pastoral wedding

Chapter 102
But Yun Ming choked up, a big man shed tears in front of Su Jin, Su Jin was at a loss, the anger just now turned into air and disappeared without a trace, just as he was hesitating, he heard him say slowly: " I have known her since I was a child. If it weren't for the accidents in my family, maybe we would be together very well now, but I am no longer the person I used to be. I have traveled around with Master for so many years, and I came back here to see you again. When I saw her, I was glad and happy, and I couldn't help but want to see her. I knew that I was guilty, but I couldn't help it. I sincerely hoped for her, but I couldn't give it to her. I would stay away from her. Maybe slowly, she will forget about me."

"Yunming..." Looking at his back in light gray monk robe, Su Jin suddenly felt sad, thinking about what he said just now, "If it weren't for the accident in my family, maybe we would be together very well now", if ?Maybe?She looked up at the sky, there will never be ifs and maybes in this world, because she has been thinking, if she hadn't come to this era, maybe she would be more relaxed than now, right?But she still made it through, and she still had to work hard to make a living. Sometimes people have to accept their fate.For some reason, she suddenly remembered that she saw a person in this book in her previous life. That person was Tsangyang Gyatso, the sixth Dalai Lama. He once wrote a poem, as if it was written for Yunming.

Yunming hadn't left the thatched cottage for several days. When he woke up early this day, he pushed open the fence gate, and saw a strip of cloth tied to the peach tree beside the gate. The pink color was like a girl's dress. He left When I untie it in the past, I saw a poem written on it: I once thought that being too sentimental would damage the holy life, and I was afraid that I would not fall into the city when I entered the mountain. .The world is safe with both dharmas, and you will live up to the Tathagata and live up to you!
He was so fascinated by it, he kept repeating the phrase "the world is safe and secure, and you will not lose to the Tathagata and not to your Qing", the corners of his eyes were already moist.

When Su Shuang went to Yunchan Temple on the first day of the new year, Liu Shi still asked Su Jin to follow her, but Su Jin went back to Liushu Village after leaving the house. She felt that there was no need for her to go again, and she believed that Yun Ming could handle everything well. .

In Yunchan Temple, Yunming still got up early to give lectures on the scriptures. He seemed to be serious about the lectures, but only he knew how absent-minded he was.Moreover, his gaze was erratic, always falling on a certain familiar position, until Su Shuang appeared in his field of vision, his heart settled down peacefully.The following scriptures were taught very smoothly, perhaps because the heart has a place to rest.

But after the lecture was finished, he didn't wait for Su Shuang as usual, but got up and strode out before everyone left.Su Shuang hurriedly followed and stood up, but when she chased outside the door, there was no one there, not even his thatched hut.

Su Shuang panicked, grabbed a passing young monk and asked, "Can you see where Master Yunming has gone?"

The monk really knew about it, so he said, "Uncle Yun Ming went to the back mountain, where he used to collect medicine." Su Shuang didn't panic anymore, and brought two servant girls into the back mountain.The mountain behind Yunchan Temple has no name. Because Yunchan Temple is so famous, everyone also put this mountain into Yunchan Temple. When it comes to it, it is just a few words. passed.

The back of the mountain is covered by tall trees, and even the sun can only shine in for a few minutes. The ground is covered with moss, and it is slippery to step on. Su Shuang walked carefully, and the two maids had already left her behind. Outside the mountain gate.Suddenly, the sound of the flute sounded not far in front, and the sound of the flute whimpered, as if a person was sobbing, full of sadness.Su Shuang was deeply concerned, and instinctively felt that the person should be Yun Ming, and walked forward following the sound. On a crooked tree trunk, there was a young man in monk uniform playing the flute, and that was clearly Yun Ming.

"You came here so that I can find it easily." She forced a smile, she seemed to know in her heart that he was hiding from her on purpose, but she didn't want to spread the matter out, lest she would lose more , She thought she was not a person who was afraid of this and that, but now she was really afraid.

The sound of the flute suddenly stopped, Yun Ming obviously didn't expect her to follow, and when he was about to turn around, he stopped abruptly, and asked indifferently, "Why did you find me here? Is there something wrong?"

"It's okay." Su Shuang refused to leave, instead she took two steps forward and sat down beside him, "It's the first time I've heard you play the flute. I heard you said that you would play it occasionally. I didn't expect it to be so beautiful."

"I seldom play this, but it's good to play once in a while. It can relieve the boredom in my heart." Yun Ming shook the flute in his hand, and then placed it on a tree trunk beside him.

"Are you unhappy?" Su Shuang asked cautiously, not at all like her usual straightforward temper.Yun Ming also felt it, turned his head to look at her, stared at her for a long time, and let out a long breath, "You don't have to treat me like this, we are friends, we know each other's temperament, so don't be so careful, I won't be angry."

