give you joy

Chapter 8
After finishing her homework at nine o'clock, Yue Yan was hungry, so she put down her pen and went downstairs to look for something to eat. When she reached the living room, she happened to see Li Huifen cooking noodles for Shen Xiner, who came home late.On the dimly lit first floor, only a small piece of light was lit in the kitchen, and the sound of chopping vegetables and cooking noodles was clanging, mixed with the whispering private conversations of the mother and daughter.

Knowing that she would ruin the rare moment of mutual admiration between the two if she went on so hastily, Yueyan stopped quietly, thought about it, and simply sat on the stairs.

It's a big deal to wait for them to finish eating before going down, Yue Yan thought to herself, holding her chin.

The aroma of food wafting from the kitchen gradually became stronger, and the voice suddenly became louder.

"How many times have I told you to break up with you, and you are still hanging out with that boy, do you have to piss me off to be happy?" Li Huifen deliberately lowered her voice with obvious anger, Shen Xiner explained in a low voice After a few words, she interrupted with a sneer, "Moving forward? Being motivated can conjure a house and a car? I'm just a daughter like you, so you can't win me over and ask your dad to introduce you to Han Zhenqiang who is no better than that. "

Shen Xiner said helplessly: "Mom, feelings are not a transaction."

Li Huifen was furious: "I'll give you food and drink, why don't you grow up and let you break up with that poor boy, how can it be a deal? Now there are not boys who are not up-to-date."

When it comes to being up-grade, Li Huifen immediately has a candidate in mind, and said happily: "The son of Uncle Tian who had dinner with your father last time is not bad. You have seen him before. He is tall, thin, energetic, and personable." Polite, and a master's degree from a prestigious school..." Didn't hear her daughter speak, Li Huifen stood in front of the sink and looked back, and saw her eating noodles with chopsticks, her eyes were still on the mobile phone video, obviously absent-minded, and Li Huifen watched Fen Qi didn't hit one place, wishing to wake her up with a basin of cold water.

"Shen Xiner, did you hear what your mother said?"

Shen Xin'er was annoyed by the scolding, and said angrily: "Rich people also have brains, okay? I'm neither a fairy nor my surname is Gao. Why do rich people want me?"

Li Huifen never expected to be robbed by her daughter in such a way, and was stunned for a while.Shen Xin'er understood very well in her heart, how could a mother be so confused, while doing everything possible to fight for her children, but at the same time, she knew that she would not be able to fight for anything, and Gao Yueyan couldn't compare to Gao Yueyan's sincere call to father.Over the years, Li Huifen didn't see it too clearly. She worked so hard to put her heart and soul into this family, but what she got in return was her husband's precautions and her daughter's abdication...

Almost forty years, 40 years of ups and downs, I haven't seen any scenes, I haven't experienced any low-spirited hardships, but in this warm and safe home with food and drink, Li Huifen felt hatred for the first time.

I scratched my heart and lungs with hatred, and my internal organs hurt with hatred.

Yes, Gao Zhiming's daughter is Baby Pimple, the jewel in the palm of her hand, and what is the difference between her children, not one is better than the other, but one is more capable than the other!

Taking a deep breath, Li Huifen raised her head and looked up, trying her best to dispel the mist in her eyes, so that the nervous daughter behind her could not feel the crying in her voice: "I know you are angry with me, but what can I do, my orphan It's not easy for a widowed mother to pull the two of you together. Your father only has his daughter in his heart now, and you are no worse than Yan Yan. You want to be good in everything and strive for everything, and let your father take a good look at it. Why do dogs see people as inferior."

"Mom..." Sensing the strangeness in her mother's words, Shen Xin'er put down her chopsticks and called out to her with some anxiety.

Li Huifen paused, lowered her head and continued to rinse the plate in her hands, and said nonchalantly, "Eat, the noodles are lumpy."

It took more than a week for Shen Ziqiao's clothes to look good before he remembered to return them.

She had forgotten about it at first, and Shen Ziqiao didn't come to urge her. When the season changed, she suddenly found out that there was still an unsolved case.

