i loved you so much

Chapter 36 Love breaks everyone's heart (4)
After talking on the phone with Chu Kui yesterday, Zhong Yiqiu asked her husband to book a ticket, and then went into the room to pack his clothes.The husband who has always been taciturn then followed in, holding a bank savings book in his hand: "If something happened to the child, I would not dare to tell you, since you scolded her, although she has not come back, but every month I sent money to my family. I remember I told you at the time that I would return it if you didn’t even read it, but I didn’t do that. It has been remitted to my account on time at the end of the month, and it has been more than two years."

An Xiaoduo's tears fell on the white quilt, she shook her head desperately, but couldn't say a word.

Zhong Yiqiu approached her, hugged her into his arms, stroked her head, and said softly: "Okay, okay, don't think about anything now, the most important thing is to take care of your body. Mom will be here to accompany you and take care of you. You, watch you get better."

"Mom, I'm so stuffy..." An Xiaoduo's nose was sore, she put her arms around her mother's waist, and cried loudly, as if she wanted to vent all the pain and grievance she had suffered in the past two years come out.

Zhong Yiqiu patted her on the back lightly, coaxing her softly, time seemed to go back to many years ago, when her daughter was still young, she hugged her like this, coaxing her sorely, not allowing others to hurt her.Seeing his daughter like this, Zhong Yiqiu couldn't help but blame himself deeply - his daughter was expelled from school, and he ignored her and didn't talk to her.The daughter recognized her ex-husband, and he scolded her to force her not to see that man again.If she had been willing to patiently tell her daughter why she hated that man so much, maybe the relationship with her daughter would not have been so tense, and her daughter would have thought of going home when she was wronged, instead of being stuck alone in this bustling metropolis.

Li Xiaoan bought all kinds of desserts and food that An Xiaoduo liked and returned to the hospital. At the door of the ward, he met Zhong Yiqiu who had just come out. Zhong Yiqiu glanced at the things in his hand, closed the door, and said in a low voice: "Mr. Li, My daughter is asleep, please don't disturb her."

Li Xiaoan looked at Zhong Yiqiu who passed by, followed him and said, "Auntie, can we talk?"

Zhong Yiqiu looked at him coldly, and smiled: "That's exactly what I meant. Originally, I wanted to wait until my daughter was in better health. Since you opened your mouth, let's talk about it somewhere."

The two came to the small teahouse opposite the hospital. The teahouse was deserted, and no other customers could be seen when they went in. They sat down and ordered a pot of Pu'er.

"Mr. Li, when my daughter recovers, I will take her away." Zhong Yiqiu didn't talk nonsense to him, and said straight to the point.

"Auntie, Xiaoduo's fate should not be decided by you."

"I know my daughter. If you really loved her, you should also know what choice she will make. I must take her away. Mr. Li, I have given you many opportunities. If you are really like you on the phone If Li told me that she would take good care of her and be responsible to her, she wouldn't have to suffer like this today."

"Yes, I admit that I didn't take good care of her and protect her," Li Xiaoan said with unconcealable pain on his face, "but Auntie, please trust me again, I will treat her even better in the days to come .”

Zhong Yiqiu shook his head: "It's too late."

"aunt……"

"Mr. Li, I heard from Chu Kui that Du Xinlan's daughter is your ex-wife?"

"Yes, but we divorced seven years ago."

"But in her current situation, you won't stand by and watch, will you?"

"Even if she wasn't my wife and was just a friend, she would help me if she could."

"But my daughter was hurt because of her and Du Xinlan. This is an irrefutable fact. Mr. Li, with all due respect, your ex-wife's illness will not recover for a while. There are places where you are needed, even if my daughter is willing to stay with you, do you think it is fair to my daughter?"

Li Xiaoan's voice was difficult: "I understand your concerns, but it is absolutely impossible for me to give up Xiaoduo."

Zhong Yiqiu had finished what he needed to say, and he didn't want to entangle with him on this matter anymore. He picked up the purple sand teacup and took a sip of the tea with downcast eyes: "Induction surgery, arrange it as soon as possible."

Li Xiaoan raised his eyes suddenly, and there was unexpected pain in his eyes: "I know."

An Xiaoduo's abortion operation was performed two days later, and I don't know what Zhong Yiqiu told An Xiaoduo. Before An Xiaoduo entered the operating room, her mood didn't fluctuate much, but her attitude towards Li Xiaoan became more and more indifferent.

