give you joy

Chapter 24 Gao Yueyan, I identified it, and I will never change it in my life
I thought it would be a night of tossing and turning, but unexpectedly I didn't even have a clear dream. When I woke up, the sky was still gloomy.After she finished washing, she went downstairs. The live-in nanny, surnamed Zhou, was busy in the kitchen early in the morning. When she saw her coming down, she hurriedly served the steamed buns and snacks to the table.

She thanked the man and sat down at the table.

People got up one after another. Han Zhen was the first to go downstairs. Because it was a weekend, he was dressed casually, with soft slippers on his feet, and greeted her on the stairs with a smile: "Wake up so early, young man There are not many people as diligent as you in here."

Yue Yan replied good morning and smiled at him decently.

Then came Shen Ziqiao and Han Ling, who came down from upstairs at about the same time, the two of them were in front of each other, making Yueyan almost think that they were sleeping in the same room.

One by one they came to the table.Shen Ziqiao picked a seat opposite her, and Han Ling sat next to him.

A quiet dining table, only the occasional scraping of china.

Yueyan was holding a meat bun, thinking casually: Maybe?
As soon as her thoughts were interrupted, the tip of her tongue was scalded by the hot porridge, and the heat rushed into her eyes, and she lowered her head for a long time.

Shen Ziqiao looked up, and Han Ling's eyes immediately followed him, staring at any suspicious interaction between the two.

They don't interact.

Yueyan picked up the milk, and he lowered his head.

After breakfast, she formally bid farewell to Han Zhen.Han Zhen was taken aback, and wiped his hands with a napkin: "Aren't you going to say goodbye to your sister?"

Shen Xiner was still sleeping upstairs, she said in a low voice: "I'm afraid she'll feel sad, sister, please ask brother-in-law to persuade her more. I'll go first."

Han Zhen wanted to keep her for a while longer.Shen Ziqiao quickly pushed away the chair, took the car keys and got up: "I'll see you off."

She seemed to have just recovered, and said quickly: "No need."

He took the lead to go out with an attitude that could not be talked about, and when she arrived, the car was already parked at the door, ready to go.Getting out of the car, opening the door for her, and sending her into the car, the semi-forced posture was done in one go, and Yueyan still felt like being held hostage when she fastened her seat belt.

Han Zhen sent the guests to the door, and he turned back only after the rear of the car disappeared. He wanted to tell his sister that he had left, but Han Ling's face darkened, and he turned around and ran upstairs.

In the early morning air, the aroma of Cistanche cistanche lingered after the vegetation stayed overnight. The temperature was cool and comfortable, and the sun shone through the thin clouds, which gave the day a good start.

Yueyan thought to herself, no wonder so many people choose these two days to get married, even the weather seems to be sending blessings.

The car stops at a traffic light.

The man put his hands on the steering wheel, and his cuffs were pulled up because of this action, revealing a piece of Xicheng iron on his wrist. He was wearing a navy blue long-sleeved cotton shirt today. Show kindness.

"Is it a left turn?"

"Ah."

With the first sentence that broke the situation, the communication broke through the chaotic rocks and began to become unimpeded.

"How long do you plan to stay in Hangzhou this time?" He asked in a relaxed tone.

"Not sure, stay here if you find a job, and return to Nanjing if you can't find a job."

He pulled the steering wheel, seemingly casually: "Why are you going back to Nanjing? Is your boyfriend over there?"

Yueyan smiled: "The school gave me a chance to graduate."

Shen Ziqiao turned his face to look at her, looking very considerate of her: "What did the boyfriend say? Didn't he agree to let you stay in Nanjing?"

Yue Yan faintly felt it was funny: "It's up to you whether to stay or not."

She seemed to answer his question, but not the one he really wanted to know.

For a few seconds, the atmosphere fell into silence.

Shen Ziqiao stared in front of him, his mouth was gradually pursed into a straight line, in the morning light, his description was almost a bit stern, but he looked boyish, as if he was angry with someone.

She saw that kind of expression the most, when other boys talked to her in middle school.

Not long after being quiet, Yueyan took the initiative to find a topic: "Why didn't Sinan see you when he married Zhang Jun?"

He raised his hand and brushed the short stubble on the back of his head, and then a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth: "How do you know that I didn't go, you looked for me?"

Yue Yan said: "Your signature is not on the gift book."

"..."

After so many years, he still has to accept his fate.

Seeing him deflated, Yueyan couldn't help laughing.He glanced at it out of the corner of his eye, and subconsciously bent the corners of his lips.

