Your warmth, my love

Chapter 62 White Pills
"But I don't feel it, Mo Yan, I found that I am numb to what you do, I don't even know what will happen to me, don't come, okay?" I wanted to beg him softly, but after I said it, It was so calm and indifferent.

Zou Moyan continued his development work as if he didn't hear it. He seemed to be addicted to the game. He didn't rush to eat it, but slowly grinded me. I could see everything he did, but I didn't feel any excitement.

This is the most difficult thing in the world, and I finally understand what it means to have no desires and no desires.

"Jiajia, be good." Zou Moyan didn't know when he had withdrawn the clothes on me, hugged me in his arms, and his lower body also came in, shaking slowly, he hissed for a long time: " You are the same as two years ago, you still let me die like this."

I can feel him coming in and out of my body, but I can't feel any excitement or happiness. In the past, Zou Moyan just gave me a few strokes, and I couldn't help but wrap my arms around his waist, but today is different, he moves very hard, I Nothing.

"Mo Yan, I don't feel anything."

I leaned on his shoulder and let him ask for it, "You let me go, I really don't want to."

"It's just getting started, we've just drank red wine and haven't eaten cake yet."

Zou Moyan dug out a piece of cake with his hands, wiped it directly on my chest, and then began to swallow in a very embarrassing posture. I looked at him in disbelief. How could Zou Moyan, who used to be sullen and emotionless, become What is it like now?

When we were together a few times before, Zou Moyan made me feel like a swinger who surpassed countless people in terms of technology.

Today, he is a man-eating demon.

But in the past, he was clearly a restrained and sexually demanding man.

Zou Moyan devoured everything about me, and I turned into a container of Black Forest cake. He slowly tasted the cake, and he ate me from the inside to the outside.

During the whole process, I was very calm. I never thought that this matter would be so difficult. During the two hours, I didn't feel anything, I didn't have any waves in my heart, and the whole person was quiet and scary.

This affair, which I can’t explain clearly, really went on until after seven o’clock in the evening. There were shining stars in the night sky. I was hugged by him and leaned against the wicker chair. Zou Moyan pointed to the sky and said, “Hey, bright ?"

"The stars in San Diego are brighter than here. Do you remember that farm in Trove?"

How could I not remember, there was our first kiss.

"You were only a freshman at that time, and you usually looked vigorous and vigorous, but in fact it was just an appearance. You looked like an awkward little girl in front of me."

I will never forget how beautiful it was at that time, it was like I blocked the place where Zou Moyan might appear all over the campus, handed out my handwritten love letter like a junior high school student, and went crazy every day because of his smile. all day long
Those days were too simple and beautiful.

Later, when we were together, Zou Moyan could still remember how many times I followed him. He said that because it was me, his pace of life slowed down a lot
Those memories flowed in my heart, Zou Moyan hugged me tightly in his arms, and whispered in my ear, "Shall we go back?"

"But my clothes are dirty." I looked at my torn shirt and short skirt on the ground, and when I remembered, Zou Moyan pulled him into his arms, and he put his suit jacket on me, "I The office has spares."

I stood up, it was cool under my body, I looked down, our body fluids mixed together and flowed down my legs to the ground, I felt chilly between my legs.

Zou Moyan acted as if he didn't see it, and dragged me down the rooftop slowly.

The office was very quiet at this time. Zou Moyan asked me to go to the living room. He took out a dress and windbreaker from the cabinet and gave it to me. When I wondered why he had these clothes, I saw that there was a hang tag on them, and I felt a little nervous. Comforted some.

I went to the bathroom to clean myself up briefly, and when I washed my face with cold water, I regained my intuition a little bit. I looked at my confused self in the mirror, and suddenly felt that the world was a bit terrifyingly quiet.

That skirt is not my number. I usually wear size 165, but this skirt clearly says 170.

Women care about size and are sensitive. When I was in San Diego, I was thin and my size was always 160. After coming back for two years, I drank and socialized every day, and gradually gained some flesh. That is, the number is stable at 165, and the number 170, the tall and slender Li Nan flashed in my mind, and there was no one else.

Li Nan, Li Nan.

Or during those two years, there was another woman I didn't know.

I put on my clothes and went out, trying my best to hide my discomfort, the medicine hadn't finished yet, Zou Moyan dragged me to the underground parking lot, stepped on the gas pedal all the way, and took me to a restaurant.

I don't feel hungry now, so when Zou Moyan asked me what to eat, I didn't have any objections. He ordered steak and freshly squeezed orange juice for me.

Seeing that I was still calm, Zou Moyan stroked the back of my hand and asked, "Are you scared?"

I nodded, "Yeah."

"Don't be afraid, I won't do it anymore." Zou Moyan's eyes flickered with an inexplicable emotion, and he looked at me with a smile, "Replenish your physical strength, or I'm afraid you'll be hungry at night."

All I was thinking about was the little white pill: "Mo Yan, have you... taken this medicine before?"

