i loved you so much

Chapter 21 You are always in my heart (2)
"I'm not as weak as you think."

An Xiaoduo laughed a few times, went to hold his hand again, and said in a low voice, "You are like Superman in my heart. I'm so worried that I've been sick for so long."

Li Xiaoan glanced at her, but didn't speak.

They were still holding hands, just like ordinary couples.

Half an hour later, An Xiaoduo reached the limit of her physical strength, panting like a cow, her feet seemed to be filled with lead, and she couldn't lift them up.She couldn't help raising her head, looking at at least a few hundred steps up the stairs, wanting to cry but not crying, and looking back at the way she came, she was even more desperate. She couldn't go up or down now, and it happened to be in the middle of Qingyun Road.

"I can't walk anymore..." She broke free from his hand and sat down on the stone steps. Pedestrians kept stepping past her. She was afraid of being stepped on, so she moved to the edge as much as possible, and her movements were large At this point, the body couldn't help shaking.

Li Xiaoan pinned her down quickly: "Be careful not to fall."

She smiled at him: "I'm not that unlucky, I just fell down the mountain half a year ago."

"What happened that time?" He went up to one step and sat down. The stone steps were so short that his long legs couldn't be placed there, so he had to stretch them out on both sides of An Xiaoduo's body.

An Xiaoduo leaned back unceremoniously, leaning into his arms naturally.

"I didn't go up the mountain. I just took tourists on bamboo rafts and made up some casually fabricated legends to fool them. At that time, a staff member of the scenic spot asked for sick leave. I temporarily took over her work and took tourists to the summit to watch the sunrise. I didn't wake up at first, and I'm not good at walking mountain roads. Halfway through, I found that the ring you gave me was missing...I had been hanging it around my neck as a pendant, so I had to go back the same way to find it. Get off."

After she finished speaking, she leaned back, and his chin was facing her forehead. She touched the corner of her forehead and pouted slightly, showing the look of comforting him when she was wronged.

He was confused again, An Xiaoduo was so abnormal today, as if the two years in the middle had disappeared, she stood in the most beautiful time two years ago to call herself.

His eyes followed her hand and saw the faint mark on her forehead. In fact, if she hadn't touched it, he could hardly have seen it.He put his hands on her and asked her, "Does it hurt?"

"It hurts, not only does it hurt, the eyes can't see, and I feel flustered."

"Why are you panicking?"

"My face is ruined, I'm still blind, what else do you think I can do?"

"Isn't there still Joko?"

She was startled: "Jiao Ke? What's the matter with him?"

"He's been chasing you for so many years, but you haven't been moved at all?"

She looked at him, smiled slowly, grabbed his hand and placed it where her heart was: "My heart is no longer here."

Li Xiaoan also said similar things.

In a trance, both of them seemed to have fallen into Midsummer Night.They huddled together on the lazy sofa, Li Xiaoan was reading a book quietly, An Xiaoduo lay idly on her stomach, staring at the assorted fruit plate on the small table next to her, picking and choosing, finally squeezed a concubine and smiled, peeled it off Soft shell, feed the lychees into his mouth.

"Sweet?"

"sweet."

"Li Xiao'an, tell the truth, I'm not angry, does your secretary have a crush on you?"

"Have it?"

"I heard that she is your school girl, and she has been chasing you since school."

He smiled and continued reading without saying a word.

She snatched the book: "Li Xiao'an, don't deny it, I've seen her before, she's pretty, I feel sorry for her! You haven't been tempted at all?"

He reached out and pressed her to his side: "What's the matter, I'm not as beautiful as you."

"If I am beautiful... No, what about a woman who is more beautiful than me chasing you? Are you tempted?"

He ignored her at first, and was annoyed by the question. He took her hand and pressed it on his heart: "I gave it to you, and you still ask me if I have a heart? You don't know if my heart has been moved?"

Only then did An Xiaoduo smile with satisfaction and threw herself into his arms.

The two looked at each other, and in each other's eyes, they could see the emotions of the past. An Xiaoduo held the corner of his mouth, bitterly: "Li Xiao'an, why did we come to this point?"

Li Xiaoan stood up without saying a word, and continued to walk up.His back was getting further and further away, An Xiaoduo jumped up and tried to catch up.