Yueyan deliberately said, "Why, your girlfriend won't let you go?"

There was a car meeting in front of him, and he kept his eyes on the outside of the car, as if he didn't hear what she said. After the Buick on the other side passed by, he turned to look at her: "What did you say?"

The prank is only a momentary thing, without the atmosphere at that moment, it will become ulterior motives when you speak again.

She put away the smile on her face and shook her head: "Nothing."

The car went downstairs to the community where she rented.Shen Ziqiao glanced across the street full of food stalls, revealing the look he had when Sun Weiwei came last time, but he was not well cared for, and his dissatisfaction was written on his face in detail: "You live in this kind of place. place?"

Yueyan gently explained how difficult it is to rent short-term houses now, and how expensive a hotel is for one night.

He didn't say a word, his face was extremely ugly.Yue Yan was afraid that he would have an attack here, so she quickly pushed the door and got out of the car.

Only one foot came down, and the arm of the left hand was pulled, hot and persistent, which made the meaning of retaining it very strong.Leaning against the side of the car, Yueyan turned around and wrote a question mark pretending to be calm with her eyes.

His gaze rested on her lips probingly, which made her flustered inexplicably.

"What's wrong?" She felt that she must have laughed stiffly.

"Is your tongue okay?" He asked with an unpredictable expression.

Tongue?There was a sudden heat on his face, and in the blink of an eye, scenes at the table flashed.She felt herself blushing even more.

"fine."

His hand was still not loose, and in the narrow space, Yueyan was forced to feel more embarrassed, and she had no choice but to pull his wrist, and when his hand touched the cold piece of Xicheng Iron, his heart suddenly sank a little.She didn't dare to raise her head, she was afraid that if she looked at it one more time, tears would fall from her eyes.

The watch was still in college, she gave him a birthday present.

Shen Ziqiao lowered his head, he could only see the girl's hair and heart, but could not see her face.His gaze shifted to the back of her thin hand, her five fingers were as shiny as jade, she tried to twitch her own arm that was being held, but the force was not too heavy, as if he just came back to his senses, he let go of his hand in a daze.

The burning hot feeling still remained, she asked in a low voice, "Why are you still wearing it, you are the big boss..."

He sat back in the driver's seat, raised his hand to straighten the dial on his wrist, and looked down for a long time, as if he said to himself: "I decided it, and I will never change it in my life."

Yueyan was speechless, she quietly waited for the sourness lingering in her heart to subside.

His eyes returned to her face, and his expression became serious: "Gao Yueyan, don't ask me if I have a girlfriend, and don't play with me, I can't afford it."

Yueyan's job search was not smooth, but very difficult, because she hesitated to take the public examination or the postgraduate entrance examination, she missed the registration time for civil servants, and she hesitated to return to Hangzhou or stay in Nanjing, and she missed the delivery of resumes from some state-owned enterprises.But calm down and think about it carefully, maybe this is not a bad thing. She adjusted her strategy, lowered her vision, and targeted some local private enterprises. The advantage of a famous university gave her a lot of advantages in the resume. Almost all employers can't understand a girl who just graduated and wants to be a salesman. The key point is that this girl is beautiful and has a high degree of education. Directly, just tell Yueyan, if you have been married and had children, I can take you. The problem is that you are a big girl, can you hear those nasty words on the wine table?Have you been able to handle drinking with you?
After running around like this for a few days, Yueyan didn't get a single offer, but added a lot of bosses' WeChat accounts. One Yueyan impressed me the most. She was over [-] years old. I asked her out for dinner the next day after the interview, and said Want to chase her.She couldn't laugh or cry, but she didn't delete any of the above people. She had a hunch that in the not-too-distant future, she would reunite with these people under a different identity.

Disgruntled and running outside the interview stall, she suddenly received a call from Shen Ziqiao. There was a loud whistle on the street. She ran into a small supermarket on the street to listen to his call, and took a bottle of mineral water from the shelf to check out. The conversation about asking her for money was heard by Shen Ziqiao, and he asked sharply, "Are you outside?"

"Well. Is there something wrong?"

Shen Ziqiao briefly explained the purpose of coming. The house he gave her had been vacant all the time. He wanted to sublet it when someone came to inquire about it, but the lease contract required the signature of the head of the household.Yueyan was taken aback for a moment, and then felt a little sad. If there were no such things, that house would probably be another beginning of their new life.She tried her best to eliminate the sourness in her words, and asked in a normal tone: "Have you finished the decoration?"

