I used to cry in the middle of the night, wanting to talk to you about life

Chapter 32 You Are My Drop of Sweat (1)
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It's midsummer again, and our senior year of college is finally here.

On the first day of school, a few of us boys got drunk at the food stall in front of the school, because we were in the game, and I don’t remember who said, “This is our first breakup meal.” September 2003 On the 9st, Zhao Guoyong, Bao Qinglong, Ma Haibo, Xu Ning, and Wei Xing and I had our first breakup meal in college.At that time, I was 1 meters tall, 1 kg in weight, non-virgin, in good health, with skin allergies, loved to play football, loved to surf the Internet, my grades were not good, other things were okay, I had just lost love for more than two months, my ex-girlfriend Her name is Ke Yiyi, from Beijing, she is a very nice girl.

Three years ago, we moved from Beijing, from Nanjing, from Lanzhou, from the Northeast, and from various places to the campus of this fart university, and started a journey of drifting with the tide.Compared with three years ago, we seem to have experienced something, but nothing seems to have changed; we have matured a little, but it seems that only our body and age have matured.Perhaps it is because we have just bid farewell to a group of seniors who are closest to us, so that we know everything about what we will experience in the upcoming year. Most of us are filled with feelings of parting and confusion, making this summer There was some sentimentality from the beginning.

In addition to our self-pity, there is actually one depressing thing after another.

First of all, the second child met a girl on the train back to Changsha from Beijing, a Chinese student at Hunan Normal University. I don’t know what chattering ghost possessed the second child that day, and he chatted with the girl so much that he was willing to come to our school with him.After supper, the girl didn't go back. The second child opened a room for her in the small hotel next to the school for the night, and then, without being polite, he followed the girl in.In the dead of night, the two pretended to give way, and finally decided to mess around before 0:[-] the next day.Girls talk about civilization and love hygiene, and they insist on going to the bathroom to clean themselves before messing around.I don't know if it took too long to wash, or the second child was too tired from driving. Anyway, when the girl came back from washing, the second child was already snoring like thunder.When the second child woke up the next day, the girl had already gone back to the Normal University, and when she contacted her again, she was already unwilling to see her again. This gave the second child the title of "the last virgin of Hu University".

Then there is myself, I don’t know which Bodhisattva favored me, but somehow I received a notice from the Youth League Committee asking me to run for the vice-chairman of the Federation of Associations.I’m actually not a good person to be an official, otherwise I wouldn’t be in the student union, but this official is really big, I’m going to graduate and find a job, it looks good on my resume, and the teacher who notified me to run for office said, Election is just going through a procedure, let me go, that is to choose me.So, I went and prepared a very emotional speech.After the speech, I got all the votes.Just as I was elated and waiting to announce my election, the teacher in charge of the campaign called me into the office to talk, probably saying that he hoped that I would give up this position to another classmate, because that classmate was about to graduate in his senior year. And I'm still young, and I still have opportunities.I couldn't understand it at the time, "Teacher, I'm also a senior?" The teacher was stunned for a moment, "Really?" Give it to him." In the end, I came away empty-handed and nothing, and somehow ran for office once.

Then there is Xu Ning, because Xu Ning resigned from the position of vice chairman of the student union at the beginning of school because he was preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination.Of course, although Xu Ning retired and returned to his hometown, he still has feelings for that position, especially when he just retired, his position has not yet been adjusted.The new semester started, and several sophomore publicity officers were drawing posters welcoming new students. Xu Ning and I stopped to take a look when we passed by. Xu Ning pointed to one of them and joked with me, "Fang Peng, this The poster has the same pattern as your bed sheet." The school girl next to him didn't save the former vice chairman at all, and walked up to Xu Ning with a dirty face, "Do you understand what abstraction is?" Choked Xu Ning rolled his eyes.

Of course, the most depressed one is Wei Xing. He has had bad luck in gambling recently and always loses in mahjong.

When people are depressed, they usually want to act coquettishly to those closest to them, and the one closest to us is our alma mater. We blame all the grievances around us on the acre where we are. three points.That day, when a few of us came out after lunch, we saw a school bus full of freshmen slowly turning into the school gate, so we spread our legs and ran with the school bus. The half-grown children shouted: "Children, go back..."

"Go back quickly..."

"Don't come..."

"Tragedy..."

After shouting, we laughed wildly and ran away. Anyway, there was no teacher following the bus, and the school bus driver also watched us making trouble with a smile. Only the freshmen and their parents in the bus looked shocked, which was very funny.

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Of course, this school is not that bad, you have to look at it dialectically.

A little bad is not necessarily a bad thing, you have to look at it dialectically.

For example, in this not-so-bad school, an extremely disgusting teacher actually reunited Xiao Yi and me.

