The growth of a sweet wife

Chapter 57

The mental pressure comes from the memories that Kexin brought me. As long as there is no Kexin, everything will come to an abrupt end, so I must move out.

In order to achieve this goal, I decided to change the combat strategy.

But before achieving this goal, I need to bring in an ally, and my ally is Chen Yun.

"I want to move out, I have to move out." I appeared in front of him who was playing with the computer with my hands on my hips.

"If you want freedom, I agree, if it's because you want it, I don't agree." He seemed to be angry because of the problem last night, so he didn't go to work today.

"So even if you look at me in such pain and are indifferent, do you just want me to live in such pain all day long?"

"Xiaohe, can you be more sensible? But my heart is your daughter, and I will never change it. Are you going to never get close to her for the rest of your life? She is still young and ignorant, and she will have memories in a few months." , do you want to let her know that her mother treated her like this? I didn’t care if you didn’t like Kexin before, but don’t tell you that the reason for this is because you haven’t forgotten that man... Kexin is mine Child, has nothing to do with him?" I became irrational, and he also started to explode.

"I didn't..." I vetoed without confidence. "Yun, I know that Kexin's child is our child. I'm very happy. We are a family, but can you give me some time? At present, I can't fully integrate into this family, do you know?"

"We've known each other for so long, isn't time enough?" He was really kind to me, accommodating me, and taking care of me, but I spent much longer with Song Zizhong than him.

"Do you remember what you said the night we got married?"

"What?"

"I asked you to erase the words written by you and Qing Tian. You said, you wrote it for a day, but now it takes at least two days to erase it and change it to my name. For the same reason, Song Zizhong and I are together. It's been seven years, I can't just forget it, and I still have Kexin in front of me, she is a fuse that can't disappear, and there is a spark in my heart, as long as we meet, it will ignite and explode, I don't have any other requirements, I just want to go out and live away from her, let me adjust, is it wrong?" Didn't expect the conflict between us to be this?
"Xiaohe, I know you haven't completely forgotten him. I won't lie to you, and I haven't forgotten Qingtian, but I haven't forgotten her. I'm working hard. What about you? You're running away. Do you think running away can solve the problem?" The moment he admitted that he did not forget the sunny day, the face of the sunny day appeared in front of me, because he missed the sunny day countless times, let me be a substitute, I didn't mind before because I didn't love him, but now I mind .

"Okay, I work hard too, but you have to give me time, you are better than me, you can use work to enrich yourself, but I don't have a job now, as long as you go to work, I have to face these, they occupy me All, when you give me a month, I move out, and I come back in a month." I regressed.

"Do you want me to give you time to forget him, or give you time to accept Kexin."

"Is that a thing?"

"That's two things!" He is a man, so of course he would care about these things. After the conversation, my mood became even more lost. He was silent, and I was also silent.

"I'm going to the company!" He walked past me, took the car keys and left, just like that again, leaving me alone again.I felt like I was going crazy, Kexin's faltering voice came from a distance, it seemed that Grandpa was holding her and looking at the flowers in the garden.

I kicked off and sat on the floor holding my head, and the images became clearer and clearer.

I went to the clothing store by myself. After shopping for a long time, I finally bought a more suitable dress. I bought my father-in-law’s favorite sweet-scented osmanthus wine at the Fun Hotel. Because he is not in good health, he drank this milder wine instead. .

I went to a children’s store to buy clothes for Kexin. There were many parent-child clothes hung in the store. Dad, mother, and children had the same pattern but different sizes. It was very warm to see the smiles on the faces of those models, but as long as I When the three of me and Yun Kexin are wearing these clothes and walking on the street, Song Zizhong will definitely appear in my mind. He and Kexin are just tied together, like a toothbrush and toothpaste, a pot and a spatula .

When I got home, before he came back, I decided to talk to my parents-in-law.

It has been more than half a year since I entered the house, and I haven't even poured a cup of formal daughter-in-law tea for the second elder. I feel very guilty in my heart. At present, I can't treat them as my parents.

They ordered the nanny to take Kexin away, maybe they saw something wrong with my face!

"Wait, I bought a jade bracelet for Kexin. I heard from my mother that a girl wearing jade can keep her safe." The mother-in-law was very happy when she heard that, and asked someone to bring the child back.

"Ke Xin, look at what mom bought for you!" From her tone, it means that mom buys things for you and the sun comes out from the west.But yes, I haven't even bought a diaper for Kexin since she was born.