Boys' styles are different from girls' styles, and their appearance is conspicuous, so it's not easy for others to take them. Yue Yan originally wanted to delay bringing them to him when he went home on weekends this week, but then he thought that he said that he only had such a coat in winter, and he was worried. Can't bear it.So taking advantage of the break time an hour and a half before the evening self-study, I packed it in a shopping bag and gave it to him.

Yue Yan would never be so stupid as to ask Shen Ziqiao to wait for her at the gate of her school, so she made an appointment with him to meet at the gate of his school.He clearly agreed on a quarter past seventeen, but he still showed up a few minutes later than the agreed time.

The large army came out mightily, and Yue Yan saw him in the middle at a glance.

The characteristics are obvious, as long as you find the tallest and most beautiful girl in the crowd, Shen Ziqiao must be next to him. From childhood to adulthood, his relationship with the opposite sex will be unbelievably good.

Thinking of this, Yueyan couldn't help but smile slightly, and looked up, under the dark winter sky in the south, the wind was blowing the boy's short hair.

I haven't seen him for a few days, but he seems to be taller, maybe because of the change of hairstyle, the bangs like Rukawa Kaede were cut short, and the sideburns were pushed up, showing the sharpness and profoundness of his facial features, making him even more shockingly handsome.

Yueyan felt that he had changed, but Shen Ziqiao felt that Yueyan hadn't changed at all, she was in vain, hugging his clothes tightly like a bunny hugging a carrot, her eyes were round.

Originally, a group of people walked past her without looking sideways, but because Shen Ziqiao stopped, the group of people turned back to look at her in unison, each with strange eyes, just like looking at aliens, they were short of whistling together.

This battle immediately made Yueyan nervous, and she timidly took a small step behind him.Shen Ziqiao immediately felt that he turned around to greet those people: "Then what, you guys order first, I'll come over later."

The crowd agreed tacitly, pushing and pulling away.After the onlookers had disappeared, Yue Yan relaxed and handed over the clothes.Shen Ziqiao looked down at her, but didn't answer: "Have you eaten yet? Come with me to eat something outside."

Yue Yan shook her head: "I've eaten."

The corner of Shen Ziqiao's mouth twisted: "Don't worry, none of those people know you, they're just eating a meal. If you don't worry, I'll open a private room for you and let you eat alone against the wall."

Thinking of that scene, Yue Yan was amused. Maybe the review pressure was too much during this time, which made her smile keep low.

"It's so funny?" The boy's voice was low, with a hint of a smile.

When she smiled, she couldn't care about his various little moves. Shen Ziqiao looked at her lovingly, reached out and touched the top of her head, and slid along her hair calmly to the back of her head. The hair there was cold and soft, which made people love it.

Sure enough, he made an old mistake again.

Yueyan felt vigilant, wrapped his back around his wrist, and slowly pulled his hand from her hair, annoyed and annoyed: "Speak as you speak, don't keep touching me..."

He didn't realize it at all, and said brazenly, "I see something in your hair, I'll take it off for you."

"What?" Yue Yan wanted to treat him, so she deliberately asked him seriously.

She took his hand between the two of them, with the palm facing down, clenched into a small fist, with two blue veins running across the back of the hand with distinct knuckles.

"I don't know, it seems quite rare."

"What the hell is it?" Seeing his seriousness, Yue Yan also became curious, and forgot to let go of the fingers holding his wrist, so she just held him in a daze, keeping a little distance to prevent the thing in his hand from flying suddenly. He came out and threw himself on his face, his eyes widened with curiosity.

The wrist is full of a girl's touch, smooth and soft.

Subconsciously hold your breath at the same time, but not for the same reason.

His hand clenched into a fist slowly turned over and opened little by little. Just when Yueyan was concentrating on what it was, the boy suddenly spread his palm, and threw himself in front of her eyes with a huff, scaring Yueyan a lot. Big jump.

