Long time no see, ex-wife!

Chapter 324

"I..." He opened his mouth to speak.

"Su Wei." Yaling suddenly spoke, interrupting the words he was about to say.

She still didn't look at him, but he was already very happy, as long as he could hear her voice, most of his anxiety disappeared.

However, after a little thought, the word 'Su Wei' came out of her mouth so naturally, and he understood it in his heart. Perhaps, there was really only the last way left.

"At that time, I dreamed that you would come back." She said as if unintentionally: "Dad's body is getting weaker day by day, and Mom is throwing herself on Dad's body. I really want to give them a little bit at this time." Mental support, so I have been trying to be stronger, at least let my mother not see that there is something wrong with my body, but in fact, I am more afraid than any of them, because my mother does not understand the seriousness of this disease, so the only one who bears this secret is The two of us, and Dad is already like this, the only one left is me..."

He looked at her, and recalled what she said, and felt a wave of emotions that had just been relieved gathered up again, unable to swallow or relax.

He understands, he understands, he understands, but he can do nothing.

She rubbed her cheeks with her knees, lowered her eyes slightly, and continued: "On the one hand, I want to talk about encouragement that I don't believe in, and on the other hand, I am tossing and turning every night, afraid that my father will fall asleep forever in the next second, I feel I was really going to fall down. At that time, I was really like the little match girl. I struck one match after another, and all I saw was you. I saw you come back, and there was no her by my side. , only you, you said so firmly, you regret it, the one you love is actually me, you want to come back and ask for my forgiveness, no matter how I drive you away, you will not agree, you have to completely Cling to me, cling to me, give me all your love regardless, this time it's not a responsibility or some damn sympathy, it's just love, simple love, you hope I can believe you... you see Me, I have reached that point, and I still miss you. When I woke up, I gave myself a slap in the face, but it was Dad who woke me up. At that time, he was more sleepy than awake. , but he still remembers me, he is still saying, he will come back, believe in dad..."

When she said this, her voice stopped, and she turned her head to the side. After a while, she didn't continue.

His throat was tight and his heart ached. Even though he was so close, he was afraid that the moment his hand touched her, she would suddenly yell at him to get the hell out of him, so he could only show all the guilt in her eyes. , I hope she can feel a little comfort.

After another long time, after a sneeze-like sound, she continued: "At that time, even if someone approached me with unknown purpose, I didn't care, as long as they could give me some warmth and support, I would be very happy , I am really happy, I even want to thank them for supporting me in such a difficult time, although I am still alone later, but that is already a later thing, I have been persuading myself to be tolerant Some, but I still can't do it, I'm not a saint, Su Wei, so I can't forgive you, even if you appear inexplicably, leave, and appear again, I don't dare to guess your thoughts anymore, I have made a lot of jokes, because of you, I don't even have the courage to dream, so..."

"This time when you come back, the first thing I feel... is that I'm scared."

Her legs were a little sore, she tried to stand up, but failed, she swayed again, almost fell, she smiled lightly, and said, "Look, that's it, whenever I meet you, I often make jokes, This body must have owed you too much in its previous life."

There was a bitter taste in his mouth, she was right, every sentence was right, so that the words he just thought of were so hypocritical when he said them now, so much in the past, he wanted to say a few words Just smooth?Where is such good luck?
"Please believe me, this time, I really won't leave again, let's be together." There are so many gorgeous words to say, but he only thought of this one, because he knew she wouldn't have the patience to listen No explanation from him, so he can only express his heart's desire in the simplest way, and suddenly he understands her once panic-stricken state of mind. At that time, he didn't even give her one-tenth of her attention at this time, It took her every second of time to pile up tens of millions of courage to say it again and again, how embarrassing it was to talk to herself, he really understood now.

She said indifferently: "Whether you go or not is your business, what does it have to do with me?" She picked up a stone at hand and threw it out, her hair raised up with her raised head, revealing a pair of calm With abnormal eyes, he felt a little flustered when he looked at it, and even stretched out his hand to grab her hand.

She was startled, and when she dodged back, she avoided his touch, and his heart also dropped suddenly.

"Su Wei." She calmed down, and said again: "Do the math, we have known each other for a long time, most of the time I was chasing your footsteps, I don't know how long I have to live , I don’t know if there will be a man I love more to accompany me through the rest of the day, but what I want to say is, enough, Su Wei, let me go, let me be quiet How about a few days? It’s already a foolish thing for a woman to spend her best years loving a man she can’t ask for. If she can still accept this man’s so-called change of heart even in this way , then, she should be the stupidest fool in the world, you can't let me always fall into such an embarrassing situation, occasionally, please think for me, don't ask for your pity, just ask for your love ...As an older brother, think about it for your younger sister."

