Stars warm firefly

Chapter 24 Learning to Say Goodbye to the Old Times (1)
In the early morning, the sky gradually turned from dark to gray blue, and the pale moon hung like a patch in the sky.Xu Heyin quietly rolled down a small part of the car window, and a gust of bitter wind blew in, and she immediately felt a little tingling on her face.The scenery outside the window looks a bit bleak, but the quiet and cool atmosphere has the power to make people sober.

There was a rustling sound next to him, Xu Heyin quickly rolled up the window, turned his head and apologized to the sleepy Buzidu, "Did it wake you up? I didn't expect it to be so cold in the morning!"

Buzidu, who was curled up in the back row, yawned and shook his head.

Along the way, he and his senior brother alternated driving, and then took turns to rest.Calculating the time, he also slept in the middle of the night.Two nights and one day of traveling made Bu Zidu haggard: his hair was piled up in a mess, and the mustache on his chin couldn't get rid of even a stubble.Seeing that Bu Zidu, who was usually handsome and cool, had become so vicissitudes, Xu Heyin felt apologetic in his heart.

"Hey, what's the matter with your eyes?" Bu Zidu stared at Xu Heyin's big eye bags and black eye circles after fully waking up and said, "Don't tell me you haven't slept all night!"

Some memories that are too late to forget have gradually become strange over time.

"Who said I didn't sleep, it's just that I'm not used to sleeping in the car." Xu Heyin argued.

She knew she was looking bad now.But she couldn't control her thoughts and stop worrying about what happened in the past few days.In fact, it's not that she can't accept the fact that her parents are divorced, it's just that she was seriously hurt by deliberately concealing and deceiving. After all, no one wants to be treated as a transparent person!
At this moment, Bu Zidu's phone rang again.

"It's Mo Feifei again, my phone is almost exhausted by her!" Although Bu Zidu complained, he still picked up the phone to discuss the next move with Mo Feifei, and then handed the phone to Xu harmony.

"Your mother misses you very much! She was worried that you would be angry and ignore her, so she had to ask me to tell you that she would be waiting for you at home all the time. I told her that you went to sketch with me yesterday, and you might not get up very late today, so no Let her pick it up." Mo Feifei told Xu Heyin on the phone, "Come to my house first! My grandpa went out to meet friends early in the morning, and my aunt and I only had yoga class in the afternoon, which happened to be at a staggered time."

"Okay, someone has taken you in, and I can go back and hug my dear pillow." Knowing that Xu Heyin's problem was solved, Bu Zidu opened his arms with a relaxed expression and twisted twice exaggeratedly.

"It would be great if Mo Feifei was here. I could draw a picture of your cool guy's stinky look and show it to the people in the fitness club. It will definitely make everyone happy for a long time." Xu Heyin said and walked to the side Pushed.

"What are you doing? If you push again, I'm going to fall, help!" Bu Zidu shrank aside pretending to be pitiful.Xu Heyin knew that he was playing poor, and turned his head to ignore him, but there was already a peaceful smile on his face.

When they arrived at Mo Feifei's house, Xu Heyin saw that the car was covered in dust, and the eyes of Bu Zidu and his senior brother were bloodshot.

"I'm sorry that you didn't have a good rest." Xu Heyin said embarrassedly.

"Go back and have a good talk with your mother. If you leave home, no one will take you in. Otherwise, you can work part-time with me." When we parted, Bu Zidu still teased her even though his face was exhausted. He waved his hand at her to signal her not to worry about it.

"Look at you, it's really like going on an outdoor adventure." After they left, Mo Feifei pulled Xu Heyin into the room and asked her to look in the mirror.Seeing a disheveled self in the mirror, Xu Heyin couldn't help but smile.

"Take a shower first, then wear my pajamas." Mo Feifei also said with a smile, "By the way, are you hungry, come eat with me!"

After a bumpy journey, under the comfort of hot water, Xu Heyin's tense nerves temporarily relaxed a lot, and his emotions were like water gushing out after letting go of the gate, giving birth to endless tears.

However, the tears took away the sadness and the heaviness.After taking a shower, Xu Heyin did feel a lot more relaxed.Seeing her funny appearance curled up in her large pajamas, Mo Feifei couldn't help joking that Xu Heyin wore the pajamas out of the style of a hospital gown.Xu Heyin nodded, she also hoped that she could forget all her troubles like recovering from a serious illness!

"Hmph, you are lucky today, you can see my best repertoire!"