"Eat." Zou Moyan looked at me, "It will make me very quiet."

"Is this medicine prescribed by Li Nan?"

"She's a doctor."

I don't know why, after Zou Moyan said this, I always felt uncomfortable with the clothes on my body. Zou Moyan kept looking at me, and I knew that what I wanted to say couldn't escape his eyes, so I asked, "Whose clothes are these?"

"It's a sample brought by the customer in the afternoon, let us make this brand." Zou Moyan seemed to see my doubts, and said, "They only took this one, I think you are wearing it too big."

"It's not. Another woman's?"

"Other women?" Zou Moyan frowned, "Who are you referring to?"

The word Li Nan came to my lips, and I refused to say it. At this time, the waiter started to pass the dishes, Zou Moyan was eating salad, and I had no appetite at all.

In fact, I shouldn't have such doubts. If Li Nan and Zou Moyan have anything to do, they will definitely stay in the United States and never come back.When I saw Li Nan that day, she also looked like she couldn't get it. I thought about the cause and effect relationship, and my mood gradually eased.

The greatest ability of a woman is not only to make trouble for herself, but also to relieve herself.

"It's just an imaginary enemy." I looked at the orange juice in front of me in a daze, and the thoughts in my mind were in a mess. Zou Moyan was sitting opposite me, eating the salad on his plate with all manners. Put the sour plum in front of me, "Eat something."

I sighed, "I don't want to eat."

"It's okay if you don't eat it." Zou Moyan asked the waiter to serve the main course. I looked at the half-cooked filet mignon and I really didn't have any appetite, so I didn't take a bite.

Zou Moyan cut the steak into small pieces and put them in front of me, and whispered, "Eat some, your stomach will feel uncomfortable if you don't eat."

I picked up a fork and forked a piece of bull brand into my mouth, like chewing wax.

My eyes are all on the man in front of me, Zou Moyan may not know, I just like to watch him quietly, no matter what he is doing, whether eating, reading, playing games, or even cooking in the kitchen , are handsome.

"I can't get enough just looking at it." Zou Moyan smiled and dug a mouthful of pudding and put it on my plate, "Here, eat some of this."

"I really don't want to take it!" I sighed helplessly, and wanted to lose my temper, but found that my heart was still like water, and I would release all my temper. I don't know if it was because the medicine didn't work, but I still felt calm. Like an ocean without any waves.

Zou Moyan ate this dinner very happily, and he was in a good mood when he took me home. I suddenly remembered that these few days are not my safe period, and he did it a few times without any measures.

On the way, I asked to go to the pharmacy, Zou Moyan asked me what to buy, and I said post-mortem medicine.

"That medicine is not good for your health, don't take it."

"But I haven't had a safe period recently." I muttered in my heart, what if I really have a child, will you want it?

"It can't be such a coincidence. I'll ask Li Nan tomorrow if there is any medicine with less side effects."

Looking at Zou Moyan's calm face, I couldn't help but touch the position of my lower abdomen. If there is really a child, would he like it?
"If you had a child, like a child, would you want him?"

Zou Moyan didn't answer. When I was almost disappointed, he held my hand and said slowly, "I'll talk about it first."

I don't know what he meant by this sentence, but I just know that when he finished speaking, those crooked thoughts in my heart disappeared instantly.

When I got home, Zou Moyan put the bath water in. I soaked for a long time before I felt it. It was a feeling on the nerves. For example, when I saw the red mark on my chest sucked by Zou Moyan in the mirror, my face turned red. Thinking of him in the afternoon I spread a whole piece of Black Forest cake all over my body, and I was too ashamed to look up.

If it weren't for the effect of the medicine in the afternoon, I think I must have returned to Zou Moyan's torture. How could I still have dinner with him, and I can still stand in front of the mirror and watch the battlefield he left behind?
After washing, I went out of the bathroom. Zou Moyan was not in the living room. The door of the study room was closed. I knocked on the door with a bath towel on. Zou Moyan was probably on the phone. When he saw me coming in, he said a few words to the person on the phone and hung up. Cut off, "Did you finish washing?"

I nodded, "Are you busy?"

"Talk to Zhou Luo about something." Zou Moyan walked up to me and hugged me, "Does your body hurt?"

I shook my head and asked him, "Does that medicine still have the effect of pain relief?"

Zou Moyan smiled, "No, it seems that you are a little dissatisfied with my hard work this afternoon!"

"No!" I thumped his shoulder and sighed, "It's just that the medicine is very strange, and I'm particularly afraid of that feeling of wanting nothing."

"I understand." Zou Moyan picked me up by the waist, walked to the bedroom and put me on the bed, "Should I be lighter next time?"

"No next time." I feel uncomfortable just thinking about how I feel this afternoon.

"Okay." Zou Moyan kissed the tip of my nose, "Let's try something else next time."

Zou Moyan said he could do it, and we tried a lot of other tricks afterwards. After a few times, I felt that the white pill was a kind of gift.

(End of this chapter)