give you joy

Chapter 39 Give me an accurate word, why are you willing to let me chase you again?

Han Ling studied, studied, worked part-time, and supported herself. She worked a hundred times harder than girls of the same age every step of the way, but the reality always gave her a loud slap when she thought she had finally escaped and stepped into a higher level. She returned to reality, whether it was her original family or this man's consistent attitude.

Everything disappeared, and the picture returned to the present.

Han Ling took a deep breath, turned her face upwards, and forced back the tears that were about to fill her eyes. She said word by word, "Shen Ziqiao, do you know how unfair you are to me?"

Shen Ziqiao's eyes were dark, and he just quietly listened to the woman's broken question.

"It's because of my bad background, because my family is poor, so you looked down on me from the beginning! But can this be my fault? Can I choose where I was born? Is it my fault, you blame everything On me," as she spoke, tears approached her eyes again, and she raised her hand nonchalantly to wipe them away.

"Didn't you ask me before, why did we lock Gao Yueyan out of the dormitory? Okay, I'll tell you now, because she was hooking up with someone else, because she seduced someone else's boyfriend, Shen Ziqiao, you now know the answer!"

Shen Ziqiao's face darkened, he stood up abruptly, took a step towards her, and was held tightly by Yue Yan from behind, he said in a rough voice, "Try to say another word!"

She yelled, as if she was going all out, with a sharp voice: "Just say it, Shen Ziqiao, do you really think Gao Yueyan is pure and clean, like a fairy? Have you ever seen her tricks when she was in college? She not only hooked up with other people's boyfriends, She even the monitor of our class is fascinated!"

Yue Yan frowned, she couldn't listen anymore: "Enough."

Han Ling panted heavily and sneered, "Are you guilty?"

Yue Yan said: "Don't act like this."

Mr. Lin was silent at the moment, and he was obviously frightened when he suddenly got involved in the family's war of words.

Han's mother took the person out with an apologetic face, and asked him to come back next time. This blind date, which was not pure enough in the original intention, just came to an end.

Shen Ziqiao didn't want to stay any longer, and held Yueyan's hand: "Let's go."

Yueyan was not pulled by him, she sat on the sofa, her eyes were calm, she asked Shen Ziqiao: "Do you believe it?"

Without even hesitating, he shook his head immediately.

It was such a scene, and Han Ling, who was an outsider and has always been an outsider, burst into tears.

How much she hopes, hopes that someone can love herself like Shen Ziqiao loves Gao Yueyan.

But she didn't have such a good life.

Yueyan smiled, with a quiet smile, and Shen Ziqiao, who had been tense with anger, relaxed a little.She put her hand on the back of his and patted it lightly twice.

Shen Ziqiao finally let out a breath and sat down.

Yueyan looked at Han Ling with a calm tone, which meant that she was not irritated by what Han Ling said just now: "Han Ling, you can't say that about me, and you can't say that about Shen Ziqiao, why did I talk to Guo Shu, Guo Jingjing and the others in college? Moving out of the dormitory one after another, you should be clearest in your heart. We have never looked down on you, neither has Shen Ziqiao, it is you who have always looked down on yourself. So, you can't say that about Shen Ziqiao."

Shen Ziqiao's heart felt a little hot when he listened to the words, he looked at Yueyan from the side, and thought of their childhood.

From childhood to adulthood, Yueyan was better than him and didn't cause much trouble. Occasionally, the two of them caused trouble together, but it was because of Yueyan's relationship.The entrance of their elementary school is a winding alley. Every day when they go to and from school, they pass by a family. This family planted a grapefruit tree, which grew out of the wall. Finally, it was harvest time. The yellow grapefruits were hidden in the green leaves. In the middle, every time Yueyan passed by with a small schoolbag on her back, she would look up and count for a long time.

