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Chapter 390 You Can't Love It, You Can't Wish It

"Where's my phone?" I'm Huanhuan's assistant, if I don't go, Huanhuan will definitely find me, so give him a call, so that Huanhuan won't be in a hurry.

"Here, here." Ah Qing took the mobile phone that was blocked by other things by the table and held it in his hand. "You want to call Qin Huanhuan?" You can guess with your toes.

"I disappeared without saying anything, Huanhuan will be worried." Maybe I'm too anxious now, I've already called myself several times.

"Really? If you're worried, why haven't you made a single call for so long?" Ah Qing asked back.

Only then did Liang Zhishu focus all his attention on Ah Qing, "What time is it?" Impossible, even for ordinary colleagues, if a partner who needs to cooperate with each other fails to come to work for no reason, he will be anxious and worried, right? ?
"11:30." There was a clock on the wall, and the two of them looked at the wall in unison. The hour hand of the clock on the wall was already halfway between eleven o'clock and twelve o'clock.

"Really?" Liang Zhishu's voice gradually weakened, and he felt a little dazed, as if the result was too far from the expected result, which was unacceptable and unable to react.

He didn't know what to say, and there was a dead sea of ​​silence in his heart.

"So, what do you want for lunch? I'll go buy it." Ah Qing couldn't bear to see Liang Zhishu's fragile appearance, so she wanted to change the subject to ease the atmosphere.

"I don't have any appetite. I don't know what to eat." Liang Zhishu has no appetite at all. Although it's time for dinner, he really doesn't know what to eat.

"Okay, then I won't ask you. I'll go and see for myself. If you have a fever, it's better to eat something that is easier to digest." Knowing that Liang Zhishu would answer like this, Ah Qing was not surprised at all.

Liang Zhishu squeezed out a smile and looked at Ah Qing. "That's hard work for you, just buy something." In fact, I don't want to eat at all, but I didn't eat dinner last night, and I haven't eaten anything today. Even if I don't want to eat, I still have to take care of my health .

Still eat a little.

"Why are you being so polite with me?" Ah Qing said with a smile, she didn't feel polite in doing anything to Liang Zhishu, and she didn't want the other party to feel grateful or guilty for this.

That's not what she wanted.

Liang Zhishu never knew what she wanted, and she didn't intend to let him know.

Because even if he knew, it would be of no use at all, because Liang Zhishu's heart was in Qin Huanhuan.

He can't see himself all the time, and he can't see it anyway.

No matter how hard I tried, it was useless.

The result is still the same.

"Ah Qing, you are the only one who treats me so well." Ah Qing was just about to open the door to go out when she heard such words floating behind her. "If you have time to say these things, why not hurry up and treat yourself to a big meal." After saying this, he went out without looking back at Zhishu Liang.

Because she was afraid that she would reveal her feelings.

After closing the door and walking a few steps, she stood where she was, just standing there in a daze.

On the surface, nothing seems to be happening, but only I know how big a tsunami is in my heart.

"Is this issuing a good card?"

"Or did you finally see yourself?"

Ah Qing was tangled in her heart, and she was at war inside.

She suddenly felt a little hopeful again, and felt that she was actually thinking too much.

It's better not to think about it, let it be like this, don't think too much.

If you think too much, you will only get hurt in the end.

"Forget it, I'd better go buy porridge, don't think about it." Ah Qing shook her head and started to walk forward.

Liang Zhishu, who was sitting on the bed, had a complicated expression. He couldn't tell what mood he was in, nor could he see what he was thinking. Maybe he didn't know what he was thinking.

The more you like someone, the easier it is to be hurt by that person, the easier it is to be full of hope, the easier it is to be greedy, and what comes with it is more and more disappointed in yourself and more and more broken hearts.

It seems to be a vicious circle, it seems that I can't stop, it seems that I am no longer who I am.

Unrequited love, if you look at it from the perspective of verbs, it means non-stop unrequited love, repeated movements of wanting to touch halfway and then withdrawing your hand, repeated cycles to attract the attention of that person, and then there is no accident. To get the same result, there is no feeling of suspense.

