i loved you so much

Chapter 1 Midsummer Night Gone (1)
When Li Xiaoan came back from the court, he walked into his office without saying a word, ignoring a group of people who came up to congratulate him.

The people in the office hall looked at each other, and then whispered among themselves: "Didn't you win the lawsuit? Why is his face more serious than the blame?"

The discussion was fruitless, and everyone turned their attention to the person who followed into the law firm's gate.

"Old Wu, what's going on?"

Wu Lixuan looked at the new colleagues in the law firm with a wry smile, raised his hand and summoned these people to the tea room, and confessed sincerely: "He is in a bad mood, so be careful today, don't mess with him."

"Why?" Someone still asked persistently.

"Old Wu, what's going on, tell us quickly."

"..."

Colleagues were chattering, Wu Lixuan was loyal and unyielding, he gritted his teeth and refused to reveal a word.He was about to talk about other topics, but he saw Xiao Li at the front desk come in: "Old Wu, there are two reporters outside who want to see the boss."

"No, any media visits in the next week will be rejected by me."

Xiao Li shrugged: "Okay."

Wu Lixuan thought for a while, then called her back: "Forget it, please come to the reception room, I'll meet them for a while. Xu Jie, make two cups of coffee."

He turned to leave, but was stopped by Chen Mei, who was in charge of logistics: "Old Wu, I have a few reimbursement forms that I need to sign for the boss, can you help me get them in?"

"Don't, don't, I'm going to do it for you. This fire shouldn't burn me on the head. You can take it in. He usually doesn't fire at women." Anyway, a woman who can make him angry Not many.

Chen Mei tremblingly went to knock on the door.

"Come in." The voice was so low that no emotion could be heard.

On the leather chair, Li Xiaoan stared at the display screen intently.She walked over lightly, put a stack of reimbursement forms in front of him, and said respectfully, "Boss, please sign."

Li Xiaoan glanced at it, picked up the pen on the table and signed it with flying colors.

Chen Mei didn't dare to breathe, but her eyes rolled a few more times uncontrollably, and when she accidentally caught a glimpse of the picture on his monitor, she suddenly felt frightened.

Walking out the door with the signed form, she closed the door gently, then patted her chest hard to assure herself of being shocked.She has only been in the law firm for a short time, and she is not very familiar with Li Xiaoan. In her impression, this boss is a complete workaholic. Although he is only in his early 30s, he is always serious, indifferent, and unsmiling, which makes people daunting.But just now, she discovered one of his secrets, that is - the boss is playing Plants vs. Zombies!

If she hadn't seen it with her own eyes, she couldn't believe that the cold-faced and cold-hearted big boss would play such a childish game leisurely.She wanted to share this new discovery with her colleagues, so she wandered around the office hall, but she didn't have the guts to go back to her desk in desperation, and gossip about it with anonymous netizens on QQ.

Li Xiaoan quit the game, feeling more and more irritable.

Previously in court, he was uncharacteristically bombarding the defendant with his sharp words. It seemed to outsiders that he made passionate and impassioned statements and was more devoted than any other defense, but in fact he knew that he was out of control.

This case of kidnapping and tearing up tickets should not have been accepted at the beginning. Yuan Yuan had an accident two years ago, so he decided not to accept such cases in the future, but this time the plaintiff is a member of the municipal government. There was no suspense in winning, and there were only three words to describe his mood - terrible.

In his mind, those people and things that he had deliberately forgotten surfaced again.

The secretary came in with coffee, and flatteringly put two fresh mangosteens on his table: "A fruit basket from a client."

Li Xiaoan asked her, "Where's Old Wu?"

"In the reception room, a reporter came to visit."

With a wave of Li Xiaoan's hand, the secretary retreated knowingly.

After looking at the document impetuously for a while, Li Xiaoan's gaze returned to the two mangosteens unconsciously, and the girl's graceful figure entered his mind like a faint ink painting.

Li Xiaoan's eyes darkened, and the veins on his forehead suddenly twitched, as if he had fallen into that Midsummer Night's Dream again.

It was a summer afternoon, and the time was quiet.

The girl occupied the computer in his study and beat the zombies. She was lithe and slim, sitting cross-legged on the leather chair like a cat. After a while, she swayed to and fro, and then put one snow-white foot on the table, her head drooping on the armrest, The long black and thick hair poured down, her body leaned comfortably, the left and right were just chairs, and she was able to lie on it as if it were a bed.