When Wu Lixuan and Du Xinlan appeared, Zhong Yiqiu's face was as cold as frost.Li Xiaoan stared at Wu Lixuan, Wu Lixuan explained awkwardly: "Aunt Lan said she must come here, she wants to meet Xiaoduo's mother and apologize to her."

Du Xinlan walked up to Zhong Yiqiu and said, "Yiqiu, long time no see."

Zhong Yiqiu looked at her coldly: "I really hope that we will never see each other in this life. You brought your daughter to An Zhengran 20 years ago. You knew that he was incapable of protecting you mother and daughter. On the contrary, it would cause you trouble. We, but you still pester him and use his guilt towards you to do so many things for you. Your husband broke into my house with a large group of people, smashed things everywhere, and arrested Xiaoduo. You were so young, so scared that I cried, An Zhengran had no choice but to tell you your whereabouts. I don't think he did anything wrong. A man who can't even protect his wife and daughter has any right to talk about morality? It's ridiculous since you guys After being brought back, he seemed to be a different person, immersed in boundless self-blame all day long. In fact, I should have known that he was a bad person without principles, and his psychological endurance was so fragile that he could not be easily attacked. I took Xiaoduo and left him, determined to make a clean break with him. You found him again 20 years later, which had nothing to do with me, but my daughter suffered a lot because of it. And this time, she too I was implicated by your daughter, she is lying in the pain now, I can almost hear her crying. Du Xinlan, you are also a mother, how do you feel when you watch your daughter suffer? If you are Come and say sorry to me, then you don’t have to open your mouth, I don’t accept it.”

Du Xinlan's face was as pale as paper, speechless.

Zhong Yiqiu left her behind, walked to the bench outside the operating room and sat down, not talking to anyone present.

When An Xiaoduo was pushed out, she was exhausted, but her consciousness was clear. Her hair was wet with sweat, and her face was extremely pale.Li Xiaoan and Chu Kui surrounded her, she only looked at Chu Kui, and then turned to Zhong Yiqiu who was rushing to her.

Zhong Yiqiu brushed the hair sticking to her cheeks behind her ears, and said softly, "It's all right, let's have a good sleep."

An Xiaoduo nodded slightly, closed her eyes obediently, and the hospital staff then sent her to the ward.

Four days later, An Xiaoduo was discharged from the hospital and temporarily stayed at Chu Kui's house with Zhong Yiqiu. Zhong Yiqiu asked Chu Kui to book two air tickets for the day after tomorrow. Take care of your body.Chu Kui had no choice but to give up.

That night, Zhong Yiqiu went back to his room early to rest, Chu Kui warmed up a cup of milk and gave it to An Xiaoduo, when he went in, he saw her sitting on the bedside reading a book.

Since the surgery that day, An Xiaoduo spent the rest of her time reading books except for eating and sleeping, as if this was the only way she could forget the sadness of losing her fetus.From the end of the operation to now, she has hardly spoken a word. Li Xiaoan went to see her every day and talked to her, but she didn't respond to him.

Chu Kui walked over and put the milk on the small table next to her.

"Is this book so good?" she asked.

An Xiaoduo looked up at her, and smiled slightly: "It's pretty."

Chu Kui reached out and took the book aside, and handed the milk to her.

An Xiaoduo frowned, but still drank it in small sips.

"Chu Kui, lend me your charger."

"What?"

"My phone is out of battery, it's been turned off for days."

"I'll help you refill it."

"Ah."

"Xiaoduo..." Chu Kui looked at her, hesitating to speak.

"what happened?"

"You really want to go back with your mother?"

An Xiaoduo lowered her eyelashes: "I haven't been home for a long time, it's time to go back."

"Then, are you still going back to Wucheng?"

An Xiaoduo didn't say anything, put the empty cup back on the table, held the book in her hands again, read a few lines before saying softly, "I don't know either."

"Actually..." Chu Kui hesitated for a moment, "I'm not speaking for Li Xiaoan, but this time you had an accident, he was really going crazy, and later he went to rescue you, and was stabbed by Zheng Sanmu."

An Xiaoduo's eyelashes trembled, and she suddenly looked up at her.

"He didn't want us to tell you that the injury was on his shoulder. When you woke up, he had just come off the operating table. He still had a high fever that night. We all advised him to rest, but he didn't listen. God, I passed out when I left the ward yesterday."

