The growth of a sweet wife

Chapter 40

Back in BJ, I still live in Yun's house.

I really didn't expect that after returning to Shanghai, things would turn out like this.

I often laugh at myself and say, "Xiao He, you still often boast about your love and friendship, but now it's good, Ruyi and Shunxin are a good pair."

The doctor told me to keep a good mood, and now I have no mood at all.Boy, I stroke my belly, it seems a little bulge?Where are you from, child?Devil, disaster star?Really, can I keep him now?

I had the idea of ​​killing the child in my heart. I kept him in the past to prove my innocence. What's the use of keeping him now?I am still young, and I still have to work. Is having a child a burden?

I want to plan for my future, I have analyzed it for a long time?I really think the baby should be removed, but he stayed in my stomach for four months after all?Wouldn't it be too cruel not to want him now.

"Should I take the child away?" I asked Chen Yun, I looked at the closet, and I couldn't bear the clothes he bought for the child.

"Do you like children?" I like it, I really like it, if he is Song Zizhong's child, I would like it even more, but isn't he?Do I want him to be born a child without a father?My father is not around, but I have a father anyway, I know that I did not come out of thin air, I am the crystallization of love between two people. "The child is not wrong?" Yes, he is really not wrong?But why should I keep him?

"Yun, give me an idea. If you say to keep it, I will keep it. If you say not to keep it, I won't keep it?" I pushed the problem to him.

"This question requires courage to answer, you should think about it yourself!"

I asked my brother, and he also had the same attitude. Everyone felt that I had to make my own decision.

"It's not impossible to take the child now, but since the child is so big, there must be some damage to the body. If it is not necessary, let's keep it!" This is the doctor's opinion, and they can hear the child's joy The voice is gone, and he is gradually taking shape.I can see his little hands.

When I left the hospital, I was blank again, to give birth or not to give birth?I dangled the coin in my hand, thinking in my heart, if it is a flower, it will grow, if it is a word, it will not grow.I tossed the coin, but it didn't catch it. I watched it fall to the ground, and I chased after it to see what happened, but it rolled into the sewer and disappeared. Is this God's will?Even the sky is unwilling to help me decide.

"What are you doing? If I knew this was the case, I wouldn't take you back. Just pretend that you haven't been back!" Doesn't he know how to comfort me?

"If my brother told you that he was going to marry Qing Tian soon, what would you think?"

"Are you kidding me, whoever is sunny with, it's impossible to be with your brother."

"I mean what if?"

"If it's true, maybe I don't want to see them all my life?"

"This comparison is inappropriate. You can't be pregnant. I'm pregnant? The problem I want to solve is the child, not them?" I've been a bit incoherent recently.

"Or, I'll take you to relax."

"My heart is broken. If you let it go, it will be gone." I said angrily. I haven't gone to work for several days.When I stay in the house, I live like a year. I suffer a lot. I have nothing to do all day. Even watching TV shows feels boring?
"Why do you bother? Look at me, I am the same person, why are my psychological qualities so different?"

"You don't feel pain in your back when you stand and talk, and a full man doesn't know a hungry man is hungry."

"I'm clearly sitting." Is that the point?Funny, why don't we have a common language with him when we come back this time?

I went to the underpass and the guy left a message again.

"I loved a woman who didn't exist."

"Give you your QQ******** number, let's chat online."

I know I'm starting to fall, I'm starting to go bad.I started to look for emotional sustenance, I was lonely, I was lonely, I started to be alone, I was afraid, and I was going to find comfort.

"Where are you from? From the first time I saw your writing on the wall, I thought you were very unusual. I didn't expect that I could really become friends with you?"

"Let's talk about love, let's talk about love, let's not talk about problems, okay?"

"There is sadness in your words. What difficulties have you encountered?"

"I want a man?"

"I'm sorry, you misunderstood. I'm not who you think I am?"

"Are you, I only imagined you as a man?"

"Is there anything I can do to help you?"

"Yes, let me fall, make me crazy, make me forget myself?"

"what do you want me to do?"

"Turn me bad, make me cruel, make me hard-hearted, so I won't suffer?"

"sorry, I can not?"

Doesn't it mean that there are no good people on the Internet?Why can't I even meet the bad guys?

Why am I in such pain?I want to go to that kind of avant-garde place, and I also want to be crazy, but when I get to that kind of place where the lights are red and red, I can't bear to go in, for my child, can't I?I don't even want him anymore, why am I still thinking about him?I this is me why?
Yes, no, absolutely not, I don't want this kind of child of unknown origin, he is a wild species, he is not worthy of being my child, I can't let him be born, I want to kill him.

I went to the hospital, I looked at the building of the hospital, I was not afraid, I was just not reconciled, thinking of the previous two months, he made me vomit overwhelmingly, it made me so uncomfortable, I couldn’t sleep at night, I couldn’t work day, I have encountered so many setbacks, so I don't want him like this, is it too cheap for him?

What do I want him to do?If he is born, then my shoulders will be even heavier. I have to be responsible for him. His birth may make me pay more. I have to be willing. Without him, my pain will be gone. I will be with him. There is no relationship in the past, I can start again, I can find a man, I can even be a lover, I can do whatever I want, I can go crazy, without her, I have no care.

I finally decided I didn't want him anymore.I stroked my lower abdomen, and I was close to him for the last time, child, don't blame mom, I have no reason to keep you, leaving you can only pave the way for your future pain.Forgive me, forgive my mother's fragility, I can't bear the responsibility you left alone, my weakness, I can't let me keep you, I can't let you ask me in the future, "Mom, who is my father?" The answer was "I don't know?" I'm sorry, mother loves you, mother hates you, we are not destined, if in the next life, we will be mother and son, Song Zizhong and I's children, let us make up for you together.

I took a step, I was going to walk into the hospital bravely, I was going to end everything in the past, and then start my new life.

"Young Mistress?" Did I just take the first step?Someone stopped in front of me, two men in formal suits blocked my way, "Young Mistress, Master asked us to pick up Young Mistress home?"

"What do you call me?" I looked at them wonderingly, and took me home?that home?Is it my mother's house in the country, or BJ's father's house, or Song Zizhong's and I's house?

"Young Mistress, please...?" Please?Please where am I going?I'm going to the hospital to pinch the doll.

I got into the car with them in a daze, I must have been kidnapped!I was scared in my heart, I looked for my mobile phone, the card I just opened, my brother was afraid that it would be unsafe for me to go out alone, so I must open my mobile phone, saying that I am not going to work now, no one is looking at me, and I must take it with me. phone.

"Young Mistress?" As soon as I took out my phone, the person sitting next to me called me.

"Me? Me? I don't mean anything else, I just want to make a call?"

"Young mistress has arrived." Arrived?Where are you?I looked forward, what is this place?Is it the Forbidden City?Or the Summer Palace, have I traveled through time and space?Why are there such old buildings?

"Chen House?" Could this be Yun's house?Is Mom and Dad Yun home?Just what did you bring me here for?

"Welcome young mistress home!" What's going on?

"Hey, where are you?" I hurriedly called Yun. "Where are you? Hurry up and save me?"

"You were kidnapped?"

"I wish I was kidnapped. I was invited to your hometown by your parents."

"No way! Hold on first, and I'll be there right away." Really, it's not easy to be the young lady of the Chen family, is it?This place is beautiful, but it’s very strange. It’s the 21st century. Why do you still live in such an old house?
(End of this chapter)