heir loves me

Chapter 200

Lu Yunxiu sighed softly, and did not wipe off the raindrops dripping from the tips of his hair, the smoke drifted away in the mist and rain.

The warmth lost more than twenty years ago.On the anniversary of his death, he would definitely visit the grave, put his hands together, and spend the longest and most painful night of the month alone.I hope that there are no regrets about my own existence, and the feelings that are too eager for warmth to express, tightly hold Lu Yunxiu's heart.He stood at the grave of that meek man, praying silently.

"Please tell me, I... what should I do?"

Since losing you, I have been unable to love anyone.Craving your heart too much, remembering the fear of losing a loved one.You love me who can't even get the love of my family, and you give me infinite tenderness, which warms my heart.However, you disappeared before I could respond.

"...I am afraid to remember her. I know that loving and being loved will produce sorrow. I know that no matter how happy I am, no matter how content my life is, I will still be alone one day. I can't believe her Will be like you... accept me forever, but why do I look forward to it so much? I am so afraid of losing that I dare not explain everything. However, I long to be loved by her... Is this a sin?"

Perhaps a certain part of my heart thinks that as long as I have sex with her, I can keep her by my side.Although I dare not expect to love and be loved by others, somewhere in my heart I want her to be loved by someone.I sincerely hope to be able to love someone...

Whenever I stay with Tranquility Sea, the memories of my childhood, the memories of being too warm and happy will be vividly awakened.Whether it's a tightness in the chest, a sweet and sad feeling, or an unspeakable pain.

"Please tell me... Mother."

Lu Yunxiu murmured what he couldn't say, the person who saved his cold heart that was abandoned by his family and longed for warmth.With a sad heart, he prayed to be with her.Laughing and playing the piano in the church.He couldn't even find a way to express the emotion in his heart, so he could only bury his face in his broad chest and cry.

"I...can't accept her..."

He knows he cannot be happy.

Lu Yunxiu stared at the memorable name engraved on the tombstone, the rain dripped on his cheek.

……

Even if it is directed at hot water, it still can't drive away the chill that can't freeze people.Knowing that the wine in the glass would not be able to warm his body, but in order to escape the piercing silence, Lu Yunxiu poured the wine anyway.

The second hand of the clock trembled with a small ticking sound.Lu Yunxiu hugged his cold body with both hands, and his heart was also frozen.

"Sea of ​​Tranquility..."

Lu Yunxiu called softly.He was used to spending sleepless nights alone, but he still wanted her smile to be with him all the time.Obviously, I came to a conclusion in front of that person's grave, it is best to stay away from her...

When the phone rang quietly, Lu Yunxiu was startled and raised his head.Maybe it was her, no, it must be.Lu Yunxiu felt his heart beating faster.

Lu Yunxiu listened attentively to the ringtone, but just closed his eyes deeply and stood up unintentionally.As long as he hears her voice, he will want to see her, and when he sees her, he will definitely yearn for the warmth of his embrace.Although struggling in love and sorrow, but still longing.I can't afford anything.

The phone ringing was interrupted, and Lu Yunxiu felt a slight tingle in his heart.He covered his face with his hands, and let out a breath as if he was worried about something.Alcohol can't take away the heartache, and cigarettes can't calm the turmoil in the heart.

The phone rang again, and Lu Yunxiu answered it immediately without giving himself any time to hesitate.

"Hey……"

"Oh, Yunxiu? It's me."

She heard a soft voice.

"I called several times, did you just come back?"

With a tone of reproach and joy.

(End of this chapter)