Xu Heyin followed Mo Feifei's gaze to look at the dining table, and couldn't help but laugh too.It turned out that Mo Feifei's best food was cooking instant noodles with poached eggs.

"I won't lie to you, this is my favorite food, so I also made a bowl for myself." Mo Feifei brought out a bigger bowl from the kitchen as if by magic, "A bag of noodles is not enough , I added half a packet more, I don’t know your appetite, so I didn’t add it for you. Try it while it’s hot!”

After Mo Feifei finished speaking, she handed Xu Heyin a pair of chopsticks, and then picked up a pair of chopsticks and started eating on her own.

"Ah, the taste is very good, the fragrance is tangy, it really is Mo's style!" Xu Heyin was really hungry, and after taking two bites, he praised Mo Feifei from the bottom of his heart.

Looking at the noodles in the bowl, Xu Heyin couldn't help asking: "Actually, you already knew that Ying Yuan borrowed money from me for that girl, right?"

"Don't blame me for not telling you!" Mo Feifei took a big mouthful of noodles and said, "Will you believe me if I tell you directly? No! You will only think that I deliberately said bad things about Ying Yuan!"

"Then you also know that girl?" Xu Heyin asked again.

"Ying Yuan wouldn't tell me this, but I have a lot of friends, and it was my classmates from other departments who told me!" Mo Feifei took out a napkin and wiped the oil from the corners of her mouth, and continued, "They are testing their courage. I met in the game. It was the girl who strongly asked to participate. In the end, the boys punished me by staying overnight at the camp. In the end, Ying Yuan went to help her. Later, the girl accidentally lost her money, and her family’s living conditions were not very good. So Ying Yuan promised to help her. Of course, Ying Yuan's living expenses are more than enough for himself, and he would be nervous if he took care of others, and he couldn't tell his family, so he had to ask his former friends for help."

"Then why can he tell me directly, why did he make up a reason to lie to me?" Xu Heyin was a little dissatisfied.

"Boys also want to save face!" Mo Feifei didn't care, then handed the phone to Xu Heyin and said, "The most important thing for you now is to call your mother to report that she is safe, instead of worrying about why Ying Yuan lied to you! "

The moment the phone was connected, Xu Heyin could hear the tremor in her mother's voice.

She must be very worried about herself, right?
She apologized to her mother in a low voice, made another appointment to pick her up and ended the call.

"Are you still angry?" Mo Feifei leaned over and asked, "Are you angry with your father or your mother?"

"I have both. If I have a choice, I would rather my parents tell me that they are divorced, than be kept in the dark and not prepared at all." Xu Heyin explained in a low voice.

"Actually, I think you are quite lucky." Mo Feifei sat on the sofa after eating the noodles and said to Xu Heyin while lowering her head and painting her nails, "At least your parents didn't regard you as a member of the alliance when they divorced." .Wouldn’t it be more frustrating if they forced you to say which side you’re on?”

Xu Heyin was taken aback, but she hadn't thought of this level yet.But when Mo Feifei said that, she also felt that it made sense.

After finishing speaking, Mo Feifei pointed to the wedding photos of his parents hanging on the wall and said: "When my father planned to go abroad for further studies, my mother often quarreled with my father in the name of me and grandpa needing care.

My father said that my mother was making trouble unreasonably, and my mother said that my father was evading responsibility.I told them, 'You guys just get a divorce so that no one is in the way of anyone else! ' Then I immediately took off their photos and replaced them with my grandpa and me. I just wanted to tell them that their problems can be solved by themselves, and there is no need to drag me and grandpa as extras. "

"and after?"

"Later, my father still went abroad to study. He would not give up the opportunity to advance himself for the sake of his family. My mother also worked hard to follow the past in the second year, although she is not a person who will let her husband control her life. But she still gave in." Mo Feifei put his hands together, admiring his painted nails with great interest, and said, "Look, my parents are very similar, even I can see that they are the same kind People, still don't admit it!"

In addition to photos, many calligraphy and paintings hanging on the wall also attracted Xu Heyin's attention.Those are the works of Grandpa Mo.

"He was afraid that I would not have a common language with me after I studied art, so he applied to the university for the elderly to learn painting." Mo Feifei's expression suddenly became a little lonely, "Look, my father went abroad to study, and my mother went to study with me. And I only have grandpa. So, as long as grandpa is around, I won’t go to dad’s side. Because I know that if I leave, grandpa will be lonely.” Mo Feifei said while sitting cross-legged on the sofa with a cushion in his arms.

