Traveling through the mountains and fields to be leisurely

Chapter 190
Lin Qiutang said it very plainly, not angry. In her heart, she was used to the injustice of her in-laws, but her attitude towards her in-laws was not the same as before.

"In a person's life, there will be many encounters, both good and bad. I can't pretend that they haven't happened, but I can let go of the past. Letting go is not throwing away. I can not hold grudges, but I can't erase this memory. Like now, I can talk about this paragraph frankly, but I don’t have the sadness and pain anymore. They gave you life, and you will always have the responsibility to take care of them. Since I am married to you, this responsibility I am duty-bound to help you share the burden. This is what I should do as a wife. I will not have any complaints. God has given us such parents. We just accept it. Why do you worry about me even those basic things? I have lost all my filial piety, I just have some complaints about what happened to me, but I am not without conscience."

Lin Qiutang was still a little disappointed that her man treated her like this. She felt that Lan Erzhuang should understand her, and she couldn't just erase what she had done for the Lan family just because she could frankly tell what happened in the old house. Everything she did was unfair to herself. The reason why she was able to tell it frankly was precisely because she had let go of the injustice in her heart. Her feelings about that period of the past were no longer so painful, and she was able to face that period of grievance directly. life, but she can't forget it. She hopes that her husband can understand her mood instead of misinterpreting her mood.

"Qiutang, I know, I know everything, how can I not know what you have done for me, I am just a little embarrassed to tell the matter in front of the old lady, it is more or less embarrassing, I'm in a hurry, don't be angry, I'm serious, but I'm not targeting you, I'm just a little unwilling to be reconciled to my cowardice at the beginning, filial piety should be there, but it shouldn't be foolish, as long as I can be tough back then A little bit, hold on a little bit, and you and your children won’t suffer so much. I always think that peace is the most important thing. My family, if we tolerate more, the family will be more harmonious. The more you are wronged, it looks like harmony, but it was bought with your tears and hard work. Now that I think about it, it’s because I, the head of the family, didn’t do a good job. I didn’t take the lead, and I blame you for doing it. Not enough, not good enough, thinking of my daughter's hard work at that time, I also have no face to face the past."

Lan Erzhuang blamed himself very much. What he did at the beginning, during the time he went out, he really realized that even if he was not wrong, it was not worthy of forgiveness. If he couldn't protect his wife and children, who else could he protect? He used filial piety as an excuse to hurt his relatives the deepest.

After all, I have seen it outside for more than two years, and it is impossible not to improve. Lan Erzhuang quickly adjusted his emotions,

"Old lady, please forgive me. I'm not afraid that Qiutang will tell you this. I just can't get over the hurdle in my heart. I always say that there are no wrong parents in the world. But when my parents really don't care about my life and death, this There will be scars in my heart, it will hurt, it will itch, and I will be unwilling, but even so, they are still my parents. This fact cannot be changed. This is what makes me feel even more ashamed when facing my family, so I don't want to mention it."

Mrs. An patted the back of Lan Erzhuang's hand, and accompanied him with a long sigh. She understood Lan Erzhuang's mood very well. In Wuxia Kingdom, the word "filial piety" is the biggest. Even when she lost Zhiyuan, her son didn't dare She once complained to herself, but at that time her son sent countless subordinates to search across the country, but she knew it clearly, she was also anxious, and she was also sad, but it was really because she loved Zhiyuan too much, Being too relaxed about the backyard caused such a situation. If something happened to her grandson, she didn't know how to deal with herself, but her son's deeds made her witness the value of family affection once again.

"Er Zhuang, I understand what you said. I have experienced no less than your experience. However, as an old man, I still want to talk about my thoughts. As you all know, I A long time ago, I lost my grandson. What a blow to my son. He took his wife to guard the border. For the benefit of the country and the people, he abandoned his family and business, shed blood and sweat. I just need to help him carry Son, let him have no worries, he didn't do a good job, but let him suffer such a heavy blow, you don't know how much I blame myself, but every time my son sends a team to look for Zhiyuan, he must First come to visit me in the mansion, no matter how far away from the capital, they must first see that I am safe and sound, and then they will continue to go out to search. Therefore, although I have been ill for a long time, I have survived strong, and I cannot let him In the case of losing my son, losing me again is the filial piety of a son, and what I should do is the responsibility of being a mother. My son has not forgotten to take care of me when he is most sad and painful. It’s family affection for a person who is in pain, and he insisted on cutting out his heart with a knife, but he couldn’t bear to make me feel a little bit sad.”

