Jade Guanyin

Chapter 27

It is conceivable that Qingmian Railway Station was deserted at night. I sat alone on a bench on the platform, waiting patiently for the train that arrived at midnight to go to South Germany.Apart from me on the platform, there seemed to be only a few dim street lamps that seemed to have a little breath of life, and there was a sky full of stars that could be seen from above.

In the boring silence waiting for the sound of the railroad tracks, I looked at the stars and searched for all the memories related to peace of mind.Every impressive past event unfolds the original picture in sequence under the night sky, from the first acquaintance at the Taekwondo gym to the kiss at the station in the rain, from the lights in my living room to the drinking at the Jialing Pavilion restaurant, many details are here. It was simple and ordinary at the time, but it can be emotional in memory.

When recalling the past, I have never missed the Songkran Festival we met in Wuquan—the cheerful and lively Songkran Festival, the thrilling Songkran Festival.

An Xin saw Mao Jie at the Songkran Festival!
When An Xin told me that she saw Mao Jie, I thought she was out of her mind.At that time, I had already walked up to the base of the pagoda with the empty basin in my hand. I looked up and saw that there was indeed no one on the wide steps of the Manlong Pagoda.

We walked to the back of the tower together. Among the splendor of the golden seat and silver body, there was no Mao Jie except for a couple of girls splashing water behind the tower.

I saw around the stupa, the square in front of the temple, and the depths of the village as far as I could see. People were still singing and dancing, chasing and frolicking.The splashed water mist scattered in the air and was illuminated by the sun, and what fell was a scene of peace and prosperity and a world without worries.

I helped An Xin wipe off the water droplets on her head, and I said, "Mao Jie? Did you see the wrong person?" The commotion around her was all in sight, and so could An Xin.Indeed, there is no such thing as Mao Jie.But she still insisted nervously, and she said, "I saw him! He's here!" We looked up together again, looking into the distance, making the field of vision as wide as possible, and I asked, "Where is it?" People, men and women who are full of joy and forget their worries.I also knew that even if Mao Jie really existed, it would be difficult to find him among the crowd.

An Xin pulled me, quickly walked down the base of the tower, and got out of the crowd and water mist.She took me and ran back along the river where I came.I asked, "Aren't we going to play?" I asked that, which showed that I really didn't take "Mao Jie" seriously.

An Xin stopped, looked around, panted and said: "Find a phone quickly!" We ran again, looking for phones everywhere, and we ran towards the train station.When the roof of the train station came into our sight, we suddenly saw a patrol car parked on the opposite side of the road, and we rushed over in unison.

Several patrolmen were drinking water and chatting in the car. After hearing An Xin's incoherent report, they didn't know how to react for a long time.An Xin said out of breath: "Quick, over there, there is a murderer over there, you go and catch him! It's over there at Manlong Temple, he may have run away now..." I stood aside , trying to show the calmness that a man should have, and added an explanation for An Xin: "The man is Mao Jie, he is about 23 or [-] years old, and he seems to be about the same height as me..." The police thought we were a couple. The frightened children comforted us with the tone of adults: "Don't worry, don't panic, just speak slowly. Don't be afraid, what's going on? Who killed who?" What happened, who killed who, Where do we start?I looked at An Xin, and An Xin was also tongue-tied.She said, "Do you have a phone?" The patrolman said, "This is a police phone, and we don't borrow it casually. Where do you want to call?" An Xin said, "I want to report the crime." The patrolman said, "Report the crime? You Just report to us. When you report the crime, you have to explain the situation clearly, which one do you think is the murderer?" An Xin said: "I am from the Anti-drug Squad of the Municipal Bureau, please let me use the phone, I want to find the Anti-Drug Squad! "Several patrolmen looked at each other, and none of them believed that expression.The leading patrolman asked: "Are you from the anti-narcotics brigade? Do you have a certificate?" An Xin took out her ID card after digging for a long time.The patrolman took it and looked at it: "He Yanhong?" He smiled: "This is an ID card, this one is not acceptable. Do you have a police card?" An Xin hesitated a bit, and said: "I am retired now, and I am not in the anti-drug brigade now But this fugitive was previously wanted by the anti-narcotics brigade, so we need to tell them the situation immediately." The patrolman looked at An Xin suspiciously, and then said, "Wait." After finishing speaking, he got in the car and dialed the car phone .An Xin and I stood outside the car, not knowing who he was calling.Not long after, he got out of the police car, holding An Xin's ID card in his hand, and said, "What on earth do you do, huh? He Yanhong has never been in the anti-narcotics brigade." An Xin said, "Tell them, my name is An Xin, ask them if they used to have someone called An Xin!" The patrolman looked at her ID card: "Isn't your name He Yanhong? "The patrolman ordered another younger companion to say, "Call again and ask if they have... What is their name? An Xin, the police's An? Where is the heart? A heart with a red heart?" The young The patrolman quickly got into the police car, and got out again after a while, saying: "Yes!" The older patrolman looked at An Xin with some doubts, and got into the police car again.He didn't know what he negotiated with someone from the anti-narcotics brigade on the phone, and when he got out again, he signaled to get in the car with peace of mind.

