Hidden marriage sweet wife, husband can't help it

Chapter 211 Say You Love Me
In a coffee shop not far from the hospital, Yan Siqi originally wanted to take her to other places, but Shen Wanling refused, saying that she would leave after the conversation. She was not at ease with Song Chongming staying in the hospital alone.

Hearing what she said, Yan Siqi didn't know what to say. Did she tell him on purpose, or just to tell him that they were impossible, and she chose Song Chongming.

"Why did you save me that day?" Yan Siqi spoke first, whether he was cruel or a rascal, he just wanted to hear her answer, let alone that she didn't love him, let alone that she had already let go, he didn't believe it !

Shen Wanling, who lowered her head, gave a bitter smile, holding a warm coffee cup in both hands, the palms were warm, but the back of the hand was cold, "I said before, I don't want you to die. If you die, I will even hate you." It's all gone."

"If you don't love me, how can you hate me? Do you hate me so much that you can't even die? Huh?" It's really just to hate him. Isn't this too cruel to him? Is this revenge from God, or is it She gave it.

Shen Wanling kept her head slightly lowered, and the smile that had already formed a sorrow on the corner of her mouth couldn't be melted away no matter what.

"I admit that I have loved you, loved you deeply, in those two years I used all my strength to love you, I tried my best to love you, I threw away all my self-esteem, and took the greatest risk to love you , every time you treat me badly, I silently tell myself, it’s okay, tomorrow, just wait another day, and you will fall in love with me.”

While talking, she laughed teasingly, she was laughing at the stupid self she used to be.

"I've always had the illusion that in fact, you love me a little bit, until that day in the hospital, you ordered me to kill you, and you said in front of your friends that you hoped that I would go as far away as possible , I finally understand that you really don't love me at all, just like you once said, making you fall in love with me is simply wishful thinking."

As she was talking, she laughed again, her eyes were blurred, she kept her head down all the time, not wanting to look up at him, looking at him, she was worried that she would not be able to speak anymore.

In those two years, it might have been cruel, but she never blamed him, not once, she didn't hate him, she couldn't hate him at all.

But even so, it's not that he doesn't love her, she must be the saddest woman he loves in the world.

"After leaving the hospital, I sat on the side of the road and thought about all those two years. When I saw Song Chongming appearing in front of me, I cried, just like in front of you, I cried hysterically. I always thought that , I only cry so thoroughly in front of you, I suddenly want to run back and ask you, Yan Siqi, do you really not love me at all? Why do I love you so much, but you don't love me? "

"Ling'er..." When Yan Siqi called her name, his throat was already choked with pain. He wanted to reach out and hold her hand, but a man who had never been afraid of anything was actually afraid, and she would hide Open his approach.

Shen Wanling interrupted him, she wanted to continue talking, and finished what she wanted to say in her heart. If he wanted to say something, she was afraid that she would not be able to continue, so she shook her head and continued.

"When I saw the bullets shooting at you, I realized that I was really worthless. I suddenly wanted to die for you. Maybe that way, you would occasionally think of me, remember that there was once a woman who loved you like life, She is Shen Wanling, you also whispered in her ear in the middle of the night, Linger."

Yan Siqi listened, every word she said was farewell, he saw her cry, tears dripping drop by drop, like hot blood, each drop was chiseled in his heart.

He stretched out his hand and put it in front of her eyes, tears dripped in the palm of his hand, and the warmth lost its warmth in an instant.

I don't know if it's because he went to catch her tears, but she cried even harder, the tears were like broken pearls, which couldn't be taken back one by one.

Yan Siqi only felt a sharp pain in his heart. He endured the choking in his throat, and said hoarsely, "Look up and see me, okay? Linger, let me see if you are okay?"

He was begging her, begging her not to cry, begging her not to stop looking at him, begging her not to stop him seeing her.

He was very scared, very scared, afraid that she would really give up on him.

Shen Wanling shook her head, stretched out her hand to wipe away the tears on her face, turned her eyes away, and stopped looking at the tears in his palm.

"I want to stay with a man who is willing to die for me. I also want a man who loves me, loves me, and protects me. Sorry, I can't hold on anymore."

After finishing speaking, she got up and was about to leave. She admitted that she was very disappointing. She had always been spineless in front of him. She didn't dare to stay by his side for a second. In the abyss of the road ahead.

