sadomasochism double

Chapter 54

"Hmm..." I shook my head, "No... I will pass it on to Ding Wei..."

In fact, I really envy Ding Wei, there is a mother-like person talking behind her.I used to think that my mother's ramblings were annoying, but it wasn't until after I lost that I realized how much I longed for her to ramble in my ears again.

I chatted with Mrs. Chen for a long time, and I finally came out when Mrs. Chen fell asleep.

Not too late, around eight o'clock.

I reckoned that I would leave after saying goodbye to Zhuo Yang.

But after searching for a long time, I finally found Zhuo Yang who was already asleep on the upstairs bedroom balcony.

"Really..."

They all had a cold, and they were still sleeping on the balcony without a blanket.

I knew I shouldn't be in charge, but I resigned myself to the bedroom and took a thick blanket for Zhuo Yang and put it on him.

"I don't care about you... You said you don't care about me... I'm just helping Ding Wei... If her most important partner dies... maybe my job will be gone..."

I made many excuses for myself, but the movements of my hands gradually became gentle.

"If——I hadn't fallen in love with you back then...would our life be different...Perhaps calling you brother-in-law would be good for the three of us..."

As if talking to myself, I sighed.

It's really hard to look back on.

I really have to go.

After covering the blanket, I gave up the urge to wake up Zhuo Yang and sleep on the bed. I just turned around, but my hand was tightly squeezed by the hand behind me.

"Zhuo Yang...it's not fun..."

I lowered my voice, turned my head and found that Zhuo Yang hadn't woken up, not only didn't he wake up, but there seemed to be something wrong with him.

"Hey... are you alright?"

Of course there is something...

Zhuo Yang, a pretentious man, actually had a high fever.

I was busy reducing his fever, and dragged him who was as heavy as a stone to the bed. After a whole night of tossing, he finally calmed down.

I was paralyzed.

what is this?
Looking for something to do?

I'm so tired, I don't want to go home so late.

Guessing that Zhuo Yang would not do anything excessive to me in such a weak state, I wrapped myself in a small blanket and prepared to settle down on the sofa.

I'm just going to squint a little, and I'll leave before dawn.

However, I guess I was too sleepy, and I actually slept until dawn.

When I opened my eyes, I realized that someone had moved me to the bed.And the person who obviously moved me to the bed is now staring at me with his chin resting on his cheek.

Zhuo Yang's complexion was still a little pale, but it was far from being as scary as last night.

I breathed a sigh of relief and sat up slowly.

"morning……"

Zhuo Yang ignored it, just let go and continued to lie on the bed.

"I...want to eat porridge..."

"I'll ask someone to do it for you..." After I finished speaking, I also thought that Mrs. Chen was injured, but I didn't want to continue to take care of Zhuo Yang at all.

"I'll order takeaway for you."

I lifted the warm quilt, turned and got out of bed.

But my waist tightened, and the man hugged my waist from behind. It seemed that he hadn't woken up in the morning, and he was a little dazed. He rubbed my waist like a child, and his voice was so gentle that it almost dripped. Come average.

"But...I want to eat now...what should I do..."

asshole!Is this person acting like a baby to me!
I found that since the last time when Hu Ling abused me, I have become extremely heartless.

In fact, it's not unfeeling, it's just that I occasionally fall into contempt and disgust for the past me.

I remember that I have made it very clear to Zhuo Yang that what he and I lack is not only love, but also many things. In short, it is impossible for us to be together.

So, I also hope that he doesn't love me, and don't give me the illusion of loving me.After all, not every Naoki in this world has a Kotoko silently waiting by his side.

but……

Zhuo Yang seemed to be very persistent in doing this kind of thing.

After seven years of marriage, I even feel that I don't know him as much as I did during the few months of divorce.

Zhuo Yang's voice was soft. In his memory, he has always been a strong and powerful person. There are countless possibilities for his life.

It's not like me at all.

However, at this time, he was softly grabbing the corner of my clothes, like a wounded child.

Women are born with motherhood, and I am no exception.

But at this moment, I slowly took away Zhuo Yang's hand that was holding me.

"I'll order takeaway for you... Cooking... including taking care of this... It's no longer suitable for my identity..."

Feeling the stiffness of Zhuo Yang's fingers, I smiled, "You are now the golden age of a man, even if you are divorced... there will still be many, many girls...whether it is Hu Ling or whoever..."

It has nothing to do with me.

Stop playing with me.

For the sake of my seven years of youth, don't play with me anymore.

boom--

Zhuo Yang's reaction was very intense, he directly hugged my waist and pressed down on me.

"What are you doing?" I couldn't move my hands and feet, and I glared angrily at the man on top of me.

Zhuo Yang seemed to be extremely angry, and he laughed angrily, "Anyue! Is it the identity of a wife that can restrain you! Then I don't mind giving you this identity again..."

I think I'm missing something...

What is Zhuo Yang talking about?
Give me back my wife's identity?Marry me again?

I want to laugh...

I actually laughed too.

Just laughing and laughing and tears fell down.

Zhuo Yang did not know when he let go of my hand, leaving me with the only remaining self-esteem.I rubbed my eyes, trying not to let the tears flow down my face.

"Do you have to play me like this? Do you have to take revenge on me like this?"

I choked up, "Because I'm easy to bully... just because I was the one who survived? If... I was the one who died... would everything be different..."

If I was the one who disappeared in that accident, would we have a good life now?

but……

Life is always a wrong step, step by step wrong.

If I wasn't so ignorant back then, if I had restrained my emotions back then, if I hadn't gone out with An Ran...

is not it……

everything will be fine...

The three of us will live peacefully in our respective places. Although we have regrets, at least we won't hate each other in Yin and Yang like now.

Tears still flowed all over his face.

Feeling the heat on his face, Zhuo Yang leaned over and took away my hand covering his eyes at some point.

"You didn't like to cry so much before..." Zhuo Yang pressed my forehead and sighed.

I nodded and said slowly, "I just don't cry in front of you..." God knows how many times I cried while biting the quilt behind my back.

Zhuo Yang's complexion was really ugly, but I wiped away the tears on my face, and suddenly asked, "Zhuo Yang...do you love me?"

Amidst the other person's shocked pale expression, I smiled knowingly.

This time I didn't cry again.

"No love, right...you always remember your sister's birthday, death date, your first love day...you remember the color she likes, the food she likes and even the hairstyle she likes...but we have been together for seven years, you never remember mine What do I like to eat and do on my birthday... You don't love me... Even after divorce, you don't love me, right?"

"You're just not used to it... I've been by your side for too long... I take care of you, I love you... You've already made it a habit, once I leave... You're not willing... In fact, Zhuo Yang, You don't care about me as much as you think..."

I finished speaking in one breath, and finally got up slowly from under Zhuo Yang.

"Don't waste any more time on me...I think it's good for each other..."

What a sad truth.

The moment I walked out of Zhuoyang's house, I felt sore in my heart, as if something had fallen and shattered.

But there was also a touch of relief.

Finally broken, don't worry about it anymore.

This is a good thing for me.

Zhuo Yang's house is on the hill, and there are few buses.

I obviously missed that class.

I stopped on the mountain for a long time, but no car stopped.

I was a little tired, and when I was about to call the rental company down the mountain to get a car, an acquaintance unexpectedly appeared in front of me.

It was Ding Chuchu who I avoided before and who is still barely considered a friend.

"You and your ex-husband again?" She was still as rude as ever.

(End of this chapter)