobing nodded, and replied seriously: "Your luck is better than her... The men around you are all very good to you. Whether it's Zhuo Yang, who used to be a scumbag but is now loyal, or that coquettish Li Chen, the stone boy, and Song Yu, my unlucky cousin...all have a deep love for you...I think, this fact cannot be measured by normal people's thinking at all...I can only explain this to myself...you It's really good luck, maybe it's the blessings cultivated in previous lives." Only in exchange for the sincere treatment of several men in this life.

Li Ruobing finally comforted me and asked me to cherish my blessings.

I also know.

Everything has come to the end, the only thing I can do now is to hold on to the happiness in my hand tightly and never let go.

The time of the operation passed slowly and feebly, it seemed like years.

When the operating room was opened, my body was already drenched with dense sweat. When the doctor came out, a group of us rushed up.

"How are they?"

The doctor in the white coat smiled triumphantly.

"It was very successful, but the exact result will have to wait for the two of them to wake up."

"Okay... okay... that's good..."

A group of people relaxed, and at the same time, they didn't know when the sun was shining outside the window.

finally--

It cleared up.

When Zhuo Yang woke up, I was coming in with a pot of cactus.Zhuo Yang used to like to give me these little things, but unfortunately I raised all the ones at home, but this morning when I woke up, I found that dozens of pots of cactus survived in the end.

I decided to start caring for life today, so I took the pot of cactus that survived to a nearby flower shop. The other party loosened the soil for it and replaced it with a larger pot, as if admiring its vitality.

When I entered the door, I found that Zhuo Yang was staring at me intently.

"How is it? Does the wound hurt?"

"It hurts..." Zhuo Yang yawned and looked at me lazily, "Where did you find such an ugly cactus?"

"..." I pressed the throbbing blue veins on my head, and smiled, "Have you lost all your memories of the operation? Look clearly...you are the only one who can give away such an ugly cactus..."

Zhuo Yang's expression seemed to be surprised, but after a while he laughed to himself again.

"It doesn't matter, no matter how ugly it is, it's mine."

I don't know why, but I always feel that he uses metaphors.

It seems to be a metaphor for me.

but--

Am I ugly?asshole!

Overall, everything is fine.

However, what makes me a little regretful is that I haven't seen Song Yu since the operation.

I heard that he was secretly sent to the United States directly after the operation. Naturally, he didn't say hello to me when he left, but Li Ruobing came over and gave me four words.

"Better not to."

Some feelings, come to an end, every time we meet will pull the wounds in our hearts.

It's better not to see such pain.

I actually get it.

Always understood.

It's just that I made a wrong step, step by step.

On the contrary, it was Song Yu who endured my mistakes and uneasiness and made it to today step by step.

Now that things have happened, what face do I have to ask for a meeting and forgiveness to make myself feel at ease.

and so--

no good no see.

Zhuo Yang was very happy about this.

He wished I would stay far away from Song Yu.

And after Song Yu left, he became a little fearless, with all kinds of poisonous tongue, and occasionally made my eyes smoke with anger, and was about to stab his wound again, but whenever I had this thought When it was time, he apologized in all kinds of mean ways, acting like a good baby who admitted his mistakes.

Sometimes, I don't know whether to stab him or stab myself.

If I had known earlier, I would not have let go so quickly and said that I would marry him.

Look at how proud he is now.

everything is fine.

The wind is light and the sun is warm.

Everything is just right.

Perhaps, the only bad thing is Li Chen.

On the day Zhuo Yang and Song Yu had a successful operation, he jumped from the highest building of the hospital.

It is said that he fell so badly that he was no longer in human form.

I didn't go to see him, but when I got the news, tears suddenly fell down.

I think I can understand why he chose to commit suicide.

It may be the inability to bear the chronic torture of illness, or the inability to accept that one's appearance is old and youthful.

However, I think it is more likely that he once asked me whether people who commit suicide cannot go to heaven or hell, but can only be in a specific space in the underworld.

I think……

He probably wanted to see his mother who committed suicide back then, so he chose the same path as her.

After Li Chen died, he left the pink diamond to me. At the same time, he donated all his stocks and real estate to the children in the orphanage. He set up a growth fund for them, whether it is their basic necessities, food, housing, transportation, or study. Life, he has provided them with corresponding guarantees.

The only requirement is that everyone must live with sincerity and be kind to others.

Parents abandoned us, but life and society did not.

Everyone should be a person who is useful and contributes to the world and the society, relying on their own hands, not wasting time, not complaining about others.

I think he wants to do what he didn't do, and now wants to leave this hope to the next generation.

When Zhuo Yang was discharged from the hospital, I mentioned to him to see An Ran.

I want to say sorry to her face to face.

I originally thought that Zhuo Yang would agree, after all, the person who has special feelings for An Ran is not me, but him.

But who knows, Zhuo Yang just waved his hand lazily when he heard what I said.

"You are still stupid."

Under my torture to extract a confession, Zhuo Yang finally told the truth.

It turned out that An Ran left a suicide note before she died. She seemed to have known that she was going to die, and specifically mentioned me in the suicide note, saying that I stole her happiness. If anything happened to her, it would have something to do with me. .

Immediately, I somewhat understood Zhuo's mother's words.

Although An Ran looks like her father, she has the same temperament as her mother, with all kinds of scheming.

But, there is still something weird.

I stuffed a peach into Zhuo Yang's mouth, "When did you see this suicide note?"

Zhuo Yang chewed the peach, looking in pain, as if he was very impulsive and spit it out.

"Hey... stop pretending! Tell me! When did you know I was framed?"

"It hasn't been long..." Zhuo Yang took a piece of peach by himself, and hid to the side, "Two years after we got married... Mrs. An showed me..."

I understand a little bit.

Zhuo Yang's transformation is all attributed to two years after marriage.

It turned out that it was Mrs. An who created the opportunity for us by mistake, allowing Zhuo Yang to see An Ran's eyes clearly, and also see me behind her.

turn out to be--

This is fate.

Peaches are a bit sour, no wonder Zhuo Yang doesn't like them.

But I thought it tasted good, so I ate a few mouthfuls, and finally kicked him off the sofa.

"There are a few more over there, go and help me peel them!"

"Don't peaches not be peeled?" Zhuo Yang said with aggrieved eyebrows, "I'm still a patient..."

"Stop talking nonsense! Go!"

I squinted my eyes, drowsy in the warm sunlight.

In a trance, my head felt warm, and a pair of big hands gently descended to caress my face.

I feel very gentle and comfortable.

It was so comfortable that I couldn't keep my eyes open.

To be honest, life right now is really like a dream.

Yes……

This dream.

I hope, good dreams will always be there.

And he and I were intoxicated in it, never waking up.

When Zhuo Yang saw An Yue for the first time, An Yue fell into his arms like a monkey, well, it was still a monkey in a white dress.

(End of this chapter)