Nongmen medical incense

Chapter 72
An Yan came to Bai An's room and found that the door of the room was not closed, no wonder Brother Qing's crying was so clearly visible inside.

She gently pushed open the door of the room, and heard Bai An's desperate voice inside, like duckweed without roots under the autumn wind.

"Xiu Niang, I'm a useless person now, useless..."

"I can no longer give you and Brother Qing happiness, I have nothing..."

"I have nothing left..."

"..."

An Yan always felt that this second cousin was a strong and restrained man, like a pine and cypress in the cold wind.No matter how much wind and rain we face, we will still stretch out strong.It's just that at this moment, she just discovered that Bai An also has his own fragility.When he encounters an irresistible ordeal, he will also have reasons for not being able to persevere.Just like at this moment, when he thought he would never stand up again, he would also be defeated.

She clenched her hands unconsciously, and leaned gently against the door of the narrator, with an inexplicable sense of melancholy and resentment in her eyes, which lasted for a long time.

Those long memories, as if they finally found an exit, swarmed in instantly, quietly crushing all her tranquility.

"An Yan, you must heal him well before you can walk out of this gate."

"An Yan, hurry up and treat her, only in this way will your grandma have hope of living."

"An Yan, time is life. If she can't live today, then your grandma won't wait for your treatment."

"grandmother……"

"After all, it's too late..."

"What is the purpose of my medical skills?"

"I saved other people, but I couldn't save my dearest one. What's the point of my medical skills?"

"Grandma, it was you who taught me how to distinguish herbs, but in the end you spent your life waiting hard."

"My medical skills are just a distant joke after all..."

"Grandma, you gave me this green ribbon on my sixth birthday. At that time, you tied my hair and tied this green ribbon with your own hands. And told me that as long as this green ribbon is on my By my side, it's as if grandma is always by Yanyan's side. Now, I will tie this blue ribbon around my hand, and I will never treat anyone other than my blood relatives from now on."

"The benevolence of the doctor, saving lives and healing the wounded, is just a wound in my heart that will never heal."

Those deep memories, those pervasive white and red, rendered a bloody tangle in An Yan's eyes.

"Blood relatives..."

"My persistence..."

An Yan looked down at the green ribbon around her wrist. She always felt that it would be a shackle that would bind her for the rest of her life, making her never touch medical skills again in this other world.

But now, this idea flashed in her mind again, and she had a hard time making a choice.

On one side are the members of the Bai family who treat her dearly, and on the other side is the grandma who accompanied her through the most important years in her life.Those vows, word by word, still clearly echoed in my heart.Those things, one by one, are still vivid in her mind, making it hard for her to extricate herself.

At this moment, she felt as if she was standing at a crossroads, with the earnest care of the members of the Bai family in front, and the gentle teaching and companionship of her grandmother in the previous life behind.Her whole body was deeply immersed in the memories of the past, unable to extricate herself from floating and sinking in the middle.

Once the things that I have been holding on to in my heart find a gap, they will immediately rush out crazily, surging wantonly in my heart.

An Yan's hand couldn't help but hold the door frame on one side, and he pressed his fingers deeply, as if trying to dig into the door, his knuckles turned white.

The most painful memories in the bottom of my heart are constantly reappearing, and the sad and desperate faces of the Bai family in front of me are also constantly pang Xuan.At this moment, An Yan felt that his whole head seemed to be filled with conflicting emotions.The feeling of being full made her almost want to scream and run away.

The little fat girl that An Yan was holding in his hand also noticed An Yan's strangeness at this moment, and was busy calling out worriedly, "Auntie, what's wrong with you?"

An Yan heard the fat girl's concerned words, and wanted to turn his head to comfort the little girl, but found that his consciousness was a little fuzzy, and there seemed to be blood in front of his eyes.Immediately afterwards, a strong dizziness struck, and she lost consciousness.

At the last moment, An Yan could only hear Fat Ya's crying sound.And at the moment when she fell into darkness, those strong arms caught her limp body.

"From now on, except for the people before me, I will not diagnose and treat anyone..."

"This blue ribbon represents a kind of memory, and it reminds me deeply of the paleness and powerlessness that I wanted but couldn't get."

"From now on, the green ribbon is incomprehensible, and I will never practice medicine again..."

"The world is so big, besides my beloved medical skills, I can have many, many more."

"The world is hot and cold, and human feelings are cold and warm. Only I will always know. During a long journey of self-exile, I learned to look away, but I can't learn to let go."

"Grandma, are you safe over there in heaven?"

An Yan only felt that the whole person was trapped in endless memories, the best ones, the cruelest ones, all kinds.She seemed to have had a long, long dream. In the dream, she seemed to be an outsider, watching her whole life with a pair of elegant eyes.I have a deeper understanding of the joys and sorrows of life.

"I solemnly pledge myself to dedicate myself to the service of humanity. I will give my teachers the reverence and gratitude that are due, I will practice medicine with conscience and dignity; the health of my patients shall be my first concern; I will Respect the secrets entrusted to me; I will do my best to preserve the honor and noble traditions of medicine;”

The middle-aged woman with a kind face and a serious expression was holding a medical book in her hand, looking lovingly at the immature little girl in front of her, listening to her recite the oath of admission to the doctor clearly every word.

The little girl was only five or six years old, and she was still wearing shofar braids, and her big eyes were full of ignorance.

The middle-aged woman looked at the little girl with love and hope in her eyes, and she hoped that the legacy of her life could be passed on to the little girl.

"Yanyan, you have to remember it, remember it all your life, and remember the responsibilities and obligations of being a doctor. Don't feel wronged, one day you will be proud of it and take pleasure in it. Look at your hands You will be proud of the health and life you have created. You will find that your life has infinite possibilities and values.”

"Grandma, is this what others often say about helping others?"

"Yes, helping others. When you really understand the meaning of life one day, you will understand the true meaning of helping others, and enjoy it. Yan Yan, grandma may not be with you all your life, but grandma hopes Medical skills can accompany you throughout your life. Benevolence and benevolence are the most important thing. There are many hardships and tribulations in life that we cannot change, but we can change ourselves and let ourselves make continuous progress to overcome Those bad factors. However, you must remember that no matter what happens, don’t change your persistence and original intention. If one day, you change the persistence in your life because of other people’s mistakes and life’s hardships, Then no matter what the reason is, grandma will never forgive me."

(End of this chapter)