hard to let go

Chapter 37

Saturday.Leng Xi took Gao Xixi and Xu Chenxi took Chen Shaochen to the zoo together.The two children were so excited that they didn't feel tired all the way. After visiting half of the garden, Chen Xi couldn't take it anymore. She called the two children to stop and have a rest.

Chen Shaochen said with a smile, "Mom, you just lack exercise. Xixi and I didn't say we were tired, you can't even walk anymore."

Chen Xi shook her head, "Yes, let's take a rest with mom."

Chen Xi and Leng Xi sat on the wooden chairs at one side, while Xi Xi and Shao Chen were blowing bubbles in the open space in front of them.The two children usually don't like to play this game, but today they have the innocence that children should have.

Chen Xi squinted and looked at them, "Seeing the two of them, I thought of my childhood. When I returned to Xu's house at Xixi's age, I couldn't smile for a long time. Once, Chen Zhanbei came over , I gave a box of chocolates. Later, I thought it was just his hand, but I have never eaten such delicious chocolates in my life."

Leng Xi smiled, "Then ask Mr. Chen to buy it for you."

Chen Xi chuckled, "You think I didn't let you?" She paused, "I asked him that time, guess what he said? He forgot everything at all. Later I reminded him slowly, and he thought It’s good to get up, and casually told me that his classmate gave it to him, it seems to be a female classmate, but he can’t remember who it is.”

Leng Xi shook his head.

"Xiao Xi, I really understand now that there are some things that others don't care about, but there are always people who care about life." Chen Xi said softly, with a smile curled up at the corner of her mouth, and she breathed out, "Gu Weian got married a few days ago."

Leng Xi was slightly taken aback.The past has finally faded away in the scouring of time.Everyone starts a new life, no matter how traumatized they are.

Xu Chenxi and Gu Weian were finally wiped out bit by bit.

She looked at Shao Chen's eyebrows and eyes that resembled Chen Zhanbei, and Leng Xi blinked, "He finally came out."

There was a moment of silence.

Leng Xi pursed the corners of her lips, turned her head, and asked softly, "Chen Xi, have you ever hated him?"

Chen Xi's eyebrows and eyes still have the same shallow look, "I hated it!" She said sadly, "But I only hated him at that time. Because now I don't have any feelings for him."

In fact, the most painful person in this past is Gu Weian.After so many years, she heard that he only lived there, it was their wedding room back then.He still didn't let go.

Chen Xi looked at her quietly, "Xiao Xi, I had a miscarriage that year, if it wasn't for Gao Ziqun, maybe I would have passed away long ago."

Leng Xi lowered her face slightly.

"You never told me about you and him, so I didn't ask. Even Chen Zhanbei, I never said a word about you and Gao Ziqun. I know that when you want to talk is when you let go, I don't know how long I have to wait."

Leng Xi stared blankly at the front, raised her hand to pin her bangs that were blown by the wind behind her ear, "I received your call at that time, I was in a mess, it felt like when I cut a blade on my wrist The same as before, very scared. I was afraid that you would be as stupid as I was back then, so I called Gao Ziqun."

She took a deep breath, "I thought I would never go back in my life. But after going around and around, I still went back." Wherever I fell, I got up from where I fell.

"Chenxi, you don't know, but Xixi is actually his and I's second child."

Chen Xi was stunned, she clenched her fingers in disbelief. "That child—" she asked slowly, but she already knew the answer by heart.

"I did." Leng Xi only felt a tight pain in his chest, "At that time, my relationship with him was very tense. He was very good to me, but the good ones were a little unreal, and the good ones were not like the him I knew back then. Well, my heart is also—" She desperately held back the soreness in her breath, "When I knew I was pregnant, not long after, I received an engagement invitation." His name was written on it.

It turned out that he was really just playing with her.She is really stupid.

The most difficult thing to control in this world is the human heart, and what she hates the most is that she had a crush on him back then.

Chen Xi suddenly realized, she held Leng Xi's hand tightly, "Leng Xi, you are so stupid. In fact, we can all see that Gao Ziqun treats you—"

Leng Xi shook his head, "I have a deep estrangement with him. When I beat the child, I completely angered him."

That day, Washington was dead silent.

She dragged her tired body back.Gao Ziqun didn't know where he got the news, and he was furious. He stood in front of her with a stern face, and said with firm words, "Did you have a miscarriage?"

Leng Xi twitched the corner of his mouth lightly, "Yes."

His eyes instantly looked like raging beasts, and Leng Xi only felt a sharp pain in his jaw. "Why?"

"Why? I don't want this baby. I don't like you—"

"Lengxi, these days you really don't—"

"No!" Leng Xi said firmly, she stared into his eyes stubbornly, "Gao Ziqun, I won't like you. The person I love has always been Chu Hang. Why am I with you now? Don't you know yet?"

