When will the fog clear

Chapter 25
As the days passed, Lin Miao became more and more silent. Chen Jizhen was afraid that she would do something stupid, so he asked his aunt to stay with her all day and come back as early as possible at night.But after going through so many twists and turns, Lin Miao was actually stronger than he imagined. She just felt tired, both physically and mentally, as if things would never end.

At this moment, Monsanto suddenly called her and asked her if she could take time to see Susan.

Lin Miao was taken aback, thinking something happened, and asked Meng San on the phone. Meng San only said that Susan was not in a good state recently, and he got along with her again, and asked her to stay with her.Lin Miao was bored by herself, her foot injury was almost healed, but Chen Jizhen still didn't allow her to go to work, and she was worried that he would say something that wouldn't let her work, and she didn't dare to argue clearly, so it happened to be time to see Susan , Talk to her to relieve boredom.

The aunt Chen Jizhen invited was very skilled, so Lin Miao asked her to help cook some of Susan's favorite side dishes, as well as make Laohuo soup, and she brought a bag full of them to send.

Susan lived alone in a large apartment. When she opened the door, she was surprised to see Lin Miao, as if she didn't know she was coming.

Lin Miao said that Meng San had called her.

Susan was annoyed and funny: "I thought he was coming over. This sullen man asked you to bring so much food. Are you afraid that I won't be able to eat?"

Lin Miao smiled, put the things away, and said, "That's not true. Brother Shan cares about you, and I miss you too."

Recently, I seldom see Susan walk the notice.

"Your mouth is so sweet, did you put honey on it before going out?" Susan also laughed, and unceremoniously took out all the things in the big bag that Lin Miao brought. They were all packed in thermos bottles. It's not cold now. , so it's still hot.

Susan took a sip of the soup and sighed with satisfaction in her eyes.

Lin Miao laughed at first, then looked at Susan carefully, frowned again, and asked her, "Sister Su, why do you look so bad, what's wrong with you?"

"Do you know why celebrities don't dare to wear makeup? That's how I am." Susan brushed her hair indifferently, and wanted to say something, but suddenly her face turned pale, she covered her lips and ran to the toilet to vomit, and then returned When he got to the living room, his face was even worse.

Lin Miao was very worried: "What's wrong with you?"

"It's okay, just a little bit of indigestion recently, it's not a big deal, Monsanto even asked you to come here. But you always know my heart, and you bring all the things I like to eat, but I have to eat later." Susan laughed Be calm.

Lin Miao still felt that something was wrong. She felt strange since the last time we met, especially since Meng San called her on purpose.

After she left Susan's residence, she couldn't help calling Monsanto again.

"Didn't she tell you anything?" Monsanne sighed.

Lin Miao asked, "Brother Shan, just tell me what happened, I'm dying of anxiety."

"Cancer." Meng San was silent for a long time before uttering such a foreign word, as if he didn't even have the courage to say it in Chinese.

Lin Miao was immediately stunned, and subconsciously blurted out: "This is impossible, don't make such jokes with me."

"I also hope that this is impossible." Meng San smiled wryly, "There are a lot of things I don't know how to tell you recently, but Susan likes you and always says that you are considerate to her temper, and I don't know what to do , I asked you to go and see her."

Lin Miao burst into tears while holding the phone.

"In short, go talk to her when you have free time, and let's explain it."

"Didn't you go for treatment?" When Lin Miao said it, she felt that the voice was not her own.It was like a huge stone was pressed against my heart.

"Actually, I knew it when I had appendix surgery last time, but it was a pity that I found out too late. The treatment is only a matter of time, and Susan has such a temper that she would not want to be in the hospital..." Monsanne sighed, Susan She doesn't want anyone to know she's sick.

Lin Miao hung up the phone in a daze.Her spirit is not very good, and now she is even more in a trance.

Humans are really chemical animals. If they say they are in a coma, they will be in a coma.

Lin Miao felt terribly uncomfortable. Chen Jizhen felt that something was wrong with her, so he asked a few times before asking. However, no matter how capable he was, he couldn't help much in the face of such detached life, old age, illness and death.

He did know some medical authorities, and Lin Miao felt that it was a good idea after knowing it. Didn't he invite Dr. Joseph from France last time, and Xiaoyue's illness improved?She quickly asked him to introduce several experts in this field, and then contacted Monsanto.

Meng Shan thanked him repeatedly, and was still surprised that Chen Jizhen was willing to help, but he quickly felt relieved when he thought of the difference he had made with Lin Miao before. People in the entertainment industry need all kinds of adaptability.Lin Miao listened to Meng San's instructions, and didn't mention her illness at all in front of Susan, and changed her way to ask her aunt to make something that was good for her health and send it to her, just like she did when she had surgery.