An Xin got into the car, and I stood outside the car alone.Look at those patrolmen, and those patrolmen also look at me.One of them asked, "Who saw the murderer? Was it her or you?" I pointed to the car, meaning her.

The patrolman asked, "Did she see it clearly?" I couldn't tell, so I had to say, "She said she saw it clearly." "Why can't you see it clearly?" I had no answer.

An Xin got off the police car with the old patrolman.The old patrolman said: "That's how it is, there will be a train back to the city after a while, and you can still catch it." An Xin's face was not relaxed at all, and she thanked the old patrolman with a lot of thoughts, and whispered something to me : "Let's go." We walked towards the train station, our clothes still sticking to our skin half wet.The hair has basically dried under the baking of the sun, but the shoes and socks on the feet are the slowest to dry, and the retting is very uncomfortable on the feet.An Xin told me on the way: Captain Pan asked for leave to go to Dali, and Captain Qian swapped with a Captain Wu from Lijiang, who had just left for half a month.The person who answered the phone just now was Captain Wu, who was unfamiliar with the situation.Captain Wu couldn't figure out the ins and outs of Mao Jie that An Xin was talking about on the phone, so he asked An Xin to go back to the city to come to the anti-narcotics brigade for an interview.

We watched the scenery outside the train window silently all the way back to South Germany.The bright and sentimental scenery when you come, becomes boring when you return.

Back in the urban area, An Xin was planning to go to the anti-drug brigade with me, but she was worried about Xiao Xiong halfway there, so she asked me to go back to the hotel to see Xiao Xiong.I went back to the hotel first, and she went to the anti-drug brigade alone.

I went back to the hotel and went to the nursery to see the bears.As soon as I entered the door, I saw the little bear sitting in the corner and crying tearfully.I asked my aunt: "Oh, what's the matter?" When the aunt saw me coming, she sighed with relief: "Hey, you are back. This child has been crying since he finished eating at noon. He has to find his parents." No. Maybe it’s because I’m tired of staying here, and I miss you, so we can’t coax him. I think he must have thought that you threw him away and didn’t want him anymore, so he was crying so sad..." I picked up the little bear, Ask: "Really, little bear, you thought we threw you away? You thought we didn't want you, huh?" Little bear couldn't speak clearly, but he nodded.The habit of crying still remained on my face, and my two little hands were tightly wrapped around my neck, which made me very moved. I found that this child was already tender and tender when he was only two years old, and he already knew how to love others and let others love him. he.I think that expressing the need for love at the age of two probably has something to do with reassurance and the child's own experience.It is said that a person can feel the outside world from birth, and everything that stimulates his nerves and brain will be recorded in his neurons, which will affect his emotional reflection and emotional expression after he grows up.Babies who have been stimulated by suffering and watched too much mother's tears grow up to be either cruel and violent or vulnerable and tender.

I came back with peace of mind before dark, and I told her the story of the little bear missing his mother.This story has a strong emotional color and Oedipus complex. I described this complex with an adult mentality. I thought it would greatly move and surprise An Xin, but An Xin did not.Her face was solemn and her mood was low. She said Yang Rui, let's eat early and go to bed early today, and we have to leave early tomorrow morning.

I lost all interest and asked, "What did they say when you went to the anti-drug brigade?" An Xin shook her head and said, "Lao Pan is not here, and Lao Qian is gone. The new Captain Wu doesn't know much about the situation, so he just listened to me." I asked me if I was wrong, whether it was a psychological effect, or a hallucination. I don’t even know if I was wrong. Maybe I really got it wrong.” I said: “This kind of thing Now that you have reported it, they should only believe what they have in the police business, not what they have not. Did they say they are going to take any measures?" She shook her head again: "What measures can they take now? They can't send people out to search all over the mountains." I think so.

