Traveling through the mountains and fields to be leisurely

Chapter 36 Don't Be Afraid, Brother Is Here

"Zihao, don't be like this, what happened? I have a brother, don't be afraid, my brother is here."

The hand holding Lin Zihao became heavier, and I felt a little uneasy, which gradually expanded,
"Second brother!"

Just this one sound made Lin Zihao cry. After ten years, someone finally said to himself, he is here, let me not be afraid, I have never been afraid of anyone, since I went to the capital at the age of 15, I have never been afraid However, I have gone through many ups and downs and dangers in the past ten years, and I have never felt afraid, but why did I feel such deep fear in my body after hearing this comforting sound? It turned out that the lonely self was so afraid before, but Because no one is around, so fill up your fear with courage, and then face it with strength,

"Second brother..."

Lin Zihao decided to let himself be weak this time, let this warm embrace unfreeze his frozen heart, and let the cold world in his eyes become full of life again in this warmth.

"Zihao, don't talk about being uncomfortable. You are back, everything will be fine. From now on, you will live with my brother. If you have a bite to eat, you won't be hungry. If you have a piece of clothing, you won't be cold." You, you are my brother's own younger brother, no one wants anything special, my brother doesn't want anyone anymore, this is going to be a good life, maybe, it will be better, as long as we two brothers work hard together, then Good days are waiting for them, let them regret going."

Being thrown into Lin Zihao's arms, Lan Erzhuang was really uncomfortable. When he saw Lin Zihao's trembling shoulders, Lan Erzhuang's heart softened completely. This man who looked resolute must be really sad. Not everyone can afford to be abandoned by their relatives. If they don't have a wife and children, they may not be able to support themselves. Thinking of this, Lan Erzhuang can only sigh. Parents love their children dearly, and there are two who were ruthlessly abandoned in front of them, but so what if they were abandoned, life must go on, so they gently patted Lin Zihao on the back, Lan Er Zhuang felt a different distress in his heart.

"Second brother, I'm really sorry to make you laugh."

Just letting himself be vulnerable for a short while, Lin Zihao straightened up quickly. If it wasn't for the slight redness in his eyes, it wouldn't even be obvious that he had cried just now.
"What a joke, you are my brother's younger brother, so I'm embarrassed to treat my brother as an outsider."

Lin Zihao punched hard, Lin Zihao smiled,
"How could it be, second brother, how could you be an outsider, but it's a bit too much for me to cry at my age."

"Who doesn't have a weak time, before my brother moved out yesterday, because I went to the old uncle Li's house to sign paperwork, I came home late in the afternoon, and saw that your sister-in-law and your nephew didn't even have food. I want to cry, I feel that I am a waste, I can't even protect my wife and children, but I can't cry on that occasion, if I cry, what will your sister-in-law and nephew do, thanks to my daughter-in-law who prepared in advance Only after eating some food did I get over the embarrassment at that time. I was too busy with her beforehand, but it turned out that her words came true. At that moment, I really saw the hearts of my parents. So, Zihao, can you have a chance? Crying, it's really good, the feeling in my heart is really uncomfortable, and I'm very happy that you can cry in front of my brother, which proves that you don't treat my brother as an outsider."

Looking at Lin Zihao who had calmed down, Lan Erzhuang felt a little relieved in his heart.

"Second brother, he didn't ignore me."

Lan Erzhuang was still immersed in his thoughts and couldn't pull them out completely, he was confused by Lin Zihao's thoughtless sentence,
"Who?"

But after asking 'who', he immediately reacted,
"your dad?"

"Well, my father, when he saw me, he didn't ignore me. On the contrary, he was very excited, but his identity and status did not allow him to recognize me, so he had to arrange me outside. Serve me delicious food and beg for my forgiveness, second brother, do you think I can forgive him?"

Lin Zihao looked directly into Lan Erzhuang's eyes. Although there were still faint red threads in his eyes, his eyes were clear.

Can you forgive him?While begging himself to forgive him and accept him, while living a happy life with other women and children, he has to hide even calling himself a son. Should such a father forgive him?However, there are some right and wrong, which cannot be distinguished. That person is my blood relative in this world, the person who gave me life, and I can't complain or forget it. Lin Zihao doesn't want an answer, but his own It's just a little tangled deep in my heart,

"When he came to our village in distress, he was rescued by my grandfather. How did my grandfather treat him like his own son, and he was used to it, even worse than that. Knowing that he is a scholar, In the past ten years of living in my house, my grandfather never let him go to the field, nor did he extend his hand in the work at home, and my grandfather's family did not force me to marry my mother. He married me voluntarily. He said he I want to repay my grandfather for saving his life, and I also like my mother's gentle and virtuous character, but in the end, when I was ten years old and my grandfather just passed away, he said he wanted to find his relatives, and brought Our family’s savings are gone forever.”

