thin marriage

Chapter 401 Love sees blood, loves to seal throat, never dies 17
He couldn't tell what he was feeling inside at that moment.

I just feel as if all the grievances, all the hatred, are gone at this moment.

He didn't want her to go on like this anymore.

He complied with her desire, and while satisfying her, he also satisfied himself.

Yes, satisfy yourself too.

If he would be honest, if he would be true to his heart.

If he is willing to face his deepest thoughts, he will find that he also wants Ding Luoxi.

Because he wanted to, he pushed her down on the bed again and again.

Because she wanted to, she plundered her body and everything in the name of bullying.

It's just that he didn't dare to think about it. Now, he didn't dare to think about those thoughts at all. Once he thought about it, he would go crazy.

Now, that person has fallen asleep, deeply asleep, and everything is calm.

The woman who made him hate to the bone had also exhausted all her strength and was sleeping powerlessly on the bed.

His sanity came back little by little.Sitting up, he subconsciously touched the bedside table, where he used to put his cigarettes.

After Song Yunxi's death, although he didn't smoke, he used to put a pack of cigarettes there.

It's just that the bedside table was opened, but there was nothing inside.

He was startled for a moment, then looked at Ding Luoxi again.

"Since you don't smoke, what are you doing with the cigarettes? I confiscated them." She said this, throwing away all the cigarettes he left at home.

He still remembered the playfulness in her eyes when she said this.

It makes people happy, at that time, he really liked Ding Luoxi.

Otherwise, he would not want to marry her, nor would he want to be with her.

It's just that later, when his thoughts stopped, he didn't need to mention the following things. If he had known earlier, would he still be with Ding Luoxi for the six months?
Suddenly he wasn't sure.

Ding Luoxi had a long, long dream.

In the dream, she was chased by monsters, and when she thought she would be eaten by monsters, she was rescued.

But it was another monster who saved her.

She was torn by the neck by the monster, bit by bit, devoured by the whale.

Then the dream changed again.

The situation in the box, like a dream, kept replaying in her mind.

When Ding Luoxi was so desperate that she thought she would die, she was finally taken away by Gu Chengqi.

When the dream changed, she saw herself like a shameless slut, clinging to Gu Chengqi's body, begging him constantly.Let him satisfy himself.

That dream was so real that Ding Luoxi didn't dare to face it.

Not daring to face it, she could only wake up.

Before I opened my eyes, my body's reaction came immediately.

Tired, very tired.

The limbs are weak and the body is sore.

Especially in that place, she felt a burst of discomfort.

That feeling made her eyes widen suddenly, and she looked at her side in horror.

The first time I saw the familiar ceiling.

The memory came back, and she remembered everything about last night.

Gu Chengqi made up his mind to humiliate her, brought her to that kind of place, and even gave her away.

That disgusting man drugged her.

She didn't want to be bullied by those people, that would be worse than her death.

So she wanted to commit suicide, and Gu Chengqi rushed over at that time.

She took the medicine and was very uncomfortable, but after confirming that the person was him, she tried her best to climb up to him and let him satisfy herself.

Ding Luoxi bit her lip and closed her eyes again.The heart is full of despair.

OK, great.

It is true that she has not been touched by other men, but how did Gu Chengqi think of her with her reaction yesterday and her behavior?
What would he think of her?

He already regarded her as a skill girl, a bitch, and a cousin.

These days, you can put any ugly words on her.

What now?How else would he humiliate her?

Ding Luoxi smiled wryly in her heart, what was more painful.

Whatever, could it be worse?
Now she no longer dares to think about it, nor can she believe that Gu Chengqi has feelings for her anymore.

If you really have feelings, can you give her away?
Even if he brought her back at the end, Ding Luoxi would not be grateful to him, not at all.

What if those men moved faster?Maybe she has lost her virginity.

Gu Chengqi, you are really ruthless, too ruthless.

Ding Luoxi couldn't face herself, she suddenly opened her eyes and searched the room.

Is it better to die than to live like this?
Perhaps death is really a relief.

In the past, she really looked down on people who committed suicide.How wonderful it is to live, is a person who is not afraid of death still afraid of living?
Only now did she realize that death is really not terrible, what is terrible is that life is worse than death.

It's really better to die than to live.

She thought that there was Gu Chengqi's razor in the bathroom, maybe, by cutting off her wrist, she could end the pain.

