When will the fog clear

Chapter 49 The Weight of Love (3)
Lin Miao didn't feel any pain, but the heat from his fingertips touching her skin made all the pores of her body open, and she felt an uncontrollable shivering feeling.This man had advised her, threatened her, protected her, and deceived her.She wanted to be a little confused, but only those who had experienced it could understand the heart-wrenching feeling of being betrayed by the people around her.

"Chen Jizhen, what do you want me to do?" Lin Miao's voice was a little hollow, "I didn't want this marriage, nor did the children...uh..."

Chen Jizhen's angry and frenzied kisses ravaged her lips and tongue like a storm, she patted him weakly, but he clasped her waist tightly.Lin Miao retreated every step of the way, and Chen Jizhen pressed her every inch of the way, pushing her down on the sofa, losing control from the very beginning of the conversation.

Lin Miao turned his heart to one side, closed his eyes and squeezed his upper and lower jaws, and soon the smell of blood diffused between the entangled tongues.

Chen Jizhen felt the pain and tasted the taste of blood, but it was more of the sadness hidden in his heart.

He just leaned on her body, his face was close to hers, his voice could not hear sorrow or joy.

"Lin Miao, I should be the one asking you, what do you want me to do?" How can I make you forgive me?

Lin Miao knew that she had said the wrong thing, and there was guilt in her eyes. No matter what happened between her and Chen Jizhen, Hengheng was innocent. Maybe she was unwilling at first, but after Hengheng was born, she felt that it was too much for her to be persecuted by Chen Jizhen like this. do not have much left.She didn't want to delve into the reason, it was purely desperate.Anyway, she couldn't stop what Chen Jizhen wanted to do.The parents and daughter were still in the room, and it was embarrassing for anyone to make a noise.

Knowing that she didn't want to pay attention to him, Chen Jizhen also closed his eyes, remembering the first time he saw her, remembering the first time she smiled at him, remembering the unreasonable but unable to extricate himself...

"It used to be Gu Huai, then there was Jiang Hang, and now there is Eric, you can be so gentle to everyone, but you are cruel to me." Chen Jizhen paused every word, as if it was a bit difficult to speak, It seemed that her answer was no longer needed, "I knew this, and you no longer trust me, but I still didn't let you go, do you know why?"

Lin Miao sniffed, but was still unwilling to speak.But for a long time, I didn't hear him speak again, I could only feel the heartbeat of each other.

Only then did Lin Miao realize that she was actually waiting for him to say why.

But Chen Jizhen got up slowly, his face was no longer angry, but there was blood on the corner of his mouth, he looked like an indifferent king.

"Although I don't have a public marriage relationship, since you and Hengheng are back, I have to think more about it. Just because of Hengheng, you should pay attention to what you do and say in the future." Chen Jizhen said solemnly and without emotion, as if something just happened Neither happened.

After a long time, Lin Miao said, "I see, don't worry." Regardless of his status, even her current job is a public figure, so his concerns are normal.

Want him to rest assured?Chen Jizhen touched his finger bones and smiled self-deprecatingly, it would be nice if he could really "relieve".

God knows that he speaks so righteously, but he just doesn't want to see her getting into the car of a strange man who has ulterior motives for her like tonight. As for the unfavorable reports, it's just a high-sounding reason he used to restrain her.

He stood up: "I'm going back, by the way, I promised to take Hengheng to play on this week's rest day."

"I may not be free..." Lin Miao said subconsciously.

"I didn't ask you to come, I just wanted to tell you." Chen Jizhen took his coat and put it on his arm, and left softly.

Lin Miao lay back on the sofa, staring blankly at the ceiling, the residual warmth from the corner of her mouth dissipated, and her heart was filled with coolness.

There is also a pot of green radishes in the living room of this room, on the windowsill, but it is no longer the same pot as before.

Lin Miao really didn't have time. In addition to being busy with work, she also asked Meng San to pay respects to Susan. Unexpectedly, a bouquet of flowers had already been placed there, and it was Susan's favorite variety.

Lin Miao and Meng Shan looked at each other, and Meng Shan looked calm and indifferent.That person has been here.

