There is a girl named Xia Tong

Chapter 41

It's been three years!
She appears in my dreams every night:

In eerie darkness, a white spiral staircase,

Xia Tong, wearing the white dress she wore on her 24th birthday, was standing at the bottom of the stairs.

Her face was expressionless, and bright red blood flowed from the corner of her mouth, running on her white skirt.The red river is particularly dazzling against the white and black background.

Blood, kept flowing.

She didn't feel any pain.

Those empty eyes looked at me, and the voice was ethereal: "Xiao Mu, do you hate me?"

I am afraid, so black darkness, so red blood, so empty eyes, so empty tone.

And every time I wake up, Xia Tong is not there.

Yes, she wasn't there all the time.

Three years ago, she disappeared without warning.

And I have been living in the nightmare left by her.

A siren sounded, and I woke up with a start,
Did I actually fall asleep in the car?

I tried my best to adjust my breathing, but my heart was deserted: When will my nightmare end?
The scenery outside the window rushes by, hazy and confused, like taking a picture with a digital camera and someone hits you when you press the shutter. As a result, people, houses, trees, everything melts together.

I looked back, but suddenly found in the rearview mirror, among the rows of trees retreating rapidly, the nine-year-old Xia Tong was standing barefoot, looking at me silently.

I startled.

Looking back suddenly, there was nothing.Looking in the mirror again, there is only a piece of green left.

My heartbeat gradually slowed down.

As soon as he entered the house, he received a call from Zhou Ran.She asked how she was doing, and I said it was fine.

"Is there any news about Xu Fan?"

Zhou Ran's question caught me off guard.
"……No!"

She didn't pick up the topic, and said to herself: "I went to see Su Yun...and...Ouyang in the morning."

"...Really?" My heart hurts instantly.

"I'm going to Italy in a few days."

"Oh! I'll see you off."

"No. Don't cry when I get it."

We were silent like this for a long time. After a long time, Zhou Ran said softly:

"Well... When you see... Zichen, say goodbye for me."

"...You'd better go find him yourself!" I said awkwardly.She didn't speak, and waited for my explanation.

My heart was twisted like a knife: "Zichen and I... have lost contact!"

"...Xiao Mu..." After another period of silence, she seemed to want to say something.

"Ok?"

"...It's okay." She stammered, as if she wanted to tell me something but didn't want to say it.

Zhou Ran, the outspoken Zhou Ran, when did you become like this?

After a long time, she finally said: "...Take care."

"Well, you too." I replied.She hung up the phone.

The sound of "beep" in the receiver beat heavily on my already empty heart.

Zhou Ran is going to leave after all.

It was sunny outside, and I leaned back in my chair, wanting to turn around and look out the window.But my eyes accidentally glanced at the cardboard box on the top of the bookshelf, and my heart tightened suddenly, as if someone was twisting my heart hard.

After Duan Ze gave it to me, I never opened it.It's been so long, isn't it?
I took off the box, gently brushed off the dust on it, stayed for a long time, and finally slowly lifted the pale pink lid.There are several diaries scattered around inside.I glanced at the diaries casually. They were unlocked, clean and beautiful.

One book caught my attention, and it was bought by me and Tongtong together.It's been a long time!It seems to be eight or nine years!At that time, we were still in our youth. At that time, it seemed to be the summer vacation before the sophomore year.Once when we went shopping, the two of us chose two diaries that were exactly the same.

In fact, none of us have the habit of keeping a diary, but we do write occasionally, sometimes every few days, and sometimes it takes ten and a half months.

For some reason, I suddenly wanted to know what Tongtong remembered after that summer vacation.

It seemed that shortly after that, the train of time began to deviate from the expected track, and everything was out of control.Before I could react, they disappeared. I wanted to do something, but it was too late.

I have never been able to believe that the last words I said to her were: Xia Tong, I hate you!

But when I was about to ask her to forgive me, she disappeared.

She will never forgive me!At the darkest, darkest and most helpless time in her life, I hurt her in the most cruel and indifferent way and left her.

So, she disappeared!Completely disappeared from my life!
It's been almost three years, and there is still no news from her!I don't know where she is now, is she still blaming me.

I often wonder, in the days without us, would she, who is so lonely, often sit in front of the window, looking at the distant sky, in a daze?

Just like me all these years.

I haven't had a good time all these years, no, very badly.So I thought, if she knew my current situation, would she forgive me?

I held the notebook in my hand, and a corner of my heart suddenly felt a sharp pain. It seemed that something was hitting hard and was about to rush out of it...

Opening the diary, I saw Xia Tong's child-like handwriting.

Xia Tong's handwriting is always crooked, like a kindergarten child's writing.Especially when writing English letters, one by one is like biscuits.For this we all laughed at her all the time.

But she said nonchalantly: "Can you write biscuit-like characters?"

On the first page of the diary, there are only a few short lines:

Sunny August 8

For the sake of buying this diary today, I can barely write a sentence.

Well, my words are finished.

PS... just now Su Yun called to ask me for a favor, she thought it was a big deal, but she wanted me to persuade brother Ouyang, Zi Chen and Xu Fan to dance a dance at the freshman party.I said no problem.She also said that it would be best if you and Xiao Mu could also participate.I thought about it and said yes.

Freshman prom?It was a long time ago!
I gently closed my eyes, as if I went back to seven years ago...

(End of this chapter)