That night we ate something casually in the small hotel. I bought some fried bait shreds—a Yunnan snack made of rice—from a small shop outside and brought them back to my room to eat.When I came back from buying the bait, the little bear had already fallen asleep on the bed.He's been out of the house these days and has been overexcited, and now he's finally exhausted his energy.An Xin and I sat side by side on the edge of the bed and ate shredded bait, which was tasteless.After eating, they were speechless.I packed the lunch box and chopsticks, and sat on the bed in a daze.I said, "What about us, what are you doing?" An Xin said, "Why not." She acted like she didn't want to talk, so I also shut up and stood by the window looking at the mountains.It was already dark, and the mountains could not be seen clearly.

We went to bed early that night.I didn't feel sleepy, and I thought Anxin didn't feel sleepy either.But in cohabitation, sleeping with the lights off is a way to be alone.People sometimes need to be alone.An Xin was silent throughout the night, only I could understand the reason for her silence.Mao Jie's appearance—whether it was An Xin's hallucination or not—made her turn a page in her life that had been turned over, and that page was unbearable.I lay beside An Xin, trying not to turn over or touch her, as if interrupting her pain and anxiety at this time was also a kind of harassment.I originally wanted to say a few words of comfort, but after much deliberation, every word I came up with was just scratching the itch, and it was a drop in the bucket.An Xin was thinking about the past, and there was a lot of sadness and hatred in her heart.When people are happy, they are often eager to gather and share with relatives and friends, and when they are sad, they are often willing to hide and bear alone.Few adults want others to see the scars and dirt on their hearts.

I thought, I should give An Xin such a space, let her miss her lost lover quietly, and think about their past life.The longer I spend with An Xin, the more I feel that I am not the opponent of Zhang Tiejun.I am not as mature as Zhang Tiejun, not as dedicated as Zhang Tiejun (you know that I used to be a playboy), and I am not as knowledgeable and talented as he is (if a person who studies engineering does not do his job, his knowledge is not as extensive as that of a liberal arts student).More importantly, Zhang Tiejun is her first love!First love is always unrivaled, always unforgettable, and always irreplaceable.

Until the dead of night, even the whispering insects in the cracks in the grass and tiles under the window suddenly fell silent, and I still didn't close my eyes.I don't know how late the night is, or how long we've been tossing and turning in the dark.I listened quietly, thinking that An Xin had fallen asleep, but then there was a small noise from the bed, I don't know what she was doing.I turned my back to her, and heard her turn over, and then her body leaned up gently, and pressed against my back lightly.

I finally couldn't help turning around and hugging her too, rubbing her thin flesh and bones with slow strength, and covering her petite face with rough kisses.I noticed that she was in tears, she was sobbing silently.Her sobbing and every clinging quiver of her limbs on me thrilled me, reassuring me that this beautiful girl, this lonely girl, was mine.

I also want to cry. We all have the experience of soaking up tears with tears. This experience makes us always remember the kindness of each other. This kindness often brings us great spiritual and even physical joy.

We were tired, panting without any scruples, flattened our bodies, looked at the thin layer of moonlight on the ceiling, and lay silently.I don't know how long it took, we looked at each other at the same time, I smiled, and An Xin smiled too.I leaned over and kissed her lightly on the cheek.

"Do you still want to cry?" My voice was like a whisper.She didn't answer, her eyes were as shy as a child's.She kissed me lightly too, and we wiped and felt the edges and corners of each other's faces and the softness of our skin with our lips.We substitute physical communication for words.Language at this time has become extremely redundant and troublesome.

I found that An Xin's shyness was so similar to the shyness that Xiao Xiong often showed on his face.This discovery makes me feel warm and interesting.I can't help but lift up and look at the little bear sleeping inside.I was taken aback when I saw it. I didn't expect that the little bear had woken up at some point, and was staring at us silently with a pair of black eyes.

I quickly pushed An Xin: "Look—" An Xin looked back and was startled, she quickly turned over and asked softly when he woke up?Why don't you sleep?Do you want to pee?etc.From An Xin's unnatural tone, I guessed that she blushed a little in front of her son.

Little Xiong muttered something sleepily, and An Xin responded to his question with the same voice, and they all spoke softly.I got up and got out of bed, put on a pair of shorts, walked out of the room, and went to the bathroom on the side of the corridor to wash my body.