"Ah, I really don't see that you are still very emotional!" Xu Heyin said in surprise.

"By the way, I'll show you something." Mo Feifei jumped off the sofa and slipped into the bedroom to put out the sketch. There were more than a dozen sketches on it, most of which were portraits of Xu Heyin and his classmates.

"Oh, this is Buzidu!" Xu Heyin flipped through one of the pictures and exclaimed, "It's really well drawn!"

"When I draw him, I always feel that there is a melancholy expression in his eyes." Mo Feifei took a pen and added two more strokes, "Although he tried his best to hide it, he can still see that he is not what he seems. hapiness."

Xu Heyin remembered what Bu Zidu had said to him, and nodded in agreement.

You are not the only one who is hit.In life, everyone will inevitably encounter setbacks and misunderstandings, the key depends on how to deal with them.

It was Xu Heyin's mother, Ai Berry, who took the lead in changing the way she faced blows.

When she went to pick up Xu Heyin that afternoon, she took the initiative to admit that she hadn't handled the matter well. No matter what, she shouldn't use her daughter as a shield.In fact, the person who has always been inseparable from this family is herself, but she selfishly replaced Xu Heyin's needs with her own.It can be seen that Ai Berry seemed to have thought a lot while Xu Heyin was away from home.

After divorcing Xu Yannian, she dared not face the lonely life.She was angry, so she spent his money hard, and even took out his bank card in the name of her daughter.She thought that he would be in a hurry and come back to argue with her, then they would never be able to sever contact, and maybe even get back together.But Xu Yannian didn't give her that chance.He didn't even bother to argue with her, let alone see her.So, Ai Berry followed Ah Zhen quietly, wanting to see how this woman who dated her ex-husband was better than herself.

"I thought you would be the bridge between me and your father. It's not the case. Your father treats you and me differently. You will be his daughter all your life, and I will only be the woman he hates." Mom said so.

As soon as Xu Heyin got into the car, he leaned against the back of the seat and tilted his head to one side and closed his eyes.But my mother's talking to herself didn't stop.

Xu Heyin suddenly thought that maybe her mother was the same as herself, and she was unwilling to move forward, so she buried her head and lied to herself that everything was business as usual.

"I thought my patience, entanglement, and even anger would make your father come back to this house again and start over with me." Mom sighed, "Actually, I was wrong. Some things will never reappear even if they disappear. Forcing your father to stay by your side is not who he was at the beginning. He will be tired, and I will be tired too. Instead of dwelling on the past, it is better to look forward! I hide the news of our divorce from you because I am afraid that it will affect your emotions and delay your review for the exam. I was still worrying about how to persuade you to move out with me, but who would have thought that you would rent a house for repeating your studies, so I simply let it go, I didn't expect it would cause you such a big psychological burden."

Xu Heyin still closed his eyes and did not move.She still remembers the argument she heard between Mom and Dad in the hospital that day.The mother is afraid that her daughter will know the fact that the relationship between the husband and wife has broken down, but the father threatens the mother to divorce as soon as possible on the grounds that the daughter should know the truth.

All of this is behind their backs.

Is it luck or misfortune that she is completely cut off from their intense emotional confrontation?

The conditions for Ai Berry and Xu Yannian's divorce have already been negotiated.For the house that the two of them bought jointly, the father will use the corresponding money as compensation to pay the mother in one lump sum, and Xu Heyin's college expenses will be paid by the father and mother each.Since they divorced in secret, most of the things in the house have not been touched in the past.Mother's original intention was to wait for Xu Heyin to tell her the truth after the college entrance examination, and then deal with the things inside.Now that the truth is out, mom plans to move everything to grandpa's old house.

Grandpa's old house is only a room of more than [-] square meters.No one has lived there since my grandfather passed away.If you move back, you will have to face many familiar old neighbors, including Aunt Zhou.

"When will I move, I will help." After returning home, Xu Heyin asked her mother enthusiastically.

She knew that from now on, she would be the only one by her mother's side.In fact, Xu Heyin is not as fragile as her mother imagined. Once the matter is really in front of her, she can only accept it silently.

"Okay, let's go to pack things next week first, and then discuss with your father to choose a date, and let the moving company come over to do it." Mom said lightly.

That night, the tired Xu Heyin slept soundly.When she woke up in the morning, it was already a brand new day.The sky outside the window is high and the clouds are light and the wind is light. It is another fine weather.She was lying on the bed thinking about what happened on the past weekend, which was more like a dream of her own.