If you look at it from the perspective of a noun, it actually means the same as pretending to be passionate.

I heard a sentence before, I don't know why I suddenly remembered it. "If you don't like each other, your infatuation is someone else's burden."

He began to wonder if she was secretly relieved that he didn't go.

It just happened to be in line with her wishes. In fact, the fact that she didn't go to work has not been discovered by her until now, or in fact, she just found out that she was not there, and someone filled the vacancy in the next second. My existence is actually just It's just a dispensable and redundant role of "one more is not too much, one less is not less", it doesn't really matter.

It doesn't matter at all.

Because in the process of this acquaintance, whether it's the beginning or the end, I'm actually trying my best to attract Huanhuan's attention, and the other party is just a simple cooperation. Maybe when I nodded and said yes, I didn't even think about it. thought about it.

So, it's just a farce.

Only.

Liang Zhishu covered his face with both hands, thinking that he would not be depressed and downcast.

It turns out, it turns out that I am just such a character.

I really want to laugh and cry.It turned out that I thought too well and idealized everything.

It turned out that I thought too much of myself, but in the eyes of the other party, I might just be a special passerby, A, B, C, D, no matter how special, I was just a passerby.

Smiling and laughing, there was something inexplicably feeling that the eye sockets were hot, and on the face covered with hands, a tear oozed from the corner of the eyes between the fingers, and was gradually evaporated by the air.

When alone, it seems that there is no way to face myself.

It seems that there is no way to accept the failure of myself and this humble relationship.

It's time, it's time to end.

It turned out that so soon, it was time to end.

It was not until the afternoon, when it was almost time for dinner, that I received a call from Qin Huanhuan.

At this time, Liang Zhishu didn't want to get in touch with Huanhuan at all, and he couldn't treat her as if nothing had happened, so Ah Qing had no choice but to answer the phone and started the first contact with her biggest rival in love.

In fact, it is not very accurate to say that she is a rival in love, because it seems that the other party does not know it at all. Regarding the identity of the rival in love, only I care about everything, and the other party has no intention of becoming her rival in love at all.

This is the case with many things. The person who hurts others the most is actually the most innocent person in the whole process in the end.

Neither advance nor retreat.

Neither love nor hate.

The two of them stayed in the most embarrassing position and position, and she really had no idea what attitude and mood to use to treat this woman, Qin Huanhuan.

It's a bit wrong to do any reaction, it has neither identity nor reason.

She tried her best to maintain the most impartial attitude to face Qin Huanhuan and answer the call.

Not just because Liang Zhishu was watching.

It is because of myself.

She thought of everything she could think of.

"Zhishu?" Not only was something wrong with me, but it was also obvious that something was wrong with Liang Zhishu who was sitting on the hospital bed.It looked blank, as if it had been frozen. "What are you thinking?" Why did he smile so happily, as if someone had tapped his laughing point.

"I was wondering," Liang Zhishu replied with a smile, "Should I change my job?" Or should I change my job?
There seems to be no way to continue like this.

"Change job?" Ah Qing repeated in a daze, meaning, is the man in front of him thinking about leaving Qin Huanhuan's side little by little?

Does it mean you finally let go?
"Yes, it seems that there is no need to bring it with me in Canada." It seems that I have always overestimated myself, my feelings for Huanhuan, and my feelings. At the level of a fairy, he is still an ordinary person, and the person he loves the most is himself.

Suddenly, I thought of the last time I had a cold video with my sister Liang Zhiya and her brother-in-law. Some things the other two said were unreasonable to me at the time. It seemed that it was because of my own feelings, so the other party was my own sister. To say a few words, she felt that it was a kind of blasphemy, not fair enough.

Why did you let him go, why did you say that he didn't understand anything because he was young, why did you look at him with regret, as if he was a bitter lover who needed "the sea of ​​bitterness is boundless", why would you feel that you are looking for someone just because you like it? Not to him, obviously his own sister and brother-in-law, but both of them are too dogmatic and dogmatic, they are both outsiders, so they are not qualified to dictate his feelings.

Now he suddenly realized that he was the least qualified one, and the most stupid one.