Su Shuang agreed, and the two looked at the shade of the tree in front of them and stopped talking.For a while, the woods were quiet, only the sound of birdsong from time to time.After a while like this, Su Shuang suddenly leaned her head on Yun Ming's shoulder, "Yun Ming, do you have something to say to me?"

He hadn't had any physical contact with a woman for so many years. As soon as her head leaned over, Yun Ming's body stiffened immediately. Hearing her question, his heart tightened again, and his face rarely showed a bewildered expression. Su Shuang laughed when she saw it, clapped her hands and said with a smile, "You are really nervous."

When she made such a fuss, Yun Ming relaxed and smiled, "Yes."

Su Shuang thought for a while, calmed down and asked again, "What do you want to say to me? You won't drive me down the mountain, and you will never see me again, right?" She tilted her head, with the expression that a young girl should have on her face. Feeling shy, Yun Ming's heart immediately became agitated, and he silently recited a few Buddhist words before calming down.

"I think, you really don't want to come here often in the future. I am a monk, and you are an unmarried young girl from Yunying. If people find out, it may damage your reputation."

"I'm not afraid, you know me, I don't care about these all the time."

"But I do care." Yun Ming withdrew his smile, "Our friendship is something that happened when we were young, and now we can see each other again, thanks to the blessing of the Buddha, if you want more, you will inevitably feel greedy." Said Then he recited a few Buddhist names.

Su Shuang bit her lips and remained silent, but her heart was full of twists and turns, she didn't know what to say.

Yun Ming picked up the flute beside him and stood up, chanted a Buddhist name, and said slowly, "Do you remember what I told you when we first met?"

"You said that I have a predestined relationship with you."

"That's right, Dependent Origination is gone, Dependent Life is empty, our karma is over, and it will be difficult to see each other again after that." Yun Ming was about to leave after speaking, Su Shuang hurriedly stood up and grabbed him, staring at his lips Eyes, "What do you mean by that?"

Yun Ming moved away sideways, "Benefactor, please respect yourself," he said and raised his head to meet her eyes, "Benefactor, there is a definite destiny for the origin and extinction, you and I had a destiny before, and now that the fate is over, we should each go away , no longer entangled."

"I don't want to!" Su Shuang quickly took two steps to stop him, "What's wrong with you? I didn't expect anything, can't we continue to meet like now? You will still be your monk, and I will still be from the Su family." Second girl, isn't it good for us to do this?"

Facing her pleading in a low voice, Yun Ming felt that his heart was going to be broken, but Su Jin was right, he and her would never have a result, so why bother with each other, in the end it was the two who suffered.Thinking of this, he turned around and left without saying a word.Su Shuang wanted to chase after her, but she stopped after taking a step. She had her own pride, and this man's confidence was so firm. She didn't want to see her again, so she wouldn't even give her the extra side. So what if you put all your dignity and pride on the ground?

The mountain wind brushed her cheeks, she suddenly shivered, squatted down and hugged her shoulders, tears flowed silently, only wetted the sleeves and the ground below.

After returning home, she locked herself in the room, refused to take a step out, refused to say a word, just sat there so quietly, her mind was in a mess, she didn't know what to think, I don't know what to think.

Su Jin just came back from Liushu Village during dinner, and was arrested by Mrs. Liu when she entered the house, "Your second sister locked herself in the room when she came back from Yunchan Temple, neither eating nor drinking, go and see her What exactly is going on?"

After Su Jin heard it, she knew what Yun Ming had said to her. The second sister was sad, but even if she knew it, what could she do? In the face of this kind of thing, no matter how powerful the words were, they would be useless.

"Let her go, mother, don't disturb her, just wait until she figured it out on her own." She said this, but she thought in her heart that she would go to Yunchan Temple tomorrow and see Monk Yunming again.

Mrs. Liu nodded, and asked again, "Did your grandmother tell your second aunt about Qiao'er?"

"If Second Aunt knows, do you think she will stay silent? I'm afraid she would have found our house long ago." Su Jin sighed, "However, Third Aunt's life at home is not very good. Bring their mother and child back."

"Why not?" Mrs. Liu was surprised, "Your grandmother will definitely not make trouble for her. Your second aunt is not a fuel-efficient person, but can your grandmother let her do whatever she wants?"

Su Jin sighed, "Second aunt doesn't dare to say it clearly, but she always runs on third aunt in private. Fortunately, third aunt is cheerful, otherwise she will be bullied to death by her, and Brother Xu and Xiao Di are always bullied by Sister Mei. Bullying with Qing girl, the two children can't eat or touch all day long, and it's time to grow their bodies, so it's not a solution for such a long time."

Mrs. Liu nodded, "That's right. I'll discuss with your father when he comes back and see when we can bring the three of their mothers back." The mother and daughter chatted for a while, and Su Jin said that she was tired and went back to rest. Shi also let her go and didn't say anything more.

(End of this chapter)