Confused country poison concubine

Chapter 552 Facts (2)
Yuan Ze's hand trembled slightly, he slowly raised his eyes to look at her, for a while, but he didn't answer, but asked: "Bai, do you hope that the poor monk and Ah Chu can become ordinary people? "

Qiu Yebai was stunned for a moment, he didn't expect Yuan Ze to ask such a question suddenly, and suddenly he didn't know what to answer.

Ah Chu and A Ze were originally alone, she naturally knew it, it sounds very simple, no matter what she likes is Ah Chu or A Ze, they are just one person, she doesn't need to think about so many things at all, as long as Just accept his duality.

Of course she understands, it's just...

But the problem is that they understand that the other party is a part of themselves and want to protect the 'other party', but they are not willing to accept what the other party does not recognize for them.

Ah Chu didn't like A Ze's softness and gentleness, even a little cowardly, but A Ze was unwilling to accept Ah Chu's tyranny and cruelty, so that their personalities were opposed like two people.

Fundamentally speaking, A Chu is another part of A Ze's distorted and tough soul self that can't bear the extreme pain brought by the environment. Under the desire to survive, he has been completely split. He has been influenced by Buddhism for many years, but he thinks that this kind of Cruelty is wrong, he couldn't accept that he would be so cruel in order to survive.

Ah Chu uses his strength to protect A Ze, but hates his weakness, and is jealous of the approval and warmth he receives. This is also a denial of self and self-loathing.

And this is what gave her a headache. The charm of this person she likes lies in these contradictions.

She struggled with it for a long time at the beginning, not to mention that he was the one who was in the confusion.

Qiu Yebai sighed lightly: "Aze, you should understand from my standpoint, of course I hope that you and Achu will return to the appearance of ordinary people one day, love, hate, joy and anger are like ordinary people, not saints or demons. , No one is perfect, I never think that people must be perfect and beautiful, and I don't think that all people are the most evil and cruel."

She paused, reached out her hand to stroke his temples gently, and said indifferently: "The reason why people are human is that these complexities in human nature separate us from beasts and cold gods made of wood and clay."

Now Ah Chu and Ah Ze are dependent on each other, yet they deny each other's existence. If all evil causes will be punished, such as burning the lamp, they will also be punished. If the Du family also dies in the future, will they have a chance to recover? The appearance of ordinary people?
If so, everyone is happy.

Yuan Ze looked into her eyes, and the two of them looked at each other for a moment, then he suddenly lowered his eyes, reached out to hold her catkin, and said softly, "Amitabha, if there is only one poor monk and Ah Chu left, we will never be able to be like this." As Bai hoped, do you hope that there will be only Ah Chu in the end, or only the poor monk?"

Qiu Yebai was stunned for a moment, never expecting that Aze would ask such a straightforward question.

Yes, all her guesses are based on inferences and so-called common sense.

But what if they never return to 'normal'?

What if Ah Chu is always Ah Chu, and Ah Ze is always Ah Ze?

After all, this is a heart disease, and it cannot be solved by taking medicine.

Later generations are more cases that can never be 'cured'.

If this is the case, then how would she choose to ignore the existence of Aze forever?

Seeing Qiu Yebai's hesitant look, Yuanze's silver-grey beautiful pupils flashed a blur of pain, and he smiled softly, as if muttering to himself: "How can a poor monk ask such a question? Are you stunned, Amitabha, the person chosen by Bai has always been Ah Chu, right?"

Listening to his muttering, she wanted to say something: "Aze..."

"Bai, you never have to explain anything to the poor monk. It's the poor monk's greed and obsession that made the poor monk fall into a demon. As Bai said, Ah Chu is an inseparable demon from the poor monk. It’s the poor monk, if Ah Chu and Bai are together, it’s the poor monk and Bai together.” Yuan Ze smiled lightly and said plainly.

Then he suddenly approached Qiu Yebai, and his thin lips pressed lightly between her brows, with a pious and gentle gesture.

"All conditioned dharmas are nothing but dreams and bubbles. The mind does not move rashly, the spirit does not move, and the demon does not move."

After that, he sat back in his seat, looked at her and smiled quietly, then clasped his hands together and closed his eyes.

Qiu Yebai froze for a moment, seeing that his brows and eyes seemed to have regained their gentleness and calmness, Aze seemed to have figured it out by himself, but for some reason, she always felt a little inexplicable loss and uneasiness in her heart.

Can A Ze and A Chu's heart disease be resolved with just a few words?

However, she always felt that it was not that simple.

If everything is so simple, then why would later generations list this 'heart disease' as an intractable disease.

But, what can she do now?
Qiu Yebai looked at Yuan Ze's appearance, sighed softly in his heart, leaned against the bed and did not speak.

The night is long and the spring breeze is chilly. Time seems to go very slowly in Mingguang Palace, which is so slow that it makes people anxious, but there is nothing they can do about it.

She leaned against the bed, fell asleep at some point, and when she woke up in a daze, she found herself leaning against a slightly cold but wide embrace.

She rubbed her eyes in a daze, and rubbed against the familiar embrace, then raised her head and habitually rubbed against his thin lips, muttering softly: "Ah Chu, what time is it? Is it up to court?"

Then, she suddenly felt that the person holding her stiffened slightly, and then she saw clearly that the pair of eyes staring at her under the blurred light were silver-gray.

Qiu Yebai also froze immediately, she forgot that when she was with Ah Chu, she would relax her usual vigilance, and also developed the little habit of being intimate with her lover.

Although Aze said that he accepted, he understood that Achu was a part of him, and he would not have any demons in his heart, but for some reason, the subtle reaction of his body made her feel that maybe his "acceptance" did not come so easily.

"It's almost dawn, you should sleep for a while." Yuan Ze said quietly.

Qiu Yebai was silent for a while, then nodded slightly: "Well, there is still a fire ceremony today."

She felt that she could accept the fact that Aze and Achu who were holding her were actually alone, but she didn't know whether it was because of Aze's reaction, or because Aze's heart was toward the Buddha, which made her a little uncomfortable.

The two lay quietly, she was lying in his arms, and he was holding her, but felt that the atmosphere was a little... weird.

She moved uncomfortably, wanting to turn over, but felt unnatural, so she turned back again.

And just as she was tossing and turning, a pair of slender hands suddenly hugged her slender back and pulled her into his arms.

(End of this chapter)