thin marriage

Chapter 118
"...I'm sorry." Apart from these three words, Gu Chengyao really didn't know what to say.

"I'm sorry?" Bai Yanran's body softened: "Apart from being sorry, do you have anything else to say to me?"

The room was silent.

Gu Chengyao can really only say these three words to Bai Yanran.

Seeing her face as if being hit, Gu Chengyao couldn't bear it, but he couldn't be with Bai Yanran.

"Yanran, I know very well in my heart that both I and my parents owe you. I don't know how to make it up to you. If you can, if you beat me, or scold me, or even kill me, I will Not a frown."

"But, I can't be with you."

"But in this situation, I can't be with you. It's not fair to you."

"I'm already married. No matter what the reason was, it's a fact now. It's impossible for me to divorce. It's impossible for me to be responsible to you. Yanran, I hope you can understand."

"..."

Bai Yanran sat there motionless, her face was as pale as paper, and her eyes were lifeless.The whole person is like an eggplant that has been beaten by frost.

That look made Gu Chengyao unbearable for a while, he raised his hand, wanting to pat her on the shoulder, but finally put it down again.

Indecisiveness leads to disaster.He understands this truth.

"You, take care."

"Gu Chengyao."

Bai Yanran finally reacted, she stood in front of Gu Chengyao and refused to let him leave.

Her weak face was full of pain, and her eyes stared straight at his face, almost piercing him: "Are you leaving like this?"

"Can you just leave like this? Can you just leave me here and walk away?"

"Gu Chengyao, what is your heart made of? You have always abandoned me, you hurt me, you broke your promise, your parents imprisoned me, kidnapped me, and did such unreasonable things to me."

"I have nothing, I only have you, tell me now, you don't want me anymore? How can you do this? How can you do this?"

She was very emotional and grabbed Gu Chengyao's hand tightly, with great strength, Gu Chengyao couldn't break free for a while.

"Yan Ran, don't do this, calm down."

"I can't calm down." Bai Yanran almost cried: "Tell me, how can I calm down? Tell me? How can I calm down?"

"I have nothing left. I only have you, only you. Gu Chengyao, how can you?"

"Yan Ran"

Gu Chengyao's heart is very heavy, Bai Yanran's appearance makes him very uncomfortable.

"I said, I'm married." Pulling her hand forcefully, Gu Chengyao wanted to leave.

"I know, I know you're married. I also know that you don't want me now, and you're going to live with another woman for the rest of your life. You failed me, you failed me—"

"Why? Why are you doing this to me? Why?" She cried out suddenly, holding her head with her hands: "Ah"

"Yan Ran" Gu Chengyao was frightened by her, and wanted to stop her, but she suddenly pushed Gu Chengyao away: "Where is the medicine? Where is my medicine?"

She flipped through her bag and kept searching inside.

He took out a medicine bottle from inside, poured out a few pills and stuffed them into his mouth.

"Yanran?" What did she eat?
Gu Chengyao wanted to stop it, but it was too late. He watched her grab those medicines into her mouth, then threw the medicine bottle away, and went to find water to swallow the medicine, but he could only pick up the bottle on the ground and read the words on it.

Gu Chengyao didn't notice some other professional terms, he only saw one of them: Duloxetine, which treats all kinds of depression.

depression?
Bai Yanran suffers from depression?
Gu Chengyao's eyes widened, he clutched the medicine bottle and rushed into the kitchen quickly.

Bai Yanran just put down the cup, and it was obvious that she had already swallowed the medicine.

"Yanran, why do you want to take such medicine? Do you know that medicine should not be taken indiscriminately?"

Bai Yanran swallowed the medicine, panting continuously, she fell down on the kitchen floor, looking at Gu Chengyao, her eyes were full of confusion, as if she didn't know who he was.

"Yanran?"

God.So what happened?Why is she like this?
Gu Chengyao's whole body is not well.He didn't want a divorce, so he couldn't be responsible for Bai Yanran.

But he hopes she can live well.Instead of shaking Bai Yanran's body like now, Gu Chengyao didn't want to believe that that weak and slender little girl from Jiangnan actually had depression?

Bai Yanran was dizzy from his shaking.After a while, her sight finally regained focus.

Looking at Gu Chengyao, she slowly widened her eyes.

"I'm sorry, Chengyao, am I out of control again?"

Gu Chengyao didn't know what to say, he was startled by the word depression: "Yanran, tell me, what happened? Why did it happen?"

Bai Yanran's head turned sideways, and then turned away again.

It's as if she didn't hear Gu Chengyao's words.

"I'm fine. You go. You can go."

"Yan Ran?" With her like this, how can he leave?
"I'm really fine." Bai Yanran smiled bitterly, feeling helpless and in pain: "Since I came back, I have dreamed every day. I dreamed of those men, dreamed of those dirty scenes. I Can't sleep. I can't sleep all night."

"If I lose my temper with you, please forgive me. I didn't mean it."

