I, from 1000 years ago

Chapter 80

"What happened next?" Seeing Lin Mo stubbing out the cigarette butt in the ashtray, Lin Jian asked impatiently.

"I was rescued later, otherwise why would I be sitting here." He seldom expressed his emotions in front of his younger siblings, let alone telling his heart of fear. Lin Mo did not describe in detail the ten days when he struggled in fear. Instead, it directly stated the result.

Lin Jian was taken aback for a moment, and then he was speechless. Asking Lin Mo to describe the fear in his heart in detail seemed to be a bit embarrassing for him.However, after all, she still did not give up and asked: "And then..."

"Then I couldn't stand the darkness for a long time, and at the same time, I didn't dare to board the ship."

"Don't dare to board the ship?" Lin Jian was surprised, "How can you go to the Starfleet Academy without getting on the ship, and the space must be dark!"

"After discovering my situation, my father took me to Polar Star. At first I did not admit my fear of darkness and ships, but when I went to Polar Star to take a boat, I still did not suppress the fear in my heart. It's just that I can't sleep, I can't eat." Seeing Lin Jian holding his breath and listening with wide eyes, Lin Mo felt that something seemed to be slowly invading his originally solid heart.

Perhaps because of his personality, he has always resisted being prying into his heart, let alone revealing his heart in front of others, so he has never had many friends. During his many years in the army, he only had two friends, Granshire and Edward.But even they didn't know that there was a time when he couldn't get on the ship at all.

For him, he has long been used to taking on everything by himself, and he thinks that there is nothing he cannot bear. This aspect comes from self-confidence, and just like things always have two sides, this kind of character also comes from a kind of dissatisfaction with the world. sense of trust.He grew up alone as a child, lost his mother when he was a teenager, and looking back now, even during the two years when his mother was alive, he was never happy.At that time, the mother's condition had already begun to flare up gradually, coupled with the pregnancy in the next year, the whole person had become moody, and the gentleness that gradually diminished was mostly given to the unborn twins and young siblings.

Lin Mo leaned back on the soft back of the sofa, with his palms covering his eyes, his slender fingers blocked the dark blue eyes, and also concealed the fatigue that suddenly appeared uncontrollably.

Lin Jian would not know the scars left on him by these years, even Lin Zi and Lin Hong would not understand.He also doesn't want them to know these trivial and moldy emotions, he just wants to be their big brother who can take care of everything.

But on such a quiet night, Lin Mo, who originally told his story because he was not good at enlightening him, detected her sympathy for him in the serious eyes on the opposite side.This discovery didn't make him angry or ashamed, on the contrary, he felt a long-lost relaxation and carefreeness.

The irritability originally caused by business affairs has disappeared at this time. Lin Mo put down the palm covering his eyes and looked at Lin Jian's cautious expression in the electronic crystal screen.

"I thought you were crying." Lin Jian felt like she was going crazy when she said this. Who is Lin Mo?He is the number one steel warrior in the universe, how could there be such a thing as tears, and at this time his dark blue eyes without water at all also showed that what he just said was a fantasy.But the moment Lin Mo blocked his eyes just now, she felt that Lin Mo seemed to have let go of the powerful aura that surrounded him all the time.He was sitting there quietly at this moment, with intermittent thoughts in his eyes, telling his own story.

What Lin Jian said made Lin Mo just smile, "After I persisted and arrived at the polar star, my father took me to the polar shell collection site. The two of us are like simple tourists, without entourage, just carrying Put on a backpack. The temperature of the polar stars is far below freezing point all year round, and only about [-] days are close to freezing point in each stellar revolution cycle. Those shellfish hunters who have made a living by picking shellfish for generations passed through the nearly ten-meter-thick rock at that time. The ice layer goes to the exposed layer of sand to collect polar shellfish. Although the temperature rise is a necessary condition for collecting polar shellfish, the rise in temperature also makes the ice layer not so strong. I stayed there for nearly ten days, every day Everyone will hear that the ice layer at a collection point has collapsed, so this is a very dangerous thing.

But they don't care about the danger that can be seen at any time, or they don't fear it. They think it is a part of their life.Although it is no longer the turbulent era hundreds of years ago, and there is no need to continue this dangerous work to maintain their own lives, they have been working day after day on this remote planet from generation to generation.

My father had a talk with me the night before we left Polar Star.He said that the emotion of fear is something that an individual will have, but how much depends on the target.Some people fear things that can be completely avoided in daily life, so avoiding them is not so shameful.However, when the thing you fear is a mountain that lies ahead of you, all you can do is either curl up at the foot of the mountain or climb over it. "

After thinking about Lin Mo's words carefully, Lin Jian shook his head, "But I'm not afraid."