When the cool wind hit, Li Xiaoan stood in a small open space outside the temple. The pilgrims who came all around seemed to be standing in two worlds with him. The noise around him did not affect him at all. Looking at the majestic Buddha statues in the temple.There are a lot of unburned incense sticks in the incense burner beside him, and the smoke curls up in the air.

His face also became blurred, An Xiaoduo stood not far away from him and looked at him, he dared not go forward, and after an unknown amount of time, he tilted his head and met her eyes.

Neither of them looked away, they just looked at each other quietly, the sun shone thinly, and the two of them seemed to be plated with a layer of gold.

For a moment, An Xiaoduo wanted to rush up and grab his hand, and wanted to tell him to forget the past and start over.This sentence lingered in her heart, but if she didn't say it, who could really cut it off?To start over—hehe, what a wonderful wish, this is just her wishful thinking and her wishful thinking.

An Xiaoduo's heart was tightly grasped by an invisible hand, almost out of breath.

The two walked into the Buddhist hall, surrounded by people kneeling on the ground, but they were the only ones standing. She raised her head high like a child, trying to see whether the expression of the Buddha statue was as compassionate as she imagined, but no matter No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't see clearly.

This night, they returned to Pearl Villa very late.

Tang Yufei was called back by Mrs. Tang's phone call. Aunt Cen was waiting for them in the living room watching TV. Seeing the two of them entering the room as if nothing had happened, she was a little relieved.

Li Xiaoan put on his slippers and went upstairs. Aunt Cen asked An Xiaoduo, "Have you eaten yet?"

An Xiaoduo nodded: "I ate fish porridge on the way back."

Aunt Cen glanced at her: "Are you all right?"

"fine."

After An Xiaoduo finished speaking, she also hurried upstairs. She stopped after passing Li Xiaoan's bedroom, and opened the door for a moment of hesitation to enter. There was the sound of a shower in the bathroom. She closed the door and locked it.

Li Xiaoan took a shower, put on a bathrobe and came out, opened the door, and saw An Xiaoduo standing at the door.He was about to speak, when she suddenly opened her arms and hooked his neck, stood on tiptoe and kissed him, and he wrapped his arms around her waist.An Xiaoduo kissed him passionately, and pulled off the strap of his bathrobe. He felt a little out of control, wanted to push her away but was reluctant, in such a dazed moment, she had already ignited his passion, and in her fine and dense heat In the kiss, he completely lost his mind.

They hadn't been entangled so fiercely in two years, and the intense love and hate tormented them all the time like ice and fire. On this night, the two finally got together again.Perhaps it was suppressed for too long, both of them wantonly indulged their emotions, allowing them to toss and roll in the heat wave of desire.

……

In a brand store.

The girl in the mirror is sweet and lovely, her black and beautiful hair is tied into a bun, and the fragmented bangs are pinned up with a headband inlaid with fine diamonds, revealing a smooth and full forehead, three-dimensional and soft features, and a pure white waist The short dress outlines her slender waist, and the soft luster of the pearl necklace on her neck makes her face more tender and charming.

Li Xiaoan took a few glances, then nodded with satisfaction: "Just this one, it suits you, and it matches well with the pair of high heels on your feet."

An Xiaoduo has no objection. He has always had a good eye. In the past, when the relationship between the two was the best, he often bought clothes for her on his own initiative.Not only clothes, but also shoes, bags, perfume, etc., as long as he thinks it suits her, he will buy it all back.

An Xiaoduo never experienced hardships when she was a child, and she never had a shortage of materials, so she didn't pay much attention to these things. Once when leading a team in a tourist area, a Shanghai tourist pulled her bag and asked: "Where can I buy this bag?" The imitation is too good."

No one would believe that a girl who works as a small tour guide in a scenic spot is so rich that she can carry a bag worth more than 2 yuan. Only then did she realize that these things are expensive and are no longer suitable for her.

Just like the little dress on her body, it was so beautiful that it was unreal, maybe An Xiaoduo could wear it two years ago, but wearing it now is nothing short of waste.

However, she didn't say anything, as long as Li Xiaoan likes it.Today is Tang Yufei's birthday, and the birthday party will be held at Tang's house.

When the lights came on, Li Xiaoan slowed down and passed the iron gate, and drove into the runway leading straight to the parking lot.Before getting out of the car, he handed a small gift box to An Xiaoduo and said, "Give it to Feifei later."

