99th heartbeat

Chapter 1618 I am not my own [5]

It gave Shi Shuyao, who was extremely uncomfortable and sad at this time, a surge of warmth. Subconsciously, Shi Shuyao hugged Xiang Bai, as if he had found a harbor to rely on, and leaned tightly in his arms, sobbing.

Xiang Bai's body carried a faint smell of tobacco, which was not pungent, but rather like a magical force that attracted Shi Shuyao to hug him more and more, to get close to him, to absorb the warmth that he could give her.

"Abo—" she called him softly, aroused by emotion, even her voice was soft, hoarse, and fragile, which made people feel distressed.

Xiang Bai, who was surrounded by her suddenly, wanted to push her away gently, but at this weak whisper, he took away the hand that wanted to push her away.

Even more mysteriously, he slowly put the hand that had been raised and pushed her away on her shoulder, and silently embraced her in his arms.

The movements were gentle, and imperceptible tenderness and warmth spread throughout the living room.

Perhaps she was extremely depressed tonight, and she could only hear her voice in the quiet living room, which was much weaker and slower than usual.

"Abo, one day I will have nothing, can you still give me a warm embrace like today."

Xiang Bai's hand tightened subconsciously, the dullness and distress in his heart gradually increased, he pursed his lower lip, he didn't know how to reply her as he was not good at words.

And she hugged him, leaned into his arms and sobbed, and said slowly again: "I'm afraid that one day I wake up, and the whole world doesn't want me anymore."

She has been abandoned since she was a child, and now her adoptive parents have problems with their relationship. If the father really brings back his biological daughter, then she is the one who was abandoned.

She was really afraid of being abandoned, and some of the scars in her childhood were also deepened by repeated injuries, which cast a deep shadow on her.

"Is it because I am annoying, that's why all people will subconsciously choose to abandon me. Abo, one day when I have nothing, can you give me a hug and make me feel that the world is worth it?"

Some thoughts are fleeting, some wounds caused by trauma will never heal for a lifetime, and she is repeatedly abandoned by her family and parents. She really feels that the world is full of bad things, and she doesn't want to stay.
Hearing what she said, Xiang Bai's heart seemed to be stabbed fiercely by something sharp suddenly, and it hurt for a moment, reaching the deepest part of his heart.

This sentence, this idea...is extremely familiar, and he empathizes with it extremely clearly.

Yes.

For those whom luck never favors—

The world is not worth--

Aren't these words and words hovering in his mind from time to time over the years, but when did these words of frustration and black mood belong to Shi Shuyao, a girl full of warmth and tenderness.

Maybe it was too much empathy, or maybe he was already in the dark abyss, but he really didn't want her to fall into the dark abyss.

After all, the taste of the abyss - life is worse than death.

Incomparable, unforgettable.

"Shi——" Just as he uttered the word, he realized that his voice was so low that anyone could hear the depression. He pondered for two seconds, and when he spoke again, he suppressed the pain in his heart, and his voice was still low but slow. Slowly with a long-lost three-point tenderness, "If there is a day, if I am lucky enough to live a hug, no matter where you are, I will come to you."

(End of this chapter)