She really thinks so.

He lifted the quilt and was about to get out of bed when the door of the room opened.

The person who was going to work appeared at the door.

Seeing Gu Chengqi, Ding Luoxi's first reaction was fear.She shrank her body and pulled up the quilt to cover herself.

In her sight, there is fear, pain, and many complicated emotions.

Only it was gone, when she used to look at herself, the eyes full of love.

When Gu Chengqi realized this, his heart ached again, slightly, as if someone had gently pricked it with a needle.

He stood there, his lips moving silently, trying to say something, but he couldn't say a word.

Two people, one standing by the door and one sitting on the bed.

Relatively speechless, with four eyes facing each other, only silence remained.

Ding Luoxi turned away first, she gave up, really gave up.

She will no longer have any expectations of Gu Chengqi.She has had enough.

There is nothing more painful in this world than hurt by someone you love.

Really, it was too painful.

Gu Chengqi actually wanted to explain one or two things about his behavior yesterday, but he remained silent in the end.

explain what?What do you say?

He really did that yesterday, and he really thought that.

He wanted to make Ding Luoxi suffer.He never hides it.

What is there to explain now?
Any further explanation is just hypocrisy.

The atmosphere was extremely awkward again.

Gu Chengqi frowned, then let go again, looking at Ding Luoxi: "Wash up and come out to eat."

After saying that, he turned and left first.

He didn't see Ding Luoxi's surprised eyes.

Really surprised.

Gu Chengqi, what is he going to do?
What is he thinking?
She couldn't figure him out.What is this?

His leaving made her somewhat relieved, but she didn't dare to seek death at this time.

Gu Chengqi was at home, if she really cut her wrists, she might find out soon.

She will wait until he is not at home to do these things.

Biting her lip, getting up to wash up, without too much delay, Gu Chengqi asked her to eat as soon as she had a meal.

She didn't want to argue with him, and she didn't want to be hurt needlessly.

Since she is going to die, let her die decently.

Hehe, it's really ridiculous. How can a person who commits suicide be decent?
There was sarcasm in her eyebrows, and she just appeared in the restaurant.

When Gu Chengqi saw it, he thought she was mocking him by saying that he hated her, but he made breakfast for her.

This self-slapping behavior made him a little embarrassed.

The voice became a little colder: "I want to eat breakfast myself, I didn't make it for you specially."

When he said this, Ding Luoxi looked at him in surprise again.

He is, explaining to himself?

It's funny, why does she need his explanation?
She would not pretentiously think that he was cooking for herself.

Does she still have that qualification now?Long gone?

She sat down, and the porridge was soft and fragrant.

The heat of porridge was steaming on her face, and she suddenly wanted to cry.

How long has it been?

How long has she not tasted what Gu Chengqi has made?

Ever since they got together, he has been cooking all three meals by himself.

But he also cooks occasionally.When she was exhausted by him.

He had also been a very tender and considerate lover.

He was very kind to her, very gentle.

He will always take care of her feelings, her emotions.

At that time, even if she wrinkled the center of her eyebrows, it could arouse his nervousness.

"When you feel uncomfortable, you must tell me that I am your boyfriend."

She also remembered that she had dysmenorrhea, which made him nervous for a long time. She also made brown sugar water and warmed the baby for him, so that she could have a good rest.

She still remembered him holding her in his arms, with a gentle smile on his face: "I want to be with you, I want to marry you."

The tenderness that she had deliberately forgotten in the past two months was firmly engraved in the depths of her heart.

Don't dare or forget for 1 minute.

She thought of her last despair yesterday, she thought of the time when she really thought she was going to die.

At that time, she really hated Gu Chengqi to death.

She even thought that she would never forgive Gu Chengqi, she would hate him for the rest of her life.

Isn't it just hating someone?
He will, and so will she.

But now, it's just a bowl of porridge, a bowl of porridge she likes.It couldn't be simpler.

It made her want to cry.

Ding Luoxi, you really are hopeless.

She bit her lip and used the mist to suppress the feeling of wanting to cry, she had to suppress it.

She will never humiliate herself again, and she will never love Gu Chengqi again.

Not at all.

Gu Chengqi didn't know what she was thinking, really didn't know.

She likes porridge, the most home-cooked porridge with preserved egg and lean meat. He looked at her face and thought she would say something.

But no, only silence.

(End of this chapter)