"No, you just didn't realize it." Lin Mo also shook his head, "I think you have some similarities with my original situation, so I tell you this story. What we are afraid of is not the thing itself, the darkness , warships or the Hiku. Let me, what scares you is the loss of the future. My fear of the dark and the battleships lead to fear of future military career. And you are afraid of your own because of what you saw today. Choice creates doubt, and you fear that your choice is wrong and worthless."

To the point!Lin Jian stared at Lin Mo intently, with an expression of disbelief on his face.Lin Mo explained the problem that she could not explain the essential reason.

"Now can you tell me the real reason why you want to go this way?" Lin Mo didn't give Lin Jian a chance to breathe, and asked a sharp question that Lin Jian didn't know how to answer.

If she is indeed his sister, there are many explanations for the future choice.Born in a family of military generals, it is one thing to have been exposed to it since childhood, another is to have a backer behind him and have a bright future, and the worst thing is to worship the big brother.However, for Lin Jian, these were never reasons.

Lin Jian raised her head and looked at Lin Mo: "Maybe one day I will tell you. But now is not the time, please forgive me for my reservation." Lin Yuanzhe asked this question before, and Brandt asked her, but she didn't answer.Although the time spent with Lin Mo is a bit longer, it is not enough. The relationship between them is far from being able to tell this secret.

"Maybe you're right. I'm really confused about the future, but it's not out of fear of the future, but because my value orientation has hit a wall. I can't explain this, but I think you can understand. I Believe that you, like me, set foot on the battlefield not to maintain the parasitic dynasty that the nobles depend on!"

As soon as Lin Jian's words fell, Lin Mo stood up abruptly, strode towards the electronic crystal screen, and his face sank suddenly: "I warn you, don't mention these words to anyone again! No! Put this idea thoroughly Pull it out of your mind! You and I were born in this empire, did not produce, did not make even the slightest contribution to the country's finances, but enjoyed the highest education, the best life, and even received You are respected by the vast majority of people! Why is this? It is because you are a nobleman! Don't put on a face of contempt for the nobles! They are not born nobles, it is because their parents and grandparents have paid for this empire. Life! In order for human beings to continue to exist in the Milky Way, they have made a feat worthy of their descendants' respect!"

Lin Mo's words exploded above Lin Jian's head like lightning, these things were too far away for her.The era in which she has lived for more than 20 years has established a solid worldview for her, and she is still far from understanding the deep despair of human beings when they face extinction.In the era she lived in, there were heroes who sacrificed their lives for the country, but what the country bestowed was only personal honor, and perhaps a consolation money for the children of the family, but the practice of that era was that honor belonged only to individuals, but not to shadow Ze descendants.

Seeing Lin Jian's hesitant face, Lin Mo felt a little unbearable again, and couldn't help softening his tone: "Maybe this country has such and such drawbacks, but there is no perfect political system in this world, and they all have their own inevitable The problem is. We were born in the empire, you can be a person who has no worries about food and clothing, just drinks tea with friends and chats about life every day, then I will not have any restrictions on your thoughts. But since you have chosen this path , then no confusion is allowed! The safety of the empire and the interests of the people should never be borne by those who waver! Of course, you are far from having to think about these things now, and you are not qualified to take on these important responsibilities. Before that You just need to think, your friends, your family members are all citizens of the empire! You don’t need to strengthen your beliefs for those reasons that sound good to you now, you just need to think about the people you care about, in order to think The person you want to protect goes to fight, this can be your reason to fight."

To fight for someone you care about?Lin Jian lowered his eyes, maybe what he said was right.Although it hasn't been long since she came to this world, and there are no people who are deeply imprinted in her heart, there are still some people who are more important than the strangers living on the other side of the galaxy.Such as her "family", such as her friends.

When she looked up again, the blankness in her eyes had disappeared, and Lin Jian showed her own smile again, the kind of smile that was equal without any emotion, "Yes, I understand! I am ashamed , to trouble you late at night with this kind of problem, brother. Thank you for your advice!"

Lin Mo looked at Lin Jian in the electronic crystal screen regaining his familiar yet unfamiliar expression, feeling a little relieved in his heart, and faintly felt some pride that he had never had before. His little sister has really grown up .

"Very good. One more thing, I want to tell you, the Tisifer galaxy you mentioned to me earlier, your friend, the student of the Azuturan flight team, accepted the mission to investigate, and there are a few of you in the same company classmate."

"You mean Chen Jinglan?" Lin Jian frowned, "Then isn't she very dangerous?"

"There are indeed some unpredictable dangers." Lin Mo nodded, but changed his tone, "But this is her own choice!"

(End of this chapter)