There are many such things in supermarkets, but in the eyes of children, it seems that they are especially delicious when they grow on trees.At that time, Shen Ziqiao already had the consciousness of being an older brother, so he climbed up and shook her, and let her ride around underneath, which alarmed the master, who ran out yelling, Shen Ziqiao was startled, and his feet slipped , fell from the tree upside down like a green onion, and fell on Yueyan's hand underneath.The boy is skinny, there is nothing wrong with him, but he broke Yueyan's hand.After being checked in the hospital, it turned out to be a broken bone. Gao Zhiming was so distressed that Li Huifen was a little angry and asked Shen Ziqiao why he was so naughty.Shen Ziqiao insisted on not letting go, and in the end Yueyan still cried and said to Li Huifen: "Mom, don't talk about him, he helped me pick them from the tree."

But can Han Ling listen?

How can a woman who is surrounded by jealousy, anger and heartbreak find reason to listen to other people's opinions.Besides, it was Gao Yueyan, the woman who had been her imaginary enemy since college.

Han Ling even thought, if she had never met Gao Yueyan in her life, would her life be much happier?
But there are no ifs in life.

Han Ling turned her head, stood up straight, and looked at the two of them critically from top to bottom: "You make me feel sick."

At night, Mother Han avoided Shen Xiner and told Han Zhen who came back from get off work about it. Han Zhen went to find out about the situation with Han Ling. Inevitably, another quarrel broke out between the siblings, and this quarrel ended with Han Ling The collapse ended.

Her voice can be heard all over the building, hysterical: "She is Yanyan, so what am I? Brother, I am your real sister, why are you talking to her!"

Han Zhen said something in a low voice, and then heard a burst of crying from Han Ling, and the crying was inaudible.

Shen Xiner took an early bath upstairs on her own, and Yuesao's quarrels with this family had already become commonplace, so she secretly pricked up her ears to listen.

At the end of the argument, Han Zhen was exhausted. He leaned on the sofa and waved to her: "Han Ling, don't be so capricious, okay? We are all one family."

"Yes, you are a family, one is your wife's own brother, and the other is her step-sister who is out of reach. I am the only one who is redundant in this family! Brother, I always thought that at least you are still toward me, now What about it? They bullied me together, but you still speak for them, do you know how wronged I am?"

"Han Ling, didn't Ziqiao apologize to you, what else do you want?"

"Brother, is this what you said? You ask me what else do I want? Well, I don't think I will see them in my life!"

The quarrel was earth-shattering, Yueyan couldn't listen anymore, she put on a coat and went out.

When Shen Ziqiao found her, she was sitting alone on a swing in the garden in the middle of the street in the community, with her head slightly lowered, looking at the hands on her lap.

The moonlight is like thin snow, covering her shoulders, and her figure is particularly thin against the light-toned background.

"What about shooting ghost movies?"

The swing frame next to it shook violently, and someone sat down, Yue Yan turned her head following the sound, and smiled when she saw the person coming.

"Are you bored?"

"Also talk about me, I don't know who is the one who comes out to bask in the moon in the middle of the night?"

Yue Yan still smiled and didn't speak.

The topic was reduced to zero, and the atmosphere returned to quiet.

Shen Ziqiao suggested: "Want to take a walk around here?"

Going back to the place where there were constant quarrels, or going outside with Shen Ziqiao to kill time, this is not a difficult choice for Yue Yan.

The night wind in early summer still carries the heat of the summer, and it is not very comfortable to blow on the body. Fortunately, this community has a large coverage of green plants, and the fragrance of the grass and trees neutralizes the heat, giving people a refreshing feeling.

The two talked occasionally and mostly walked in silence.

Occasionally, a car would drive by on the road, and Shen Ziqiao would remind her to be careful.

When they reached the entrance of the alley, the two stopped at the same time.There was only one street lamp lit in the dark alley, and the dim light only radiated a halo less than one meter in diameter.

That was the original site of their elementary school, Hang No. [-] School, and they moved to the Binhu side two years after they graduated.

