I forget you in the depths of time

Chapter 144
Song Qingyue smiled perfunctorily, she was too anxious just now so she ignored Jin Jingyu's reply on the phone.

Now that she has confirmed that Shen Yichen is safe and sound, she has the time and thought to look at it. Seeing the short message he replied, Song Qingyue secretly heaved a sigh of relief.

"What are you looking at?"

Song Qingyue hurriedly put away her mobile phone, slightly pursed her lips and shook her head, "It's nothing."

"President, everything is settled, let's go?"

"Ah."

Shao Ming pushed Shen Yichen to the side of the car, while Song Qingyue followed behind them.

Holding the cold mobile phone body, I only feel that the body is hot.

Say let go, choose to start over.

Does she still have the right to start over?
Even if she couldn't take this step, she would still unconsciously worry about Shen Yichen's every move, worry about his safety, and care about his emotions.

Although she didn't want to admit it, the naked facts were in front of her and she couldn't believe it.

It is she herself or Shen Yichen who is not reconciled, maybe both of them.

She was unwilling to stop here, for all the painstaking efforts and feelings she had put in in the past few years, she was unwilling to get an answer that ended here.

It's not that she doesn't understand what Jin Jingyu said, but feelings cannot be measured by rational thinking. At least now she lacks the courage to let go completely, and she is afraid of completely uprooting the person who has grown up in her heart for many years. The pain was something she couldn't bear.

On the way back, Song Qingyue kept turning her head to look out the car window.

Suddenly, her hand was wrapped in a big warm palm, she could feel the texture of Shen Yichen's palm, her clear eyes were slightly startled, she retracted her hand calmly, but was tightly grasped.

"If you have any concerns or dissatisfaction with me, you can tell them directly. I don't like your silent temperament."

She glanced at Shen Yichen, and said lightly, "It's nothing on my mind..."

Shen Yichen took a deep look at her, smiled without saying a word, the mockery in his eyes was as dull as she could understand, remembering what happened yesterday, Song Qingyue's heart was suffocated.

She lowered her long eyelashes, "I finally know why you are willing to let me into Shen's and why you are willing to teach me how to do things."

"Huh?" The ending sound rose slightly, as if waiting for her next words.

"You have long known that I am not your opponent, no matter whether it is public or private, I am not your opponent." She was always led by the nose by Shen Yichen, and she had a chance to get everything she wanted, but as she walked, she found that It's changed.

Shen Yichen will always stand in the dominant position, influencing her every move. Every time she makes a decision, she will be more or less affected by the true emotions in her heart.

Emotionally, she will be swayed by Shen Yichen, not to mention other things.

If you lose without a fight, you lose in a mess.

"Grandpa used to teach me that in order to stand at the highest position, you must give up a lot. The more you gain, the more you lose. Feelings will become a burden and a stumbling block. So I have abandoned this kind of thing a long time ago. .”

"I know you heard what I said yesterday, Song Qingyue, do you mind if I didn't admit that I love you?"

Her body was stiff, and Shen Yichen felt it too, but bent the corners of her lips indifferently, "I told you a long time ago not to find the equal love you want from me, I am not completely in love with you, Never loved anyone else."

He didn't lie, and he didn't want to lie. It's better to tell something than to hide it. Is it necessary to have a grudge because of this kind of thing?no need.

Song Qingyue frowned slightly, and after a while, the brows relaxed.

That's right, this is Shen Yichen.

He doesn't love others, no one can walk into his world, the one he loves is himself.

Compared to before marriage, Shen Yichen has matured a lot, but his heartless temperament has become more and more cold.

Song Qingyue knew that he was not lying. Even during the time she thought Shen Yichen loved Ning Xiaoyuan the most, Shen Yichen would not delay the company's work because of Ning Xiaoyuan, let alone harm her own interests because of Ning Xiaoyuan.

At the beginning, she knew very well that Shen Yichen didn't care about anyone and ignored everything, so she felt sad when she saw how special he was to Ning Xiaoyuan, because that was the only person he treated specially.

In order to get this special, she paid a lot, but she didn't get it, so she was not reconciled.

Jin Jingyu was right, he said, "It's you who put yourself in the victim's position. In fact, Shen Yichen is right. It's because you stubbornly believe that if you pay, you will be rewarded. You can't deny that you have been imagining To get that generous return, reality never exists by relying on fantasy, and from the moment you hold such an idea and keep holding your sincerity in front of him, this relationship has deteriorated."

"I think the wrong person is you. You know what kind of person the other person is, but you still want to go all in. The pain you get is not given to you by others, but you asked for it!"

Song Qingyue remembered these words, and suddenly clenched the hand held by Shen Yichen.

"Shen Yichen, after the child is born, let's get a divorce."

