i loved you so much

Chapter 4
"We're going to shoot the cover of the character later. I told my assistant to find a pure black cat to shoot with me, but she didn't listen to me in a daze. She found a three-flowered one, and it was skinny. I There will be nowhere to look for it in a while, so you bring Mina to me."

"OK, no problem." Mina is the fat cat who likes to sleep curled up in a flower pot. Chu Kui has raised it for four or five years, and this time he returned to China by air.An Xiaoduo has been feeding it cat snacks for the past few days, and has a good relationship with it.

After hanging up the line, she happily ran out, looking for Mina all over the yard: "Nana, come out quickly, you are going to be a star."

After coaxing Mina into the pet bag, she took a taxi and went straight to Zhonglian Building. When she got out of the car, she saw a young man coming up to him. He was wearing a tortoiseshell frame, a plaid shirt and cloth pants, and he had the temperament of a literary youth.

"Excuse me, is this Miss An?"

After getting an affirmative answer, he said, "Miss An, please come with me, Chu Kui asked me to take you to the studio."

"Just call me Xiaoduo." She hurriedly followed.

"Oh, good." He paused, and then said, "My name is Ben, I'm a magazine editor, and I know Chu Kui very well."

An Xiaoduo turned her head to glance at him, just as his gaze was cast over, she saw the other party startled slightly, and then showed a surprised expression: "Xiaoduo, you look quite like our model, especially your eyebrows and eyes."

"Oh?" An Xiaoduo asked casually, "Who is it?"

"Qin Zheng."

Seeing that An Xiaoduo didn't respond, he said enthusiastically: "Qin Zheng is a newcomer. She won a modeling award at the beginning of the year and accepted a lot of commercials, but they haven't aired yet. No wonder you don't know her. She has very good qualifications. , with good appearance and strong expressive power, I dare say that there will definitely be a place for her in this circle in the future."

Probably an occupational disease, he was talking endlessly all the way to the studio, An Xiaoduo could only politely echo one or two sentences, she usually cared about gossip news in the entertainment industry, and knew little about the modeling industry , even though the Qin Zheng he was talking about was a senior supermodel, she didn't know him.

Intense pre-shooting preparations are underway in the studio.The two went in without attracting many people's attention. Chu Kui saw her from a distance and waved to her.

An Xiaoduo hurried over and handed Mina to her, as well-behaved as a little follower.

A few old employees of Shengshiguangnian recognized An Xiaoduo, and took time to chat with her one after another, and they couldn't help asking why she left suddenly.

Because she didn't know them very well, An Xiaoduo responded vaguely: "Something happened at home, and I didn't have the energy to take care of work, so I had to resign."

At that time, the relationship between her and Li Xiaoan was already very bad. The endless quarrels and cold wars made her physically and mentally exhausted. One day when she came back from visiting her father, as soon as she entered the door, a pillow hit her head and face, and she was suddenly stunned. , raising his eyes, Li Xiaoan sat on the sofa with a livid face, staring at her darkly.

"Where have you been?"

Without saying a word, she picked up the pillow on the floor and put it back on the sofa.

Enraged by her silence, Li Xiaoan grabbed her wrist and dragged her over: "Say, where have you been?"

"Go and see my dad." She frowned, avoiding his sight, "let go of me, you hurt me."

"Did my words fall on your ears? I told you not to enter this door if you go to see him again."

"He's my dad."

"roll."

She bit her lower lip tightly, and opened her eyes wide to keep the tears from falling: "Can you be reasonable? That is my father, my biological father. Even if he is guilty, he has received the punishment he deserved now. I Going to see him is just doing my duty as a daughter."

Li Xiaoan sneered, and pinched her chin: "You and him have only just met, do you have such a deep father-daughter relationship? Well, well, well, if you want to be a filial daughter, I won't stop you, I'll take care of you now Get out of my house."

"You..." She wanted to say something else.

"Get out! Don't appear in front of me again in this life." He threw her away, got up and went upstairs.

She staggered and fell to the floor, and the lights from the ceiling were shining brightly, reminding her of the white light in the operating room, and she shuddered.

Aunt Cen came in quietly, and reached out to support her: "Xiaoduo, Xiao An is angry, don't take it seriously, he doesn't want you to leave."

