Youth Rebellion

Chapter 66 Ye Liang's Story: Why I Left You (Part [-])

Chapter 65 Ye Liang's Story: Why I Left You
Ye Liang glanced at Ruochen who was sleeping soundly, and continued: "Not long after you got home, you're on summer vacation. I'm sick and need water, so you come to see me. I asked you to come to my house just to admit your position at home. I didn't expect that That time was a mistake in my life. My parents were not at home, and my uncle and aunt entertained me, but the result was not what I imagined. They didn’t like you because they didn’t know you, but relatives in my clan They have always looked down on us, so when they saw that they brought their girlfriend home just after the college entrance examination, they said a lot of bad things. Of course, they didn’t say anything good to my parents. My parents called me that night and scolded me a lot. Don, let me just study hard in the future and stop falling in love, or I won’t be able to support my tuition and living expenses. I was annoyed and said no! I can’t just give up on Ruochen! My parents see me as hard I can’t do it, I’m going to be soft. My mother cried and told me how we got here step by step. Talking about a girlfriend, in their eyes, it is just not doing a good job, as if the future has no future. You know, I know that my mother is not easy, I want her to live a good life, and I can't break up with her. She is sad and unfilial, so I can only sacrifice our temporary happiness."

"After I got to university, I realized what there are mountains beyond the mountains and the sky beyond the sky. Many people are better than me and have to work harder, so I have no way or any reason to let myself relax for a while. I have made a strict study plan for myself. , I even only gave myself five or six hours of sleep time. If I want to be outstanding, I must put in a lot more effort than others. I have isolated my life from you. At this time, I heard a former high school student The classmate said, you have always liked that bully boy, and you have never liked me. The reason why you didn’t reject me severely was because you were afraid that I would be sad and lead a decadent life. At that time, I thought you were pitying me, just helping me? I really want to ask you in person, but I am afraid that if I ask you like this, I will be humiliating myself, not to mention that I was nothing at that time, let alone my own destiny, I even had to pay my own living expenses Asking my parents, what else can I have to dominate myself? Maybe it’s better for you to be with that person. Wouldn’t it be better for two people to be happy with each other? How can I compete with others for you? But I was so unwilling, so at that time, I was already in an extreme state of mind, and I made up my mind to alienate you, but I couldn't say the word breakup, because my heart hurts, and I don't want to give up on you. I didn't even ask you, I think maybe one day I can stand in front of you with full confidence and confidence and say to you, Ruochen, marry me, I will give you a good life, the same forever feelings, let you be the happiest woman!"

"So from that day on, I wrote you the last letter and stopped contacting you. I even arranged high-intensity study for myself so that I would not have time to think about you! Later, you came to school to find me, Do you know how much my heart hurt the moment I saw you? I even wanted to compromise, but I was still cruel, you asked me why I didn’t contact you, I didn’t know what to say, I said I didn’t like it You, that's not my sincere words. I can't tell you if you have ever liked me. What's more, at that time, I had already made up my mind to give up everything and work hard, including temporarily sacrificing my feelings. I can only Speechless, seeing your tears, my heart hurts so much, but I still have to pretend it doesn't matter. At that time, I remembered these words in Zhang Xianliang's "Half of a Man Is a Woman":

A person with the ability to think lives by thinking, and a person without the ability to think lives by instinct, but instinct makes people strong, and thinking makes people weak.

Just because I love you, I cannot love you.I must hurt you, hurt to the extent that you can completely forget me!
It's not that I don't have a conscience, or that I don't have a heart, but that I'm cruel. At a time like this, I can't help but not be cruel!

These few words have been echoing in my ears. I want to be cruel and desperate to realize the value of my life. I don’t want anyone to say three or four to my family. I want to be strong enough to dominate myself life, but I am nothing now, and I can give you nothing. Even if I am with you, it can only delay you in vain, because at that moment I feel that I am so small and confused, and I can’t give you anything. Commitment, any life you want.But in front of your crying, I still softened my heart. I told you to give me ten years. Now that I think about it, I was really naive at that time. Why would you make you wait for me for ten years with just one word! "Speaking of this, Ye Liang sighed, with tears in his eyes, and continued: "The moment you left, my heart seemed to be empty. I knew that maybe everything was over, and I might lose you from now on. For a moment, I didn't even know what else I was holding on to, and what was the meaning.But I have to make myself strong, I am cruel to you, but even more cruel to myself!Maybe you can't understand at all that Zhang Xianliang has embarked on his path of struggle, but since then he has sealed up his feelings for his woman, and so have I. I have sealed up all my feelings, and only fight hard in the mechanical area. "

Speaking of this, Ye Liang looked up and found that Ruochen's eyes were crying. Ye Liang thought that there were tears in his eyes and his eyes were dazzled, so he wiped his eyes and looked at Ruochen again. Yes, Ruochen's left eye was crying up!Ye Liang yelled excitedly and ran to see a doctor. The doctor in charge said, "The patient didn't wake up. Maybe it's because she shed tears instinctively. It's the regulating function of the glands. Signs of waking up, may I ask under what circumstances did she cry just now?"

Ye Liang quickly replied: "I told her about our past, and when I was talking, I saw her cry."

The doctor said: "If Ruochen walks in the right direction, maybe the patient's nerves will become more and more sensitive, maybe she had deep feelings about it before, if you continue to tell her such things, maybe a miracle will happen , but don’t hold out too much hope, lest you be more disappointed.”

Ye Liang said: "Doctor, I know that it has been almost a year since she fell asleep like this. I have thought about all the consequences, and I have already passed that stage of fantasy."

The doctor patted Ye Liang on the shoulder comfortingly and walked out of the ward.At this time, Ruochen's mother came over with a lunch box. Ye Liang excitedly told Ruochen's mother the news. Ruochen's mother was also very happy, as if seeing her daughter's awakening was close at hand, and the two of them had a very special dinner sweet.

Ruochen's mother urged Ye Liang to go back to rest. Before Ye Liang left, he looked at Ruochen who was wide-eyed and said, "You still listen to my story, don't you? Then sleep well, and I'll tell you tomorrow, I'm going back to rest .”

Ye Liang was extremely happy today, even whistling while driving.He had a premonition that Ruochen might be able to hear his narration, including his confession, soon.

Back at the residence, Ye Liang opened a bottle of red wine for the first time, and drank by himself. He hadn't drank alcohol for a long time, unless he was forced to do so at the negotiating table.

So he also excitedly sent this news to Yuer, Li Xiaoxiao, Yingzi and Xiaohai, so that they could share his joy.

Although he told the doctor that he had no illusions, he still had them, and he couldn't help it.

Anyone instinctively wants things to develop in a good direction, let alone Ruochen who is talking about him day and night.

(End of this chapter)