Leng Wang Yu's Wife: The Concubine of the Black Belly

Chapter 191
However, only Yuci knew that when she was administering the medicine, it was just a few simple movements, but her heart was very complicated.

I can't let people find that I am adding something to the medicine for the empress, but my hands will be out of control because of my inner feelings. I need to quickly stabilize my inner mood and continue in the most common way. next thing.

Who can know what Yuci's heart is like, while contradictory and at the same time must be calm.

From the time when the court lady gave the medicine to Yuci himself to suffer, Yuci seemed to feel that the contradictory dialogue between the two sides in his heart seemed to deepen the conflict.

Just like in my heart, when Lan Kong said that he wanted to help, there was only one positive answer: to help her.

But when I really want to decide my next step, there always seems to be an extra voice in the center of my brain that imagines more for myself and considers more.

That is: don't die.

Sending to death, these two words seem to be used to describe what Yuci is doing now, not to mention being reluctant, on the contrary, it is somewhat in line with Yuci's act of prescribing medicine.

As long as Yuci's medicine is added, maybe it's time to let my understanding and depth of hope and warmth come to the end.

Perhaps, in the world of Yuci, there is no chance to feel the company of hope and the warmth of heart.

However, even though there were two diametrically opposed voices and options in Yuci's heart, Yuci still firmly chose the option that might have been more suitable for him.

Probably, things in the world are sometimes so difficult for people to choose.

When you decide to maintain one side, maybe you have to choose to give up the other side.

You can not have it both ways.When you are willing to use everything to protect the person you want to maintain, when you are willing to use all of yourself to fulfill your promise, maybe you have achieved what you want here.

But what about the other side?Have you ever thought about what you will lose in this process of too many difficulties and obstacles?
In this plan based on friendship, with kindness as the additional motivation, and with friends as the object of protection, Yuci may lose only one thing, but this one may be the root of everything, that is life.

Yuci chose to complete their plan, chose to prescribe the medicine by herself, and then delivered the medicine.This is probably where the resignation fails.

Because what she has to pay for this is not punishment, or injury, or leaving the palace, none of these, it is her life that can breathe.

Why does the voice in Yuci's heart expand from a very small voice to a movement that seems to be louder than a quarrel only in the process of Dang Yuci's drugging? Maybe it is because only one person is really on the road to a dead end There will be opposite violent movements in the ear and heart.

As everyone thinks, things don't seem to go to the last step, and you simply can't know exactly how you really feel in your heart.

Yuci can pretend to be calm in front of Lan Kong, pretend that he no longer has nostalgia for life, or even look at the end of life with indifference.

However, when you take the medicine, will you really experience this?
No, Yuci's heart represents himself, and every sentence seems to be directed at Yuci's thoughts.

"If you die, what will your parents do?" The question in Yuci's heart was far louder than Yuci's imagination.

Have you ever thought about this question?Yuci didn't even dare to think about it.

Parents, even though Yuci decided to stay in the palace at the time, it doesn't mean that Yuci doesn't care about his parents' life or death.

For this question, Yuci really doesn't know how to give the answer that makes him feel the best in his heart.

When facing Lan Kong, all Yuci thought was to help, but Yuci also had the loving faces of his parents in his heart.

Yu Ci just didn't continue to think deeply, because she was really afraid that if she thought about it any further, she would shrink back.

Yuci didn't want to disappoint Lan Kong, so Yuci suppressed his thoughts about the future life of his parents.

Yuci used to have a life with her mother. Yuci's mother was a gentle woman who lived a hard life since she was a child, but Yuci's impression of her parents has always been very good.

Parents send Yuci to the palace, although Yuci has always been at a disadvantage in the palace, for a period of time, it was a life of indistinguishable old and new injuries.But Yuci never blamed or complained to his parents, because although Yuci was willing to enter the palace as a servant, it was also sent to the palace by Yuci's parents.

Yuci is like an ordinary woman, it's not that she doesn't miss her family, but maybe, the more she misses her, the more reluctant she will be.

Yuci is usually in his own room, and sometimes he thinks about his mother's advice to him, and the scene where his father eats together every time he comes home.However, the more times I think about it, Yuci's eye sockets will become moister faster.

Yuci doesn't want to be in this kind of emotion in his heart all the time, so gradually Yuci will force himself to let his misses decrease, and just beg from the bottom of his heart: parents are in good health.

This is probably what every child should think about, and Yuci is no exception.

After entering the palace and becoming a court lady, Yuci heard many court ladies talking about things at home, but most of them complained about their parents, because becoming a palace maid seemed to have something to do with being scolded and punished.

Many court ladies entered the palace to work because of their poor family background.It is inevitable that when you are sad and distressed, you will also shift the responsibility to your parents, because it is the parents who sent us palace ladies into the palace.

Yuci once heard a court lady say to another court lady: "Actually, I was forced to enter the palace."

The other maid looked at the maid who spoke with unsurprised eyes: "I was also forced."

The dialogue between the two of them seemed so bleak and forced.

Yuci overheard their conversation by chance not far away, and Yuci would also ask himself in his heart: "If I didn't want to enter the palace at that time, would my parents force me to enter the palace as a palace maid?"

The idea of ​​Yuci has never come into being, it's just because Yuci is voluntary, but now when I hear a court lady talking about this topic, Yuci will inevitably think of this question in my heart.

(End of this chapter)