This is a bathroom with both a toilet and a bathing function. It has both a toilet and three shower heads separated by wooden boards.I pulled the light cord at the door, but the light was not on. Fortunately, the moonlight poured down half of the wall from the window like mercury, and everything around me could be seen clearly.I unscrewed the nozzle in the middle, and the water was rushing, splashing on the ground, which seemed very loud in the quiet night, in this empty old-style small building.Although it was very late at night, the water in the nozzle still retained a bit of the warmth of the day, and it was very comfortable to wash on the body, which relieved fatigue.I let the water hit the muscles in my shoulders and back straight, as if it were a kind of massage.Amid the sound of water, I heard the door of the bathroom seem to open and creak. I tilted my head and listened for a while, but there was no movement again.I called, "Anxin?" No one answered.I turned off the faucet and stepped out of the shower cubicle.I saw that this quiet bathroom was empty, and the moonlight was still there.The only change is that the wooden door that was clearly closed when I came in is now inexplicably open.

I dried myself suspiciously, put on my shorts, walked out of the bathroom, and looked around.It was very quiet upstairs, no one was there.The corridor was dark, only some lights reflected from the corner at the end.I walked towards our room in the dark, and when I was halfway there, I heard the strange noise again.The sound was very soft, coming from behind, as if someone was following me quietly.I looked back, still no one.I continued to walk and walked to the door of the room, always feeling a little suspicious in my heart.Before entering the door, I swung my head left and right to look at both sides of the corridor. At this moment, my gaze froze as if it had been burned. A dark figure appeared.I quickly entered the room, walked to the bed, and said to An Xin: "It seems that there is someone outside who is always wandering upstairs." An Xin said: "Really, it may be the person on duty in the hotel." Although she said so , but still put on underwear.She said, "Is the water cold? I want to wash it off too." I took out the flashlight from my backpack, acted boldly, and said, "Go, I'll go with you." An Xin got out of bed, short Wearing shorts and shorts, she looked like a little girl who had just grown halfway.She said: "No, I can go by myself." I still walked out of the house with her, and looked at the corner again, the dim light was still refracting, but the figure was gone.I turned on the flashlight and took her to the bathroom. After entering the bathroom, I looked for the light cord with peace of mind. I said, "The light is broken, so you can use this flashlight." I left her the flashlight to see that she was about to undress , I came out.

I walked out of the bathroom, and as soon as I turned around, I saw a dark figure pressing behind me.I yelled subconsciously, and I was hit by something without even knowing that I yelled.I have played volleyball for many years and also practiced taekwondo. I am agile and have always had a quick reaction. I tilted my body and turned my head away.This flash probably saved my life, I was hit in the shoulder.The force was too great, my shoulders fell down, and my whole body was taken down, and I fell to the ground all of a sudden.

But my consciousness remained clear, and I could see the black figure stepping over me and pushing open the bathroom door and walking in.As soon as I tried to grab his leg, I couldn't pull it out, and I yelled, "Don't worry!——" I used up all my strength in this shout, and my injured shoulder and chest ribs hurt with the breath. Almost made me faint.

I had just finished shouting when I was hit on the head again. Countless gold stars exploded before my eyes, and after that it was pitch black.I vaguely feel that I am still conscious, still feeling, and I can still feel that my face is sticky and wet.But the eyes are completely blind, and the hearing is lost, and the limbs are dead.

My residual consciousness transmitted some fragmented and vague information into my injured brain, I seemed to feel An Xin rushed out, and had a few chaotic fists and kicks with that black figure at the door of the bathroom, and then a person hit hard fell beside me.At this time, my eyesight suddenly recovered, and I saw clearly that the person who fell was not An Xin, An Xin was running quickly along the corridor towards our room, and my hearing was caught by a string of sounds on the old wooden floor in the corridor. The sound of rapid running woke up loudly.My consciousness returned to my limbs, and I crawled up desperately like crazy, my legs were weak and I couldn't get up, but I threw my whole body at the black figure that got up almost at the same time as me, and the two of us once again Fell over the bathroom door.I had no strength, confusion, kicking, tearing, biting, every muscle in my body was straining.But soon, the guy stood up first, kicked me, kicked me several times in a row, and kicked me hard in the stomach with one kick.The hand that I had been holding on to his clothes loosened.Immediately afterwards, another kick kicked on my head, and my head was pressed down like a cauldron, and I couldn’t hear any sound anymore in an instant. This time I entered completely. coma.

This is the first time in my 23 years of life that I know what a coma is.