There is a feeling that the more painful it becomes, the clearer it becomes. It seems that only in this way can we see the world clearly, all the changes around us, this relationship, and ourselves.

It's like getting addicted to drugs and quitting. I used to just wishful thinking and immersed myself in my own world, living in a closed ivory tower, isolated from the world, even if others insisted on pulling me out, I couldn't come out by myself. If you don't say it, you will blame the person who helped you, for being powerless and meddling.

Now after quitting addiction, I realize that it is actually me who is ignorant, and it has always been me.

He began to plan to live a normal life, began to plan to live again.

Simply be yourself.

"What? You look surprised?" Liang Zhishu didn't hear Ah Qing's movement for a long time. He turned his head and found that the other party was looking at him with disbelief. Under the expression, there is also a little joy.

"No, I'm just a little surprised." He obviously liked him for so many years, but now he just didn't call because of illness, resigned when he said resignation, and let go when he said let go. It was a bit sudden and unacceptable.

In fact, what she didn't know was that all letting go was premeditated, not just because of a simple incident.

Just like "frozen three feet is not a day's cold", this relationship gradually became colder and happened bit by bit.

At first it was just a finger, then a whole hand, and then an arm, which was full of cold limbs. In the end, what turned cold was the face that would turn red uncontrollably. My heart beat faster and faster.

Slowly, the relationship went from the initial heartbeat to the present, and when I think of her, I feel completely stiff, and I can never go back to the beginning.

Even if you want to go back, you can't go back.

In fact, I don't want to go back anymore
"What's so surprising about this." It's not that he has become cold all over, that's all.

"Are you really thinking about it? Are you sure?" Ah Qing still couldn't accept it. She always felt that Liang Zhishu was just acting impulsively and jokingly.

"Yes, in a few days, let's go back to the Celestial Dynasty." He smiled.

"Okay." Liang Zhishu said so, and Ah Qing of course agreed.

"If I don't recover from my illness, we will go to the place you want to go to play first, and then go back." This commemoration is that Ah Qing is by her side, silently accompanying her. After so many years, she should also Take good care of Ah Qing.

Liang Zhishu's attitude towards this good girlfriend is not just gratitude.

"Really?" Completely flattered, Ah Qing's expression was either happy or happy, but almost frightened. "You're not kidding me, are you?"

"Then we'll wait and see." Liang Zhishu smiled wryly. It was because he had too many bad records that it was all empty promises now.

When Qin Huanhuan came to visit Liang Zhishu with a gift, the latter was having dinner with a girl.

"Zhishu, are you okay?" Qin Huanhuan put the gift on the table, looked at Liang Zhishu on the hospital bed, and asked with concern.

"Fortunately, it's not a big problem," Liang Zhishu still smiled gently, but Qin Huanhuan always felt that something was wrong with Liang Zhishu today, and he was different from the usual him.

It seems that something is missing, it seems that there is something more.

"I'm too busy at work today. I meant to call you earlier, but I've never been free. I'm so sorry." Qin Huanhuan explained apologetically. She thought Liang Zhishu would be angry, but when she came, she found that she wasn't.

This made her a little surprised, and a little panicked. She was at a loss and wanted to say something, and finally opened her lips, just explaining the reason for calling now.

"It's okay, you're busy, I've always known that." Huanhuan has always been busy, and if she doesn't work as an assistant herself, there will still be someone else as a substitute, which doesn't make any difference at all.

"This is—" Qin Huanhuan looked at the girl beside her who had been looking at her all the time, and wanted to ask Liang Zhishu, why hadn't heard of Liang Zhishu's relationship with Liang Zhishu for so many years? "Is your girlfriend?"

I really wish I were.Ah Qing replied in her heart.

"This is my good friend, Ah Qing."

"Ah Qing, this is also my good friend, Qin Huanhuan."

"Hello, I'm Ah Qing." Ah Qing took the initiative to stretch out her right hand, and this was the first time she greeted her Qin Huanhuan, who was "a rival in love but didn't know it."

Very memorable.

I really hope we don't see each other again.

(End of this chapter)