"Well, it's been a while."

Yueyan actually wanted to ask how long it was, but there was always a voice in her heart that prevented her from speaking.

She nodded, took the change from the cashier, and thought about it from his point of view: "Then let's go through the transfer procedures of the house by the way."

"Okay," his tone sounded a little impatient, probably because the company's affairs upset him, "when are you free?"

"Just today." She walked to the door of the supermarket and looked up at the sky with her hands on her forehead. Although the sky was cloudy, it shouldn't rain so soon.

"Where are you, I'll come pick you up."

"No, I'm at the subway entrance and I'll be there soon."

The sky in September changes as it says.

As soon as he got out of the subway, the sky was overcast with clouds, thunderstorms passed by, and showers came suddenly.The sky and the earth are filled with the noise of rain hitting the ground.

There were many pedestrians standing at the subway entrance whose way was blocked by the rain, and none of them showed real anxiety on their faces.It's just a rain, sooner or later it will stop.

Yue Yan stretched out her hand to explore the dense rain, and under the side-eyes of a group of people, she plunged into the rain screen with her purse on her head.

When she rushed to the community security room, she was completely wet from top to bottom.The kind security guard lent her an umbrella and took her to the first floor of the apartment.

She saw herself clearly through the glass door of the hall.

His face was wet, his hair was wet, and the rain stains on both sides of his shoulders were obvious, showing traces of the white shoulder straps underneath.

Yueyan wiped herself with a paper towel, and after her hair was half dry, she divided it into two strands and put them on her chest, trying to block some, turned left and right to look in the mirror, and finally chose to comb her hair up, loosely There is a bun on the top of the head.

Shen Ziqiao never showed up, Yueyan guessed that he might be driving, so she didn't call to remind him.

Idle is also idle, she opened the small bag, took a notebook and a pen, sat on the sofa and began to write and draw.

She didn't have the habit of keeping accounts before, and it started after Gao Zhiming's accident. She wrote down today's expenses in a note, and then estimated the balance... If she can't find a job again, the money may not last until the end of the month.

Looking at the rain curtain, she really felt sad.

When it rained, the traffic in the city seemed to be paralyzed. Shen Ziqiao drove the car to the fastest speed, and jumped in at an opportunity. He was almost scolded as a grandson by other drivers on the road, but he still arrived half an hour later than the agreed time.He parked the car casually on the side of the road, braved the rain and ran into the apartment building, panting slightly, and swept the hall. The hall was empty, and there was a folded umbrella leaning on the coffee table against the wall.

Looking silently at the stairwell, he stepped forward, pressed the swing door with one hand, and pushed it open a few inches.

There are no voice-activated lights in the safe passage, and the noisy rain makes the place even quieter.

The girl is dressed a little more formally today, with a white shirt and black pencil pants.The waistline of the trousers is slightly higher, making the long legs look straight and thin.

The shadows of the rain outside the window were chaotic, and the branches and leaves were swayed by the torrential rain.

She was leaning against the window, with her chin slightly lowered, her left arm resting flat on her right elbow, and she looked out of the window blankly, with an indescribably lonely expression on her face.

When Yueyan came back, Shen Ziqiao sat on the sofa with his head bowed, his palms on his knees.She called him.He raised his head slowly, a faint light flashed in his eyes that matched the rainy night, making it hard to see clearly.

It was also at this moment that Yueyan remembered that he was far away from her world.This is not the kind of gaze that the young Shen Ziqiao would look at her. He used to be more direct and bright, and his occasional negative emotions were also brightly colored, just like him.The world always looks good and positive to him.

But that's not the case in business.

It can turn the simplest person into the most complicated, so complicated that Yue Yan seems to have never known him.

"Have you been waiting for a long time?" His voice was very soft.

Yueyan originally wanted to be polite, but she still said honestly: "I've been waiting for you for half an hour."

She has changed so much, but it seems that she has never changed much. She is still the kind of dull and obedient girl in his memory.

She is a girl, and he promised to take good care of her... He promised well.

He lowered his head, as if he was smiling, his shoulders on both sides shrugged slightly, his face was unclear, so he called him: "Shen Ziqiao."

He raised his face, the corners of his eyes were gradually turning red from the suppressed smile, and his palms on his knees were clenched into fists, as if he was trying to force himself not to laugh out loud.

Yue Yan's voice became quieter and quieter, like Ye Yu's echo: "What's wrong?"

