interstellar production pacesetter

Chapter 47 Enlightenment

Lu Qi asked herself that she was not an open-minded person, and even she was very aware of her shortcomings. She was heavy-hearted, hesitant, nervous, and defensive. These characteristics led to Lu Qi's pessimistic personality, which she knew very well.Therefore, when faced with such a huge change, she struggled again and again. She only went out a few times since she was in Hope, and most of them went to the hospital. Lu Qi understood that her subconscious was avoiding the world and these things.

However, when one day these self-deceiving things that he had been covering were ruthlessly uncovered by a hand, and then this hand patted the top of his head lightly, bringing him some warmth, Lu Qi felt a little Confused.In fact, she is afraid of Shen Linfeng, but she also wants to trust and rely on him. He knows his secret, he knows his mood, but that's all.

Lu Qi's body was in a coma, but her consciousness was very clear. She seemed to be wandering in the night sky, with a bit of vagueness and seemed to float up. Lu Qi closed her eyes and fell into a very strange state.

He has strange feelings towards Shen Linfeng, whether it's because he directly hits the deepest part of his heart, or the calmness and warmth he occasionally brings, these things revealed in the process of constant running-in and testing, although they make Lu Qi tired, they are also It left a deep mark on her heart.For the first time, Lu Qi admitted her most secret thoughts in her heart. No matter how vigilant she is to others, once she has some feelings, she will relax her guard. Lu Qi doesn't regret the lies she showed because of this. God is not a completely rational person. She will be vulnerable, feel inferior, and have good feelings. It’s nothing to do with it, but now she understands that she can’t go on like this. She has her own way to go.

She is both herself and Lu Qi, there is no answer to this question and there is no need to tangle with it, why do you have to make a clear distinction?She likes Shen Linfeng a little bit, she doesn't say right or wrong when this feeling arises, it happens as it happens, she needs to readjust her attitude.If it was her in the 21st century, she would definitely stay away from a man like Shen Linfeng. It is difficult for people of different levels to go hand in hand, so is this still the case in this life?

Lu Qi was a little confused, she seemed to be able to see her body lying on the bed, and her gaze stayed on her closed eyes.Lu Qi, do you still want to do this?What do I have now?She has space, can make alchemy, can refine tools, can cultivate, and has all the treasures of heaven and earth. She is not an ambitious person because the reality of the 21st century has eliminated this part of her character, but now, she has the ability to be with her. The opportunity to stand side by side with Shen Linfeng, no, the opportunity to stand side by side with people of this level, no, to be precise, the opportunity to become stronger, the opportunity to choose a new way of life, so why hold on to it? What about the previous attitude that wasted my life?

Whether it's for feelings or life, Lu Qi understands that she must become stronger.One of the important reasons why Shen Linfeng made himself so afraid was their unequal status, a kind of inequality that both of them knew subconsciously, whether it was the gap between the colonel of the empire and the ignorant girl, or the relationship between Hope Ji society and Lin Yuan. The gap between Xianyu, both of them probably felt subconsciously!That's why Lu Qi is more careful and pays attention to guessing Shen Linfeng's mind, which is why Shen Linfeng ignores so many details. Shen Linfeng is definitely a delicate person, and his temptation to Lu Qi is based on a meticulous character and tolerance. Starting from the control of personality, how come there is no condescending meaning in it?From the standpoint of both parties, Shen Linfeng may have done enough, but what did he do?
Sometimes it's one thing to know rationally, but it's another thing to make up your mind to really look away. Lu Qi only feels that her consciousness has been wandering for a long time. Lu Qi, you understand, you have to integrate into this era, you have to Only by becoming your own strength!
It was already afternoon when Lu Ling entered the door. Due to the gloomy weather today, the light was a little dim.Lu Ling put down the small metal box in his hand. This box is rectangular in shape and light in weight. It is a kind of storage equipment that can be enlarged to the size of a box. It is usually used for storage when moving.The thing was not heavy, Lu Ling habitually shook his hand, looked at the empty living room, and went upstairs with a frown.

Lu Ling gently opened Lu Qi's room door, and seeing Lu Qi lying still on the bed, she took a closer look, and couldn't help being a little surprised: "Ah, Qiqi, you're awake!"

Lu Qi's eyes were kept open, as if she was lost in thought. When she heard Lu Ling's voice, she rolled her eyes, aimed at Lu Ling, and said, "Sister—"

Lu Ling nodded again and again: "Just now I saw that you were still sleeping before I went out, but now I finally woke up. The doctor said that you are fine, so I took you home. Are you hungry? Do you want to eat something? I will Let the housekeeper do a little bit, okay?" In this era, there is no such thing as confinement, medical skills are advanced, physical skills are strong, and it is usually enough to rest for a few days after giving birth.