I also learned later that I was in a coma for more than a minute.During this more than a minute, the guy who kicked me unconscious chased us to our room, and met An Xin who was about to rush out at the door, and the two fought again.An Xin kicked his dick right now, although it was not heavy, neither injured nor fatal, but it made him take several steps back and An Xin was able to slam the door shut.An Xin closed the door and went straight to the only small window in the house, outside the small window was a messy plantain grove.As soon as her hands climbed onto the window sill, the door lock was kicked by that guy from the outside.An Xin obviously had no chance to climb out of the window again, she had no choice but to sneak under the bed board in desperation, and the door was kicked open as soon as she got under the bed.When the man came in and saw that there was no one in the room, his first reaction was obviously that An Xin jumped out of the window, because the moonlight on the window seemed to be the only thing that was eye-catching and full of life in this small room.He rushed to the edge of the window to look out.No one was outside.At this time, he heard a sound under the bed.

The guy crouched down and looked under the bed.It was very dark under the bed, but he obviously still saw An Xin, because An Xin's eyes met his gaze for two seconds, and during these two seconds, An Xin could clearly see that he was holding a gun in his hand.The man straightened up, jumped onto the bed, stood on the bed, and pointed the gun at An Xin's hiding place.At about this time, I woke up at the door of the bathroom.

I heard a deafening gunshot in our room, bang!boom!boom!boom!boom!There were five rings in total.The gunshots one after another almost completely broke my nerves.I burst into tears, no tears, no sound, but this crying from the bottom of my heart activated my nerves and blood vessels!I struggled to get up, leaned on the wall and walked crookedly to that room.I know that I, like An Xin, will die today!But I still swayed my numb body and walked towards that room, I was going to die!I want to die with An Xin!I'm going to work hard!I will never escape!I don't even want to just escape!

I finally reached the door of the room, which opened wide.I saw a burly man lying face down on the messy bed.Thick and sticky dirty blood proliferated from under his body, soaking the thin mattress on the bed.Later I learned that in the five bursts of gunshots just now, four bullets blasted his chest and abdomen!
My legs could no longer support my body which was getting heavier and weaker. I fell down and crawled on the floor. I supported my head vigorously and saw the peace of mind under the bed.She lay flat on her back on the floor, panting in shock, looking at me with tears in her eyes.I stretched out a hand, trying to pull her out, but she looked at me for a long time before stretching out her hand tremblingly.We couldn't reach it, I struggled to climb forward, my fingertips touched her fingertips, and we both seemed to draw each other's strength from the contact of our fingertips.An Xin crawled out from under the bed, her clothes were stained red by the blood dripping from the cracks in the bed, she hugged me tremblingly, her voice was broken because of the trembling: "Yang Rui,... I, I killed Yang Rui ..." I couldn't speak, I just nodded and smiled at her, and I used my nod and smile to tell her that she was amazing!

An Xin knelt beside me, holding my face with trembling hands, and asked me: "Are you hurt? Are you okay? Are you okay?" I shook my head, indicating that I was fine, and I used my weak hand Only then could he hear the voice clearly, and asked her: "Where's the bear?" An Xin was stunned for a moment, got up and rushed out the door, didn't rush out and came back, picked up the pistol on the floor.Her nervous look made me realize that the bear was gone.

I know this fight is over, An Xin and I are still alive.Later I also learned that it was Mao Jie's brother Mao Fang who died on our bed.Mao Jie must have come too, but none of us saw him.He must have rushed into our house when we were fighting with Mao Fang, and took the little bear away without seeing An Xin.

An Xin kicked Mao Fang and ran back to the house and could no longer see the little bear. She almost went crazy at that moment, she just wanted to go out to find him quickly, but was blocked by Mao Fang at the door and had to retreat into the room.At the critical moment of life and death, she suddenly remembered the pistol in the travel bag. The travel bag was stuffed under the bed when we went out in the morning, so An Xin got under the bed.One second before Mao Fang was about to shoot, she opened the travel bag and took out the gun and fired. The five bullets penetrated the bed board, and the first four were all sent into the bed before Mao Fang had time to fall down. His thick belly and ribcage.

Mao bled five steps and died on the bed.An Xin went out with a gun, but couldn't find Mao Jie and Xiao Xiong.There were still a small number of guests staying in the hotel, and no one dared to leave the room when they heard the gunshots.Two hotel workers who were guarding the gate came out to probe their brains. In the yard downstairs, they met An Xin with a gun in his hand and blood on his body, and they ran away in fright.An Xin rushed out of the yard and the gate. On the street in front of the gate, there was no one to be seen, except for the broken broad leaves of the banana trees swaying in the wind, there was almost no living thing.The moonlight was white and bright, silently watching An Xin, and also watching the entire empty street.

(End of this chapter)