After waking up from his nap, he went to the kitchen to get mineral water to drink.Her ears are sensitive, and when she heard the sound of him opening the refrigerator, she called him in a drawn out voice: "Li Xiao'an, I want to eat mangosteen, I want four—"

Her voice was delicate and soft, and when she spoke to him, she deliberately had a flat-tongue accent from the south. She was slow, lazy, and careless, which made his heart itch.She has a grating temper, she clamored for mangosteen in the morning, and wanted to eat pomegranate in the afternoon, and she got tired of eating a few mouthfuls, so she leaned into his ear and whispered that she wanted to eat walnuts, mangosteen and pomegranate were fine, he Thinking that peeling walnuts was too troublesome, she bought a large bag of freshly ground walnut powder and threw it to her, but she didn't even touch it, and only responded to him with aggrieved eyes.

At that time, his old friend Wu Lixuan teased him: "Young Master Li, how dare you raise a child?"

No wonder he would say that, Li Xiaoan consciously never cared so much about Yuan Yuan.But he likes her and is willing to spoil her. As long as she is happy, he can give her anything.It's strange to say that he is not a good-tempered person, and he has never given anyone such patience, except for her.

He still remembers seeing her for the first time in the summer three years ago, when he went back to his alma mater K University to visit a professor, then wandered around for a while, and was trapped in a small cafe by a sudden shower .He saw her as he sat by the window enjoying the rain—

She came here in a daze from the pouring rain, without an umbrella, soaked all over, walked to the edge of the slippery lawn, slipped and fell to the ground, she got up, slipped again after a few steps, as if she couldn't stand at all It was as if she was stuck... After repeating this several times, she finally gave up and got under a big tree to sit down, with muddy marks on her legs and skirt.She lowered her head, and her thin shoulders couldn't help twitching, as if trying to suppress herself.A dirty and thin puppy was attracted by her and jumped on her lap, as if comforting her, she hugged the dog and burst into tears.

He had never seen an adult cry like that, it was a typical child crying—crying loudly regardless of the image.At that time, Li Xiaoan had no sympathy, he was not interested in knowing the reason for the girl's crying, nor did he think about going out to comfort her, that scene was really more funny than miserable, he watched silently for a while and couldn't help laughing.Although the girl was crying in a funny and embarrassing way, it was not ugly. In fact, anyone who cried like that would not look good, but she was holding a dirty dog ​​in her arms like a painting, making people unable to take their eyes off her. , so even though he couldn't really see the girl's facial features, Li Xiaoan knew that she must be beautiful.

It was almost nine o'clock when Li Xiaoan left the law firm, and no one was working overtime in the office area tonight, so they all left.He went to the parking lot to pick up the car, and was about to get into the driver's seat sideways, when he heard someone calling him from behind: "Li Xiaoan—"

Turning around, he saw a strange woman walking towards him.

The woman is tall, big-boned, thin, with a typical European and American figure, with a shawl and straight hair covering both cheeks, and a small cinnabar mole above the left brow bone adds a touch of charm to her plain face.

"Who is it please?"

"My name is Chu Kui, and I'm Xiaoduo's friend." The woman walked up to him and introduced herself naturally.

Chu Kui?Li Xiaoan suddenly remembered that on a girl’s birthday, she received a package from overseas, and she didn’t forget to hit him: “Look, Chu Kui sent it to me from England, and she remembers to give me birthday presents every year.” , much more punctual than yours."

Li Xiaoan pursed her lips: "It turned out to be Miss Chu, nice to meet you."

Chu Kui looked at him: "I won't go around in circles with you anymore. I came to you this time to tell you that something may have happened to Xiaoduo. Please help me find it."

"Oh?"

Chu Kui explained: "I have kept in touch with her for more than a year. Although she refused to tell me her whereabouts, we will talk on the phone at least once a week, but in the past half a month, I have not been able to contact her. Her, her phone has been turned off."

"Maybe it was intentional," Li Xiaoan disagreed, "She is a very emotional person."

"You really think so?" Chu Kui shook her head disapprovingly, "She wouldn't intentionally make me worry, something must have happened."

Li Xiaoan did not refute this, nor did she respond to her request.

"Li Xiao'an..." Chu Kui lowered her voice, almost pleading, "No matter what, she is always the one you loved."

Hearing this, Li Xiaoan's expression changed slightly, like a crack in a hard stone wall.However, in just a blink of an eye, he returned to his original indifference, which made Chu Kui suspect that he was just blindly mistaken.