"Mom, I bought you a piece of clothing. You can try it on to see if it fits you well." I personally put it on for the old man. Her figure is about the same as my mother's, so I bought it very accurately and it fits me well. I know they don't lack these things, but I know they are very happy. They are also worried about our marriage not being able to make a big deal. Chen Yun is their only son. The reason for the belly is to quietly get a marriage certificate. I dare say that many relatives and friends in their family don't know that Chen Yun is married?
"Xiaohe, what's the matter with you today?" It must be suspicious to be courteous for nothing.

"Dad, Mom, there is something I want to say, but I hope you don't get angry. I really don't mean anything else, it's all because of myself." My voice was almost sobbing.

"Yo, what's so serious?" The father-in-law finally spoke from the side.

"I'm going to move out." I've made a decision now, and I don't intend to discuss it with them, but just to let them know.

"You guys, why do you have to move out? Could it be that you have been wronged in this house?" The mother-in-law took off her clothes, hugged Kexin in front of me and said, "Look, the child is so small, Even if you don't hug him or coax her here, she can feel it, but if you move out, what if she misses her parents? Xiaohe, I really can't understand, such an older child, you Why is this mother so cruel? I remember when I gave birth to Yun, Yun’s grandma said that I was weak and sick all the time, and she was afraid of infecting the child, so she wouldn’t let me see the child for a few days. It's like a knife, I know you young people are chic, but you can't be so chic, she is the meat that fell from your body?" The mother-in-law burst into tears as she spoke.

"What are you talking about? Xiaohe, did something happen?" the father-in-law asked kindly.

"I'm sorry, Dad, Mom, nothing actually happened. The main reason is that I'm not ready to be a mother. I can't accept it for a while." In fact, I know very well that if those things didn't happen, Kexin is the child of Song Zizhong and I , I was totally ready, I would be a good mother, but it just happened.

"I heard from the servant that you had a quarrel with Yun today. Is it because of this? Why? You have always been very affectionate since you got married, so why did you quarrel?" asked the mother-in-law.Look, it's not good to live here, and everything can be turned into a big deal.I finally found an excuse for myself again.

"No, we just quarreled. Mom, and I moved out, and if he didn't move out, I just lived outside for a month and then came back. It was mainly because of my health. I wanted to find a place to be quiet."

"What's wrong with your body?" I don't want to explain, and I can't explain clearly.

"It's okay, Mom, I'll leave it to you, I'm leaving." I smiled and bowed to my parents, and then went out calmly. In fact, my heart ached too, but there was an obstacle in my heart?
When I went back to my room to pack my things, Chen Yun came back.

"Xiaohe, what on earth do you want to do?" He stopped me from cleaning up.

"Let's calm each other down..."

"We don't need to be cool..." We're all overwhelmed by the past.Those things are like a bomb buried in a place we can't see. I don't know which day I accidentally stepped on it, and then exploded, making us burnt on the outside and tender on the inside.

"I need it, I think I should see a psychiatrist." This kind of pressure is exactly the same as the pressure I was anxious to find someone to rely on. I even wondered if I accepted Yun's love for granted at the beginning.

"It's not that serious, we can overcome it." He was vicissitudes, his eyes were full of sadness, my fault, I made a light person into a heavy person.

I hugged him, I kissed him, and he responded to me, yes, I want to be clear, I love him, I will overcome this, I will raise the red flag, everything can be changed, but there is one thing I You must know that I love him and cannot doubt it.As long as I face this point squarely, I believe I can overcome it.

"Yun, I love you..."

"Xiaohe, I know I know everything, but...?" He stopped talking, I don't know what will be behind his "but"?Maybe it's his ability to resist pressure!I can't understand his mood at the moment.

I've been waiting for his "but".He didn't say it in the end.

We lay on the bed together and looked at the ceiling without words.

"I'll go with you..." He finally said these words.I know I'm waiting for this sentence.

"Thank you, husband, we'll get over it." Maybe moving out won't help, but not moving out will only make things worse.

Yun, what gave you the courage to fall in love with me back then.

What made you decide to marry me?
What gave us the courage to decide to get married?
Did we never think about these issues in the first place?

It is the hidden danger left behind by the original choice.

Now that the problem has broken out, we can't bear it. There will always be a place in our hearts, and we have found a resting place for our youth for such a long time. Giving up that position is tantamount to giving up that period of youth. So it's not that easy.

(End of this chapter)