sadomasochism double

Chapter 15

I took Zhuo Yang's hand, slender and white as always, it was my favorite mouthful.

That bite disturbed my heart so much that I never let it go all these years.

I was a little angry and disappointed, and I decided that I hadn't made up my mind because of my hands.

With Wen Li behind and Li Chen beside, they all stared at me, wanting to see how I would treat Zhuo Yang.

I thought, how can I let them down.

Holding Zhuo Yang's hand, I was like a girl courting for love and attention, blushing and smiling gently at Zhuo Yang.

And the next moment, I lowered my head and bit Zhuo Yang's hand fiercely.

How much I used to hurt, I want him to hurt now.

I have always told myself that love is not about one person, love needs another person to be happy, I have never been reluctant to have Zhuo Yang in his hands, I told myself, I will give Zhuo Yang happiness.

However, I finally understand now that from beginning to end, my view of love is just mine.It has nothing to do with Zhuo Yang.

Or, he also has this view of love, but this view of love is all practiced in An Ran.

I gave up, after all these years of struggling, after all these years of running away, I finally gave up.

My bite was so deep that I didn't look up, nor did I look at the expressions of the three men present.I only heard the sound of Li Chen taking a deep breath next to me.

I don't care, and Zhuo Yang didn't resist.

I don't know if that counts as his gentlemanly behavior.

I didn't care anymore, when the disgusting iron smell spread in my mouth, many pictures flashed in my mind.

The first time I saw Zhuo Yang, the young man's cheerful smile made my heart tremble;
I'm sure I love Zhuoyang, he held An Ran's hand, his handsome face was slightly red;
I argued with An Ran, I had no choice but to let her lead me to that hell;
Zhuo Yang and I got married, the house was full of guests, I was full of enthusiasm and happiness, but I ignored Zhuo Yang's always indifferent eyes...

Many, many pictures, and finally calmed down.

I let go of Zhuo Yang's hand, no matter where it was bloody, I smiled, "I will return all the things to you. In the future, there will be no more."

I nodded, telling myself it was finally over.

Zhuo Yang kept looking at me blankly, as if he knew for the first time that I was so violent, and couldn't recover for a long time.

I laughed, turned around, suddenly thought of something, and turned my head back.

"I know you've always hated me. Come to think of it, I don't need to hide it from you now. Back then, I really wasn't the one who pushed An Ran down. I know you wouldn't believe me, but I would feel much more comfortable telling the truth. That day , she was the one who started the dispute, and she was the one who pushed me down in the end."

I know Zhuo Yang won't believe it, An Ran is probably the feeling of a goddess and first love in his heart, how could the most beautiful place in a man's heart collapse so easily.

Now An Ran has an additional identity, she is a dead person, a dead person will never jump up and argue.

So, I know Zhuo Yang won't believe me.But like my view of love, it is always only my own. Even if this confession, I only tell it to myself.

I don't need to feel guilty anymore. Over the years, I have paid back what I can and should pay.

An Ran, sister.

Like a farewell ceremony, I turned to leave.

However, after taking a step, I suddenly remembered that there was a cheap man beside me, Li Chen.

To the cheap man, I was not polite, and I didn't even talk nonsense with him. I directly slapped him twice, and then seemed to be still angry, and punched and kicked.

In fact, I think a slap hurts my self-esteem, and I also thought Li Chen, a bitch, would fight back. After all, he is not a gentleman who doesn't know how to fight back.However, from the beginning to the end, he just hugged his head and dodged my violence.

I think it's probably because of the strong Wen Li standing behind him.

Finally, I got tired and stopped.

I pointed to Li Chen and said, "If you have the ability, you can come to me directly, only a coward likes to stab me in the back."

I thought, I have completely offended Li Chen, but it doesn't matter, anyway, I already have nothing, no matter how much I lose, there is nothing left to lose.

When going out, Wen Li gave me a smile.

I think, if there is no Li Ruobing behind Wen Li, I will definitely have a good impression of him.Because he is a gentle and strong man, he can give you a smile, comfort you, and hold up a blue sky for you.

This kind of man is what I have been lacking in all these years of my life.

That day was truly the end.

From that day on, neither Li Chen nor Zhuo Yang appeared in my life again.

Occasionally, Ah Guo would complain, but the two handsome guys who looked seductive never appeared again.I occasionally laugh along with A Guo, yes, the two scumbags finally stopped appearing in my life.

