Reborn Totalitarian Queen

Chapter 861 The shame of subjugation, deliberate deliberation (3)
The woman in front of her is no longer young, and her temples are faintly weathered.

It's hard for her to think of how youthful and agile she was when she was young, with a smile like a flower. Only in her memory, this woman has always been a kind of graceful, noble, cold and indifferent existence.

"Aunt, is it worth it?" Song Chuxi just felt sore, so she asked.

Using her body as a bait, she buried herself deep within the golden walls of the palace city, and hibernated for 30 years, just waiting for an opportunity to fulfill the glory of her family and the ambitions of those men.

How long is a person's life?
She is trapped in the palace alone, with no heart and no love, especially in this harem, a woman who has no children in her life, how desolate and terrible is this?

Knowing that the first emperor had ulterior motives in welcoming her into the palace, whether he loved her or not, he would not give her a child just out of his fear of Nantang.

After taking this step, it is tantamount to admitting that this life will inevitably end with no one to support.

What kind of determination and belief does this have to make her walk on this road without hesitation?

does it worth?Not worth it?

Why didn't Empress Dowager Song ask herself this question repeatedly, but whether it was worth it or not, she knew she had no choice.

Empress Dowager Song smiled wryly, "Is it worth it - I've already been away all my life."

"..." Song Chuxi was dumb, but speechless.

The two were relatively silent, and the atmosphere in the hall became awkward for a while. At this moment, there was another rush of footsteps outside the hall, followed by someone knocking on the door.

The three masters and servants looked up in unison.

Because she had already realized something, when Nurse Zhuang was nervous, she couldn't help but turn slightly pale, and called out in a low voice, "The Queen Mother..."

Song Chuxi also frowned and looked at Queen Mother Song.

Empress Dowager Song had a calm expression on her face, she just nodded slowly and said, "Sooner or later, what should come will come."

There are two halls inside and outside, and the chair Song Chuxi was sitting on was in a corner, because the sound of footsteps coming from outside was only from one person, so she just sat there without moving.

Nanny Zhuang looked at Empress Dowager Song worriedly, and turned around helplessly after a while to open the door.

A little eunuch stood at the door with low eyebrows, holding a tray with a jug and an empty cup in his hand.

When Nanny Zhuang saw these two things, her expression changed immediately.

The little eunuch didn't speak, just knelt down and lifted the tray above his head.

Even though she had been mentally prepared for a long time, Nanny Zhuang couldn't hide the trembling and anger in her heart, "You—" She wanted to say something angrily, but she heard the cold voice of Queen Mother Song from inside, "Bring it in! "

Nanny Zhuang's words got stuck in her throat.

Knowing that the emperor wants her life, how can this woman be so calm?

The little eunuch was so surprised that he couldn't help raising his eyes a little, and glanced into the hall from the corner of his eyes.

The carved door between the inner and outer halls separated her, and she could only see half of the noble and graceful woman.

His face was solemn and solemn, without the slightest sadness of dying.

Nanny Zhuang hesitated for a while longer before gritting her teeth to take the tray, so the little eunuch didn't stay any longer, stood up and said: "The servant will come to clean it up before dark."

Nanny Zhuang suppressed the anger in her heart, and didn't tell herself to explode on the spot.

After the little eunuch finished speaking, he still stepped back with his eyes lowered.

Nanny Zhuang closed the door, returned to the inner hall with the tray in both hands, with tears in her cloudy eyes, she pressed the corners of her lips forcibly.

Empress Dowager Song looked back as usual, and nodded slightly, "Leave it alone."

Nanny Zhuang's mouth moved, but she couldn't speak in the end, she just obediently placed the tray on a small table far away in the corner.

Song Chuxi's eyes froze, and she frowned in silence. The Empress Dowager Song said, "I'm afraid this turmoil will explode before the end of the year. The emperor's injury is not serious, and even if he recovers, it probably won't last long." It's too late, you've always been a thoughtful person, and there's no need to say any more about the Aijia, anyway, the imperial court is destined to be intolerable to us in Nantang, the seventh boy from Duanmu's family—"

The Empress Dowager Song said, thinking of all the things between Song Chuxi and Duanmuqi, she sighed, "He will never make things difficult for you."

She patted the back of Song Chuxi's hand again, and said earnestly: "Xi'er, my aunt has never been able to help you, but now I want to say one more word, you are a girl, sometimes you don't want to be so strong. When you are tired, let go of those burdens, and don’t force yourself blindly.”

It's just a girl, how big is her ambition?It's not that she doesn't understand that Song Chuxi has been holding on to the Song family, and a large part of the reason is for her, but if she persists like this again and again, the conflict between this girl and the Duanmu family will only intensify.

"Aunt—" Song Chuxi looked down at the hand she had landed on the back of her hand, but suddenly felt a huge sense of loss in her heart, "It's not that I don't want to let go, it's not that I'm going to fight for something, it's just that I dare not take this risk, I am afraid that one day I will have nothing and end up with a fate that can only be driven and manipulated by others."

She didn't even want to confirm with her own mouth whether everything the Queen Mother Song did in her life was for the benefit of the family and the morality of the country, or just to fulfill the man's ambitions, but no matter what, she did it just because she would end up like this Feeling sad about the end.

In her previous life, she had never loved Yin Shao, but when he was using her to trick her, she always felt so desolate and desperate, and it was really difficult for her to understand how the Queen Mother Song could support herself all these years.

Just for a man who never knew it could belong to her?She resolutely and without hesitation let her life down.

Song Chuxi looked up at the Empress Dowager Song's face again, and asked seriously word by word: "Auntie, have you really decided? Don't look back?"

If the Empress Dowager Song nodded and said that she was going to withdraw, she would spare no effort to resolve the crisis in front of her.

But is it just to turn against Beidi Yin's family?Anyway, sooner or later, she will turn her face. She doesn't have the obsession of Queen Mother Song. She insists on putting Duanmuqi's plan first, and she, Song Chuxi, dares to do anything.

Empress Dowager Song smiled, but she didn't know if it was more gratification or guilt in that smile.

She didn't answer Song Chuxi's words, but stood up and walked back to the window.

"At the age of 16, I met my father outside his study for the first time. I knew at that moment that I would never fall in love with anyone else in my life." Queen Mother Song's voice came, and her tone was still so faint. Yes, no joy or sorrow, even no special changes in facial expressions, but the mood of liking someone, in fact, only needs a little embellishment of the eyes to be clear at a glance.

(End of this chapter)