Since the breakup, Xiaoyi has ignored me.More than a month after school started, she would not answer my cell phone or dormitory calls, and she would not attend our party.When Xu Ning and Liu Mengmeng broke up, Ke Yiyi asked me: "Grandpa, they broke up, can Liu Mengmeng continue to play with us?" I was playing Snake at the time, thinking Without even thinking about it, I said: "Of course not, how embarrassing." Ke Yiyi said "Oh" thoughtfully, and I added: "Liu Mengmeng is considered conscious." Now that I think about it, I I regret it very much, because I'm sure she took my answer to heart.On campus, I met Xiao Yi several times, and when she saw me from a distance, she lowered her head and walked away.I chased after her to talk to her, but she didn't pick up on me at all. She blocked me with one sentence: "Fang Peng, can you be more conscious?"

But at noon one day before the National Day, my cell phone rang suddenly, and it was Ke Yiyi calling.When the phone was connected, I heard Ke Yiyi crying badly on the other end of the phone, which made me very nervous, "Xiaoyi? What's wrong with you, Xiaoyi?" Xiaoyi didn't say anything, just kept crying, I asked It took more than ten minutes to figure out the general idea—it turned out that Xiaoyi was going to apply for the postgraduate entrance examination of the school, and her mother asked a relationship to give a gift, and found a teacher who was said to be very reliable to help.Xiaoyi visited that gentleman right after she started school, and that gentleman also promised to help Xiaoyi, and even asked Xiaoyi to go to him today to give her a key review outline.Xiaoyi went to her husband's office in the morning. The husband said that she was too busy with work and asked Xiaoyi to go to his house at 12 noon.Xiaoyi didn't think much about it at all, and went there on time, but the gentleman who entered the door closed the curtains, grabbed Xiaoyi's hand, and said that he would do his best to help her get admitted to the graduate school of the school because he liked it very much. Xiaoyi, I like it so much... Xiaoyi escaped without taking her textbooks. She took the phone and didn't know whether to call her mother or 110. After deliberation, she called me.

As you can imagine, I was going crazy after hearing Xiao Yi say this, "Xiao Yi, who is that teacher? What does he teach? If I don't kill him, my surname will not be Fang!"

"Fang Peng, forget it..."

"Forget it? Impossible! What's his name?"

"never mind……"

"Impossible, what's his name?"

I asked again and again, but Xiaoyi didn't say anything. Later, I almost lost my temper with Xiaoyi, but she still refused to say anything. "Fang Peng, can you come pick me up? I'm afraid."

"Where are you?"

"I'm right here on the South Campus Square, and I can't stand up anymore."

"You wait, I'll be there!"

After hanging up the phone, the second child who had been watching me on the phone asked hurriedly, "What do you say?"

"What else can I say, even if I am fired today, I have to kill that grandson!"

"Okay, I'll go with you."

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We didn't call anyone else. After all, "hitting the teacher", no matter how reasonable you are, it's hard not to be fired.My second child and I took a black car and rushed to the South Campus. On the edge of the square, we found Ke Yiyi who was crying in a mess.

"Xiaoyi!"

I rushed over to hug her, only to feel that Xiaoyi was trembling all over her body, and I felt my heart was twisted into a ball, sore and painful, "Xiaoyi, tell me who that bastard is, I will abolish him !"

"Fang Peng, stop making trouble."

"Why am I making trouble, that bastard, what if I..."

"Fang Peng!"

"Ok?"

"Please, take me back?" Ke Yiyi looked at me tearfully, "I want to go back."

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I took Ke Yiyi back to school, because I didn't rent a house this semester, so I opened a room in the hotel.Xiaoyi went into the bathroom to wash her hands as soon as she entered the door, and then came out and hugged me without letting go.Although I was still thinking about getting rid of that animal teacher, I also felt that I should comfort Xiaoyi first, so I carried her to the bed and lay down, and I was by my side.Xiaoyi turned over and put her arms around my neck, crying in my ear, "My lord, I can't live without you..." I just felt ashamed and hated, tears were about to come out, "Mother, I was wrong, I will never leave you, I love you! I will always love you!"

I got back together with Ke Yiyi.

It has been more than a week since this incident, and Xiaoyi has almost really recovered.I asked her who the beast teacher was again, and she said she could tell me, but only if I couldn't trouble that teacher.Xiaoyi made me swear that if I provoke that teacher, she will break up with me and never get back together.I know that Xiaoyi is here to protect me.

I agreed to Xiaoyi, actually I had already thought about it in my heart. When I got my diploma and degree certificate, I would call the door that night, and forgive him for doing something wrong and not daring to make a big deal out of it.I have a friend from another school. He said that in his school, on the day when the graduation certificates were issued, some teachers who were usually domineering did not dare to attend the graduation ceremony, otherwise they would be beaten if they ran too slowly.