She took a few steps back in panic, and when she came back to her senses, she looked at his empty palm and realized that it was his prank. She rushed over to pat him on the shoulder and arm without laughing or crying: "You scared me to death... ..."

He didn't care about that strength at all, Shen Ziqiao didn't hide, just laughed, almost bent over laughing.

How could he not tease her enough?
No matter how much Yueyan deceived herself, she couldn't deny that no matter what happened, the boy and girl could quickly reconcile as before, talking and playing without any grievances, which was already the best state of love in the eyes of others.

The boy's shoulders were firm and tight, and when he slapped him, his face became hot for no reason, and her movements slowed down.

Instead, someone grabbed the wrist and pulled it under Shen Ziqiao's nose. He looked into her eyes and asked again: "You really don't want to eat with me?"

The atmosphere after laughing was obviously different from that just now. It was much more relaxed and more at ease. The eyes of the happy face were bright, and there was still a little smile left. The answer was still the same: "No."

Shen Ziqiao didn't force her either: "Let's go."

Turning his back to her and waving his hand, Shen Ziqiao went to chase the long-distance troops, and there were still people waiting for him, just the tallest and most beautiful girl, Yue Yan took a careful look at her, and found that there was a faint smile on her face. makeup.

I have heard for a long time that their school is slack, and they don't care about dating or anything, not to mention pediatrics such as makeup and hair dyeing, Yueyan only saw it today.

Shen Ziqiao went to meet her.

The two continued to move forward, but when they turned the corner, Shen Ziqiao still looked back worriedly.

The girl had long since disappeared from the school gate.

Shen Ziqiao was funny and angry, he was a little heartless.

The girl next to her was as careful as a hair, she made a good guess, and asked tentatively, "Who is this? Is your sister you knew in high school?"

At their age, it is already very ambiguous to say that they recognize their brother or sister, which is equivalent to indirectly admitting that they have someone they like.

Shen Ziqiao stroked his chin, and smiled softly: "I don't recognize you, dear."

The girl looked slightly relaxed: "Your own sister?"

"No," he said, "I'm kissing someone."

The news about Shen Ziqiao having a girlfriend quickly spread throughout his high school, and then back to his previous school. It was discussed for a while like a gust of wind, and soon disappeared. After all, there were more important things to wait for. With these kids.In late December, Sinan, the youngest in the dormitory, celebrated his birthday, and invited all the girls in the dormitory to have a buffet outside. After studying hard for half a semester, everyone wanted to take this opportunity to relax. They changed their clothes and carried their bags. The girls are all dressed up, and they go to the school gate for a ride together.

The time I went was just in time for the Christmas event in the store, and there was a long queue at the door. Fortunately, they had already placed their orders on the software, and they were brought in by the waiter after a short wait, catching up with the first batch of dinner.

The interior of the cafeteria looks very high-end, with rich ingredients and cleanliness. There is a hollow rockery between the dining area and the dining area, and the space is very finely divided.The girls found a place to sit down, one looked at the bag, and the rest took the plate to get something to eat.

Yueyan came back first, and then went after the girls who looked at the bags. After a while, seven girls came back one after another. One table was not enough for them to sit, so they pulled two stools to join the table. Before eating, I wished Sinan his birthday Happy, the girls are not ostentatious, so they didn't sing birthday songs in public. After saying their blessings, they all took out the gifts they had prepared in advance.Si Nan accepted it and kept saying thank you.

The dinner was at its peak, and the number of people in the restaurant gradually increased, and the sound of talking and walking gradually covered up the music.

There are always a lot of topics at the table belonging to the girls, and the chatting and chatting involved feelings. A girl lowered her volume and approached mysteriously and said, "Guess who I saw when I was picking up the things just now?"

A few of them were a little curious by her: "Who is it?"

"Zhang Jun."

As soon as the words were finished, Si Nan's face suddenly turned red, and everyone looked at her and smiled tacitly.Zhang Jun is a student from the high school next door. He is a year younger than them, but he is two months older than Si Nan. It is said that he has been chasing her for a long time.It's just that Si Nan refused to deny it, saying that the two of them had nothing, and it was all rumored by others.