"In my opinion, nostalgia afterward is meaningless. He just wanted to feel at ease." Meng San took out a clean handkerchief from the pocket of his windbreaker and dusted the tombstone. "In the last few days, the first thing I did when I woke up was Just to see if you are breathing, if you are breathing, then I have earned it, but it is a pity that I have earned too little."

Meng San was very calm even when he spoke, but Lin Miao knew that he was still thinking about Susan, otherwise there would be nothing about the foundation, that is the way Meng San commemorates.The two talked with Susan for a long time. When Lin Miao talked about Hengheng and her career, Meng San also said that she was healthy and that the foundation was developing very well.

Everyone has their own new life, but there are many things that would not exist without the past.

Meng San sighed: "Treasure the people in front of you, it's easy to say."

Lin Miao's heart was touched, but he couldn't answer a word, his throat was choked.

Back home, the night was falling, and the room was pitch black. Lin Miao couldn't adapt for a while.

Her parents had already returned to their hometown yesterday, and Chen Jizhen picked up Hengheng early this morning, and she was the only one there.

In fact, after leaving school, she has been alone for several years, and she has never felt like this before. I don't know if it is because she has become vulnerable because she went to see Susan, or because she can no longer get used to loneliness.As if sensing it, Lin Miao's cell phone rang at the right time.

"Mom! Mom!" Chen Yingheng's joyful voice jumped into the ear curtains.

"Baby, do you miss Mommy?"

Hengheng was very distracted, and replied sweetly: "I think! I'm at my grandfather's house, and my father said that my mother will come too. Is it tomorrow?"

Lin Miao was taken aback, this Chen Jiti...

It turned out that Chen Jizhen brought Hengheng back to Lin Miao's hometown. This was undoubtedly a surprise to Lin's father and Lin's mother, but they started thinking about their children as soon as they got into the car yesterday.Chen Jizhen was going to stay in a hotel, but the old man refused to say anything, so he insisted on staying.Although Lin Miao's room has only been lived in a few times, Lin's mother cleans it almost every day, and it is still arranged according to Lin Miao's preferences.

Hengheng asked Lin Miao to promise to come tomorrow before he would hang up the phone, and asked Chen Jizhen to play with her building blocks, and did not go to bed with them until his grandparents came to remind him.

Chen Jizhen lived in Lin Miao's room.Maybe because she didn't live there permanently, she didn't have many things, so Chen Jizhen's eyes fell on the photo frame on the table.Lin Miao sat on the rattan chair, holding the baby Hengheng in her arms, smiling warmly and contentedly in the sun.It was the first time he had seen this photo, but he had the impression that it should be taken on the lawn of the hospital where Hengheng was born.How many times, he just stood there looking upstairs where their mother and daughter were, but didn't go up.

Even on the day Hengheng was born, he was sitting there, holding his mobile phone and waiting for Ann to call him, just to say that the mother and daughter are safe. He wanted to be by their side, but he could only use this way.

He also remembered the single photo he saw when he stepped into the place she rented for the first time. If she hadn't known Bao Yue and herself, maybe her life would have been different.Now they were all trapped in a cage, and he couldn't escape, so he wouldn't let her escape either.This is really not the result he wanted.Is it really time to let go?

There was a small iron box behind the photo frame, the outer layer of paint had peeled off, it looked like it was old, Chen Jizhen couldn't help reaching out to bring it to him.After moving his fingers a few times, he finally opened it. Everything about Lin Miao was indescribably attractive to him.There was a stack of score manuscripts inside, and the handwriting was still very green. Judging from the date, it should be written by Lin Miao when he was studying, and the others were also about music. It seemed nothing special, which disappointed Chen Jizhen.

Just when he was sorting and putting the things back, he accidentally found that the ink stains on one page of the score were different, which was obviously added later, so he took it out and took a closer look.

But was stunned.

Graduation work - "You and My Love" / Lin Miao
Chen Jizhen didn't study music, his eyes flicked over the notes, and then fixed on a line of beautiful small characters on the lower right.

"Chen Jiti, I can trust you, right?" At that time, Lin Miao couldn't trust anyone anymore.

