A romance novel written only for you

Chapter 59

I go to see Shi Lei every week, lay a bouquet of roses at her grave, and talk to her for a while.Every time I turned around in front of the tomb and was about to leave, I would see Mengyang standing there quietly not far away.Every time I come to see Shi Lei, she will follow me.After I became deaf, I wanted to break up with her, but she refused.She said that although the wedding did not take place, we have obtained a marriage certificate and are already husband and wife.She said she wouldn't let me go because I was deaf.Just like she knew that I wouldn't want her if she was deaf.As for my feelings for Shi Lei, she said she could understand and didn't mind.I used to get angry with her, trying to get angry with her, but every time she looked at me quietly, and after I finished getting angry, she turned around and left, what to do, what to do.It's as if the scene just now didn't happen.After I became deaf, I also became silent.Mengyang and I mainly communicate through QQ.I told her that I hope she returns to Beijing to work quickly.And I'm not going back.She said, if I don't go back, she won't go back either.She is going to find a job here.

Regarding my sudden deafness, she hoped that I could go to the hospital with her, but I stubbornly believed that my ear went to another world with Shi Lei, and I didn't want to call it back. Isn't Shi Lei very lonely over there?After hearing my reasons, Mengyang stopped mentioning the matter of going to the hospital.But my mother insisted on forcing me to go. If I didn't go, she would cry all night and all night, and finally I had to go.I went out with Mengyang, walking in the bright summer sun, the whole world gave me a distorted feeling, even if it was Mengyang who was walking next to me, I could touch her face with my hand, but I still felt that she was far away from her. I am so far away.She took my hand and walked on the road, like walking on a quiet seabed. I felt surrounded by invisible water, all kinds of cars were like fish, and those high-rise buildings were more like toys.Mengyang accompanied me to do a series of examinations in the hospital. The doctor said that it was sudden deafness caused by stimulation. This kind of deafness may be short-lived. Forever.He prescribed a lot of medicine for me, took those medicines, Mengyang took my hand and went home.I would go into that small movie theater every day and watch the movies that Shi Lei made for me.That room is always dark and I don't allow anyone to go in.Every time I come out of it, I can meet Mengyang's worried eyes.She would pull me to the front of the computer every day and talk to me a few words.One day, she said, Bao Beining, do you like boys or girls?I said, why ask this question?She said, just ask casually.I looked at her and she smiled at me.Suddenly she retched twice, covered her mouth, stood up from the chair and ran out.It suddenly occurred to me that in the new house in Beijing, when Mengyang and I were determined to get married, we didn't take precautions.Mengyang was pregnant.It really surprised me.From then on, I never dared to get angry with her again.My mother took good care of her, and I watched her belly grow bigger day by day.And I still go into my movie theater every day, sitting in the dark, I freeze the movie on the scene of Shi Lei smiling at me, and then I murmur to her: "Shi Lei, you asked me to promise you, Live a good life with Mengyang, but I am deaf, I don't want to hurt her. She is a very stubborn girl, and I can't drive her away. Now she is pregnant again, what do you think I should do? Actually I love her too. I love both of you at the same time, which makes me feel very sorry for you and her. You said that if I really have a child and he knows that he has a deaf father, will he be punished by other children Laugh? But I don’t want to take those medicines. I always feel that my ears have gone to another world with you. If I get well, no one will listen to you in the other world. I know, some words you It only speaks to my ears. I am very contradictory. Shi Lei, what do you think I should do?" Shi Lei smiled at me on the screen, but she couldn't tell me what to do.

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