No one called him, but meeting him here, and it was Sinan's birthday, everyone would inevitably think about that.

Sinan has a shy personality. She is the kind of girl who is very strict in her family. She doesn't look over there. She just stares at the white reflective dinner plate in front of her, but her ears are so red that they are about to bleed: "Don't mess around. That said, he doesn't like me."

The talking girl smiled: "You'll know if you like it or not."

The girls opened their eyes wide, including Yue Yan: "How do I try this?"

Can the public force him to admit it?
"Look at me," the girl blinked, suddenly raised her voice, and called her solemnly, "Sinan."

The voice was so loud that half the restaurant people looked over, not to mention the boy who was paying attention to their movements.

Si Nan was so embarrassed that he was about to cry, and reached out to cover her mouth: "What are you doing?"

The girl is the type of the big sister in their class, she is bold, generous and somewhat informal: "The passer-by has been chasing you for so long, when did you promise her!"

Yueyan was puzzled, and asked the girl next door in a low voice: "Who is Passerby A?"

The girl laughed secretly: "She made it up."

Sinan's eye circles were almost reddened by her, feeling aggrieved and frightened, he choked up and said, "You, if you talk nonsense like this again, I'll leave."

Yueyan also persuaded: "Okay, Xiaochen, stop making such jokes."

Soon, the girls received the effect of the joke.Zhang Jun, who had been wandering around for a long time, finally came over. This was also the first time Yueyan saw the legendary suitor of Sinan. He was tall and thin, with extremely white skin, a bit like Gu Tianle who hadn't "blackened" in the early days.

With such a table of girls, he could only see Sinan: "Then who, can you come with me..."

How many times in life can I see Gu Tianle blushing, eyes dodging, red all the way to the neck.

This is too cute.

The girls at the table were holding back their smiles, their eyes were all looking in one place.Si Nan stood up without saying a word, and obediently followed him out. When he was far away, a table full of people couldn't hold back their laughter.

The laughter is as crisp as big pearls and small pearls falling on a jade plate, and the girl's shyness and restraint are scattered cleanly. The backs of boys and girls walking away one after the other are also frozen into the best memories of their birthdays.

After eating the buffet, Yueyan left everyone alone and walked to the bathroom. After washing her hands and face, she came out while flipping through the tissues in her bag. When she passed someone, she was grabbed by the arm, which made her almost stagger, and her heart sank. Thinking who it was, who was so rude, when he turned his head, it wasn't Shen Ziqiao, who else.

Half leaning against the wall, with a cigarette in his hand, he looked at her jokingly: "Why are you girls so boring?"

It took Yueyan two seconds to react before realizing that he was talking about the prank he played on Zhang Jun on the table just now.

In fact, she doesn't feel bored at all. On the contrary, there is a warm feeling flowing in her heart all the time. This feeling can't be explained to boys. She has witnessed the most beautiful moment of a relationship with her own eyes-it is not the death and obsession, but the love between men and women. Wu Chengfu tried each other and waited for each other.

When she was in a good mood, she also had a good expression towards him. Her small face was shiny and pink, and it was white and red from the heat, and her eyebrows looked particularly beautiful: "Why are you here? I didn't see you just now."

"I came with Zhang Jun and the others. I just arrived not long ago."

"How did you get here?"

"call taxi."

After being speechless for a while, Yue Yan stopped on the spot for a second or two, and said, "Then, I'll go first."

With his arm still in his hand, Shen Ziqiao didn't intend to let go at all, and smiled: "Why do you run away when you see me, why are you in such a hurry?"

"My classmate is waiting for me."

"Let them wait, and throw you away."

The atmosphere has visibly changed.Yue Yan looked up at him.

Shen Ziqiao leaned against the wall relaxedly, took the cigarette to his mouth, and inhaled lightly and slowly. In the hazy diffused smoke, the boy's brows were straight and his eyes were mature and sharp.