Shen Ziqiao turned his face and said, "Do you still want to eat grapefruit?"

The moment her heart surged, her eyes became hot.

The grapefruit tree is still there.

This made Yueyan feel a certain sense of eternity, even if things are different, the tokens are still there.

The moonlight shines through the dense branches and leaves, and sprinkles mottledly on the people.Yueyan raised her head to search for the fruits hidden among the dense leaves, her eyes focused.

"Want to eat?"

Yue Yan let out a cry: "What?"

Shen Ziqiao moved his cervical spine a few times, kicked on the trash can next to him, and climbed up the wall in twos and threes. His movements were simple and smooth, and Yue Yan was stunned.

He supported the tree and stood on a high wall, with a big moon behind him.He smiled childishly at Yueyan, showing eight neat white teeth, a little silly and a little cute.The scene from many years ago quietly overlapped with this moment.It turns out that boys know how to make girls happy from such a young age?

With a sigh of relief in her heart, she couldn't help but say, "It's not cooked yet, come down quickly."

Shen Ziqiao looked into the canopy of the tree, finally broke off a leafy branch and held it in his hand, supported the wall with one hand, and jumped down, just like a hero in a martial arts drama, almost scaring Yueyan a lot Jump.Shen Ziqiao didn't take it seriously, and handed her the branches and leaves, but he didn't accept them with a pleasant face. Shen Ziqiao used the leaves to brush her hair to tease her.

Yueyan pressed her hair, amused and helpless: "Don't touch me."

"Give it to you."

"I'm not a child."

"You are not a child who is?"

A word he said was so tender and loving, Yueyan felt warm in her heart.

The two walked slowly to the gate of the primary school, the iron gates were locked without exception, only the gate post was still lit, and it was unknown if the gatekeeper was still the old man from before.Shen Ziqiao originally wanted to find someone to accommodate and let them go in for a stroll, but it was late at night, so he thought about it and let it go.

The two of them looked in for a while outside the iron gate. The national flag stand, the teaching building, and the plastic runway seemed to separate two worlds. Pedestrians are quietly sent back to the starting point of their lives by time.

I can't remember how many times, the two of them walked along this tree-lined road, or came out together noisy, or talking and laughing.

Yueyan looked at the campus with moving eyes.

Holding the iron gate with his hand, Shen Ziqiao stared at her cherishingly.

After all, she has grown up, what remains unchanged is that when she looks at people and things, her eyes are still pure and clear, without ambition or desire.She just stood there quietly, catching his eyes.

The capture of feelings does not distinguish between ages. Boys know what kind of girl they will like when they grow up.

Yue Yan smiled: "Sometimes I dare not think about what I will be like at the age of 30, but in the blink of an eye, I am already 26."

Shen Ziqiao smiled: "I'm still a few months older than you, so I'm the first to turn 30."

Yue Yan smiled: "Then when you're thirty, call me and tell me what it's like to be thirty."

Shen Ziqiao turned his face and said in a serious tone: "Have you ever thought about it? What will you look like at the age of 30?"

Yue Yan pondered, she is not a greedy person, in the proposition of the future, she thinks no differently from other ordinary girls, she has a husband who loves each other, has a smart and beautiful child, and the three of them live in a small house. In the house, live happily ever after.

Shen Ziqiao asked with a smile, "Is your husband's surname Shen?"

This is a question that has gone too far. From the first day he knew this girl, Shen Ziqiao knew that she was too easily offended.

He didn't think that she would really answer, but after a few seconds of silence, Shen Ziqiao heard her hum in a low voice.

His heart trembled slightly at the hum, he hesitated for a moment, then turned his head to look at the girl beside him, his eyes gradually softened.

Yes, from the first kiss in the hotel, she has already decided the end of the story.

She will be with Mr. Shen for the rest of her life.

Shen Ziqiao looked at her.

She didn't look at him, but there was a faint smile on the corner of her mouth, like the little girl who was here waiting for him after school many years ago.

