I forget you in the depths of time

Chapter 194 That's The One She's Looking For
As soon as she mentioned this, Shen Qingzong's expression changed, and the regret in his eyes grew stronger.

"Her father died because he saved me back then. Before he died, he only had one wish, to take good care of his daughter. I..."

Shen Qingzong couldn't continue, but Song Qingyue understood what he meant. Because of the kindness in the past, Shen Qingzong couldn't be cruel. Even if his son and daughter-in-law died because of it, he couldn't ignore the life-saving kindness back then.

Because if it wasn't for Shen Shaorong's father, Shen Qingzong wouldn't exist in this world now.

He tolerated Shen Shaorong in order to repay his kindness.

But because of this kindness, two generations of people will not live in peace, is it worth it?
Song Qingyue lowered her eyes and looked coldly at the chess game that was gradually becoming ruined. She became ruthless and dropped the chess piece she was holding in her palm, breaking the game.

She stood up and said in a cold voice, "Grandpa, you trained Yichen to be a machine without emotion, just because you were held back by excess kindness, so you don't want him to follow in your footsteps. He's burdened with excess emotion."

"But do you really think it's right to do this? Knowing that he has been living in guilt and self-blame, why didn't you guide him out, but pushed him into hell instead?" Shen Yichen would remain silent every year on the anniversary of his parents' death, often Can't find anyone.

She knew that Shen Yichen couldn't let go of the death of his parents. As his only relative, Shen Qingzong not only did not let him come out of the shadows, but instead pushed his own mistakes onto the young Shen Yichen.

Because Shen Qingzong was overwhelmed by kindness, even if he paid a painful price, he couldn't be cruel and abuse good people.

So he trained Shen Yichen to be the complete opposite of him, and wanted Shen Yichen to do what he couldn't do.

How could Shen Qingzong be better off such a child who had just experienced the pain of losing his parents?

She sneered, "I always think that the Shen family treats me best is my grandpa. No matter how hard life is, I will never have the idea of ​​leaving the Shen family, because I think grandpa is the person who loves me the most in this world."

There was emotion in Shen Qingzong's eyes, and he pursed his lips, as if he wanted to speak, Song Qingyue changed the subject, "Grandpa has lived most of his life, don't you still understand? The one who did something wrong is not Yichen. It's all on him, he wants to be loved by grandpa so much, even if grandpa says it's not his fault, he won't become what he is now."

Even if Shen Yichen didn't say anything, Song Qingyue knew how Shen Qingzong trained him and how strict he was with him.

Even if he doesn't say it, Song Qingyue understands that Shen Yichen wants Shen Qingzong's approval more, but Shen Qingzong doesn't, he will only feel that what he has done is not enough, and he has to work harder, greedy and selfish, whipping Shen Yichen to keep moving forward, even a little breathless Not even given a chance.

Shen Yichen doesn't understand feelings because no one has ever taught him, and no one has ever given him.

"Why do you force him to do something you can't do?" Song Qingyue said, "You adopted me and treated me well because you regretted it. Seeing him getting more and more indifferent every day, you owe him what you owe him." , made it up to me, seeking my own psychological comfort.”

Shen Qingzong laughed suddenly, mocking himself sadly, "I knew it, you kid is not stupid at all."

"Yes, I really regret bringing Yichen into this state. I was afraid that Zhipei would blame me, but I saw you." He said, "I saw from you the tenacity that Yichen didn't have, and I knew it , the most suitable person for him is you, you can give him warmth."

"So you despicably used my feelings for Shen Yichen to make up for your guilt and incompleteness towards him. You want me to change him, but have you asked me? Have you asked him?" Song Qingyue pulled the corners of her lips with difficulty smile.

"He likes you." Shen Qingzong said firmly, "That child hasn't laughed since Zhipei and Bai Ya died, and he hasn't shown any special concern for anyone. You are different."

"He cares about you, but he won't show it on the surface." He had seen Shen Yichen secretly deliver medicine to Song Qingyue several times, and he had also heard him tell his servants not to gossip behind Song Qingyue's back.

"I'm not a good father, nor a good grandfather. I didn't take Yichen well, but I can see that he is special to you. Maybe...he saw his own shadow in you. You are very similar It's not like."

"It's like you are all alone, it's not like you have the courage to protect your feelings loyally despite everything, but he doesn't even understand what feelings are."

"He used the most stupid way to respond to you." Shen Qingzong felt that his life had been a failure, his children and grandchildren died early, and white-haired people gave away black-haired people.

The good grandson has also been trained by him to be a machine that only knows how to work and only sees benefits. He is a qualified and even brilliant businessman, but his real life and emotional world are all messed up.

Shen Qingzong looked anxious from the bottom of his heart, and at the same time began to reflect on his mistakes, but he knew that there was nothing he could do to make up for his mistakes.

"You have raised me for more than ten years, and you are also Yichen's grandfather. I will still honor you." Song Qingyue took a deep breath, adjusted her emotions, and said, "But I can't forgive you, including Shen Shaorong."