An Xiaoduo put a pad in her hand, and laughed teasingly: "It can't be a ring, can it?"

He glanced at her meaningfully: "Guess."

"Necklace? Brooch?" Such a small box is nothing more than jewelry.

"Tomorrow is your birthday."

She held out her other hand with a smile.

"I didn't think about what to give you."

She pretended to be disappointed and shook the things in her hand: "Why should I give it to her?"

"This is from you. My share was given to her yesterday."

"Oh." He was really thoughtful. In such a scene, it would be rude for her to come empty-handed by an outsider. Since it was a gift from her in name, the most likely thing in it was a brooch.

In the banquet hall, there are fragrant clothes and shadows on the temples.

The guests came one after another. The Tang family had a great reputation in Wucheng. Even if it was just for the little daughter's birthday, the ostentation was not inferior to any feast held by the Tang family in the past.

The Tang family present included Mrs. Tang, Tang Junnian and Tang Yufei, as well as some relatives of the Tang family that she couldn't name.At first she followed Li Xiaoan, but later more and more people came to say hello to him. She didn't like dealing with strangers, so she used the excuse of going to the bathroom, bypassing the crowd, and went to the long dining table to get a piece of bone china plate, I grabbed a small piece of tiramisu and went out.

Li Xiaoan managed to get rid of the guests, but couldn't find An Xiaoduo everywhere, and finally asked the housekeeper to find out that she was hiding on the small cramped balcony outside.

After taking a glass of champagne, he saw her standing against the stone railing, staring straight at a certain point in the distance, as if she was looking at something, but also seemed to be completely empty.

He walked up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist, and she was shocked as if she had been suddenly frightened.

He saw something was wrong with her, lowered his head and asked, "What's wrong?"

She turned around and buried her face in his chest: "it's nothing, I was thinking about something, you came here suddenly, I was shocked."

"What are you thinking about so preoccupied?"

"I'm thinking... what gift will you give me tomorrow."

There seemed to be a slight ripple on his calm face, and he reached into his suit pocket and took out a small box: "I planned to give it to you tomorrow."

An Xiaoduo took a look and was stunned. There was a ring quietly lying in the box. It was a very simple style without any complicated design. It was exactly the same as the one she lost!
She murmured, "How did you find it?"

"I bought it from that taxi driver." He held her left hand as he said, and put the ring on. "This is my mother's relic. Don't lose it again."

An Xiaoduo stared blankly, tears falling uncontrollably.

Li Xiaoan reached out to wipe away the tears on her cheeks: "I didn't intend to give it to you, but I heard you say that you rolled down the mountain to find the ring."

Hearing him say it with awkward emotions, An Xiaoduo grinned and raised her head: "Besides this, can you give me another gift?"

"what?"

"Take me to dance again, like before."

"it's here?"

"Yes, here."

Li Xiaoan stared at her, with an inquisitive look in his eyes, but he did not reject her.

After closing the balcony door to temporarily block the hustle and bustle outside, An Xiaoduo turned on the player in her mobile phone, and the serenade melody sounded melodiously. She took off the pair of noble and beautiful crystal shoes, and placed them neatly and carefully on the stone railing.

Li Xiaoan held her hand and helped her stand on his instep.

An Xiaoduo said: "Dancing under the moonlight will wake me up from my dreams with laughter."

Li Xiaoan wrapped her arms around her waist, she naturally leaned her face on his shoulder, their bodies pressed together, and swayed gently with the music.

It was obviously an intimate move, but Li Xiaoan felt a strange feeling in his heart, mixed with indescribable fear and anxiety, as if the person in his arms would turn into a puff of smoke and disappear as soon as he let go.

As the song was about to finish, the cloth on his shoulders gradually became wet, and Li Xiaoan's heart ached, he couldn't help tightening his arms, and when he was about to speak, the phone in his pocket rang, and he had to let her go.

An Xiaoduo stood aside and listened quietly. Mrs. Tang's voice came faintly from the microphone. She raised her hand to turn off the music, telling herself that it was time to end.

Li Xiaoan picked up the cable and said to her, "Let's go in, Feifei is going to cut the cake."

"Okay." She obediently put the phone back in her clutch bag, then put on her shoes.