An Xiaoduo's tears finally fell, and she choked up and said, "He is my father, I can't leave him alone..."

As long as she can't let it go for a day, she and Li Xiaoan will have no future. In the end, she left and sat on the bay window of the room all night. When the sky was bright, she heard the sound of him going out. She didn't go down, but just walked away through the glass. Looking at him from a distance, he seemed to have sensed something, sat in the driver's seat and raised his head, the anger that stayed on his face last night has been replaced by indifference.

Watching his car drive out, she whispered: "Goodbye."

It's time to say goodbye. If we continue to stay, all the good things in the past will be wiped away, and they will only become complete enemies and lovers.

She loves this man deeply and doesn't want to torture him anymore.

That morning, she went to Shengshi Guangnian with her luggage to resign. According to the procedure, she couldn't leave without saying anything, but she didn't care about anything. She left the company and went straight to the train station. She bought a ticket and left two hours later. Leaving Wucheng.

Looking back now, if that incident hadn't happened, maybe she is still nestled in the prosperous light year as a small editor, living a peaceful life from nine to five.

Everyone in the studio was busy, and it was a busy scene.She recalled the past, depressed, and walked out while no one was looking.

The weather was fine just now, but now it is raining sporadically.She was standing on the steps, looking at the rain scene in a daze, when suddenly a black car broke into her sight, and when she realized it, the people in the car had already got off.

When she saw the person coming, a trace of surprise appeared in her eyes - Li Xiao'an!

Why is he here?An Xiaoduo looked straight at him—more than half a month had passed since the two met in the hospital last time. At that time, she couldn't see his appearance, and only relied on her voice to imagine his appearance two years later in her mind. , Imagining the traces of his two years of transformation.But she was wrong, time seemed to treat him particularly favorably, he was as handsome and handsome as ever, and there was not even a single wrinkle on his face, as if she was the only one who suffered from lovesickness in the past two years.

Li Xiaoan didn't hold an umbrella, and walked up the steps quickly in the rain, walking in a hurry.He had seen her a long time ago, and the moment he brushed shoulders with her, he stopped in his tracks.

An Xiaoduo said: "You..."

"Is your eyes okay?" Li Xiaoan interrupted her with a low voice, without any emotion.

"Well, all right."

He nodded slightly, as if he just met a passer-by with little friendship, and it was very polite to ask casually just now: "Then I'll go first, I have something to do."

Watching him walk into the elevator, An Xiaoduo stood there for a long time.The rain gradually became heavier, and there were cold raindrops splashing on her bare skin, just like the feeling that his indifferent eyes fell on her just now, An Xiaoduo felt cold, shrinking slowly like a wounded little animal In the corner, her back was pressed against a large piece of glass. She couldn't help trembling, turned around, and rested her forehead on it dejectedly. The glass window was full of fog, and she stretched out a finger to scribble.

The words clearly displayed on the glass revealed the secret in her heart. She raised her hand to erase the three words until no traces could be seen. It would be great if the wound left in her heart could be wiped clean like this.

Knowing that we can't be together, knowing that we should cut through the mess quickly and put an end to all my delusions, but I just don't live up to it. She can't forget him, and they all say that it is better to miss him than to meet. She thought so at first, but she spent two years The time has proved that this sentence is wrong, at least not true for her.Knowing that seeing him would only make her feel uncomfortable, she still wanted to see him, even if she just glanced at him from afar, she felt better than never seeing him again.

Thinking of this, she felt a little sour. If life was just like the first meeting, when she met him, she never thought that one day she would love so humblely.

He walked towards him just now, very much like the scene when we met at the train station back then.It happened to be such a rainy day that day. She was forced to drop out of school and went to the train station to buy a ticket to go home and accept her mother's trial.

The rain outside comes and goes, and there is no intention of restraining in a short time.In that kind of weather, taxis are always in short supply, and when an empty car finally arrives, several people swarm up to grab it. She came out of the ticket hall, feeling light and flabbergasted, and she didn't dare to fight for it. In the taxi, I didn't want to go in to blow the air-conditioning, so I had to hide in a small corner and wait.

Just when she was worrying, a slender shadow broke into her sight, and she looked at the person in front of her with surprise and joy, this was the second time they met.