So Xiaoyi told me who the teacher who bullied her was. I didn't know that person, but Xiaoyi said that this person is very good professionally, and he is also a leader in a certain field. Even the principal wants to give him three points.Yes, it is not an exaggeration to say that, because he is almost 70 years old... a rare pervert!
In my senior year, I would think of this incident from time to time, thinking about how to deal with that bastard.I really would rather he was only in his 40s and 70s, which is the prime of his life.At this 2004-year-old age, if you say no, you will be gone, let alone beating, even pointing your nose and cursing, if you die of a heart attack, it will be a troublesome matter.After much deliberation, there is no perfect solution.In the spring of [-], the old man was arrested for prostitution, and it is said that the principal went to the police station to pick him up.After this incident, the old man disappeared for a while, and I didn't see him until graduation.However, it is said that within a year, Ah came back again, still in the same position, I don't know if it still has the same flavor.

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Before classmate Ke Yiyi formally reunited with me, he talked with me about issues left over from history.

First of all, I roughly explained the past and present of Wu Shanshan and I. Although I was careful, the kiss between me and Wu Shanshan that night when I saw off Sister Juan couldn't be overturned, so I said it in full.After explaining, Ke Yiyi was so angry that he wiped away tears.I'm not coaxing, and I'm not coaxing, just standing by the side.

"Fang Peng, how could you do this?"

"I really drank too much, and I didn't take the initiative!"

"If she takes the initiative, you will kiss me?"

"No, that's not what I meant."

"Then what do you mean?"

"..."

"I still wish I hadn't met when I was not married, she would be her without me, right?"

"No, I'm rejecting her, of course it's a good choice."

"You care about her feelings, what about me?"

"..."

"Fang Peng, let me tell you, if you are willing to be with me, we will be together well. If you are tired of seeing me, or looking at other girls is better, as long as you tell me, I will definitely not Stop you, because I think it's because I'm not good enough, or the fate between us is over. I won't force someone who doesn't love me. But you don't have to be in two boats, even if it's just a joke , This makes me feel dirty. Fang Peng, Zhang Qian and the others persuaded me, saying that since you haven’t done anything, it’s not a big deal, and that we’ve been together for two years after all, so we can stay together or not. But, I don't want it. I know, maybe I won't be so stubborn in the future, maybe after we get married and have kids, I might even tolerate your cheating, but I'm only 22 years old this year! I just want a simple, clean A love that only belongs to me! Fang Peng, I forgive you this time, not because I really forgive you, and we will never return to the way we were before, because my heart has been hurt by you. I I'm still with you because I really love you and I can't leave you, do you understand? I love you, but I can never forgive you! Fang Peng, if I see you and Even if Wu Shanshan stood together, I would never accept you again. I would rather hide in the quilt and cry alone every day. I miss you, hate you, dream of you, and I will never return to your side. I will avoid you, even if I meet you, I will not look at you, smile at you, talk to you. Even if you are a scar in my heart, I will only be a drop of sweat from you. I will slide off you coldly, whether you feel it or not, I will completely disappear from your world, do you understand?"

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Xiao Yi and I finally rented a single room near Longwang Port. Xiao Biesheng was newly married, and we lived like a honeymoon during that time. There were not many senior classes, and when there were no classes, we both got tired of it. Together, talking about love, writing love letters, and other times, Xiao Yi not only prepared for the postgraduate exam, but also learned cooking skills, and gradually developed two special dishes, one is boiled prawns and the other is boiled meatballs.We often ask the second child to pay 20 yuan each to buy a bunch of prawns and meatballs. Xiaoyi is responsible for cooking them, and then I bring them to the roof of the rental house. Everyone eats shrimps, eats meatballs, drinks beer and jokes .At that time, we were all very fond of telling jokes, and everyone could laugh up and down.Now I can often recall the sunny scene at that time, but now I can't remember any of the jokes we said.

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Not two months after my senior year, I received a call from Brother Liu, asking me if I would like to come to the TV station for an internship, and I agreed without even thinking about it.

Brother Liu told me that the reason why the program team chose me was because he strongly recommended me, saying that I am both virtuous and talented, have both skills, can write good sketches, and can sing a few words with a microphone, which is a rare talent. TV talent.After working for a while, I found out that the TV station was going to expand the program at that time, and the original program groups were overloaded with work, so they went to colleges and universities to find a group of college students to come in. If they can train them, they will train them. If they can’t train them, they will do odd jobs to help It's always possible, anyway, it doesn't cost money.

But I was not so clear-headed at the time. Although TV was not a movie, it was still close to my original dream. What’s more, Hunan Satellite TV had several influential programs at that time. In the eyes of college students, he is far better than "academician of the Chinese Academy of Sciences".I just feel full of energy, a finance major has a lofty TV ideal in his heart.When I first walked into the gate of Hunan Radio and Television Center, the melody of "Borrowing from Heaven for 500 Years" echoed in my mind, and I said to myself: "I must be the best TV director in China!"

I was led into the program team office by Brother Liu. Basically, it looked the same as our counselor's office, but it was a little more messy. There were colorful foam boards and broken props piled up on the corners of the walls. At the far east is a row of tin filing cabinets, with some trophies on top of the cabinets, all covered in dust, apparently the people in the room don't care too much about them.Brother Liu led me to the producer Wang Ping, "Sister Wang Ping, this is Fang Peng from Nanhu University."

(End of this chapter)