She burst into tears suddenly: "Please forgive me. I didn't mean it."

Gu Chengyao was speechless, he stood there in a daze, unable to move.

The gums hurt so much that you can restrain yourself.Don't hold Bai Yanran into her arms.

"You go." Bai Yanran sat motionless on the floor, but the tears on her face kept flowing: "I've been getting worse and worse recently. I'm so afraid that I will lose control. I often don't know what I'm doing. What. I-"

"Chengyao, you go, leave me alone. I don't want you to see me so ugly."

Covering her face, she wept uncontrollably.That voice is heartbreaking.

Gu Chengyao didn't move, he couldn't move.In the kitchen, only Bai Yanran's whimpering could be heard.

So pitiful, so sad.

depression.Even if he doesn't study medicine, he still understands what this word means.

Bai Yanran actually suffered from depression?

All of this is because of you, Gu Chengyao.How do you pay it back?
The Gu Family Mansion.

Wang Xiu'e looked at Yao Youqian, stretched out her hand, and motioned for her to sit beside her.

"Qianqian, are you still used to living here?"

"I'm used to it." Yao Youqian sat down next to Wang Xiu'e, and when she saw her, she thought of her grandfather, and felt that old people were equally cute.

"When I'm old, I like you to be around. If you don't like it, just tell Cheng Yao, and then you move out."

"Grandma, I'm fine. I like living with you." When Yao Youqian spoke, he didn't forget to stick out his tongue: "Besides, I don't know how nice it is to live here with a down-to-earth atmosphere."

"It's just your sweet mouth. I don't even like it." When Wang Xiu'e spoke, she glanced at the door: "Why hasn't Chengyao come back yet? It's time to eat."

"He'll be back soon." Yao Youqian was actually not sure.

Gu Chengyao said that he was going to explain it to Bai Yanran, but she actually felt a little nervous.

He is willing, but Bai Yanran is definitely not willing.How will he choose then?

But he didn't want a divorce, which moved her heart a bit.

At least he has himself in mind.That's fine.

Gu Chengyao came back during meal time, his expression was a little weird.

Yao Youqian wanted to ask him, but it was difficult for Wang Xiu'e and Gu Zhigang to ask him.And today, Qiao Xinwan and Gu Xuewu came back.

When Gu Chengyao saw them, his body instantly became stiff.

"Dad, Mom." Yao Youqian stood up and greeted Gu Chengyao's parents.Don't forget to reach out and pull Gu Chengyao's hand, making him stand up too.

Gu Chengyao stood up, but did not speak, his eyes were fixed on Gu Xuewu.

That look is very complicated.

It is impossible for Gu Xuewu and Qiao Xinwan not to feel their son's gaze, but they chose to ignore it.

They brought good news.

"Belle will be back on New Year's Day. I will stay here until the Spring Festival is over before returning to the United States."

Belle is Gu Chengyao's older sister, nicknamed Belle.

Wang Xiu'e's face suddenly brightened: "Really? That's great. Will she bring Zhe Zhe back?"

The son of Gu Jingting and Tang Yichen, Tang Haozhe.Already seven months old.

Very cute, Qiao Xinwan and Gu Xuewu have flown to the United States to see their grandchildren, but as Wang Xiu'e and Gu Zhigang, they can only see them on the Internet.

"Yes." Qiao Xinwan thought of her daughter, who is really happy now.There was an unstoppable smile in his eyes: "Yi Chen will come with her, and bring Zhan Zhan along."

"Okay." Satisfied, Wang Xiu'e waved everyone to sit down: "Okay. Sit down and say what you want to say, the food is cold."

Yao Youqian sat down and found that Gu Chengyao was still standing there stiffly.

Those eyes only fell on his father Gu Xuewu, and there was an indescribable coldness in them.

"Cheng Yao?"

What is he doing?
Gu Chengyao finally sat down.Picking up the bowl, the movement of eating is as slow as a machine.

Yao Youqian was full of puzzlement, and subconsciously looked in the direction of her father-in-law.

Gu Xuewu remained calm.It's as if I didn't feel it at all.

On the contrary, Qiao Xinwan looked at Gu Chengyao with unbearable, annoyed, and regretful eyes.

It's just that those emotions are hidden too deeply.Yao Youqian didn't see it.

I just feel that something is wrong with my parents-in-law and Gu Chengyao today.

Thinking about it seriously, Gu Chengyao couldn't be with Bai Yanran back then, wasn't it because his parents objected?

Seeing Bai Yanran's return now, it's normal for her to have some conflicts in her heart.

A meal ended in this eerie atmosphere.Gu Chengyao said he was tired almost as soon as he finished his meal, so he just told Wang Xiu'e and went back to his room to rest.

After Yao Youqian greeted her elders, she also wanted to go back to her room, but Qiao Xinwan called her back.

"?"

Qiao Xinwan looked at Yao Youqian with doubts in her eyes, but suddenly she couldn't say anything, she just sighed and told her to go back to the room.

(End of this chapter)