He made her believe in him, but he broke her trust again.

Chen Jizhen's hands holding the paper were shaking, and he even felt pain in his eye sockets.This night is bound to be long.

Chen Jizhen didn't know when he fell asleep. When he opened his eyes, he could hear Heng Heng knocking on the door mischievously, and then his mother-in-law taught her softly.

"Heng Heng is obedient, don't disturb your father, grandma will take you to play."

"No, I want daddy!"

"Why did you promise grandma last night? You're not good now, are you?"

"Well……"

Chen Jizhen could imagine his daughter's expression, she must be pouting and looking unhappy, but he was very happy that the child was so clingy to him.

Although Lin Miao annoyed him, she didn't teach her daughter to distance herself.He sat up, tidied himself up in front of the mirror, and was about to go out to meet his precious daughter, when suddenly there was no sound outside.

He went to open the door.Just in time, Hengheng shouted softly: "Mom, mom!" Then he flew like a little meat into the arms of a beautiful figure who had just entered.

Lin Miao came, and just as she picked up the child, she met Chen Jizhen who was standing at the door of the room, and she was still taken aback for a moment.

The atmosphere suddenly froze.

Mother Lin put the things that Lin Miao had brought back into the kitchen, and Father Lin made an excuse that he had an appointment to go out, and there were only three of them left in the living room.

Chen Jizhen didn't say anything, turned around and went back to the room, and when he came out, he had already put on his coat.Lin Miao was setting the table. When she saw him, she subconsciously asked, "Where are you going? Don't you want breakfast?"

Chen Jizhen also imitated her for a moment, thought for a while and took advantage of the opportunity to sit down.

Heng Heng playfully wanted to sit on his father's lap. Lin Miao was pouring hot soy milk when she kicked her foot without paying attention. Hissed.

Chen Jizhen's eyes froze, and after hugging his daughter away, he immediately turned his head, grabbed her hand and placed a cold compress under the faucet, and kept asking, "Does it hurt?"

Lin Miao shook her head and said nothing.In fact, I don't feel so cold anymore, after all, it's not boiling water, but Chen Jizhen is so nervous.Lin Miao felt that it was not the back of her hand that was burned, but her heart ached.Hengheng followed without knowing why, and Chen Jizhen, who was always good-tempered towards his daughter, had a cold face, but when he saw those small eyes that looked like Lin Miao looking at him, his heart soon softened.

He dried his hands, stroked his daughter's soft hair and said, "Hengheng, you can't be so naughty in the future, you understand?"

Chen Yingheng was also a little afraid of such a strange father, she nodded in a daze, and subconsciously retreated behind her mother.Chen Jizhen smiled wryly, why in front of their mother and daughter, he seemed to do nothing wrong, his eyes were lonely.

The episode in the morning passed just like that. Chen Yingheng forgot about the pain after the scar healed, and soon asked Chen Jizhen to go out to play. In fact, Chen Jizhen was not familiar with this place at all, and he had already taken her to the park yesterday afternoon.He didn't have any particular intention to come here...he just suddenly wanted to take a look.Although he told his daughter that Lin Miao would come, he was not 100% sure. He originally planned that she would not come, so he took the child back.

Lin Miao was still soft-hearted after all.He hugged his daughter and looked up at Lin Miao.Lin Miao had no choice but to give Chen Jiti a glance.Later, the two of them went out with Hengheng.

They went to the zoo.

It’s not as big as a big city here, and the so-called zoo doesn’t have many animals. The most famous one is a monkey garden, but Hengheng still had a great time, holding a chocolate bar in his hand and chewing on it. Look at this, then look at that later.

Lin Miao angrily took out a tissue to wipe her face and hands.

It was surprisingly hot today, and Chen Jizhen was holding his daughter all the time, and he was sweating profusely from the heat.Lin Miao thought for a while, and then put a tissue on it to wipe his sweat. He was startled, and his head turned slightly to her hand, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth.

When Lin Miao saw this, she was annoyed that she was troublesome.But I suddenly remembered what Brother Monsanne said yesterday, cherish the person in front of me.