"Li Xiaoan, why are you here?"

"Send a client over." He approached her, probably seeing that her face was not looking good, and asked with a frown, "What happened again today?"

"It's nothing, it's raining so hard, and I'm worried about how to go back." She changed the subject, embarrassed to tell the truth.She got up early to buy a ticket, and found out that she was on her period when she was leaving the house. She has always had menstrual phobia, and a few days every month are always particularly difficult.

The two chatted for a few words, and she gradually couldn't stand still, clutching her lower abdomen, arching her waist slightly, with a precarious appearance.

He stretched out his hand and gave her a hand: "You are not feeling well?"

She said vaguely: "It's okay, old trouble."

"I'll take you to the hospital."

"No, no, no!" She was taken aback, and went to some hospital for such a trivial matter. In order to prove that she was fine, she tried to stand up straighter, and said with a forced smile, "It's so strange, I always meet you when I am unlucky."

He was amused: "Fortunately, you didn't say that you are always unlucky when you meet me. Let's go, I will give you a ride."

"Great, there is a free car." An Xiaoduo was not polite to him either.

It was raining heavily and the road conditions were pretty bad.When his car drove to New North China, there was no suspenseful traffic jam, and various vehicles formed a long queue on the road.After waiting for a full 10 minutes, the car in front of her didn't move over. He turned on the music and said to her, "Wait for me, I'm going to do some shopping."

Holding a big black umbrella, he walked through the dense traffic and walked into a large pharmacy on the side of the road.She withdrew her gaze and leaned her head on the seat sleepily, probably because the music was so melodious that it had a hypnotic effect. She dozed off listening to it, and didn't wake up suddenly until he returned to the carriage.

Opening her eyes, she saw him handing over a disposable paper cup that was still steaming. She was taken aback for a moment, smelling a smell of brown sugar mixed with ginger, and couldn't help being surprised: "You bought it for me?"

He hummed.

After taking a sip, she was sure it was brown sugar ginger tea, and she was too surprised to speak.

"Hurry up and drink, it's raining too much, I don't know when I'll be home."

She looked at him gratefully: "Thank you, but why do you..."

Before he finished speaking, he heard a ringtone, it was his cell phone ringing.While he was talking on the phone, she quietly looked at him from the side.

His skin is a healthy wheat color, cool cropped hair, thick eyebrows, piercing eyes, tall, lean physique and tall and straight, these are the external conditions that make her heart.Of course, there are some things that don’t fit, for example, his lips are too thin, good-looking is good-looking, but she remembers that her mother said that men with thin lips are more fickle. Mom’s experience comes from her father who also has thin lips. Overturned a boat.

As she thought to herself, her eyes unconsciously fell on his hands holding the steering wheel. They were a pair of beautiful hands with slender knuckles and broad palms, as if they contained powerful strength.

"Are you looking at my hand?"

He ended the call and turned to look at her.

She seemed to have been peeked into her mind, her cheeks were slightly red: "Hands, so beautiful."

He hooked the corner of his mouth, and spread his left hand with the palm facing up. There was a conspicuous scar on the palm, which was quite shocking at first glance.

She let out a low cry, and couldn't help holding his hand and looking at it, she could see that it was a deep wound, and the palm print was cut into two sections.

"How?" she asked.

"It was injured by a fruit knife." He said, and he looked at it himself, but his face was indifferent, "It's lucky, if you use a little more strength, this hand will be useless."

"Aren't you a lawyer? Why are you like the underworld?" She paused, and couldn't help asking again, "It must have hurt at that time, right?"

"Can not remember."

"Why is this crooked scar, like a big centipede? Is it because of stitches?" She was like a curious baby.

"Yeah," he sighed, "meet a lousy doctor."

She looked at him sympathetically.He suddenly burst into laughter, raised his hand and pressed her head: "You are so cute, you will believe anything I say."

Her eyes widened: "Did you lie to me?"

He laughed and said, "Well, I lied to you."

She couldn't help but get angry.

A rush of cell phone ringing interrupted her memory, and Chu Kui muttered on the phone: "Where did you go? I can't find you anywhere, come and help me watch Mina!"

"Okay, come." She sorted out her emotions and ran back to the studio.

