you touched my years

Chapter 2 The Truth Reborn
The stabbing pain in her chest brought Liu Xiaoyu back to her senses. She didn't look like her younger brother who just moved his hands and feet in the past. She felt strong fear in her heart and tried to back away, but she was already close to the wall and couldn't move. Her terrified eyes looked at him. Looking at the person in front of him, he said tremblingly, "You, what are you going to do?"

"Haha, what do you think I'm going to do? Of course I'm doing what my parents are doing now."

Sure enough, humming and chirping came from the non-soundproof room, and Liu Xiaoyu's face turned pale, ignoring the injury on her head, she held her collar tightly with both hands.

"Don't hide, don't you really want to leave it to a fool? Oh, no, you are not a virgin anymore, and you have nothing to keep. How can you pretend to me? I was played by someone more than ten years ago. You think I don't know? Playing with your brother now is considered your contribution to our family. "

As soon as Liu Caiyuan finished speaking, Liu Xiaoyu looked at the person in front of him in horror, how could he know.

"It's strange how I would know, right? Let me tell you, not only I know, but the whole family knows. The man has been gone for more than ten years, and you have been pretending to be stupid for more than ten years, like a clay figurine. Why, you just think about it now." Resist? Is it too late? You're getting married anyway, so it's okay to tell you.

Do you know why people left after eating everything?That's because you were accidentally seen by your younger sister. My younger sister told Mom, Mom and Dad ran to other people's houses to make trouble, and sued the other party for rape if they didn't give money. The family is rich and has plenty of money. No, It was 1 yuan and the matter was private, and my mother also promised that I would not let you pester others again.

Are you stupid, do you really think your mother threatened you to go to school and sue you for your puppy love, which would affect your admission?Come on, it's only you who foolishly believe that if you really talk about breaking up, you will be blamed if others don't leave.What do you think that guy would think if you took money from someone before, and you said you broke up later?Look, good sister, brother, I even told you this secret, so just let me get close..."

The big palm was floating on her body, the cold tingling and trembling made her vomit out in disgust, she couldn't bear this kind of nausea, Liu Yuancai smelled a sour smell, and the desire that had just arisen suddenly disappeared. It subsided, and couldn't help taking a step back, and said angrily, "Damn, I'm losing my spirit" and then slapped him across the face. Liu Xiaoyu was slapped with stars in his eyes, dizzy, and Liu Yuancai slapped her again. After kicking twice, he got up to wash off the stains on his body.

Looking at the people walking away, Liu Xiaoyu knew that Liu Yuancai would not let her go so easily today, if she didn't take advantage of this time to run away, her life would really be ruined, the Liu family knew that, In the end, it will only be her who will be unlucky. At this time, she doesn't know where the courage came from, so she stands up and rushes out the door.

The gloomy cold wind crowded around her thin clothes, and she didn't dare to make a pattering sound in the silent old street. The big shoes that didn't fit her feet had run away at some time, and her bare feet Ya was splashed with black mud on the muddy street, and the pain of the stones resting on her feet compared with the beatings she had experienced, was like a mosquito bite, which did not arouse her any pity.

She has been trapped in her own world for more than ten years, and it turned out to be such a ridiculous scene in the end. What kind of evil did she do to God to treat her like this? No wonder he walked so cleanly and unrestrainedly at the beginning, no wonder he knew that he was going to break up Sometimes it will be that kind of disappointed expression, no wonder he said "Our love is so cheap" Yes, at the beginning she didn't understand what it meant, but now, these words sounded in her ears again, she really said no irony.

For 1 yuan, she sold her love, her happiness, and the only emotion she cherished in her life, so what is the separation between her and Qiu Zeran, and what is the meaning?Now everything sounds like a joke, they are the ones who tell the joke, and although they are the protagonists, they also become the one who listens to the joke, how ridiculous and absurd...

She complained, hated, missed, she thought she was just a bed partner being played around with applause, she thought he understood her forbearance and concession, but she didn't know that all of this was just her imagination, her absurdity, her Resentment, her previous unwillingness and complaints seemed to be worthless at this moment.It's not that he's sorry for her, it's that she foolishly missed him...

The bare branches of the sycamore tree by the street fluttered with claws and claws, looking at her ferociously, as if they wanted to swallow her into the darkness.

Tears, no, dry and painful, making people want to rub them with their hands. It seems that this way they can see the distant world more clearly. She thinks that her 32 years of life seem to be in vain. She I can’t remember exactly how she came here. Every day in the factory, at home, two o’clock and one line, and then there are endless housework, and the rest is beaten. Her freedom and the sky seem to be trapped here. A touch of the courtyard cannot be stepped out.