The pain came so unexpectedly, winding to the bone, that he had no time to hide it, so he had to cast his eyes hastily in another direction, and the rain was like weaving, the glass was washed so clean by the night rain, and his amiable figure was clearly printed.

The girl looked at him quietly, almost compassionately.

After signing the so-called rental contract, Shen Ziqiao sent Yueyan back.The rain was really heavy, and she didn't put forward a hypocritical rejection.

It was quiet all the way.

When the car arrived at the apartment complex she was renting, it happened that the rain cleared and the clouds cleared.After he parked the car, Yueyan thanked her, but he took the key and followed her down.

She pointedly reminded him: "It's getting late, just send it here."

He turned a deaf ear and looked into the building.

The building is an old building, and the units were divided into houses in the 90s. The community does not even have property, and no one comes to repair the street lights when they are broken.He didn't make a sound, but his posture was obvious.

She rented a husband's room on the second floor, [-] square meters, not only for her, but also for a girl.The sofa in the living room is full of changed clothes, and empty courier boxes are thrown all over the floor. People have to think for a long time before they settle down.

Shen Ziqiao followed her in without expression.

The small room she lives in faces south and is a dark room with a square of twenty square meters filled with beds and wardrobes.The clothes were neatly folded and placed in the open suitcase, and there was only one windbreaker hanging in the closet - the one she wore to Sinan's wedding.

Her posture was not a bit awkward, but she was worried that he would ask her to move back. Fortunately, he didn't. He acted more calmly than her. He looked around and pressed the bed board with his hands to see if it was firm: " How much does it cost to rent here for a month?"

Yueyan picked up the suitcase and stood it by the wall, trying to clear up some space for entertaining people. She explained: "I am not renting for a long time, renting for a day counts as a day, and the landlord counts the money according to the number of days."

Shen Ziqiao sat down by the bed, stretched his legs and looked at her: "How much is it a day?"

Yueyan reported the number.

"Who helped you find it?"

"On the rental website."

He nodded and said nothing.

The atmosphere was suddenly silent, and the embarrassment that had been beaten away for a long time seemed to find the old way, and it came back furtively.Yueyan couldn't take it anymore, so she had nothing to say: "I'll get you a glass of water."

She came back with water.I saw him squatting halfway behind the door, tinkering with the door lock with a screwdriver that he got from nowhere, his cuffs rolled up to the elbows, his forearms were tight and dynamic.

She watched silently, and the scene in front of her overlapped with the one many years ago. He was squatting in the small hotel bathroom, concentrating on adjusting the hot water for her.

She forced herself not to think about it, the past always kept her locked in the depths of her memory.She was afraid that if she touched it, it would cause sharp pain.

Putting away her emotions, Yueyan stepped forward as naturally as possible and asked, "What's wrong?"

There was a click of the latch.He loosened his collar, hissed, stood up from the ground on his knees, and glanced at her: "I don't know if the door lock is broken?"

How could she not know, firstly, she knew that she would not live long, and secondly, the renter was a girl, so she didn't have any troubles about it.

Making a fuss again, she secretly stuck out her tongue.

Shen Ziqiao caught a glimpse, but his heart was heavy. He was familiar with her little movements, but he never thought that one day she would make him so uncomfortable.

He turned sideways and said, "Try it and see if it will work."

She walked in front of him, wearing high heels that only reached his chin, her hair was smoothly scattered on her shoulders, her earlobes were small and white, and her body had a faint fragrance.

He shook his head, restraining his urge to kiss.

Yueyan locked it, and tried to twist the handle, but she couldn't open it.

She laughed, and a dimple appeared at the corner of her mouth: "You are so amazing."

He didn't respond.Yueyan raised her head to look at him, his gaze was wrong, and he avoided looking at her, only after a while did he look back.

The eyes are warm and soft, with the undertone of love she is most familiar with.

His voice was very low, as if it was an echo from his own body: "Yanyan..."

Her heart trembled, her eyes lowered, she fell on the shiny handle, and begged in her heart: Don't say it, don't call me that...

Perhaps there is an unknown god living here who heard Yueyan's inner plea.

The hand protecting her waist was clenched tightly, but she couldn't let go.Shen Ziqiao turned his gaze away with some difficulty.

Silence stuck to the mouths of the two of them like a spider web.

Their conversation stopped here, Yueyan sent him to the door, he turned and went downstairs step by step, without looking back, and there was no chance to find the girl's watery eyes.

(End of this chapter)