"Zheng Sanmu... how was he arrested?" An Xiaoduo didn't have any memory of how she was saved, only that she was already in the hospital when she woke up.

Chu Kui also listened to Wu Lixuan's report afterwards, and if An Xiaoduo didn't ask, she didn't intend to say it.That day, Li Xiaoan took Qin Zheng, who was pretending to be Li Menghui, to the appointment. While he was dealing with Zheng Sanmu, he stalled for time until news came from Taiwan that he had found Zheng Sanmu's grandma and controlled her.Zheng Sanmu is a desperado, cruel and cold-blooded to everyone, but he is filial to this grandma. Zheng Sanmu is afraid of his grandma's safety, so he can only tell An Xiaoduo's whereabouts.Wu Lixuan called the police in advance, and the moment they found An Xiaoduo, the police who followed showed up and wanted to arrest Zheng Sanmu.Zheng Sanmu jumped over the wall in a hurry, took out a dagger and stabbed the unconscious An Xiaoduo, Li Xiaoan blocked it with his body before he died.

"I was angry at him for protecting Li Menghui and hurting you, but I can see that he and Li Menghui really have no relationship. Isn't it a pity that you just gave up your relationship that has gone through so many ups and downs? ?” Chu Kui looked at her and said.

"Chu Kui, I'm tired."

Chu Kui misunderstood, and hurriedly said: "Then stop reading, lie down and rest."

An Xiaoduo didn't say much, put the book aside obediently, and lay down slowly.

Chu Kui took her mobile phone out, charged it, thought for a while and pressed the power button, and then took the tea tray to the kitchen to clean. Before the cups were washed, she heard a ringing sound outside, and she ran out. It was An Xiaoduo's phone ringing.

She picked up the phone and looked at it, and the name Li Hui was displayed on the screen.After hesitating for a few seconds, she pressed the answer button: "Hi, Xiaoduo is resting, what can I do?"

This person named Li Hui's voice was a little weak, and after hearing Chu Kui's words, he just said: "Then I will call tomorrow."

When An Xiaoduo saw the call the next day, she had a thoughtful expression on her face.

Chu Kui asked casually, "Who is it? I haven't heard you mention it."

An Xiaoduo didn't say anything, after dinner she said to Zhong Yiqiu: "Mom, I'll go out with Chu Kui."

Zhong Yiqiu was watching TV, when he heard this, he cast a questioning look at her.

"I'm leaving tomorrow. I want to go to the supermarket to buy something for Dad."

The "father" she said was her stepfather. In fact, An Xiaoduo seldom called him that, especially in front of her stepfather, it was even more difficult for her to call him father.

Zhong Yiqiu looked at Chu Kui and said, "Okay, be careful on the road."

Chu Kui was puzzled, but didn't say anything. When An Xiaoduo got into the car, she secretly asked her, "Are you really going to the supermarket to buy something?"

"Take me to Ruici Hospital."

Chu Kui was surprised: "What are you doing there?"

An Xiaoduo remained silent, she took out her mobile phone, called out Li Menghui's call from last night, and pressed the button, after a few rings, the other party answered: "Xiaoduo?"

An Xiaoduo was silent for a moment, and said, "Miss Li, is it convenient for me to go and see you now?"

Li Menghui probably didn't expect her to come, so she hesitated for a moment before saying, "Of course it's convenient, you come."

After hanging up the line, An Xiaoduo turned to look at Chu Kui, and explained: "Li Hui is Li Menghui, Li Xiaoan's ex-wife."

Chu Kui was stunned.

Even though An Xiaoduo was mentally prepared, she was still taken aback when she saw Li Menghui.The few conversations I had with Li Menghui in Lizhou seemed to have happened yesterday. She was still so beautiful at that time, but today she is like a flower that is gradually withering in minutes. Duo couldn't bear to look directly.

On the contrary, Li Menghui was more calm, half leaning on the pillow, and beckoned her to sit down.

"Xiaoduo, I heard about you, I'm sorry, I didn't expect Zheng Sanmu to attack you."

"I didn't come here today for this purpose." An Xiaoduo sat down on the folding chair beside the hospital bed, "In Lizhou before, you said your name was Li Hui, but at that time you knew who I was and you approached me on purpose ,Is it right?"