How did that kiss start?

It will not happen for no reason, there must be someone in the middle who is bewitched, maybe by the moonlight, or by each other's gaze.

The established process seemed familiar. He raised his hand to support her chin, inserted his other hand into her hair, controlled the back of her head, turned his face slightly, and put his lips against hers. However, Yueyan was still frightened, she shrugged her shoulders slightly, and murmured vaguely.Her first reaction was to close her eyes.

He didn't stand a chance to back down from her.The kiss became more and more intense, she was pushed against the iron gate, and she was trapped between his arms, forced to keep up with his rhythm, tossing and kissing deeply.

His kiss was as domineering as his own, and in that kiss they exchanged what was left of their breath, each other's saliva.

At this time, footsteps came from far and near in the school, and someone seemed to be coming out of it.

Yueyan came back to her senses, and raised her hand to push him, with not much strength, but Shen Ziqiao was still pushed away by her with an unsatisfied face, and lightly wiped the liquid from her lower lip with her thumb, her eyes were dark, but her tone was so helpless: "I'm not happy." Miss?"

Yueyan's face turned red in an instant.

"Someone came out."

He raised his eyes and looked inside the door. A beam of light from a flashlight was getting closer and closer. He cursed in his heart: What a fucking disappointment.

This night Yueyan walked a long way, and she was still wearing high heels. On the way back, Shen Ziqiao was carrying her on her back, holding her high heels in his hand.He has broad shoulders, and he doesn't feel too tired carrying a person on his back, and he still walks steadily.Yueyan lay on his back, as if returning to the days when her father carried her home when he was a child.

The night wind was cool, blowing Yueyan a little drowsy.Her hands were hanging on his chest, her chin rested on his shoulders, she was not willing to throw away the leaves he picked for her, she rustled the fabric of his clothes on his chest, her voice was lingering.

Under the street lights, their figures lasted for a while.Sometimes, they walked with their backs to the moon, but it was strange. After walking a few streets, the head-on moonlight shone on them again. The dim moonlight also seemed to have warmth, shining warmly on people.

Yueyan didn't bring a mobile phone or a watch. I don't know what time it is, but judging from the situation on the road, I'm afraid it's already very late at night. Only the 24-hour convenience store is still open, and there is no one in the store. They walked through the light projected from the window, and then went back to the moonlit night, followed by only the slightly puzzled eyes of the bar waiter.

Sensing her slipping down, Shen Ziqiao temporarily stopped, and carried her up to a bump, Yueyan woke up from the drowsiness, and murmured: "I'll get down and go."

Her hand was hanging on his chest, her face was next to his neck, every time she spoke, even every breath, there was a fragrant and light warm wind blowing over his neck, making his throat tight and his scalp tingling. numb.

"do not move."

Shen Ziqiao said slowly: "How many times can I carry you like this?"

Yueyan's heart was numb, as if being pinched by a hand, it was tightly pinched, and her nasal cavity became sour.

Her voice was small and soft: "I'm sorry, Shen Ziqiao."

He looked ahead, walked steadily, and said, "From the time I knew you to now, you have never done anything wrong to me."

These are his sincere words, and there is no element of anger.

Girls are the ones he likes first; people are the ones he pursues actively.Because of him, she was sent to Nanjing by her father, because of him, she regarded Sun Weiwei as a friend, and because of him, she knew the family surnamed Han.

If you want to say I'm sorry, it's from him. It's his appearance that changed her fate from then on.

Shen Ziqiao had no way of knowing whether letting her marry someone else would make her happier, but as long as he thought that she might marry someone else one day, he felt like going crazy.

Her face was tenderly pressed against his slightly sweaty neck, this sticky touch brought the two of them a feeling of intimacy, as if they were still very young, coming back from outside sweating from playing, worried that they would be scolded by adults.

Yueyan said, "Don't sell the company, okay?"