Thank goodness.

It's the end of the month and I have a day off.

Wen Li said that I would buy me a drink.

In fact, I quite like that kind of fruit wine. Wen Li is an all-rounder, and he has a lot of fruit wine in his room.

They are all brewed by themselves, and wine and plum wine are my favorites.

It can be seen that Wen Li's craftsmanship is good, and this wine has been aged for a certain period of time. After drinking it, I can only feel the sweetness of the fruit in my mouth, but the harsh taste of alcohol is weak.

I like to drink this kind of wine very much, but the fruit wine has a strong aftertaste, and it is easy to get drunk. Wen Li is always on guard against me, for fear that I will do something disqualified when I am drunk.

However, today, he actually said to buy me a drink.

We cooked hot pot in the room. I am not bad at cooking, and it is a perfect match with Wen Li's fine wine.

It was just the two of us. In fact, it was a little awkward at first, but soon, with the delicious food and wine in front of us, we also forgot the embarrassment and started chatting and spanking.

I'm not sure if I'm drunk, but Wen Li seems to be drunk.

He took my hand and asked me suddenly.

"An Yue, do you still remember your mother?"

Mother?My mind was a little dizzy, so I naturally remembered.If it wasn't for my mother, I wouldn't have met Zhuo Yang either.

My mother's name is Mingyu, just like her name. She is a piece of beautiful jade, delicate and white. She has a well-fitting cheongsam, which looks like a lady from a picture scroll of the Republic of China.

It was her jade-like calm and gentle temperament that my father An Ziqing took a fancy to. After some struggles that I don't understand, the handsome and golden man and the bright-eyed and bright-toothed girl got together.

In fact, in short, it was the most familiar and simple love between a man and a woman, but when An Ziqing met my mother, he was already married.

An Ran and I are half sisters.Her mother was An Ziqing's first wife, and she married An Ziqing because of a marriage, but when the child in her belly was only five months old, her husband went out and fell in love with other women.

I actually hated Xiaosan quite a lot, but as a mother, she was still seduced by An Ziqing, and I suddenly couldn't comment.

"Mother, my mother is beautiful. I will show you her picture some other day." I smiled, and now I only see the picture.

My mother was in a car accident when I was eight years old.Although my mother became a mistress, after knowing the truth, she resolutely hugged me and left my father.

She has a unique skill in embroidery, and many high-ranking officials and merchants love her unique skill.I once remembered that an uncle also said that a woman like my mother should be raised in a deep boudoir to be cherished for a lifetime, instead of having to work day and night for a living.

I looked at the fruit wine in front of me, and for some reason, that mellow wine could not heal me now.It was so sweet before, but now it tastes a little bit bitter.

I smiled and poured in the fruit wine in one gulp.

"She is so beautiful... Even when she died, she was so beautiful..."

She was wearing a blue and white porcelain cheongsam, clean and delicate, even with so much blood pouring out from under her body, she was still so beautiful.

She took my hand and told me: "Xiaoyue, I did something wrong, I'm sorry for you, her, and you too. Don't, don't take the same path as me..."

My mother was full of guilt towards An Ran's mother, and this guilt was passed down to me.

I am full of vague guilt towards An Ran and her mother, and I have been trying to make up for the mistakes my mother made.

However, it is really fate, or retribution.

In the end, I followed my mother's old path.

There was ice on his cheeks, and Wen Li's hands came closer.

"Don't cry..." He stroked my cheek, his eyes were as gentle as a pool of water that was about to drown me.

"Shh, don't cry...don't cry...Anyue..."

I laughed out loud and wiped the tears off my cheeks, am I crying? My mother told me not to cry...

She said that my tears are magical and cannot be used often.

I wiped my tears and laughed out loud, but my eyes were still blurred, "I didn't cry..."

Wen Li's gaze in front of him became more and more gentle, and seemed to have a trace of sympathy, "Shh, don't cry, really don't cry..."

Then, at his words, I felt warmth on my forehead, and he had printed a light kiss.

Like a butterfly fluttering its wings, like a breeze blowing across the lake, my heart suddenly slipped through a trace of ripples.

I think I must have been drunk last night and said I did a lot of disqualifying things.

Because Wen Li brought me hangover tea the next day, he blushed rarely when he saw me, and said he would take care of me.

(End of this chapter)