Opening the car door again, Li Xiao'an said flatly: "Thank you for being considerate, but I can't do anything about it. Since she ran away from me two years ago, I have nothing to do with this person. I'm sorry, I have to go."

Chu Kui couldn't help sighing as he watched his car drive away in the dust.She got into the driver's seat, put on the seat belt and put it in gear, drove the car out slowly, her eyes inadvertently fell on the row of little cherry balls in front of her—it was given to her by An Xiaoduo before, At this time, it is inevitable to see things and think about others.

An Xiaoduo's whereabouts are unknown now, no matter whether something really happened or not, anyone who Li Xiaoan once loved her should not be so indifferent. Thinking of Li Xiaoan's reaction, she couldn't help sighing again, and said to herself: Xiaoduo, why are you so indifferent? What about falling in love with such a hard-hearted man?
It was late at night, and Li Xiaoan didn't feel sleepy at all.

He didn't want to recall anything, but scenes of the past uncontrollably flashed across his heart, those things that once brought him joy, are now like thousands of ants gnawing at his heart.

He viciously grabbed the ashtray on the desk and threw it at the wall. Suddenly, his eyes focused, and his eyes fell on the wastebasket next to the bookcase - there was an unopened package inside.It was delivered by the courier two days ago. Aunt Cen signed for him and placed it on his desk. When he saw that it was from her again, he threw it into the wastebasket without thinking.

Now he was going to open it to see what she was up to this time.

To his surprise, what she sent this time was not a so-called gift, but an old thing—a long, badly worn wallet with a photo of him and a supplementary card inside.This supplementary card was given to her by him, and there has been no record of swiping the card since she left two years ago.

Li Xiaoan sneered at the things on the table, An Xiaoduo is undoubtedly a master at playing with him, in the past two years, she has sent him a package every three months, sometimes a few oddly shaped stones , sometimes even a pressed-molded leaf, which she numbered on the carton.Four gifts a year, as if to remind him of the changing seasons.She never cared what he would do with these things after receiving them. Once he couldn't bear it anymore and sent her an email, telling her not to send it again. He didn't want to see anything related to her.She only replied with one sentence: "If you don't like it, throw it away." After that, she still sent the package in her own way.

It's been almost two years, when he thought he had successfully forgotten her, she came out to remind him that even if she chose to leave by herself, she would not allow him to forget her.Now that she sent these things back, the meaning couldn't be more obvious - if she didn't want to forget, he wouldn't want to forget, and if she didn't want to remember, she would return everything related to him and clean up with him from then on.If it is a game between him and her, she is the one who controls the progress bar of the game.

His cold eyes flicked across the old things, he picked up the mobile phone on the table, dialed a number, and said: "Check someone for me, I want to know where she is now."

The evening breeze was gentle, An Xiaoduo was sitting on the grass in the hospital to blow the air, and after spending a whole day in the air-conditioned room, she finally had half an hour to let the wind out, and the heat on the ground that had not completely subsided made her feel happy.

There was a sound of footsteps——

An Xiaoduo turned her head to the source of the footsteps. After her eye was injured, her hearing became extremely sensitive.

"Why did you come here so early today?"

"Well, there is nothing important in the company today." Qiao Ke sat down next to her, raised his hand and stroked her hair hanging on her shoulders, "How do you feel? Is there any discomfort?"

An Xiaoduo avoided this intimacy and said, "No, it's just too boring."

"Then let me spend more time with you, okay?"

"not good."

Qiao Ke's hands stiffened, and the smile froze on his face.

An Xiaoduo sensed the change in the other party's mood, and moved her face closer to him based on feeling: "Qiao Ke, if I am blind and faceless, I will never get better, will you still like me?"

Qiao Ke's breathing was a little rough, as if he was suppressing something: "Do you think I'm just obsessed with your face? An Xiaoduo, do you have a conscience? If I were such a superficial person, I would have been chasing you all over the world for the past six months run?"

An Xiaoduo smiled, took out a hair clip from her coat pocket, and pinned up her bangs that covered her eyes.

Even though it was night, seeing the scarlet wound under her forehead at such a close distance still made Joko feel dazzling. She had let him see it on purpose!
Qiao Ke took a deep breath and tried to keep his tone calm: "I know, the reason why you refuse to accept me is because you still love him, right?"

"It has nothing to do with him."

"Don't deceive yourself! You still miss him in your heart, otherwise you wouldn't carry his wallet and his photo with you like a baby."