Mrs. An was thinking about those days, and she burst into tears.

"grandmother!"

Lan Lingxue hugged the old lady tightly. She never knew what kind of torment his relatives were suffering when that foolish boy was eating and drinking at home.

"It's okay, it's all over."

Mrs. An wiped her eyes, and patted Lan Lingxue's back comfortingly,
"After this time, I deeply realized that family affection not only allows us to live well, but it is necessary for life to eat enough and warmly clothed. It also lets us know that we will never leave each other. Your parents may For some reasons, they did inappropriate things, but it was only because their conditions were very difficult, they also lacked clothes and clothes, and you asked to separate the family, which challenged their bottom line, so they did this. As for the matter, I am not the person involved, so I cannot comment on the right and wrong of everyone in this matter, I just want to share my opinion on this matter."

As an old man with some experience, Mrs. An wanted to tell these young people what she was thinking, but she felt a little regretful, and there was no way to make up for it.

"Qiu Tang, Er Zhuang, after they treated you like this, you can still visit them and give them help. In my opinion, you have done a good job. We cannot abandon our parents, but You can always do what your sons and daughters should do while they are still alive. I can guarantee that when you are old, you will be very grateful for what you have done. The old people will always leave before you, when they When you leave, you will realize that no matter what you have done, you will feel that you have done too little, and you should give them more, which will make you feel more at ease. Next, why don't you do a little more for them, just like what they did to you, Qiutang can already speak plainly in front of me, which shows that these things have passed with the passage of time , became calm and breezy, not worth mentioning."

Still find them inexcusable?Lan Lingxue also asked herself in her heart, when she has the ability to give them what they want and give them a rich life, will the previous ones still be important?Maybe when you give to them, you give more to yourself.

"When Zhiyuan was lost, I didn't know who I should hate. Those women in the back house, I wish I could kill them and bring my grandson back. But if I kill them, my grandson will come back? Answer Of course it is negative. When I knew that my grandson had been found, I realized that those women who killed or sold it had nothing to do with me. As long as my grandson is fine, they are all irrelevant. Maybe my example Inappropriate, but what I want to say is that I can stop worrying about these worthless women. They are your parents. No matter what, their faults are not unforgivable. After all, they I didn't do anything that made you regret for life. Everyone in your family is healthy and safe. This is the most important thing. For our own good life, why don't we open our hearts, without hatred, you Only then will you find that your life is easier."

Thinking of the days when she was lying in bed waiting to die, Mrs. An was a little unbelievable, and it just passed by. At that time, she thought that she would never be able to pass this hurdle in her life.

"Old lady, thank you! What you said made me feel the last bit of discomfort, and it disappeared. You are right, nothing can't be solved. It's nothing for the old man to be stubborn and greedy. No big mistake. After all, our family is living comfortably and happily now. This is the most important thing. If we can also make them live a little more happily, then we can only be happier. In this case, we still have What is there to worry about, if you let others go, you will let yourself go."

Lan Lingxue took Lin Qiutang's words seriously. This is salvation. When you have hatred in your heart, the most sad thing is not others, but yourself. The person you hate will hurt, cry and be sad because you hate him ?No, absolutely not, but because of these hates, you will hurt, you will cry, you will be sad, all the unhappiness will fall on yourself, do you think it is worth it?Lan Lingxue felt that this conversation was not profound, but it made her undergo a physical and mental baptism.

"Grandma, I understand. Love and hate are just experiences in life. When you can face life unmoved, you will truly understand that love and hate are just shackles. If you lock others, you will also lock them." Myself, grandma, your last sentence is too good, if you let others go, you will let yourself go, of course, this must be targeted, we will never let go of the big treacherous and evil."

The family, who were still immersed in emotions, burst into laughter because of Lan Lingxue's last sentence.

The heavy topic was finally taken away by laughter, and everyone began to chat about some lighthearted things, and the mood gradually eased up, and the atmosphere in the room finally returned to the moment before the meal.

(End of this chapter)