Youth Rebellion

Chapter 41 The Death of Leukemia

In the second semester of junior year, Nan'er came from home one day, her eyes were red and she was very silent.

Ruochen and the others asked her what was wrong, what happened?

Nan'er cried and said, "My younger brother was diagnosed with leukemia last week, and the whole family didn't know how to work."

Ruochen understands that Nan'er's father favors sons over daughters, and her younger brother has always been the baby of the family. Now that he has this kind of disease, one can imagine the pain and sadness of the monks.

Nan'er said that this week she would be transferred to a specialized hospital for treatment. Ruochen and Weiwei followed Nan'er to see her younger brother. Unexpectedly, the young man was in good spirits at this time, and he was not depressed because he heard that he had leukemia.

Carrying the CD from Weiwei and the book from Ruochen to the ambulance, he smiled and waved goodbye to them.Unexpectedly, a few months later, a young boy in bloom would wither like this, gone forever.

After Ruochen heard the news of his death, she felt sad and painful. This was the first time in her 23 years of life that she witnessed a flower-like boy blooming and withering like a short-lived epiphyllum in a few months. So impermanent, she was at a loss and didn't know how to express her grief and loss, so she wrote an article to express her admiration for the article and those strong, brave and optimistic people.

In the article, it is the younger brother of my good friend Nan'er. In the name article, she calls him brother just like Nan'er.

When I closed my eyes, the first time I saw the delicate and childish face in the text emerged in my mind. At that time, he was only 16 years old, and he smiled and called his sister hello. It was like a young leaf that just grew in early spring, green and tender. With vigor, it looks like a bud in bud.

He doesn't talk much, but he is very sensible. When he saw him, he seemed to be in poor health. He always had a cold and a fever. Once, he was half angry with himself and half jokingly said that the boy is in such a poor health that he always needs to be taken care of. It might as well be dead! Unexpectedly, good fortune tricked people, and it turned out to be true.

One day in August 2005, Wenzhong was diagnosed with acute lymphoblastic leukemia in the central hospital due to persistent fever for several days. After a week of chemotherapy in the central hospital, the response was too severe. The hospital advised his family to transfer to a professional hospital in the provincial capital.

On the day of the transfer, my friend Weiwei and I went to see him with Nan. At that time, it was the first time I had contact with a friend suffering from leukemia in real life. The same is true for the younger brother in the article. He carried the CD and the book I gave to the car on his back. He was still smiling at that time, and he must be full of hope in his heart!

When transferred to a hospital in a provincial city, the hospital mainly uses chemotherapy. With the level of medical care in China, chemotherapy is the most commonly used treatment for cancer. They all know this kind of ending, but as relatives, they are still willing to spend the last penny to treat their sick relatives with a glimmer of hope, and the family members in this article are no exception.

Nan's family raised money everywhere, hoping to raise enough money, and pinned their hopes on bone marrow transplantation.But the cost of at least 40 is a huge astronomical figure for a peasant family!His family tried various methods, including looking for foundations, publishing in newspapers, and even a few of us trying to make donations at the school, but we had no choice but to make up the money. In addition, we sold all the things that could be sold at home, so we could barely make up. However, several months of inpatient chemotherapy and drug treatment were spent, but he was no longer able to pay the expensive expenses, so he was transferred back to the city blood disease hospital for some simple life-sustaining treatments.

At this time, the article has gone through several months of painful chemotherapy and treatment, and has met some patients with the same condition as him. He has learned a lot about leukemia, about various treatments, and how long he can live under what circumstances.

However, at that time, he still had hope for bone marrow transplantation and stem cell transplantation, even though his condition had deteriorated at that time.I think that when everyone faces life-threatening, the first instinct of a person is survival instinct, not to mention, he hasn't experienced this world well yet.

I went to the hospital to visit him with my friends, and the text in the ward was still smiling, showing no trace of sorrow or despair.

At that time, I was amazed by his calmness and composure, which made us feel inferior.I have been in poor health since I was a child, and I often take injections and medicines. Although there is no fear of my life, compared with those who are healthy all year round, I always feel that God treats me unfairly. There was no hope for the future, and the spirit in the article at that time made her feel that I was so hypocritical. She was not a patient at all, so where did these self-righteous pains come from? !Because she still doesn't know what real pain is!Seeing his attitude, Ruochen suddenly gained a lot of courage.