Yueyan's heart beat fast for a second, and she heard his hoarse and deep smile: "Has anyone ever chased you like this?"

How to describe the tone of this question, casual and careless, whether she said yes or no, it didn't seem worthy of his attention.

She thought about it and said, "No..."

Shen Ziqiao smiled lightly, raised his hand to cover her hair and patted his heart a few times, and said: "If someone chases you like this, remember to be fierce, don't let people chase you so easily, you know?"

If Yueyan could be a little older, or have seen the world better, she would definitely stop him from going back and not let him be so complacent: Isn't it clear that I'm going to chase you?

A girl is still a girl after all, she can't say such powerful words, and she can't act like a stern person.Her heart was beating faster and faster, it was almost uncontrollable, her face burned for no reason, and she looked at him dry-mouthed.

She also didn't know how she became like this.

Taking away the cigarette, Shen Ziqiao lowered his eyes and repeated clearly: "Do you know?"

On the way back, under repeated questioning from the girls, Sinan finally confessed shyly: "I made an agreement with Zhang Jun that no one would think about it when we were in high school, and we will talk about it after we graduate from high school."

Although the relationship is "up in the air," she still has confidence in the future in her voice.

This incident also narrowed the distance between the girls unprecedentedly. On the night when they returned to the dormitory, the girls huddled in their respective quilts and chatted until very late. The secret love that dared not say anything was completely vented in this night.

Feelings resonate, as long as you have loved someone secretly and hopelessly.

In the darkness, someone asked her: "Yueyan, do you have someone you like?"

She froze for a moment.

Love seems too far away from them at this age, and liking seems to be a very easy and casual thing. We use the word like to make sentences almost every day. So, what is real like?

Like Shen Ziqiao did to her?
The question is, does it mean that you like it when you say sweet words?

Will he treat others with such "like" in the future?

Pressing the back of her hands sideways, staring at the darkness, Yue Yan seemed to speak softly after a long time: "No, I have never liked anyone."

The dormitory became quiet again, because the moon came out and shone in through the half-drawn curtains. Everyone was involuntarily attracted and looked out.

The exercise books that the girls had spread out were exposed to the pale moonlight, and a gel pen was placed across the spine of the pages.

Ethereal and uncertain, half-bright and half-ambiguous, too much like the mood of the girl at the moment.

There are only the last few months left, and even if I have one life, I will risk my life on the college entrance examination.No matter what generation of students the college entrance examination is, it is a thorn in the heart. Even if the thorn is taken out, there still seems to be something aching there.

Now Yueyan only goes home once in two weeks, but when the week comes when she should go home, her father calls her and tells her that because he is going on a business trip to other places, she will be able to study in the dormitory with peace of mind.Yueyan didn't notice anything different, so she calmly put down the half-packed things, and received a call from Shen Ziqiao at night, asking her where she was, and she said she was studying in the library.He asked her which floor and which district, she told him everything, and he came over with a book not long after he hung up the phone.

After all, the library is still dominated by scholars. There are many people and it is not eye-catching.

Shen Ziqiao pulled out a chair and sat down opposite her, Yueyan immersed herself in reading comprehension, she didn't know what was going on today, her hand was blunt, her writing was stumbling, and her eyelids kept twitching.

At this time, the elder sister Shen Xin'er called again and asked her what she was doing, she said she was studying by herself.After exhorting her, she hung up the phone.

When the phone vibrated for the fourth time, she clicked her tongue at a row of girls, and gave her a sideways look with resentment and disgust, as if asking "Is there an end?"

Shen Ziqiao looked up at her from the opposite side, Yueyan walked out with her mobile phone, and it was Li Huifen who called.She seldom took the initiative to call her, most of them were about Shen Ziqiao.According to the rules, she called her first: "Mom."

"Yanyan." Her voice was a little hoarse, which was different from usual, which made her look so strange, "Yanyan." She called her twice in succession, as if hesitating.

"What's wrong mom?"

"Your grandma is gone."

