I forget you in the depths of time

Chapter 186 It turns out that you have always been very kind to me
What Shao Ming said completely shattered Song Qingyue's obsession, she froze completely and became quiet.

"Why didn't he tell me, why did you all hide it from me..."

Shao Minghong focused his eyes, and his voice trembled, "It's the president who said he didn't want you to know, young mistress. He said that since you have chosen to start your life again, he doesn't want to bother you."

Song Qingyue collapsed as if her strength had been drained.

No wonder he has always had a cough, and he thought it was just a sore throat; no wonder he agreed to the divorce so happily, no wonder he said such inexplicable words that night.

Song Qingyue finally understood, the complex meaning in Shen Yichen's eyes.

She has been going farther and farther on the road of misunderstanding Shen Yichen, and now she turns around and realizes that Shen Yichen has never been sorry to herself. He has been sincere to herself, and she chose to blind her eyes.

The sudden bad news completely crushed Song Qingyue.

She didn't care who the person next to her was, she just pulled him and said in a daze, "Take me to him, I want to see him..."

"I beg you...please take me to see him..."

Jin Jingyu looked at the panic in her eyes, felt depressed, and gave a low hum.

Comforting in a hoarse voice, "I'll take you to see him, don't worry."

He knew that Shen Yichen's body was going to be exhausted, but he didn't expect him to leave so suddenly, so...so fast.

Before they had time to react, Shen Yichen left and passed away.

Seeing Song Qingyue on the verge of collapse, Jin Jingyu could only rely on the excuse of taking her to see Shen Yichen for the last time to cheer her up.

……

On November 11, they arrived in San Francisco, USA.

Shao Ming took them to the cemetery, and when he saw Shen Yichen's tomb, Song Qingyue's numb face showed a crack.

"I heard that before the president died, he kept calling young lady by your name. He said that he was the one who was sorry for you. If there is a next life, he will definitely cherish you."

When Shen Yichen died, there was no one else beside him except Shao Ming.

Even when he died, he had no one to see him off for the last time.

Shao Ming knew that the only thing Shen Yichen was worried about was not the young master who had not yet grown up, but the young mistress.

He told himself, saying, "I haven't done anything good in my life, but I'm very lucky. In my lifetime, there was another person who treated me with sincerity. She loved me like life, but I... didn't know how to cherish it."

Song Qingyue listened to Shao Ming's recitation of Shen Yichen's words, she was in a trance, and seemed to see Shen Yichen before he died, and he was saying to himself, "Don't cry, this is the retribution for failing you, I am willing to bear the consequences, even without me, I believe you can live a good life too."

"I'm sorry, and... I love you."

She had a wooden face, and suddenly, her eyelashes trembled slightly.

The warm liquid snaked down her cheeks, and she was absorbed in looking at the photo on the tombstone.

He said softly, "Without you, how can I live a good life..."

"Liar, you have been deceiving me from the past until now, do you just hate me so much? Even to the point of death, you are not willing to let me spend the last time with you..."

Shao Ming and Jin Jingyu left early on, leaving the open space to her.

Looking at Shen Yichen's photo, her vision gradually became blurred, "I will never forgive you, never."

After a long time, she knelt down and stroked the cold stone tablet, and said in a daze, "As long as you come back, I will forgive you."

"Shen Yichen, come back quickly..."

"I won't have any conflicts with you anymore. When you come back, let's remarry, shall we?"

Warm tears slid down her chin and dripped on the stone tablet, Song Qingyue sobbed, "Don't make trouble with me anymore, I know you are lying to me, you all joined forces to lie to me, I know you are not dead, hurry up Come out, okay..."

Song Qingyue didn't believe that a living person would suddenly disappear.

That night, he obviously came to look for himself, he even talked to himself, walked with him, and handed the necklace to her with his own hands.

How could it be possible that he passed away the next morning...

"Did you come to find me because you knew you couldn't hold on anymore?"