It was as if a hand was grabbing his heart desperately, and then squeezed it hard, it seemed that even the last effort was squeezed out.

elder brother?She called him brother?He felt a little confused and couldn't find a place to go, but he was soberly aware of how natural it was for her to call her brother.

For a few seconds, he even had the urge to persuade her mother and his father to leave. Just because of this, she lost one of the most legitimate reasons.

She hammered her legs and stood up, and he stood up right after her. When she turned around to leave, he stepped forward and grabbed her.

She shook it, unable to shake it off, and turned to glare at him.

From her point of view, at this moment, he is very much like a child who has done something wrong. He has a lot to say but can't utter a word, and he looks terrified and worried that she will leave.

The corners of her eyes tightened, she pulled out her fingers one by one, and continued to turn around to leave.

Suddenly, his arms held her tightly, anger appeared on her face, and she opened her mouth to question him, but he preempted her.

"I was wrong. No matter what you said, I apologize. I understand everything. I really understand. I can't explain it at the moment, but I understand everything. I read your diary page by page, word by word. Reading words, I can’t sleep well at night, I always feel that you are kicking the quilt on the side, and I am distracted when I eat, without you reading non-stop, the house is very deserted... It took me a long time to pick out those flower seeds , but I can't remember what you looked like when you were here. You are everywhere in the house. In the past, you could see your smile when you looked up. After you left, there were not even many photos. You thought you took away Everything, but you have painted a whole wall in my heart, don't go... Please."

There was a warm feeling on her neck, and she couldn't imagine him crying in the pit of her neck, but there was a very faint smile on the corner of her mouth, but her back was turned to him, and he never saw it.

"It's too late, if I put this sentence in the past, I would be so touched that I couldn't sleep for days and nights, but if I put it in today, it will only cause me trouble... Don't even think about it, and then use the so-called responsibility and habit Trapped me."

Throwing him away violently, she strode forward, faster and faster, faster and faster, almost out of his sight.

He ran over again, still with one movement, stopping her movement with his arms, she seemed to be struggling all the time, he blurted out anxiously: "Although I don't know if this is love, but it is deeper than love, I am addicted, I can't leave, you have made a bet on me, you can't just leave like this!"

She was slightly stunned, and when he caught her calm, he continued: "I don't want to lie to you, and I don't want to lie to myself. I can't tell if it's love or not. I only know the feeling in my heart. When you left, I Just like you, I thought it was just a habit to you, just like Mrs. Li, like the flowers and plants at home. After a long time, I will naturally get used to their existence. Maybe after a long time, I will return to the way it was before. life, and then, calmly accept another relationship, another person around, but, no, really wrong, I tried, I tried to get everything back to normal, get up in the morning, eat, work, socialize, and then go home , work, sleep, and continue to get up and eat until the next day... I repeat these steps every day, but why is it uncomfortable? Why does your name always pop out of my mouth? Later, I thought, maybe it’s just my heart. Not reconciled, your departure is too sudden, I may need a buffer, I should go to meet you, and then, face to face to open such a knot in my heart, so I went to find you, full of excitement to see you again, but, again After getting off track, not only did everything not calm down, but it became more intense. Later, I persuaded myself to leave again and again, but secretly found an excuse to stay, contradictory, hesitant, and so on, until now, I... just know that I don't want to test myself anymore, I am willing to obey my inner feelings, if I really say this is love, this is love, if I say no, it doesn't matter, as long as I can always be together, yes or no, I don't care It's..."

After he finished speaking these words, he didn't hear any reply from Elling. His heartbeat was directly proportional to the sweat on his palms. He had never been so nervous before, as if he was waiting for the judgment of fate. He was restless and flustered. , wanting to hear her final answer, but also thinking, if she rejects him again, he will be... rambunctious?
The corners of his mouth twitched. How had he ever done such a thing?
But if, she is really not moved by his previous words, he... Well, so what if he fights with this old face?
Here, he was still fighting in his heart, and he heard Yaling snort in his ear, and said in a calm manner: "Let go of me when you finish speaking, brother."

"Don't call me brother..." He gritted his teeth a bit: "They don't have real registration."

"Sooner or later there will be such a day, so it should be warmed up in advance."

"Yaling, I know that what I say now is meaningless, and I also know that many things in the past have doubts and knots in your heart. I swear that I will tell you in detail in the future. I just want to ask you again. One chance, a chance for fair competition, if you think Su Wei's name is... unacceptable, then you can change it to any name and start from scratch, okay?"

Many years later, Aling was lying on the rocking chair, and he still recalled his weeping tone at that time, hehe, the word used was a bit weird, but he really felt this way at that time, his pride disappeared She was completely clean, and even bent her knees and begged her for a chance.