It's too old a saying, Yueyan couldn't digest the deep meaning behind "no more" for a while.Gone?What's missing?Jade bracelet?She gave it to her to wear it, and bless her to be safe in this life.

Shen Ziqiao's voice fluctuated from far to near, her heart fluctuated from hot to cold, fluttering in the icy water, how could the phone be so heavy, she couldn't even hold it.

Li Huifen sped up her speech: "Yan Yan, now is the most critical time for the college entrance examination, you can't be distracted, grandma died suddenly because of a cardiovascular infarction, your father has already flown to Jilin, and it will be here in the afternoon, wait After the matter is settled, I will ask him to call you, the most important thing for you now is to review with peace of mind."

Someone took the mobile phone, Shen Ziqiao supported her shoulders, bent down to look at her, as if looking at a caged animal.

"I want to go back to Jilin." The pain came quickly and fatally, and she was also surprised at her calmness at the moment, "I want to see my grandma."

Shen Ziqiao deserved it very happily: "I will accompany you."

In fact, they didn't even pack their clothes. He went to ask her and his class teacher for leave respectively. The teacher thought it was a big deal and asked a male teacher to take them to the airport. He followed her to Jilin, and yelled at him on the phone regardless of his appearance: "Why are you joining in the fun! Come back to me!"

They were already sitting in the taxi going to the airport, the taxi was driving forward quickly, the streets were criss-crossed, sweeping colorful lights and shadows on them, he sat not close to her, but for the first time It made Yueyan feel that as long as she stretched out her hand, he would be there.

Shen Ziqiao calmly explained to Li Huifen: "Mom, I don't worry about Yanyan going back alone."

They set off from Hangzhou Xiaoshan Airport. Because the plane was late, the flight was delayed for nearly two hours. These two hours were enough for Li Huifen to notify her father. Dad called her mobile phone to persuade her not to be emotional. There are still a few months left before the college entrance examination. He'll take care of things later.She insisted on going, but her father was so anxious that he didn't dare to scold her for being ignorant on the phone. He just said: "There are your aunt and uncle here in Jilin, and they all blame your stepmother. They agreed not to tell you. What can you do when you come?" Busy? Grandma has already left, what matters now is the college entrance examination."

She vibrated hazily and writhed, because of her father's indifference, and because of the adult's emotions, it turned out that she was always so penny-pinching.Grandma is gone, but he just wants to hide it from her and let her concentrate on taking the college entrance examination. An exam is more important than the closest relatives.At that moment Yueyan even felt that she hated her father, he was too selfish and ruthless, he hurt her and grandma's heart.

She said: "But grandma is watching me from the sky, she knows whether I have come to see her for the last time."

Gao Zhiming was silent for a moment, and finally gave up, saying, "Which airport are you getting off at? I'll ask your uncle to pick you up."

Because she bought two overbooked tickets, she and Shen Ziqiao were the last ones to receive the boarding pass, and the airport made an exception and upgraded them to first class.She fell asleep when she found a place, and Shen Ziqiao asked for a blanket to cover her, she was drowsy, her mind was in a mess, but she knew very well in her heart that grandma was gone, and there was one less person who loved her the most in this world.She pressed against her own arm, couldn't hold back her tears at all, buried her face in her sleeves, and finally let herself cry aloud at a height of thousands of feet.

She had a dream, dreaming of heavy snowfall in Jilin, a heavy snowfall like tearing wadding and throwing cotton, and the boundary between the sky and the earth could not be seen clearly.She was walking in the snow, falling and falling, only thinking about going to see her grandma, the heavy snow cranes were fluttering, as if the heavenly beings were sawing a ladder, and something was pressing down on her from the top of her head.The wind was too strong, blowing like cutting her face, she walked exhaustedly, as if there was a wildfire burning in her heart, her internal organs and six lungs were cooking in a pot, she was so anxious that her body was out of control at all, and there was only one thought in her mind: it was too late It's too late to see grandma for the last time.