Yan Siqi hurriedly got up and grabbed her. He stood in front of her, holding her face wet with tears, his hands were trembling, "Linger, look at me, um, look at me."

Even if he held her face like this, would she refuse to look at him again?

He gently wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes with trembling fingertips, "Are you really not in love? Are you really going to give up on me? My Ling'er, will this make you feel less distressed?"

She finally looked at him, and he was crying, crying, such an invincible man, the man who once gritted his teeth and swore in front of her that he would never love her, said fiercely to her that he would let her live forever. In hell, a man who is worse than death.

Why is he crying?Yan Siqi, why did it take until now to let her know all this?Why be so cruel?

She looked at him, and he smiled. Even though the smile was bitter and sad, it was a warm smile that had never been seen before.

His fingertips were still caressing her cheek reluctantly, "If Ling'er doesn't love me anymore, let me go, leave me, it will make her happy, then I swear, I will never show up in this place." In front of her... I want you to be happy, and I want my Linger to be happy."

Seeing her crying into tears, he smiled, laughing is happiness, being loved by her is the greatest happiness and satisfaction in his life.

He stretched out his arms, endured all the sadness and bitterness in his heart, pretended to be very free and easy, and asked her with a smile, "Can I hug you again? I really want to hug you again."

She kept nodding, and he suddenly held her in his arms, hugging her very tightly, it was so sad and cruel, it was the first time they hugged, the first time they hugged like this.

In those two years, many nights, after he wanted her, he would leave without a trace of nostalgia. She once begged him with tears in her eyes, wouldn't it be okay to stay and hug her, even for a minute.

But at that time, he would ruthlessly shake off her entanglement every time, leaving her alone to guard the long night.

Thinking of the past, he suddenly felt that he was really not even qualified to hug her.

He tried his best to control his emotions, holding the trembling woman who was crying in his arms, he knew that she still had regrets in her heart, in fact, he always knew what he wanted, but at that time, he, Everything was controlled by hatred, what she wanted, he refused to give.

He patted his twitching back with his big hand to comfort him, "Ling'er, listen carefully, when I saw you that day, I really wanted to rush over to hug you tightly, tell you, I miss you, want to I'm about to die, but fortunately you're back, it's good that you're back."

Comforting her, making her really able to let go, but it was also his sincere words, something he really wanted to do but never did.

"I'm sorry, for my cruelty, my coldness, my ruthlessness, my revenge, and everything I have in those two years. I'm sorry. I was wrong. If I don't ask you to forgive me, I won't forgive myself."

As he spoke, he let go of her. Although he was very reluctant, he didn't want her to cry anymore, never again.

He put his hands on her shoulders and wanted to take them away, but his limbs couldn't control his heart. He was really reluctant to let go, and it was really over if he let go.

He tried his best to make himself smile at her, but his eyes were hazy, "My Ling'er has grown so big, I didn't even take a good look at it, you are leaving, if God really bestows on me , Let us meet on the street that day, you must not look at me, I am afraid I will..."

"Say you love me." Suddenly, Shen Wanling interrupted Yan Siqi's silly-sounding words, she stared at him and said to him abruptly.

He was obviously taken aback, he didn't expect her to say that, he looked at her melancholy, did this fool really plan to make him unable to let go of it for the rest of his life?
"I want to hear it." She didn't hear what she wanted to hear, so she continued to ask him to say, he said just now, he missed her, he was wrong, but he didn't know, what she wanted to hear most was this sentence.

"I love you." He stared at her affectionately, watching the corners of her mouth gradually upturned, the tears in his eyes dripped into the upturned corners of the mouth, bitterness and astringency, tears in his smile.

"Thank you." Shen Wanling said two words lightly, turned around, and left.

Really thank you, thank him for being willing to say this sentence, thank him for allowing her to finally tell herself, see, he really loved you, and you did not love him wrongly, so in those two years, he was also very painful .

Staring at her receding back, he suddenly shouted loudly to her, "Shen Wanling, I love you."

Shen Wanling, who had already walked away, froze for a moment, but the pause did not exceed a second. She continued to walk forward, and behind him he shouted again, "Shen Wanling, did you hear me, I love you."

Shen Wanling answered him in her heart, "She heard it, she really heard it, do you know, I love you too, always, love." '

"Yan Siqi, if there is an afterlife, let's not meet again, okay?"

"Well, if that's what you want, it's gone."

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(End of this chapter)