She remembered that she still disagreed at the time, and she said: "Su Wei, not everything can be restarted from the beginning, even if I agree, maybe one day, I will turn over the old score, even if you tolerate it, there will be a day Losing patience, what should we do at that time? Moreover, you should imagine that if we are really together, I will definitely become very suspicious. Except for Lin Jiaru, any Li Jiaru, Wang Jiaru, I will have an inexplicable sense of crisis, so, then It will limit many of your normal activities invisibly, are you really confident that you will always treat me tolerantly? Will you not leave me again just because you lose interest in me one day?"

She said that these are not groundless, and the injuries of the past few years can no longer make her accept anything calmly. Although he came back this time, although he said that he was in love with her, looking at the whole relationship process, she She was still the passive person, and the final consummation was obtained only because of his return. How could she not be suspicious?This is what she is afraid of, that after they finally get together, they will be separated again because of the broken locks after marriage. At the most challenging and disturbing time, if he left her at that time, she didn't know what she would do.

After hearing this, he only blindly assured: "No, no, I don't know how to convince you, it really won't"

He even sent her a pair of simple and pathetic rings, with a flattering expression on his face, watching her expression nervously.

She could tell that it was made by him himself, and that it was the first time he made this kind of thing. The craftsmanship was poor, the patterns were not beautiful, and even the words were crookedly carved, but he took them very seriously as his own. His fingertips were a little red, and the few shallow scars on them may have been caused by making this thing. She looked up and saw his nervous eyebrows and eyes, and suddenly took the last mouthful. He secretly spit out the air.

In fact, during the period of her disappearance, she had already thought about everything. At first, she kept entangled with why he came back, but later, she figured it out.

She doesn't doubt the sincerity in his eyes, just like she doesn't doubt that Ning Siyuan is attached to Ya Ling. As he said, it is still uncertain whether it is love for him, but she can see that it is at least deeper than liking. Many times, even several tenths heavier than love, she had loved deeply, so she could see it, and decided to take the risk of trusting him one more time.

In this way, it is not to show weakness, but only because you have loved before, you will know how to cherish.

It can even be said that there is a trace of selfishness in it. She has worked so hard for so long, why does she have to shrink back when it is time to reap the rewards?She just wanted to accept his feelings openly, and it was a matter of course, and he also wanted to give it with sincerity, even with gratitude.

So, she took so long to show up.

So, she expected that he would appear here, and it was only after a long while that he "arrived late".

So, she said, "We can't be together" on the left, and "please let me go" on the right. When she turned her back to him, there was a smug smile on the corner of her mouth.

So, she took it for granted that he heard his declaration and what he said in his heart, and he expressed his feelings so thoroughly, but his face was grateful to her for giving him a chance.

So, in the end, she finally stood in a high position and gained a feeling that was heavier than love.

I also understand that no one will ever say clearly about feelings, high and low, long and long, true and false, sometimes they are no match for the word forever.

She will be with him forever!This sentence sounds exciting, she will share every moment of his life, which is thousands of times better than missing Tianya every day!
And all of this was because she took a step back and he took a step forward, the two of them were just right and held hands.

……

Before she left, she only said that she could give him a chance, but she never said how big his chance was. She even said that she would go on a blind date tomorrow, and that she would submit ten-tenth marriage proposals to various dating agencies. Of course, Fei promised to introduce him to each other. good man...

It was rare for him to hold back, and he kept holding her hand. When she said a word, his hand tightened a little. At the end of the speech, his brows were extremely tight.

She chuckled secretly, but kept on saying, "Today, Mr. Fang called me and asked me if I had any plans to continue my relationship. He also said... Lele misses me very much, this former mother."

He suddenly stood in front of her, and she saw the worry on his tense cheeks.

He looked at her conspicuously for a long while, lacking in confidence: "What's so good about carrying an oil bottle? Even if you list them out on a piece of paper, I'm slightly better than him..."

She didn't answer his words, and walked forward lightly.

The night was as beautiful as her mood at this time. She closed her eyes, and there was a smile in the corner of her eyes. After all, she was holding happiness.

It's just that he seemed a little pitiful. He was frightened and startled by her, and he was still planning how to get Fang Linchen, a potential rival in love, to the ends of the earth. He had lost his composure long ago, so that he never thought about it credibility of words.

Yaling's mobile phones are all in Fei's hands, Fang Linchen wants to continue his relationship with her, so he must be able to call her!
He said that when she lied, she liked to hold her small earlobe. She was really pinching it, but how could he see it when he was in such a tense state? Heh, did she win again?

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