Before Shen Yichen died, was she the person he most wanted to see?
If she had known that this would happen, that night, after he asked that kind of question, she would definitely not hide back like an ostrich.

She will tell Shen Yichen that even if she does it a hundred times, she will still choose him.

Even if she had to go back to the old road again, she was willing.

She would rather not get it than lose it completely, at least that way, he can still live well.

The sunlight blurred out mottled and blurred circles of light, and she vaguely saw Shen Yichen's figure.

Seeing him squatting in front of her, with her hands on her cheeks, she didn't even dare to blink her eyes.

The wind blows the leaves rustling, and the clear image in front of me gradually becomes illusory.

She stood guard in front of the cemetery alone, her thoughts drifting away.

……

Pushing open the door, the room was silent and dark, Jin Jingyu flipped the switch backhand, and the room was brightly lit.

"Qingyue." He tried to call Song Qingyue, but the person sitting on the bed remained silent, as if he hadn't heard what he said at all.

Jin Jingyu sighed, and sat on the side of the bed, "Don't do this, if Shen Yichen is still alive, he certainly doesn't want to see you torture himself."

"It's for your own good that he didn't tell you. You should know that the person he worries about the most is you. Now, don't you want to make him worry about leaving?"

Song Qingyue hadn't eaten or drank for several days, and she didn't respond to anyone who spoke. After returning from the cemetery, she had been taciturn and kept herself in the room.

Jin Jingyu couldn't do anything with her, she tried to persuade her with nice words, but she didn't listen, and she wouldn't let her go.

Seeing that she didn't want to talk, Jin Jingyu could only put the food on the bedside table, "I put the food here, you have to eat some."

He sighed helplessly and walked away.

As soon as Jin Jingyu left, the house became quiet again.

Song Qingyue curled up on the head of the bed in silence the whole time, her eyes were red and swollen, astringent and aching.

After a long time, she moved.

Climbing down from the bed with difficulty, with the soles of his feet on the cool floor, he staggered to the toilet.

She saw the person in the mirror, with prominent cheekbones, sunken eye sockets, and cystic eyes.

The hand touched the cold small blade and pressed it against the wrist.

Song Qingyue closed her eyes and stroked hard.

……

"Mr. Jin, the young mistress is so unstable now, should I tell her about the young master?" Shao Ming originally wanted to tell Song Qingyue about the young master, but seeing her unstable mood, he was afraid that she would hurt her. The only bloodline of the president, that's why he held back and didn't say anything. He wanted to wait until Song Qingyue recovered from his emotions before telling her.

Jin Jingyu shook his head in frustration, "Don't say it for now, she won't listen to anything right now."

"How is the child?" He changed the subject.

"The young master's condition is very stable, and he can be discharged from the hospital now." Shao Ming said, "I plan to take the young master out of the hospital after a while and bring him back to China. The chairman must also want to see his great-grandson."

"Shen Yichen, he hid the news about the child, and also hid the news from the Shen family?"

"Well, the president said that the young master's situation was very unstable at that time, and his heartbeat might stop at any time. He didn't want to despair after giving the chairman and others hope, so he kept hiding the fact that the young master was still alive. The young master's condition has stabilized, and he brought the young master back in person, unfortunately..." Unfortunately, he died before he could bring the child back.

Shao Ming fell silent as he spoke, feeling depressed in his heart, "I'll go up and see young mistress."

"Ah."

After he finished speaking, he turned around and went upstairs. In fact, not only Song Qingyue, they also couldn't accept this fact.

A good man just left.

Before Shen Yichen died, he had been staying in an American hospital. Shao Ming watched Shen Yichen lose weight day by day. On October 10th, he refused to stay in the hospital and insisted on returning to China.

No matter how he tried to stop him, Shen Yichen refused to listen.

He said, "Shao Ming, if I don't go back, I won't have a chance."