Back in the banquet hall, the atmosphere was still strong, with continuous laughter and laughter.

Li Xiaoan took An Xiaoduo's hand and walked in front of Mrs. Tang. Mrs. Tang glanced at them, said nothing, and even smiled at her.However, that seemingly benevolent smile made An Xiaoduo feel a chill.

Probably because the sight of the two holding hands was too eye-catching, someone in the guest group asked Li Xiaoan who the girl next to him was.An Xiaoduo looked at the group of people, who seemed to be distant relatives of the Tang family, and she didn't know any of them.

Li Xiaoan smiled, and responded politely: "Girlfriend."

As soon as these words came out, An Xiaoduo became the focus of the audience, and everyone's eyes fell on her one after another. There were praises, envy, jealousy, and disdain. Her legs trembled slightly, as if stepping on the middle of heaven and hell. .The moment she lowered her head, she caught a glimpse of Mrs. Tang staring at her coldly from the corner of her eye, the disgust on her face was undisguised.

An Xiaoduo bit her lower lip tightly, telling herself not to cry, but to finish the sentence completely. When she thought she was mentally prepared enough, she raised her head and was about to speak, but suddenly found that her hand was still covered by Li's hand. Xiaoan held it in his palm.He held it so tightly that she tried but couldn't break free.

She looked at him and smiled slowly: "When did I become your girlfriend?"

Li Xiaoan didn't say anything, everyone thought it was a shy girl's joke until now, but what she said immediately made them all surprised.

An Xiaoduo's voice was as calm as a pool of stagnant water: "Li Xiaoan, don't you remember? We broke up two years ago, it's over."

Everyone's expressions changed when they heard the words, Tang Yufei was trembling with anger, she was worthless for her brother, she was about to rush over but was stopped by her mother's stern look.

Li Xiaoan didn't seem surprised when she said this: "Let's start over, shall we?"

An Xiaoduo's hands were tightly clutching a piece of fabric beside her. The huge and gorgeous lamp in the center of the opposite room emitted brilliant light, refracted in her eyes, and only brought out the emptiness in her eyes. She said numbly: " No, that's enough."

Really enough, don't say any more, let her go.

Li Xiaoan seemed to have heard her heart, and he slowly let go of her hand.

An Xiaoduo blankly glanced at the guests present, all of them were shocked and puzzled to varying degrees.

"Happy birthday, I'm sorry." Handing the gift prepared by Li Xiaoan to Tang Yufei, she walked out to meet everyone's eyes, step by step, as if she was stepping on cotton, lightly, without any focus.

Then, she pushed open the door with all her strength.

It was windy outside, the night was chilling, and the chill was threatening.

She continued to walk forward under the strange eyes of a group of servants at the door. The fountain, the terrace, the small bridge and the flowing water, the scenery in front of her became blurred and became more and more blurred.

She quickened her pace, just wanting to get out quickly.

"An Xiaoduo!"

Her heart trembled, it was him, he caught up.She turned around and saw him standing not far away, she wiped away the tears on her face indiscriminately, trying to see his face clearly.

She will never forget his expression in her life. Under the moonlight, there is a deep sadness on his face. Besides these, she also saw disappointment, disappointment to her.

She gritted her teeth and looked at him, the blood that was surging almost rushed out of her throat.She lowered her head and found that she was still wearing the ring on her hand. She took it off, put it on the palm of her hand and handed it to him: "This, you should take it back, I don't deserve it."

He didn't answer, stared at her intently, and then smiled bleakly: "Why?"

An Xiaoduo was silent.

He added: "Although it seems useless, let me finish. You stay, as long as you are willing to stay, let's work together to forget all the unhappy things in the past... How about getting married?"

marry……

Bewitched by the word, she took a step towards him unconsciously, but soon she came to her senses and shook her head: "I won't marry you."

After finishing speaking, she stretched out her hand under his eyelids, but he still didn't answer. She had no choice but to grab his hand and force it to him.

"An Xiaoduo, you are leaving today, and you will never come back!" The moment she turned around, Li Xiaoan finally couldn't contain her hatred, and roared angrily, all the stubbornness on her face was torn apart at this moment, He could no longer pretend.

An Xiaoduo closed her eyes, and strode out of the magnificent courtyard of the Tang family without looking back.

(End of this chapter)