Sometimes she thinks that she is too stubborn, and it has been so long.However, I still can't get over that hurdle, and tell myself to forgive him, love and hate are only in one thought.

After coming out of the zoo, he went back by car. Hengheng played until his hair was wet, and he lay on his father's shoulder and fell asleep.

Traffic jams on the road, which is rare in the county, and I only found out after asking that it was a water pipe repair.

"Let's go back." Chen Jizhen proposed this way, it was already sunset, the wind was very cool, and it was not too far to go back.

Lin Miao thought about it and didn't know when to wait, so she agreed.Asking the driver to drive the car back to the hotel, they got out of the car with their daughter in their arms.Walk along the green belt, passing an elementary school on the way.Chen Jizhen stopped, stood at the door and looked in, thoughtful.

"The swing has been dismantled." Chen Jiti suddenly said.

Lin Miao didn't expect that he could still remember, this happened several years ago.

She said "hmm": "I heard that the school will be rebuilt, and even the teaching building will be demolished to start over."

That year, he ran over suddenly with her Luluo, which caught her off guard. Later, the two went to eat at the food stall, and he even gave her a swing.

"Do you want to start again..." Chen Jiti only read this sentence.

Lin Miao's heart skipped a beat.

Mother Lin wanted the family to have a meal at home, so Lin Miao's plan to go back to the city at night was shelved, but Chen Jitang also cooperated.

It's just that after eating, he answered a phone call, and after saying a few words, his expression was not very good, and then he went to the balcony to continue talking, and he didn't know what the problem was.After he finally hung up the phone and didn't see their mother and daughter in the living room, the mother-in-law pointed to the room and whispered: "Miaomiao took the child to bed."

He nodded: "I'll go in and see them first, and I have to leave in a while."

"Don't we leave tomorrow?" Mother Lin was surprised.

"There's something urgent to deal with." Chen Jizhen didn't want to say more, but it could be seen that he was preoccupied.

Mother Lin didn't want to ask too many questions, so she just sighed.Chen Jizhen carefully opened the door and went in, staying inside for nearly half an hour before leaving.

Lin Miao was in a deep sleep, and Hengheng woke up to go to the bathroom, and she woke up. The room was quiet, and she subconsciously took a look, but Chen Jizhen was not there.The child kept crying and woke up Lin's mother. She put on her clothes and came over to look, and said, "What's wrong?"

"It's going to be awkward, it will be fine in a while, don't worry about it, go to sleep quickly."

Mother Lin was still worried: "Are you going back to the city early tomorrow morning? The child can sleep with us, so go to bed early."

"It's okay, I have a car anyway."

"Where did you get the car? The child's father said he had something urgent to go back, and you don't even know?" Mother Lin said angrily.

Lin Miao shook her head blankly.The child was still taken to the next door by Mother Lin.She sat on the bed in a daze for a while, feeling thirsty, stood up and wanted to drink some water, only to see a piece of paper on the table.A simple sketch depicting her sleeping face. JT is the inscription written by Chen Jizhen to the people close to him.

She never knew that he still had such ability, and the paintings were so vivid that she even felt that the people in the paintings were not as good-looking as herself.On the back of the paper is "My Love Between You and Me" written by her.Of course, she also saw the sentence she wrote back then.How did Chen Jizhen feel when he saw it?
Lin Miao closed his eyes, as if he could feel it. He sat here and stared at himself, picking up the pen and drawing.And his phrase "start again, suddenly want to cry."Maybe I shouldn't be stubborn anymore.Time, time, what about your medicine?

Lin Miao took Hengheng back to the city by car early in the morning. During this period, he called Chen Jizhen several times and his cell phone was turned off, which is rare.She couldn't help calling Lu Yi.In fact, she didn't even know what she wanted to tell Chen Jiting.

Lu Yi was also surprised to receive a call from Lin Miao: "Hi, long time no see. What can I do?" For a moment, Lu Yi didn't know whether to call her Miss Lin or Mrs. Chen.

"Uh..." Lin Miao's tongue was tied, and she felt a little embarrassed to ask, "No, it's nothing, did I bother you?"

(End of this chapter)