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Chapter 30 The Taste of Life

[China] Xi Murong

Please let me finally understand that every path has its own reason to travel like this, please let me finally believe that every future to go up also has a direction that it has to choose that way.

(One)

On the phone, T told me that he finally lost his temper and cursed because of an unbearable incident.

I asked him, after losing his temper, would he regret it?
他 说:

"I have to learn not to regret it. It's like the regret of trying to stick it together after dropping a teacup. I don't want it."

I listened quietly to my friend's deep voice, and suddenly felt a sense of loss in my heart.

When we were teenagers, we all had pure and generous souls!Why?Why must it gradually become complex and sharp in the process of growth?Constantly hurting yourself and others in all kinds of entanglements?You have to learn not to regret it. What is all this for?

During that whole day, the sound of porcelain cups breaking on the hard ground would always be heard in my ears, and pieces of porcelain that had once been as smooth as jade flew all over the ground in an instant.

Can I also learn not to regret it?

(two)

Life is full of big and small struggles, including happiness and freedom, and it is inevitable to struggle.

When I was young, I always followed the crowd around me, eager to move forward, eager to know everything, eager to get what I should be able to get.But it is not until today that I understand that what I thought I won was what I gave up, and what I thought I got from now on is actually what I lost from now on.

However, if you want to correct and restore all this, you need more and greater courage.

When people reach middle age, they gradually have a different kind of values. The things that I thought were very important are no longer so important, and all the things that I have been deliberately ignoring all the time began to come to call me, just like the grass blades. The sound of the wind, the undulating breath of the ocean, and the moonlight all over the place at night.

How I wish I could slow down my pace, how I wish I could answer the call of all the beautiful life in nature!

However, I don't always have enough courage to answer them. My childhood education has molded me into an ordinary person who is docile and unable to leave the group. I can only move forward day by day on the arranged long road.

If one day, I suddenly become the hermit I envy, then, before I hide in the mountains, I must go through an extremely tragic fight, right?
Maybe it can be said like this: Those hermits who do not fight or fight, who have no desires and demands, may be the ones who have greater desires and fight more vigorously with life.

Can it be explained in this way?

(three)

If I really love one person, I love all people, I love the whole world, and I love life.If I can say "I love you" to one person, I must be able to say "I love everyone in you, through you I love the whole world, and I love myself in your life".

——E Fromm

It turns out that loving someone is not just a strong emotion, it is "a determination, a judgment, and a promise."

Then, on that night, walking on the country road by the sea, it was very normal for me to suddenly have the desire to call out loudly.

I just came from the beach, and I still feel very reluctant to leave such a fine, white and clean sandy beach behind.That night, the night was as cool as water, and the stars and the moon were shining brightly in the sapphire blue night sky. I stood barefoot on the beach, and I could feel the warmth, dryness and looseness of the sand grains on the floating surface, and at the same time, the moistness and coolness of the next layer of sand grains. And solid, the sound of the waves is especially gentle in the quiet night.

Think about it, how many years will it take to fill this choppy ocean?How many years will it take to wash the rocks into fine grains of sand and spread them evenly under my feet?How many years will it take to brew such a cool and beautiful night?How many years will it take!This world can wait for our coming?

If at such a moment you are still unwilling to reveal the secret you have kept in your heart for a long time, if you are always worried about its impermanence when enjoying it, if you are always calculating when you will stop loving when you are loved and no longer being loved; so where am I enjoying my life?I'm just wasting it and destroying it.

Of course I left that night, of course I left the waves, the sand, and the moonlight behind me.However, I was still grateful in my heart, so I couldn't help calling out to the whole world:

"Thank you! Thank you for everything!"

I think, above the sapphire blue deep starry sky, at a distance of hundreds of millions of light years, there must be a kind of gentle and compassionate power that heard my thanks, and bowed its head slightly and smiled lovingly at me. .

At the moment when I called out loudly, did I also make up my mind, make a judgment, and make a promise at the same time?
If I can learn to truly love my life, I must also learn to truly love people and the world.

(four)

So, please let me learn to be responsible for my actions, please let me learn not to regret.Of course, please also let me learn not to repeat my mistakes.

Please let me finally understand that every path has its own reason to travel like this, please let me finally believe that every future to go up also has a direction that it has to choose that way.

Please let me live in this moment, let me enjoy my day well.

In addition to all these, please let me appreciate the humbleness and dignity of life.Let me know that the entire human life is like an artistic creation that has been pondering, it has already started before me, and it will not stop or end after me, but my coming and my existence are so long It is an essential point in the process of pondering, and every effort of mine will leave a mark.

Please let me, let me taste the taste of this life calmly.

Heart mark notes
Life is just a few decades for everyone. We may have been like the author, sighing at the tide of the night: how many years will it take to fill this undulating ocean; How many years will it take to brew such a cool and beautiful night; how many years will it take for this world to wait for our arrival!

If we want to taste all the flavors of life, I am afraid that we will have to wait until we have gone through a long journey of life.But there are some things that just don't understand.From the past days, from the sketched calendar, we gradually understand that the taste of life is actually to enjoy today.

(End of this chapter)