Chu Kui handed Mina to her, and told her, "I've tried the mirror, and I'll start filming in a while. Watch it carefully, and don't let it run around."

"Okay." An Xiaoduo waited with the cat.

Ben handed her a paper cup and said to her, "Have some water."

"Thank you." She freed up a hand to take it.

"Let me hold the cat for you." Ben reached out and stroked Mina.

An Xiaoduo saw Mina squinting her eyes in enjoyment because of his movements, so she relievedly handed the cat to him.

"This black cat is so beautiful, with shiny black fur!" Ben praised sincerely.

"It's a cat with a big stomach, and it's full of fish and meat."

"No wonder it's so muscular. Wait, it's the main character. It was hard for us to convince Qin Zheng to shoot with the cat."

An Xiaoduo asked suspiciously: "So she refused?"

"Yeah, I just agree with it. Qin Zheng is quite afraid of cats, and said that he was scratched severely by cats when he was a child."

An Xiaoduo frowned. The cat itself is a very vigilant animal, not to mention that under the stimulation of the camera, it will only be more vigilant towards strangers. If the other party understands cats, it's okay to say, like Qin Zheng, I'm afraid it won't be photographed. too smooth.

Facts have proved that she is not worrying too much. Qin Zheng was very stiff in front of the camera, not like what Ben praised her for. A simple smile is very reluctant.

Chu Kui also saw this, and couldn't meet the requirements after taking several shots, so he had to call a timeout and hold a small meeting to discuss.

At Qin Zheng's instruction, her manager also went to join the discussion.

An Xiaoduo touched Mina's head and felt that it was really wronged. In fact, Mina was already very obedient and cooperating with her performance just now.

"Is this cat yours?"

Qin Zheng came over at some point, An Xiaoduo looked up at her: "No, it belongs to Chu Kui."

Even with An Xiaoduo around, Qin Zheng was still afraid of cats. She stood one meter away, looking down at it, as if she was talking to herself: "I really don't understand why we have to add a cat."

An Xiaoduo thought for a while: "Cats are very spiritual, and it is easy to capture ethereal beauty in pictures with it."

Qin Zheng was startled, and turned his gaze to her.

An Xiaoduo was standing with Mina in her arms. Qin Zheng was a plane model. She was tall and wore a pair of high-heeled shoes that were more than ten centimeters. They each saw a little confusion and surprise in each other's eyes.

"Who are you?" After a brief silence, Qin Zheng spoke first.

"I'm Chu Kui's friend."

"I'm asking what's your name?" When she said this, she crossed her arms in front of her chest, and raised her pointed chin slightly, showing a domineering posture.

An Xiaoduo could hear the unfriendliness in her tone, and a little puzzlement slowly crossed her mind, did they know each other before?
At this time Ben came between the two: "What are you talking about?"

Qin Zheng turned a blind eye to him and just stared at An Xiaoduo intently. She wore white feather-like false eyelashes, but the gorgeous and exaggerated props couldn't conceal the provocative look in her eyes.

An Xiaoduo felt the intensifying hostility from the other party, and her heart was at a loss. She didn't understand that she and this Qin Zheng were just meeting for the first time. The other party didn't even know her name, and she asked herself that she had no chance to meet a celebrity.

Qin Zheng suddenly said, "Give me the cat."

An Xiaoduo was surprised: "What?"

"I said give me the cat!" Qin Zheng said coldly.

"Qin Zheng, what's wrong with you? Aren't you afraid of cats?" Ben was confused by Qin Zheng's abnormal behavior.

Qin Zheng sneered, and suddenly grabbed Mina in her arms.

"don't want--"

An Xiaoduo and Ben spoke together, but it was still a step too late. With Qin Zheng's short scream, Mina's vigorous figure had already leaped to the side shelf, proudly looking down on the victor. watching them.

Four blood-red scratches suddenly appeared on the snow-white back of Qin Zheng's right hand, and she trembled with anger as she watched Mina.

An Xiaoduo sighed and said, "Miss Qin, is there some misunderstanding between us?"

Ben didn't care about what to say, so he brought a large bucket of mineral water that had just been opened to help Qin Zheng wash his wounds.

(End of this chapter)