She hoped that with good care, Susan would recover.

Susan accepted everything with a smile, and smiled when she should smile, and scolded Lin Miao when she should, as if she was not sick, but relaxed and relaxed like she was on vacation, and her new single still occupied a place on the charts , received a lot of interviews and program invitations, but Monsanto turned them down on the grounds that they couldn't make enough work schedules.

As for Susan's condition, Monsanto meant that it would not make it public for the time being, because Susan didn't want to.

She told Lin Miao that when autumn came, she would take her to her hometown and pick her big and sweet persimmons from the old persimmon tree in front of her house.

The outside world’s evaluation of Susan is mixed, especially the scandalous news in the spring of this year, which almost blacked her out. Now that the new song has become popular, that incident has been revealed again, and some people have begun to search for Susan’s so-called mysterious cohabiting boyfriend. Susan always kept silent.

But the autumn wind was blowing gradually, and before Lin Miao had time to prepare, she suddenly received the news of Susan's death.That day, she also asked her aunt to help buy medicinal materials to make medicinal meals for Susan. Recently, her cooking skills have improved a lot.

Auntie came in with the morning newspaper, muttering: "This girl is still so young, it's a pity to leave like this."

Lin Miao couldn't associate the news with Susan for a while.But what Auntie was really talking about was Susan, and the photos in the magazines were all published.The magazine must have made a mistake. Isn’t there a lot of fake news about stars being “dead” in recent years?

She called Monsanto with shaking hands, and it took several calls to get through. Before the other party said a word, she dropped the phone to the ground because of the shaking of her hands, and the screen cracked all of a sudden.

Lin Miao's heart also seemed to be cracking, and suddenly lost all strength, and she leaned limply against the counter, as if it was unbelievable, a reality that was completely unacceptable.Two lines of tears flowed down disobediently.

Meng San said to her: "The phone is about to explode, but I am also planning to contact you... Come early on the day you drop her off."

"The Afterlife"

Composer: Jiang Hang

Lyricist: Susan
Vocals: Susan
if there is an afterlife
if still available
I won't go the same way again

fulfill this ridiculous fate
can't get what you want
You can't do whatever you want

Even simplicity is a luxury
But I can't bear it
fate with you

right or wrong

This new song is still shining on the charts, but unexpectedly it became Susan's swan song. She left so suddenly, without any warning, many people even asked if it was an April Fool's joke.

Lin Miao also hoped that it was just a joke, but the reality is cruel.Many people came to mourn Susan.Lin Miao looked at the solemn mourning hall, her heart was empty, she shed tears and wailed for her, but she still felt that she was still there. This kind of feeling cannot be measured by the length of time he has known her.

The eyes are full of black and white, Susan doesn't like such dull colors, why is she willing to leave?
The smell of nicotine dissipated in the air with the puffing smoke rings. Lin Miao hadn't smoked for a long time, but Meng San couldn't even hold the lighter steadily in front of him, and his two fingers holding the cigarette were shaking uncontrollably. He asked her to light it for him, and smoked while talking to her.

A large number of movie fans and fans gathered outside the mourning hall to see Susan off on her last journey, as if even the autumn wind could feel everyone's mood, it was desolate.

Meng Shan's expression was still calm, and he took a puff of smoke: "They all said that she was arrogant and ignored people easily. In fact, they didn't know that she just didn't like to join in the fun, but she chose this career that only has to be lively to have hope. She also I don’t like others to say that she is a vase, whether it’s acting or singing, she puts all her heart into it, she’s too strong and wants to succeed.” He said word by word, “I told her to go to chemotherapy, but she said she would lose weight. Hair, that's not good-looking. She doesn't have the style of a popular actress. She is so stupid, her life is gone, does it matter if she looks good?"

Lin Miao stared blankly at Meng Shan, her temples were covered with white hair. She wanted to say something, but her throat was choked and she couldn't utter a word.

As if feeling her attention, Meng Shan subconsciously stroked his hair, dark emotions flashed in his eyes, and he continued to murmur: "I am a young girl with gray hair. She can't see it anymore. She keeps staring at me every month. Dye black, in the future... there is no need for that."

Lin Miao suddenly remembered when Susan was dressing herself up, and she took a slight breath.

At this time, a staff member came in and told Meng San that someone wanted to see Susan alone. Meng San sneered, then remembered something, rubbed his temples tiredly, and waved his hand to let the person in.