The brother in the article smiled and told her the story he saw during the treatment in the provincial hospital, the bloody story.One is about himself, and the other is about another teenager.

He said that he went alone after he underwent bone marrow dialysis. Hearing the sound of the special electric drill drilling the bone marrow, the piercing pain was already numb. Even the female doctor was moved by him and charged less. His money, because in order to save money, he does not use anesthesia!Speaking of this moment, there was a proud smile on Wenzhong's face, as if he had conquered leukemia and this demon with his tenacious will, as if he had just won a big victory!
Hearing this, Ruochen cried, but she didn't let the tears in her eyes flow down, not only because she was afraid of arousing his sadness, but also because she didn't want me, a sister who is a few years older than him, to be too ashamed to compare with him !
Then he told the story of the same 16-year-old teenager, and the image of the bloody noodles still pops up in his mind.

That boy is also in the late stage of leukemia, and he has thought of all ways to raise money, and he has reached the point where he is at the end of his rope.One day, the boy's father bowed his head and sat silently in front of the weak boy's bed. After a long silence, he said, "I just settled all the expenses until today, and there is still 7 yuan left. What do you want to eat? "

The boy was silent for a while, then replied weakly: "I don't want to eat anything." The boy's father stood by the bed, stared at his son for a long time, then walked out of the ward numbly.

About half an hour later, the boy's father came back, holding a bowl of noodles in his hand, and said to the boy, "Son, eat him."

The boy said weakly, "I don't want to eat."

At this time, the father who had always been taciturn and loved him deeply shouted and ordered: "If you don't want to eat, you have to eat it for me!"

Then he helped the boy up from the bed and sat down on his own, and handed the face to him.The boy cried, picked up the bowl and started to eat, every mouthful seemed so painful.He had a nosebleed while eating, but he didn't wipe it off, and the blood flowed into the bowl, so he ate the bowl of noodles covered in blood and tears with difficulty.

At this time, his father burst into tears!At night, the boy went to the paradise where there was no more pain.

Ruochen didn't know what kind of expression the text told this story, because she was crying all the time, she didn't have the courage to look up at his face, her eyes were full of the bowl of noodles with blood.

Ruochen didn't know how painful and sad he was when he saw this scene in the text. Seeing his patient friend go through his short life like this, did he also think that he would end up like this in the end? !I didn't dare to ask at that time, and now I don't have the chance to ask, and there is no need to ask, because in Ruochen's eyes, he has never been depressed and hopeless, no matter what kind of pain he endured.

Later, the basic life-sustaining expenses of the Municipal Hematology Hospital could not be paid. In May 2006, Wen Zhong returned home to recuperate.Later, Nan’er told me that it was the season of harvesting wheat at that time, and he followed a combine harvester to harvest wheat regardless of his physical weakness and the risk of infection. The whole family was very angry because of his disobedience.

Ruochen didn't blame him after hearing this, but said that maybe he wanted to do what he wanted to do again when he could still feel every plant and tree in this world.

At the end of July 2006, I heard from another classmate that the condition in the article had deteriorated, and I just thought that if there was a relapse, it would be better after a few days of hospitalization. , I didn’t go to visit him, I didn’t think it would be a farewell at that time, but who would have thought that I couldn’t be rescued, and I will be farewell from now on!I don't know if Wenzhong said goodbye to his family with a smile when he left, I think it must be, because Wenzhong is already a real man in Ruochen's heart!
Life that was alive a few months ago is gone in a blink of an eye.Life is so fragile, people can't predict their own future, we don't know what will happen on the road in the future, we can't control the future, and we can't delete the past, but we can live every present well and cherish every moment around us friends, relatives.I hope that in our lifetime, we can do what we like to do, like the people we like, and live every day as happily as possible.

How wonderful it would be if life could have reincarnation!At least let those who have not had time to take a good look at this world have the opportunity to have a good experience of this world, no matter what kind of life they live in this world, even if they have experienced love and hatred.

There is a saying that Ruochen always remembers after seeing it: Every one of our seemingly ordinary today is the tomorrow that people who died yesterday dreamed of.

Please cherish every day of your life.

After this incident, Ruochen realized how naive and ridiculous her time-wasting depravity was. She must cheer up, forget all the hurts, live the life she likes, pick up the wasted ideals, and move towards her goal step by step!

(End of this chapter)