Eyes reddened with anxiety, she wept uncontrollably, woke up from the dream, and heard someone beside her calling her nickname, she was reluctant to open her eyes, and vaguely had an idea in the dream that could support her to go on, and she could see her when she went down. To grandma's last side.But as long as she opens her eyes, she will return to reality, in this reality, her grandma has left her.

Shen Ziqiao said, "Yanyan, drink some water."

Yue Yan turned her head wearily, not wanting him to see her face.There was no moment when she hated him as much as she does now, and she hated herself even more. She didn't want anyone to approach him, and she didn't want anyone's hypocritical comfort.It has never been possible to empathize. She doesn't want other people's comfort. She knows that they can't have the same situation as her. Grandma is gone, but her own grandma is gone. Everyone is fine, but hers Grandma is gone.

She was very mean to Shen Ziqiao on the plane, but when he got off the plane and sat in his uncle's private car, he still let her lean on his arm without saying a word, even if his heart was rock-solid and full of hatred and hatred the second before, he was still the same in this second. Weak as a melting snowman, at this moment, Shen Ziqiao was the one who gave her shoulders, but even if it was Shen Ziqiao, she didn't have the strength to push him away.

He is not very good at comforting people, and he may know that any comfort is just a scratch. He covered her sweater with his coat. At the end of spring, the temperature difference between the north and the south is still large.

"She's not cold." Her voice was weak in the dark back seat of the speeding car.

"Wear it," he was more stubborn than her, "it will be cold when you go out."

Funerals in rural areas pay special attention to rituals. The mourning hall is set in the main hall, and the portrait of grandma in the black and white photos smiles quietly at her.Gao Zhiming rushed in and out, arranging relatives and friends from other places who came to the funeral, loudly directing the placement of banners at the scene, and did not notice her appearance. It was the eldest aunt who brought white coarse linen clothes for her to change into, and blamed her for what she was doing.

"It's about to take the college entrance examination, isn't this causing trouble for your father?"

She let them fiddle with her in a daze, and turned around to find that Shen Ziqiao had also changed into his sackcloth, and came over to pat her on the shoulder. He could see how bitter she was, and she couldn't cry here.

Because Dad is the eldest son and the only son, he should preside over and decide all the funeral matters. He is so busy that he has to arrange seniority with relatives and friends from other places, and determine the ranking on the day of the funeral. Where did he make a mistake? He patted the table Arguing loudly and violently with the funeral team is like calling a subordinate a waste in the company.

"Who asked you to wear leather clothes for her? My mother is a dog."

There is a saying in Jilin that people who wear leather clothes to be buried can only be animals in reincarnation in the next life.

He scolded those people so badly that she felt very uncomfortable. What my father cares about is that the scene is sensational and beautiful. The filial sons and virtuous grandchildren are all there. The procedure can't go wrong. , does he know it in his heart?

At that moment, she even felt that she resented her father, resented his worldliness and ruthlessness, he ruined the mourning of this funeral, and behaved like a irascible middle-aged man, he only remembered his own face, only remembered With the reputation of the Gao family, they don't even know what it feels like to lose a loved one.

At this time, he came over and asked Shen Ziqiao to take her away first, because she was the only granddaughter, and she was also a monkey, which was in opposition to grandma's zodiac.The resentment in her heart was like a raging wildfire, and when it reached the point where she couldn't control it, she blurted out: "I'm not afraid, I want to keep watch, and I also want to send grandma away."

Dad was exhausted by being entangled in a mess of trivial matters, and he couldn't persuade her no matter how hard he tried, he was anxious and angry, and raised his hand to slap her across the mouth. The surroundings were very noisy, but not many people noticed what was happening on their side.

She suddenly raised a resentful face, watching Gao Zhiming's expression change in shock.

In Yueyan's more than ten years of life, the highest level of corporal punishment she received was to stand on a stool, not to mention beating her, even Gao Zhiming was reluctant to scold her.

Shen Ziqiao strode over to stop them between their father and daughter, and called Dad.Seeing this, the little aunt came over and tried to pull her away, but she refused, covering her face with her sleeves, tears fell unscrupulously, and her emotions broke through the gate, surging out, and she asked her father in tears: "Grandma is gone, why are you Is it not sad at all?"