Seeing Lin Miao crying quietly when he turned his head, he patted her on the shoulder and comforted her.Soon there were cries from inside.

Meng San pursed his lips, returning to his usual cold and resolute appearance.

Lin Miao choked up and looked up at him. He thought for a while before saying, "That man, she met when she was in school. He has some family background. They met again at a reception a few years ago. The two have been in contact."

"Those rumors..."

"In this circle, who didn't point to the past? It's true and false, how can you tell which is right and which is wrong? How many times have I said that if you are too serious, you will lose. But Susan is true to him. , before the disease was found out, he was already planning to quit the circle, but that person can’t even wait for this time.” Meng Shan took a few deep breaths, and then whispered, “Every time because of those reports, the two of them quarreled. How many times, I asked her to share, she said she was reluctant, but she didn't expect that she would be willing after knowing that she was ill."

"Sister Su is very soft-hearted."

"Yeah, she's an idiot. It would be great if she was as powerful as the rumors spread." Meng San turned his body so that no one could see his expression. "Actually, that person's family has found a suitable person for him It doesn't matter whether Susan is married or not, whether she is sick or not, the doctor said she gave up treatment on her own." He had hidden these words for a long time, but he couldn't vomit them today.

Matched.Lin Miao suddenly felt out of breath.

It turns out that a person as bright and beautiful as Susan also has this kind of unknown sadness. It is hard for her to imagine, after going through so much, how does Susan smile in front of the camera and face herself in the face of her illness.

Lin Miao was not fair for Susan, but also sad for herself.Gu Huai and Xiao Yue are in the same family, and Chen Jiti and that Miss Xu are also in the same family, but she, a person who is nothing, is involved in it, so so many things that shouldn't have happened, right?
The autumn wind poured in, blurring her eyes.

Meng San said to her: "You must not learn from her, live a good life, and I am the same, Susan will be happy."

It was only later that Lin Miao found out that Meng San had decided not to be an agent anymore.Except Wushan is not a cloud.

When Chen Jizhen returned home, it was already dark. When the sensor light came on, he saw Lin Miao sitting in front of the window with his knees in his arms and a silly expression on his face, as if he had maintained this position for a long time.

He knew that she was not in a good mood, so he went over and rubbed her hair: "Have you eaten yet?"

"Chen Jiti." She called him suddenly.

Chen Jizhen raised his eyebrows: "What's wrong?"

"Do you think we have a future?"

Chen Jizhen was startled: "Why do you ask that?"

Lin Miao looked at him with her chin up: "How long are you going to hide it from me?" Seeing that he frowned, his eyes were dark and silent, it was difficult for her to see clearly what he wanted to do, and she remembered what Jiaqi said to her on the phone that day , she bit her lip and asked again, "Xiaoyue can't remember what happened that day, can she?"

Chen Jizhen clenched his fist suddenly, intertwined with her eyes: "Who told you?"

"Is this important?" Lin Miao's eyes were brighter than the stars in the night. Seeing his reaction like this, she knew it was true. She had been disappointed so many times. She seemed to have no feeling. The only thing she can be thankful for is that, After all, Xiaoyue woke up, she can live without guilt.

Everyone said that it was her fault to associate with Gu Huai; it was also her fault that something happened to Xiaoyue.Then what about her and Chen Jitang, they were also wrong, right?Is it due to his strength?Or succumb to his tenderness?She would not admit that her heart was shaken, and Susan's death made her see more clearly.

"Xiaoyue just woke up and is still recovering. It's too early to make a conclusion." Chen Jizhen pursed his lips.

Lin Miao knelt in front of him, and suddenly reached out to trace his eyebrows and eyes, and found that he was really handsome. Although he was cool when he was not smiling, she still liked the way he smiled.Like it?This word should not be used.

"You didn't tell me anything, are you afraid?" Although she didn't think he had the cowardly emotion of being afraid.

Sure enough, Chen Jizhen said lightly: "Are you thinking wildly again? I think you don't look well. Go to bed early today. I have a video conference later. I don't know what time it will be. Don't wait for me." He took He opened her hand and tugged at the tie. Seeing her eyes were red and swollen, his heart sank again.

He turned and left. Lin Miao looked at his back and said quietly, "I'm wrong. You're not afraid, you just know too well. No matter whether Xiaoyue can tell what happened back then, there is a similar relationship between you and me." Like a bubble, it blows away."

Chen Jitang acted as if he had never heard it, only the sound of heavy and powerful footsteps remained.

If she is proved to be right, who will compensate for the suffering she has experienced all these years?How can I compensate?

If she is proven wrong, how are they going to go on?

It's a dead end game.

(End of this chapter)