What made her like this?Is it her cowardice, her compromise again and again?Those skies that were always gray in her world?There used to be a rainbow, but this kind of light was also wiped out by her own hands, leaving nothing but gray and white. In her memory, the only thing she still remembers is Qiu Zeran, and only Qiu Zeran is left, but this kind of memory is now It's just a ridiculous joke, what is she doing for, what is she for...

The wind was blowing, and the plastic bags and newspapers on the street were blown around, blowing towards her face to block the moonlight. There was darkness in front of her. She reached out and peeled off the newspaper on her face. The eye-catching headline caught her heart hard. It was painful to hold, and the blurry photo where only the outline could be seen clearly made her dry eyes finally get watered.

He was thinner, and when his fingers touched the paper, he seemed to be able to feel his sharp-edged outline, his thin cheeks, and those eyes that she couldn't see clearly, and the wind-blown coat couldn't cover his uprightness His figure just seems to be colder...

Even so, at this moment, seeing his appearance is still so heartbreaking, isn't it a joke?What is left after Qianfan crosses the border?

She would rather never know the truth, at least, she can still live in her own world without being disturbed by those blooming dreams.That way, she still had the courage to seek a piece of peace in the three thousand worlds, and smiled, those tears mixed with smiles wet the newspaper in her hand, blurring his appearance, making it impossible to see clearly again.

The flashing bright spots under the neon lights not far away made people's heart beat twice. Those bright spots made people want to get closer, and wanted to get rid of the shackles and troubles brought by this darkness urgently. She quickened her pace, and the only target was that one Direction, where there is light, you can see his face clearly, as well as the warm eyes in memory.

"boom……"

The bright red light not far away is close in front of her eyes, and she stretches out her hand to hold it in her palm. She seems to be holding happiness, holding hope... The night has become less long, and the unstoppable relief and hope seem to be on the horizon. In front of him, he was smiling, just like when he hugged her tightly in the snow that winter, making her lips curl up, rubbing the tightly pulled newspaper into the palm of his hand, that would be good...

If there is another life, we should not meet again, okay?Just me, just live for myself once, live a self, live a chic life, live another kind of life...

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As if her head was about to explode, Liu Xiaoyu opened her eyes in pain, the incandescent lamp was shaking above her head, and there was an old ceiling fan lazily hanging from the roof, looking around, dilapidated sofa, 17-inch black and white TV ,here?Why is this place so familiar? By the way, isn’t that bookshelf left behind by her grandfather when she was a child? Grandpa passed away in 99, and then the house was sold by her father, aunt and aunt, and the money was evenly divided. This set of old bookcases was worth a lot of money when I heard that it was made of rosewood. Liu Fagui moved it back home overnight. When she was 12 years old, the bookcase was sold for 5000. Liu Fagui was still excited for a while.

Here, why am I here, dreaming, must be dreaming.No, I was obviously hit by a car, how could this happen.Looking at the calendar on the bedside, on May 1999, 5, the "boom" head seemed to be blown open. Is it possible that I have returned to the past? Impossible, how is this possible?

Look at my hands, although they are still those hands, but they are white and tender, just like the hands of children, and there are no calluses from years of hard work, and there are legs and surroundings, all of which are telling She, at the most beautiful season when the crabapple flowers bloomed, she actually returned to the time when everything hadn't started yet.

The left eye was swollen and bright, and when she opened it, it hurt so badly. Liu Xiaoyu poked it with her finger, and the pain swept through her whole body in an instant, but such a real and strong feeling made her heart jump with joy.

In addition to the throbbing and excitement in her heart, she also has expectations and yearning for the future. She swears that her future will never be the same as before, only living in her own small world. The first half of her life was too tiring. It is purely a piece of white paper, Qiu Zeran painted on it with colors but forgot to fill in her own charm, she can only be a piece of floating waste paper, only she is her own salvation.

A woman who doesn't understand anything, an ignorant girl who has been abused for a long time and thought she found salvation, but was pushed hard, the only idea she can think of to save herself from being so tired is to live in her own world Li is not coming out.

Now that she is back, she is still the same. She can be innocent and ignorant, but she will never retreat again. She should learn to move forward, learn to think for herself, and live.Her world should also be wonderful, with blue sky and white clouds, and infinite hope and future. She wants to leave here, leave the Liu family, before all the tragedies begin, before meeting him who was hit , leave here, escape from here...

"Bang" the door was knocked open and hit the wall with a loud noise, which made Liu Xiaoyu turn her head and forget the past in shock. It's over, how could she forget, May 5th, which is her birthday, when she was 20 years old On this day, she knew her life experience and the day when she knew that she was not the biological daughter of the Liu family.

On this day, her left leg was broken. On this day, she was almost blind in the left eye after being kicked. Even later, the vision in this eye was only 0. At night, she could hardly see the road at all.What to do now, what to do?
Here we come, holding the sheets tightly, the fear and anxiety in my heart intensified because of the tapping of Deng Deng's leather shoes...

(End of this chapter)