There were slight waves in his black eyes, he looked at the person sitting beside him, narrowed his long and narrow phoenix eyes slightly, "What did you say?"

"I said, after the child is born, let's get a divorce!" She looked at Shen Yichen, her clear eyes were as calm as deep water, "I have always lived in a muddle, without any self, and I entrusted myself all in on you."

She has never thought about her dreams, nor imagined what life would be like without Shen Yichen. So far, all her visions of future life revolve around Shen Yichen.

Song Qingyue forgot that lack of self-feeling was wrong from the very beginning.

"I will rely on my own strength to accomplish what I want to do. In the past ten years, I have imagined myself as a miserable character. Now I want to calm down and think about it."

Before yesterday, she was still shaking, wavering.

Because of Shen Yichen's sudden change of attitude and caring for her, she mistakenly thought that Shen Yichen was in love with her.

But she forgot again that Shen Yichen is a person who knows how to act. This kind of warmth is somewhat sincere, and she really doesn't want to explore it anymore.

"Impossible, I said you don't even think about the divorce." Shen Yichen looked away, his voice was cold, "I don't want to argue with you again about the topic I have discussed before. I won't divorce you if I don't have children. , now that you have a child, do you think I will let you go?"

"Are you planning to use the cold title of Mrs. Shen to kill me?"

Song Qingyue smiled, "Are you being too selfish? I also have the right to pursue my own life! If you refuse to give it to me, do you still want to prevent me from asking others for it?"

A crack appeared on the expressionless face, and the brows were deeply furrowed, "It's not just a day or two that I'm selfish."

He looked at Song Qingyue and smiled sadly, "But Song Qingyue, from the beginning you fell in love with me who is selfish. It would be too far-fetched to accuse me of being selfish now."

"Don't even think about divorce. I can't end this relationship even if I live for a day. As for what you want, am I not satisfying you?"

"Are you going to fabricate a false image for me? Are you pretending to have changed these days?" Song Qingyue asked this, feeling a faint pain in her heart. She hoped that Shen Yichen would say no, and she didn't want to see his silence.

But Shen Yichen didn't answer. He looked into those clear eyes and couldn't say a word.

In fact, it was not like that. All he did these days was his means to keep Song Qingyue, and he was willing to do so.

In the hand hanging on the left thigh, the thumb nervously caressed the index finger, and the right hand grasped the soft and boneless little hand even tighter.

I'm sorry, maybe he couldn't afford to lose and couldn't let go, so he used some tricks.

If she knows in the future...

No, she will not know the day.

The black eyes darkened slightly, and the cold thin lips were tightly pressed into a straight line.

……

"You're too slow, you can't handle it when everyone is in front of you." Mo Zhengkai really didn't understand what Jin Jingyu was doing, he couldn't stand the slowness.

Jin Jingyu glanced at him, and stood by the window, his tall figure moved slightly, "What do you know, you must turn against the extreme."

"I know Song Qingyue's temperament very well. She is too serious about death, she is too stubborn, and blindly advancing will only make her want to hide even more."

"Is this the reason why you haven't been successful?" Mo Zhengkai sneered, and said contemptuously, "Brother, we don't have time to waste here. If you don't hurry up, the Jin family will be turned upside down."

"What happened to what I asked you to investigate?"

"You mean Shen Yichen?" He frowned, "This person is also very ruthless, not only to others, but also to himself. I found that person, and it was indeed Shen Yichen who led the incident."

"Don't tell Song Qingyue?"

Jin Jingyu took a deep breath and turned around, "Now is not the time."

"Then when is the time?" Mo Zhengkai was speechless, "Brother, if you keep procrastinating, by the time you get back to Jin's house, the day lily will be cold."

"The Jin family is not important."

Stimulated by Jin Jingyu's indifferent attitude, Mo Zhengkai simply conceded defeat, "Well, it's my business. Anyway, it's your business. If you're not in a hurry, I don't need to be in a hurry."

"I'm warning you, you'd better move quickly, we really don't have much time to waste here."

Jin Jingyu didn't even look at him, and said as he walked out, "I'll go back to the city first, and I'll contact you when I have something to do."

He even looked at Jin Jingyu with a headache, what he couldn't get used to the most was his attitude of boiling frogs in warm water, slowly, watching him get angry in a hurry.

Obviously there are still urgent matters waiting for him to solve, and he has to beg for nothing to spend here with Shen Yichen.

If you want him to say, why don't you just have a showdown? If Song Qingyue doesn't go with him, why not take her away by force?It's done.

Seeing that Jin Jingyu was about to go out, Mo Zhengkai suddenly called out, "The things you asked for have already been sent to your mailbox, and what's more, Jin Shuyi seems to be returning to China soon, so please be careful .”

Jin Jingyu waved his hand, opened the door and left without even turning his head.

(End of this chapter)