Xu Heyin changed his clothes, looked up and saw a bright light on the wall.It turns out that the sunlight refracts through the glass and hits the wall, forming streaks of light, which look like part of a lake or sea.

In the past, Xu Heyin felt that every day was a repetition.However, through the experience of the past few days, she feels that every day is actually different, and everyone may lose something and gain something unintentionally.So every day is not a meaningless repetition, and every repetition is not a simple copy.Because time is changing, people are changing, even if you do the same thing again, your mentality will also change.

This is the truth that Xu Heyin only realized when he entered the school.

When class was about to start, Xu Heyin received a text message from Ying Yuan.He said: "I'm sorry Xu Heyin, I shouldn't have lied to you. Thank you for not revealing my secret in front of her. I will return the money to your card at the end of the month, sorry."

Xu Heyin smiled and closed the phone smartly.

Since she came back, she has buried herself in the sea of ​​questions desperately.Those formulas, theorems, and various concepts were filled by Xu Heyin like food that could satisfy his hunger.She suddenly felt that Zhou Jingyou was really happy. After her life was filled with various exercises, she didn't have to think about other things.Like divorced parents.

Xu Heyin rubbed her sore neck and sleepy eyes every day. Gradually, she also had Mo Feifei's dark circles and Zhou Jingyou's pale face.

"You want to eat more, do you know how hard it is for me to run this trip?" In the half a month after returning, Bu Zidu came here every now and then to deliver love bento to Xu Heyin, milk, sandwiches, and hamburgers.Originally, it was Xu Heyin who troubled Bu Zidu during the holiday, so Xu Heyin should thank him.However, Bu Zidu learned about the situation in Xu Heyin's family, and the experience of pity for each other made Bu Zidu feel the same for Xu Heyin.He really cared about Xu Heyin and hoped to cheer her up.

On this day, the two met again at a fast food restaurant near the school.

"Come on, what do you want to ask me again?" Xu Heyin asked while drinking hot chocolate in the fast food restaurant with the warm air on, "Is it related to Bu Xiaomo? Didn't you say in the text message that you came up with some clues? "

"I'm looking for Xiaomo's graffiti paintings in the past, maybe she will draw the boy who often gets along with each other." Bu Zidu said, but his eyes were looking out the window at the road with cars passing by.This was something he had just thought of recently.

Xu Heyin once mentioned that Mo Feifei likes to draw everything he sees, which reminded him that his younger sister Bu Xiaomo used to draw happy things in the past, so that when he was unhappy, he could take it out and look at it, and his mood would change. changed for the better.

"Then go back now, there's no one at home anyway." Xu Heyin had already finished his drink, put on the padded coat that was put on the chair, and was about to go to the rented house.She thought it would be better for Bu Zidu to get Bu Xiaomo's things in person.

"You forgot your gloves again." Before leaving, Bu Zidu pointed to the gloves she had left on the chair.

He is thick and thin, always setting off Xu Heyin's carelessness.She put on the gloves and walked out of the fast food restaurant with Bu Zidu.As the weather was getting colder and colder, it was very dark in the morning and evening, so my mother asked to send Xu Heyin early and receive Xu Heyin later.She readily accepted.She knows to make her mother feel that she is needed, which can be considered a kind of comfort to her mother.Therefore, the only time Xu Heyin could be at ease and help Bu Zidu was at noon.

While talking, the two returned to the community where Xu Heyin was renting a house, walked to the door of the unit downstairs and met the people who came out of it.Because Xu Heyin was wearing cotton clothes, his movements were a little slow and he couldn't avoid bumping into the person coming from the opposite side.Although the box in the opponent's hand did not drop, the top few notebooks fell to the ground with a crackling sound.

After the three pairs of eyes met, they were all stunned, only Xu Heyin quickly recovered and called out "Aunt Du" in a low voice.

As the landlord, Du Meiling specially greeted Ai Berry and came over to pick up things today.

The end of the year is Xiaomo's birthday.At this time, Du Meiling, who misses her daughter very much, can't help but think about others.Just now, she rearranged Xiaomo's clothes in the room, and then packed away her former study items, including Xiaomo's picture book, homework book, and textbook.In the first year Xiaomo left, she didn't dare to look at these things.Since last year, she dared to face the relics left by her daughter.It's just that she didn't expect to run into Bu Zidu as soon as she went out.

(End of this chapter)