Perhaps at that time, the president had already realized that his time was approaching, and his body had reached its limit, so he had to go back to the country, because he... wanted to see the young mistress for the last time, and wanted to say goodbye to her.

When he returned to the United States, his body could no longer support himself, so something went wrong while he was still on the plane. Finally, the plane made an emergency landing in the nearest city, and he rushed there in a hurry.

Shen Yichen held his breath and talked a lot.

He said, "The person I am most sorry for is her, you have to help me take good care of her."

In fact, Shao Ming felt that it was right that Song Qingyue did not send the president off for the last time. When she saw the president's haggard appearance tortured by illness, she might feel even more uncomfortable in her heart.

Shao Ming seemed to understand Shen Yichen's actions. He wanted to leave the best impression on Song Qingyue, and he didn't want her to see his embarrassment.

How can such a proud person tolerate his beloved and see his own uselessness and incompetence.

He stood in front of the door, took a deep breath, and tried his best to calm down the emotional fluctuations just now.

Pushing open the door, the room was empty, and Shao Ming was taken aback for a moment.

"Young grandma?"

"Young Mistress, are you there?"

He knocked on the toilet door, but there was no movement inside.

Shao Ming's heart felt cold in vain, and he secretly cried out that it's not good.

He slammed open the toilet door and saw Song Qingyue with a pale face. He quickly wrapped Song Qingyue's hands with a towel and pressed them firmly.

He and Jin Jingyu rushed him to the hospital. This was the only thing the CEO told him before he left. He couldn't let Song Qingyue have an accident under his nose.

In this way, what qualifications does he have to face the president?

Fortunately, she was sent to the doctor in time, and there was no major disturbance, but she lost too much blood, and Song Qingyue's foundation was weak, so she was still unconscious.

Jin Jingyu stood by her side, his eyes were dim.

Do you really love him that much?He's gone, so you can't live, either?

At this moment, he had mixed feelings in his heart. He knew that Song Qingyue only had Shen Yichen in his heart, but he never thought that she would be so resolute.

Shen Yichen left, and she also wanted to give up her life.

The unconscious person on the bed collapsed, his lips were pale with dead skin.

Hearing someone calling her name vaguely, Song Qingyue struggled to move her long eyelashes.

Opening his eyes, he saw the fog around him and couldn't see anything clearly.

The smog cleared, and she saw herself 11 years ago when she just arrived at Shen's house.

Shen Qingzong wanted her to get acquainted with life in the upper class as soon as possible, so he often let her play with the children nearby, but he didn't know that she couldn't play with those children at all. She was new here at the time, even if she was bullied dare not say.

I still remember that it snowed heavily that winter, which was the only heavy snowfall in Bincheng in the past ten years.

She was wrapped up like a rice dumpling, obediently following those children, but when they were playing in the park, they pushed her into the lake.

In the twelfth lunar month of winter, there had just been a heavy snowfall, and the water in the lake was freezing cold. She fell into the lake, struggling desperately, unable to cry out even if she wanted to.

The clothes on her body were loaded with water, which was as heavy as a thousand catties, dragging her thin body to sink.

She thought she was going to die, and she had no strength to struggle.

Song Qingyue clearly saw that at that time, it was Shen Yichen who jumped into the lake and fished her out.

She has never thought about this memory clearly.

Because of that incident of falling into the lake, she was not in good health, the cold air entered her body, and the high fever lasted for several days. When she woke up, she had a vague vision of the past, she couldn't think clearly, and she forgot In the cold winter and cold lake that day, it was Shen Yichen, who she always thought hated her, who saved her life.

But now that I think about it, is it too late?

She looked at Shen Yichen, who was only 17 years old at that time, and her eyes were astringent.

It turns out that you have always been very kind to me, but I didn't realize it myself.

But I know I'm wrong, why don't you come out to see me?You must tell me in such a cruel way, do you love me?

(End of this chapter)