Shen Ziqiao froze for a moment.

Han Zhen came to her before, saying that Shen Ziqiao was recently contacting a quality appraiser to evaluate the company's fixed assets, and planned to sell the company, but Han Zhen refused to listen to him, so he came to Yueyan to let her She helps persuade Ziqiao.

Shen Ziqiao said indifferently: "I'm tired from work, and I want to change industries. It's not good to be inferior all the time."

Yue Yan obviously didn't believe it: "Is it because of me? Because... what I told you?"

Shen Ziqiao said: "Don't think wildly, it has nothing to do with you."

"Then don't sell the company, it's your hard work after all."

Shen Ziqiao said directly: "You are my heart and soul."

Yue Yan paused, and a bitter and bitter smile appeared on the corner of her mouth.

People will grow up, some people grow better and better, while some people carry the shell of their family, or stop at the front, or fear their hands and feet, and eventually disappear and wear away the light of youth.When she was in school, Yueyan never felt that she was not worthy of Shen Ziqiao, but after she grew up, because of various things, this feeling popped up from time to time, which made her doubt her own excellence.

Her nose was sour, and her eyes were hot: "Am I really that good?"

They passed one street lamp after another, the light brushed his eyebrows and eyes affectionately, the light and shadow flickered, and his facial features were carved like a knife.

In the process of walking, the happy face with belt swayed slightly, as if it was a lullaby.

She awaits his reply.

"You are not good anywhere, but I just like your bad."

Yue Yan smiled.

He walked forward with her on his back, but time brushed against their sleeves, retreating silently, taking their hearts back, and then back, to the university, to high school, to the past of their childhood sweethearts.

Yueyan put her arms around his neck, pressed against his ear and asked, "Shen Ziqiao, have you ever carried me on your back?"

Shen Ziqiao thought for a while: "I hugged you before."

"When?" She couldn't remember.

"Forgot? High school, you have a fever, I sent you to the hospital."

Yueyan let out a cry, and put her face on his back, unable to lift it up, and said with a depressed face: "I must be ugly like that."

Shen Ziqiao sneered twice: "It's okay, I can meet people."

"Oh, don't talk about it." Yue Yan has always attached great importance to appearance, besides, no girl wants to be beautiful every minute and every second in front of the boy she likes, but the two of them are too deeply involved by fate, what does each other look like? have seen.

Yueyan thought about it, she seemed to have never seen Shen Ziqiao ugly.

He has a good foundation, and he has been exercising all the time. How he dresses and does what he does is not related to being handsome.

For this, Yueyan is quite convinced.

Shen Ziqiao didn't say anything, although both of them knew it well, and they both caught the ambiguity in the atmosphere, those ambiguities permeated into the words, and were transpired by the body temperature into a hazy mist, and each other's hearts fluctuated in it. Float low.

Yue Yan sighed softly.

Shen Ziqiao stopped and asked, "What's wrong?"

She hesitated for a moment, then shook her head: "Nothing."

Shen Ziqiao seemed to mention casually: "The Miss Ye you saw in the restaurant last time is a client of mine. Inviting her to dinner is purely for business purposes. Don't think about it."

Yueyan slammed her chin on his shoulder, and she muttered slightly: "What am I thinking?"

Shen Ziqiao said: "Who knows what you're thinking about."

Yue Yan felt sweet in her heart.

As they walked, they arrived at the door of the house, Shen Ziqiao let her down, because the aftertaste of the previous conversation was still there, Yue Yan still blushed a little, turned around and walked towards the door of the house without looking back.

Then Shen Ziqiao stopped her from behind. "Gao Yueyan."

She turned her head, inexplicably nervous, but also implied anticipation.

Under the street lamp, the top circle of his hair was illuminated in a velvet way, the hair was soft and shiny, and there was a hint of determination in his eyes.

"Give me a promise, why are you willing to let me chase you again?"

(End of this chapter)