Some injuries can't be mentioned, thinking that if you don't mention it, you have forgotten it and the pain is gone, but you don't want to. When you mention it again, the pain comes more quickly and violently.

"He has no relatives alive at all. Even if he once had relatives, and he went to look for them, I can forgive him, but he has no relatives alive at all. At the beginning, his family colluded with people who shouldn't be colluding. , Standing in the wrong team, which led to the murder of the whole family. He was lucky to escape because he was out on business. Otherwise, you thought he would stay in my house for more than ten years. He was waiting for the opportunity, waiting for the opportunity And move, he is waiting for the people in the capital to blur the memory of their family in the long river of time, and he will stand in front of people again with a brand new attitude. He has really abandoned my mother and abandoned her. Abandoned me, abandoned our family, when my mother was seriously ill because of the death of my grandfather, when I was weak and helpless, when our family lost its backbone, he left without hesitation or nostalgia .”

Lin Zihao's eyes were almost out of focus, how could he feel so much for such a father,
"Zihao, let's not think about it anymore, let's not talk about it, just sleep and wake up tomorrow, the sun will take away all the haze, and the rest is the life we ​​want to live, a brand new life, those old days , it’s all over, and it’s not here anymore.”

Lan Erzhuang was really worried, if he continued to talk, whether Lin Zihao would collapse, how would a man who had always been self-improving accept such a father.

"Second brother, since I've told you so much, I just don't want to hide it from you. I want to let you know about the ten years I've been through. I also want to take this opportunity to find someone to talk about. The ten years I've gone through , I have tried sour, sweet, bitter, and spicy, but I am not disappointed. Really, don’t worry about me, I am really not disappointed. It is precisely because of these ten years of experience that I can Let me see clearly that this world is not all bright and beautiful, there are many darkness and ugliness, and I understand that some compassion is not given to you by others, but created by yourself, and no one should do it for you. You are responsible for your life, even if it is your parents, your brothers and sisters, your life can only be held in your own hands, if you hand over your dominance, at that moment, your life will be full All lose."

Seeing that Lan Erzhuang was holding on to his hand, Lin Zihao took out a hand and patted it lightly, which gave him enough comfort. After hearing what Lin Zihao said, Lan Erzhuang no longer stopped him I decided to listen to him quietly and finish the following story, yes, it is a story, listen to this paragraph as a story, and then help him engrave the beautiful in his heart, let the ugly drift away with the wind, life is just a matter of choice In the meantime, if you are a man, you should stand upright.

"No matter what his character is, he has to be said to be very smart. He still has a certain talent in reading. When he was at home, his grandfather didn't need him to go to the fields, so he always maintained the habit of reading. I My mother doesn't need him to help with the housework, and he always reads books at home. Although he has never attended a nearby private school, nor has he found a teacher to teach him, he is very hardworking, probably because he has Based on what he learned at home before, he has learned book after book and written paper after paper.”

Just saying that, Lin Zihao gritted his teeth a little bit, those books were all saved by the family, and this white-eyed wolf used and ate the family's books, and he didn't have any burden. I taught myself to write Lin Zihao, and never taught myself anything else. I am his own son. In this day and age, the social status of those who have read and those who have not read is very different. Scholars, farmers, workers, merchants, scholars are ranked first. Only with knowledge can you embark on an official career, and once you have knowledge, you may be able to take a step forward, and you may meet him again It can be seen that he made up his mind at that time to break up with this family.

What kind of heart can a person who can make up his mind and abandon his wife and children to fight for his future have? Come to think of it, he only has himself in his heart, and there is no one else.
"I went to Kyoto and took a series of exams. I don't know what tricks he used. No one checked his origin and hometown. Normal exams should start from his hometown, and he will go to the provincial capital after the general exam. , to go to Beijing, but he took part in the capital from the Tongsheng Examination to the General Examination and the Palace Examination, and he went smoothly all the way, and finally got No.10 in the Palace Examination. But it was appointed by the emperor after all, and there were many people who wanted to climb up to him. When he wanted to go to a better Yamen, but there was no way to ask for help, his current wife's family extended a helping hand to him. So, he forgot his first wife, his ten-year-old son, and his grandfather who had saved him. He forgot the foundation of being a human being, and everything that a human being should have. Prosperity and wealth in the midst of glitz, he married the daughter of this fourth-rank official, and with the help of their family, he successfully entered the Imperial Academy. Second brother, you probably don’t understand. If you develop well in the Imperial Academy , it is possible to enter the cabinet, that is, to directly enter the ruling center of the country. It is not a place that ordinary poor students can enter, but he entered it very naturally. I praise him for his knowledge. Considering his character, I will scold him."

(End of this chapter)