His bushy brows were deeply frowned, and the gloom on his face was like a tornado about to erupt.

Leng Xi always remembered the scene of that day.Gao Ziqun seemed to be crazy, and smashed everything in the house that could be smashed.Finally, he sat on the sofa slumped, with blood gushing from the broken wound on the back of his left hand.

"Get out! I don't want to see you again in my life."

It's just that she wanted to think it was the end, but she didn't expect it to be the beginning of the next paragraph.

Chen Xi listened to her talking intermittently, the sun shone on her face, creating a faint halo, Leng Xi's expression was so dazed that it was not real at all.

"After I came back from France, something happened to my father again." Boss Leng had always wanted to make a comeback, but this time he completely pushed himself to a desperate situation.

"You're back by his side again?" Chen Xi trembled with cold palms.

Leng Xi hummed lightly, "Yes, I asked him to help me. His condition is that I give him a baby." She raised her head slowly, the blue sky and white clouds were softly changing, and her eyes were full of tears. gray.

"I can help you, but I have one condition. I want a child. If you don't agree, you can leave now." Gao Ziqun said to her.

"Later I had Xixi, but my father found out about me and Gao Ziqun. He refused to live or die. He said that even if he was imprisoned for the rest of his life, he didn't want me like this. Later, he threatened death, and our mothers couldn't bear it. I took sleeping pills at that time. I told my father that I would not have a deal with Gao Zi. Gao Ziqun also knew about it—”

He was drunk that day, and when he came back, he didn't say anything, he just looked at her, and finally said softly, "Your father won't let me help him. Lengxi, if you don't want this child, you can It can be destroyed." He squinted his eyes, his eyes were blurred, and his face was very bad.

Leng Xi never thought about what kind of mood he was in when he said these words that day.It's just that now seeing how much he loves Xixi, Leng Xi really feels pain.

Gao Xixi left half a month after she was born.

On the day before leaving, Gao Ziqun didn't say anything.Secretary Sun brought a plane ticket and handed it to her.

"Xixi is a little crying, Mr. Gao is with her." Secretary Sun said softly.

Leng Xi took the plane ticket and left.

After 7 years, she came back.Time has not diluted everything, they are still unhappy.

"Mom—" Gao Xixi ran over, "There is no water, and I want to buy another bottle."

Leng Xi looked at the colorful bubbles in the distance, like a dream, she took ten yuan from her wallet and handed it to her, "Go and buy it yourself, be careful."

As soon as Gao Xixi turned around, he ran towards the department store beside him.

Chen Xi twitched the corners of her lips, she was still immersed in emotions.Some things are like drinking water, outsiders will never be able to point out one or two.Chen Xi is not Leng Xi, and will never understand her mood.But she only hoped that Leng Xi would be happy.

Gao Xixi and Chen Shaochen came to the department store. Gao Xixi bought two bottles, and the boss gave him 6 yuan in change. She put the money in her pocket, turned her head and said to Chen Shaochen, "Shaochen, you go back here, and I will go back from there." Let’s go back, let’s compete to see who gets there first?”

Chen Shaochen got excited, "Okay. If you lose, you'll have to wait for me after school."

Gao Xixi twitched the corner of her mouth lightly, "Then let's start."

Chen Shaochen ran away with a whoosh.Gao Xixi ran for a while, then turned back to the department store. "Boss, I need to call."

The boss looked at her, it was the little girl who just bought bubbles, and asked, "Where is your family, kid? Lost?"

Gao Xixi shook her head, "My mother is over there, I have something to say to my father." The boss handed her the phone.Gao Xixi stood on tiptoe and quickly dialed the button.

Gao Ziqun went to the old man's place today.Since that day, the father and son have been fighting each other.Mr. Gao gave him a good face.

When the phone hummed, he picked it up and looked at it, frowning slightly, looked at it in a daze, and connected impatiently.

"Father—" Gao Xixi's crisp voice came as soon as the call was made.Gao Ziqun was slightly taken aback, "Xixi, where are you now?"

"Mom brought me to the zoo. I secretly called you from the department store." Gao Xixi said quickly.

Gao Ziqun frowned slightly, "Hurry up and go back to your mother." His voice was a little heavy.

Gao Xixi turned her back, she knew that her mother was watching her all the time. "Dad, I miss you."

Gao Ziqun's expression gradually softened, and he hooked the corner of his mouth, "Okay, hurry back to mom."

Gao Xixi bit her lip, "Do you want me anymore? You don't want me when Wen Jun comes back, do you?" Gao Xixi raised his voice, "Dad, you don't want me, and I don't want you anymore." The more he said, the sadder he became , she raised her hand to wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes.

Gao Ziqun doesn't want her anymore, she is going to leave home.

(End of this chapter)