She came here just to ask for an answer.

In fact, it makes sense after thinking about it, she and Shen Yichen, to put it bluntly, are two puppet of Shen Qingzong.

He shaped Shen Yichen into the person he wanted to be, and regretted it again, so he used himself as a pawn to check and balance Shen Yichen.

Step by step, tie the two of them together.

What does she like about Shen Yichen?

Song Qingyue walked out of the gate of Shen's house, feeling a chill running up her back. Now, she suddenly didn't know why she fell in love with Shen Yichen in the first place.

Standing at the gate confused and dazed, the sun was warm, she narrowed her eyes slightly, and vaguely saw the blurred figure under the sun.

She couldn't remember when she fell in love with Shen Yichen, and she didn't know what she liked about him. Maybe she really just relied on a ray of obsession to hold on.

From the first time she saw Shen Yichen, there was a voice in her heart telling her that that was the person she was looking for, with one glance for ten thousand years and one thought for life.

It seemed that she had been looking for him for a long time, so she couldn't move her eyes when she first saw him.

Even if she knew that Shen Qingzong was deliberately inducing her, she didn't seem to hate or complain now. Even after suffering so much, she still has no complaints or regrets.

If she could do it all over again, she would still choose Shen Yichen.

Song Qingyue suddenly understood what the abbot of Tzu Chi Garden said. There are causes and effects. She may have owed Shen Yichen too much in her previous life, so she will pay it back in this life?
……

After clarifying the cause and effect, Song Qingyue will not be as merciful as Shen Qingzong.

She is not only investigating the details of the car accident four years ago, but also the death of Shen Yichen's parents.

Coincidentally, before she found Shen Shaorong, Shen Shaorong found her.

It was the first time for Song Qingyue to set foot on this land. Shen Yichen and his family of three lived in seclusion here.

Through the carved wrought iron gate, you can clearly see the crabapple flowers planted in the courtyard.

Immediately, she saw the woman sitting alone in the courtyard, her clear eyes were dark, she pushed open the door and walked in.

Shen Shaorong has not changed. When we first met, she was gentle and generous. When we meet again now, she is still noble and elegant.

"If you have anything to ask, just ask." Shen Shaorong's expression remained unchanged, as if she was not worried that Song Qingyue would know about her.

"why?"

Shen Shaorong paused, raised her eyes and glanced at her, "It's very simple, I don't think you are worthy of Zhipei's child."

"Then who do you think is worthy? Is it you, or the daughter you raised?" It was only recently that she realized how crazy Shen Shaorong was.

She refused to have sex with her husband, so the two of them were artificially inseminated and gave birth to the current Lin Nuanxia.

There was a gentle smile on the corner of Song Qingyue's mouth, and her eyes were unclear, "Let me guess, your purpose of giving birth to Lin Nuanxia is to let her fulfill your long-cherished wish that you failed to achieve, to let her marry Yichen, just like Back then, like you wanted to marry Shen Zhipei, you kept instilling incorrect ideas in Lin Nuanxia, ​​and you told her that the person she was going to marry was Shen Yichen, and she could only marry Shen Yichen."

"It's just that you didn't expect that Cheng Yaojin, me, would kill you halfway, which ruined your good deed." She said, "Not only did I marry Shen Yichen, but I was also pregnant with his child, which ruined your plan, so you are right." I have a killing intent?"

Shen Shaorong didn't feel the slightest embarrassment of being exposed, she was very calm, "Zhipei took advantage of me to go abroad, married Bai Ya, and gave birth to a child. I don't accept it, I love him so much, how can he let me down like this?"

"You are as annoying as Bai Ya. If it wasn't for Bai Ya, I would be the one who would marry Zhipei! If it wasn't for you, the one who would be marrying Shen Yichen would be my daughter! Don't you guys deserve to die? Block my way , Broken other people's feelings, shouldn't you get retribution?"

"It's you who destroy other people's feelings." Song Qingyue's eyes turned cold, "You just say what you want, what you think should be, these are all your own ideas, neither Shen Zhipei nor Shen Yichen, they are not your dolls , They have the right to choose their own lives, who they want to love, that is their freedom, what qualifications do you have to blame them?"

"To put it bluntly, you are just a lunatic with distorted feelings. Don't force your paranoid thoughts on others. Why should we follow the life you arranged?"

Human inferiority is doomed to blind oneself subconsciously when a mistake occurs, and push the fault onto other people; in order to satisfy one's own selfish desires, one can impose on others what one cannot do, forcing others do it.

Do not do to others what you do not want done to yourself, how many people can really do this?

Fortunately, fortunately in misfortune, Shen Yichen corrected his mistakes when he knew it; fortunately, before her mind was swallowed by hatred, Shen Yichen pulled her back.

It's not that he's worthless, and he's not perfect either. Both of them are imperfect products, so they resonate with each other more, and have stronger sympathy than others, right?
(End of this chapter)