Lu Qi smiled. Although she looked tired, her eyes were bright: "No, sister, I want to drink water."

Lu Ling quickly responded, and was about to pour water, but Lu Qi held her back: "Sister, I want to sit in the living room, just ask the housekeeper to pour water."

Lu Ling stretched out her hand to support Lu Qi who got up: "Are you feeling uncomfortable? Are you dizzy? Why don't you wait a while before going downstairs?" Her tone was gentle with some genuine concern, and Lu Qi's nose A little sour, but she still comforted Lu Ling with a few words, and insisted on going downstairs. She wanted to stand in a wider place and have a wider field of vision, not in this small room full of pink, and she was Feeling bored and wanting to breathe, Lu Qi stood up with the help of Lv Ling with a smile: "Sister, I have something to tell you."

Seeing Lu Qi's serious expression, Lu Ling nodded.

Lu Qi sat down on a single sofa in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows. The light came from one side, making her face very bright and dark. Under the reflection of the light gray sky outside, it made people feel an ambiguity close to dusk for no reason. and dull.

Lu Ling looked at her younger sister's young face. In just one year, Lu Qi seemed to have changed so much. She no longer laughed all day long. Even when she smiled, she was reserved and restrained, as if separated by a layer of veil. like.He is obviously still young, but why does he have such a mature temperament?Lu Ling became depressed: "Qiqi, I shouldn't have gone to the hospital to make trouble."

Lu Qi looked at her sister. Under the soft light outside the window, her pretty face looked very white and tender, as if exuding the luster of white jade. Lu Qi smiled, and the smile was actually very bright: "No, sister, you are doing very well. , you made me understand something."

"Qiqi!" Lu Ling was a little anxious.

"Sister," Lu Qi's gaze shifted out of the window, "You are really good to me, really, I understand." Lu Ling's feelings for him are definitely trustworthy, and Lu Qi would have been very trustworthy when facing her before. A little guilty, but very relieved.Now that she wants to be a new Lu Qi, let's start by giving her trust slowly.

The sky outside the window is mainly blue-gray, and the light has a bit of blue-gray feeling. It is summer, the willows are fluttering, and the red flowers are blooming. Qi didn't care about these, her eyes looked towards the higher sky.Lu Qi opened her mouth slowly, as if she wanted to slowly taste something that had settled down: "I was on the wrong path before, sister," Lu Qi leaned back slightly, her back was still slightly tense, "I was really wrong , living on the back of others, I have been living in my own world," Lu Qi turned to look at Lu Ling, "I lowered my requirements and attitude."

Lu Ling opened his mouth, a little surprised: "Qiqi, although you have lost your memory, you still like Shen Linfeng, right?"

Lu Qi paused for a moment and didn't speak. It was one thing for her to know clearly, but it was another thing to tell others.However, this is her older sister, who will be her only family member in the future, Lu Qi nodded her head off.

"Qiqi," Lu Ling seemed to sigh, "You really are not on the same level as him."

Lu Qi nodded: "I understand, sister." She stroked the soft corner of the sofa with her fingers, pressed down gently, and her fingertips felt the force of the rebound, "I have to change myself first, to have my own strength and strength. rely."

Lu Ling frowned, "You want to change for him? I don't agree! Qiqi, I would rather you be as carefree as before, and I would rather you forget him."

Lu Qi smiled: "Sister, I don't like him that much! I want to change because I really want to understand some rules of this world. I need to have my own power to protect my family, and I need to use my talents. I'm not for What he does, but for myself, the way I feel about him, let it be."

Time is the greatest killer. Lu Qi had a crush on a boy before. In the gray years when she was the most inferior, that man was a different color, but she also immersed herself in the pain of unrequited love. The passing of time, but when we met again, she was calm, with a gesture of nostalgia, remembering that I liked him so much at that time.

Lu Qi will not interfere with feelings, the emergence of good feelings, the mood of liking, the germination of love, and the failure of feelings, these are all experiences in her view, and when she is in it, she feels it carefully, and it is the sadness of crying Whether it's the fawn's blush, it's a precious experience, and it's worth cherishing.

Everything has its own development process. Lu Qi usually goes with the flow when it comes to feelings. Even if it is tangled or sad, she does not deny the meaning of the existence of feelings, but she will use reason to guide them, and will not be completely overwhelmed by feelings. Control, she is not a machine, nor is she an emotive entity.Let nature take its course, an attitude of immersion but not indulging.This is not detached open-mindedness, nor is it completely incapacitated. Lu Qi's thinking is a moderate attitude. In many cases, she understands better that your feelings can't change other people's worlds, so it's best not to make your own world collapse.

(End of this chapter)