Li Menghui nodded: "When Wu Lixuan received a call about your whereabouts that day, I happened to be with him. Soon my mother went to visit an old friend in Lizhou without saying goodbye. I didn't expect such a coincidence, so I immediately I went to Lizhou. I told myself that I was looking for my mother, but in fact, my real purpose was to see what kind of person you are. "

An Xiaoduo met Wu Lixuan before entering the door, he seemed to stop her outside on purpose.He took her to the next room and begged her not to let Li Menghui know the relationship between Du Xinlan and her father, let alone the real cause of Yuan Yuan's death.Only then did An Xiaoduo realize that Li Menghui had been kept in the dark until now. She didn't know that her son died accidentally because he was forcibly taken away by his mother.

Thinking of this, An Xiaoduo didn't have much hatred for Li Menghui in her heart, and the only thing left was sympathy.

"Do you still love him?" An Xiaoduo asked her.

Li Menghui smiled wryly: "Would you mind if I said I still love him?"

Seeing that An Xiaoduo was silent, she said again: "Actually, you really don't need to mind my existence. Even if he loved me, that little bit of love was squandered by me seven years ago. Now he loves me I'm just sorry for me, after all, we are a husband and wife, he will never watch me die, but I am already like this, I am not sure whether I can see the sun tomorrow, it doesn't matter if I love or not relation?"

"Why did you get divorced?"

"He didn't tell you?"

"I want to hear your version."

Li Menghui smiled: "I was the one who pursued him. He was in a bad mood for a while, and I went to accompany him every day. One night, he drank a lot of wine. We had sex. I was pregnant. I told him that I Want to give birth, and then he proposed to me, it’s very simple, right? In fact, I knew at that time that he didn’t love me that much, but at that time there was only me by his side and no one else. If a person doesn’t have a true love, who will he be with It doesn't make much difference, he married me probably because of this, at least he doesn't hate me, he still likes me."

"and after?"

"After we got married, he treated me very well, but that kind of kindness was not what I wanted. If he didn't love me, how could he give me that feeling? It's a pity that I didn't understand this truth until later. At that time, I often talked to him. Make trouble, embarrass him, and once cut his hand with a fruit knife. He has been accommodating me because I have children, but the more he accommodates me, the more miserable I feel. I love him, and I can only use children to tie him Hold him."

"Didn't you know all this before you married him?"

"A person's heart is never satisfied. When I pursued him, I thought it would be fine as long as he didn't reject me. When he accepted me, I wanted to marry him again. When I finally married him, I wanted to marry him again." Want his heart, his unreserved love."

"Then why did you figure out how to leave him, not even the child?"

This time Li Menghui didn't answer immediately, she was silent for a long time before she said: "I had a relationship with Zheng Sanmu, with such a man... I feel ashamed and dirty, the better he treats me, the more I can't bear it. "

An Xiaoduo stared at her for a while and said, "You are really a contradiction."

Li Menghui did not refute her, and continued: "I don't want to part with the child, but I know that I am not capable of raising him, and Xiaoan will not agree to the child to me. After he knew what happened to me and Zheng Sanmu, he was very angry and told me this. Don't even think about seeing the child in your life. His words really came true, Yuan Yuan died of illness at the age of five, I, as a mother, didn't even see him for the last time, and Wu Lixuan didn't tell me he was gone until he was gone for half a year."

Li Menghui's tears finally fell slowly at this time, An Xiaoduo got up, took a few tissues from the bedside table and handed them to her.

"I heard you're going to have surgery next week?"

Li Menghui nodded.

An Xiaoduo stared at her sick face, and said softly: "Li Menghui, life will not always be what you want, and there are many things we can't control, but since you have chosen to take this path, you have to work hard , if you stop or give up halfway, life will stay in darkness forever, without hope.”

Li Menghui's eyes were blurred with tears. Because of this disease, her eyesight became extremely poor. At this time, she couldn't even see the person standing in front of her clearly, but her voice and words pointed directly to the depths of her heart.

"Think about the people around you, those who silently care about you and protect you, when you feel sad for one person, there is another person behind you who is also suffering for you, for him, for your mother, no matter how hard you work Please keep going."

After speaking, An Xiaoduo turned around and left the ward.In the corridor outside, she saw Du Xinlan covering her mouth and crying uncontrollably, and seeing Wu Lixuan cast a grateful look at her, she was expressionless, just like her mood at the moment.

Walking out of the hospital gate, she took a deep breath, and then walked quickly to Chu Kui who was waiting for her by the roadside.

(End of this chapter)