"Dad's words don't work? Now you go back to my room."

Shen Ziqiao didn't know where to get a wet towel, and asked her to apply it to her face. She sat on the edge of the bed, crying and crying, wishing to cry out her whole heart, so they would know how much she cared.Shen Ziqiao sat on the chair beside the bed, and after a while, she tore a piece of tissue for her to wipe her face.

Only then did she realize how powerless her teenage self was.

The towel was wet from her crying, as if it had just been fished out of the water, Shen Ziqiao raised her chin, wanting to see how the finger marks on the side of her face were.He was too tall, especially when he was still standing, bent down to look at her eyes like bright stars, lightly tapped her cheek with his fingertips, frowned slightly, and the corners of his mouth were tightly pursed, and asked her, "Does it still hurt?"

Fortunately, he didn't say stop crying, otherwise she would definitely cry even more.

Yue Yan shook her head while sobbing.

He said: "Grandma is gone, Dad must be very sad too, but he is the head of the family, he can't fall down and cry, you have to understand him." After a pause, he comforted her as if sighing, "Go to sleep first." , When you wake up, you will find that everything will be fine."

As soon as Shen Ziqiao moved, she immediately opened her eyes vigilantly. In fact, he just walked to close the bedroom door, blocking the suona whimpering from the hall. Seeing her looking at him, he said gently: "Go to sleep, I will Watching you by my side."

"are not you sleepy?"

"I fell asleep on the plane."

Yueyan was exhausted, and the heartbreaking journey had overdrawn her physical strength.Hearing Shen Ziqiao's promise, she was relieved and fell asleep on her back. As soon as her head touched the pillow, the grandma's breath in the quilt aroused her sadness again. This time she closed her eyes tightly to stop the tears in her heart.

A night without dreams.

In the middle of the night, the wailing of the vigil awakened her, Yueyan sat up in panic, staring out of the window, the curtains were drawn tightly, and the room was not lit, as if she was the only one in the dark.

This feeling made Yueyan feel terrified, making her think that she had been abandoned by everyone, she wrapped her arms around her knees, and called Shen Ziqiao tentatively without any expectation.

A hand touched hers, the palm was warm, and after holding it, he said hoarsely, "I'm here."

"Grandma..."

"It's already buried."

She listened to the crying outside the window, as if riding a time machine back to her childhood, she couldn't tell the time, space and place for a while.How old is she, where is she, is she still five or six years old, nestled in grandma's arms and listening to Cowherd and Weaver Girl.

Boyhood whistling away, so farewell.

"Why don't you go to sleep?"

"I promised to stay with you."

Didn't realize how strange this sentence was, but couldn't help but thumped softly, knowing that the person was there, although there was no guarantee that he could stay with her for a long time, but he was there at this second, and he didn't walk away, letting her understand her own Not alone, they grieve together and mourn together.She didn't ask any further, and he didn't make a sound, allowing time to quietly slip away from them, watching the sky light up inch by inch.

Every day is new, so every day they should be new.

In the early morning, Gao Zhiming came to knock on the bedroom door, Shen Ziqiao opened the door for him, and walked away, leaving room for her and her father.Gao Zhiming sat down by the bed, she turned her back to him and pretended to be asleep, he stroked her hair and called her face guiltily.

He didn't hide it, and he didn't make any excuses. The boss of the company, who is in his forties, expressed his apology to his daughter in the most frank way: "Yan Yan, I'm sorry, Dad was wrong."

Those tears that only flowed to the bottom of her heart fell from her eyes in an instant.

"Daddy shouldn't hit you, you're a good boy."

He stroked her hair and said softly, "It's not that Dad is disobedient. Dad is afraid of attacking you. Dad can't take any risk on you."

In a calm tone, he said the following sentence that broke her heart.

"Yanyan, father is just like you, and without mother, you are the only one left in this life."

From then on, there is nowhere to come from in life, only the way home.

(End of this chapter)