An Xiaoduo's face changed slightly: "Where is my stuff? Where did you put it?"

"I lost it."

An Xiaoduo was extremely angry: "Why do you throw it away? It's mine!"

"It belongs to that man."

An Xiaoduo bit her lips and remained silent.

"Why do you still have fantasies about him? It's impossible for you. If he really still cares about you, how could he ignore you for two years? You know it in your heart, but you just refuse to face the reality. "

An Xiaoduo's face fell down: "I repeat, I reject you and love him or not are two different things, whether I face the reality or not has nothing to do with you."

"Why is it okay? If it wasn't for him to seize love back then, why would you have left me?" He roared and leaned towards An Xiaoduo, his fiery breath sprayed on one side of An Xiaoduo's cheek, she couldn't help shrinking back, her waist tightened, Confined by one of his arms.

"Don't do this..." An Xiaoduo struggled, "Qiao Ke, are you crazy? Don't say we haven't started at all, even if we did, it's your problem!"

"What did you say?"

"You should know that I hate men who are not specific to their feelings the most."

Qiao Ke was stunned: "What do you mean? Who is not specific about feelings? Me?"

"Don't think I don't know about you and Wu Anna." While he was in a daze, An Xiaoduo broke free from his restraint, "Why was I expelled by the school back then? Are you going to write it all off?"

Qiao Ke listened to her mentioning this old story abruptly, and was speechless for a while.

"Nothing to say?" An Xiaoduo's plain face had a sneering smile, "If it wasn't for you, why would Wu Anna come to make trouble with me?"

"I didn't, I... I was drunk that time, and that was the only time."

"Drunk? Qiao Ke, don't make excuses for your mistakes." An Xiaoduo seemed to hear a ridiculous joke, but the smile on her face gradually faded, "You know that studies are important to me How important is it? Although I don't necessarily like reading very much, it is one of the most important things to my mother, and it was indirectly destroyed by you just like that."

Speaking of this past, it was before meeting Li Xiaoan.Qiao Ke is An Xiaoduo's senior, and the two met at the welcome party. An Xiaoduo went to school early and was young, so she didn't know much about love. Sister friendship.Qiao Ke fell in love with her at first sight. On the one hand, he repelled all her admirers openly and secretly, and on the other hand, he showed unprecedented patience to act as a flower protector.But this patience was eventually worn out, especially when he faced An Xiaoduo's expression as if he had heard the Arabian Nights after showing love again and again, the frustration and powerlessness in his heart could not be resolved.Once on his birthday, An Xiaoduo refused his invitation on the grounds that he was going to do an experiment. Under his depression, he went to the bar for a drink with Wu Anna, who had been pursuing him all the time.

Afterwards, Qiao Ke regretted so much that his intestines were green, and he avoided Wu Anna who came to the door every two days, so that he finally annoyed Wu Anna.But he never expected that Anna Wu turned around to find An Xiaoduo, and stopped her for a showdown on the dozens of steps of the art building. Unknowingly, something went wrong, Anna Wu rolled down the steps, and An Xiaoduo Because of this, Xiaoduo was called to the police station to stay overnight.

Anna Wu is a local, and her family has some connections. The school was worried that the disturbance would have a bad impact on the school, so they tried to appease them many times. The relevant leaders took turns to visit the hospital. Even so, the Wu family was still relentless and would not give up until the school expelled An Xiaoduo.

Qiao Ke murmured in a low voice: "I'm sorry, give me a chance to make up."

An Xiaoduo shook her head: "Qiao Ke, don't you understand? Some things, if you miss it, you miss it."

"Then did you ever like me back then? Even just a little bit?"

"No, I consider you a senior."

Qiao Ke heard her say it without thinking, without even the slightest hesitation, and all thoughts were lost for a while.

For the next few days, Qiao Ke didn't show up, but just called to ask the doctor in charge to take care of An Xiaoduo.Nurse Cheng Minyu saw that An Xiaoduo was listless all day long, and racked her brains to make her happy. In addition to coming to talk to her every day, she also thoughtfully downloaded Guo Degang's cross talk from the Internet for her to listen to.But An Xiaoduo didn't have much interest in cross talk, no matter how funny the cross talk was, she would be distracted when she heard it, and she didn't even move the corners of her mouth.

Once Cheng Minyu followed the attending doctor into the ward round, and saw her listening to music on her mobile phone, humming while listening, but it seemed to be the same song over and over again.

(End of this chapter)