Long time no see, ex-wife!

Chapter 347

I still ran away, through a glass door, her figure standing in the sun made me a little dazzled, so I fled back to work.

Work is really a good excuse for a man who can’t go home to eat because he’s busy at work; he forgot to give her a gift on holidays because he’s busy at work; he can’t spend time with her because he’s busy at work; He suddenly pulled away and left, because he was so busy with work that even at the end, even he believed these excuses, and he would not leave the office and drive home until the last second, as if he was used to the ease of escaping.

I said to myself: There is nothing wrong with this, man, it is reasonable to distinguish between family and career, and I am in the rising period of my career, so I should put most of my energy on this. After things stabilize, maybe I will have Give her more time, and by then I will be more rational and mature to face my emotions with her.

I keep saying to myself, always, always, I thought we have a lot of time, 20 years, 30 years, even 70 years, 80 years, I can relax completely and know what to do Keep working hard and narrow the distance between us a little bit. Only with 100% preparation can I have the courage to fight this battle that will affect my whole body.

I really think so.

So every night when I sleep with you, I haven't indulged myself, because I want to fight a perfect battle, so I don't allow me to have any negligence.

It's not when I haven't been emotional, after all, he is a normal man. In the middle of the night, there is a warm body next to me, and he approaches me intentionally or unintentionally. He doesn't mean to resist at all. You don't even believe it yourself? !
But even I am amazed at my self-control, I really didn't touch her a bit, although there were a few times when I endured to the extreme, turned over and pressed on her, but when I saw her pair of eyes full of trust Fatigued down.

Aling, Aling, if it took six years for us to make progress, I'm afraid it must be because of you. If you don't look at me with such trusting eyes all the time, I will And why be so cautious to the extreme, for fear that any wrong step will really hurt you, so I think about it in my heart, prepare, and dare not set sail to your direction until everything is smooth.

Maybe it is because I care too much that I am careful everywhere, always want to give you the best, and don't want to see your eyes that are sad because of my failure.

What a clear thing, but I was always confused at the time, thinking up hundreds of excuses, just not daring to look at my own heart, and when the time passed and the person was gone, I touched my chest and read Her name over and over again.

We are always saying goodbye to the past with regret.

Day by day, life is just like this, flat, without any waves, Ya Ling is trying to learn to cook, but there is still a big gap between the word delicious, I reluctantly swallowed those foods, although I did not give her praise, But she has never picked any faults. She has filled the yard with flowers. The potted ones, the ones planted in the fence, and the half-person tall trees are called flowers. They have been planted for more than a year and have not been seen. Half of a flower bud, I always get burrs on my hands when I come back from get off work at night, it is very fragrant when it blooms, but it usually smells weird.
Sometimes when I sit in front of the window sill and work, I can see her busy downstairs from the corner of my eye. At that time, the sun will be good, the sky will be blue and white, and the breeze will be gentle. Her expression is very focused, which makes me envious for no reason. She also placed a few pots of those flowers on my table, to be honest, they are really ugly, no leaves, no flowers, just a pile of dry thorns, but Elling has to replace them every few days, I was very confused about her behavior. Later, I heard Mrs. Li said that these can absorb computer radiation, which is very good for the body. I don’t know much about these. Everything follows her mind. I will see what she puts What, just be careful. That's it, life is broken, but it's not so boring.

The parents of both parties mentioned the child's matter secretly, and Yaling also became interested in things related to the child intentionally or unintentionally, but I avoided the important ones, avoided them as much as I could, jumped as much as I could, and didn't answer their topics, not saying no I like children, but in my heart, family is more important than everything else. If I can't give my children a perfect environment to grow up, then I would rather suppress my desire.

Several times, I have thought about talking to her, talking about our present, talking about the bright future we may have, and talking about the unreasonable thoughts in my heart that others think are unreasonable but come out of my mouth I swallowed it hesitantly, and finally I thought, wait a little longer, and give her a big surprise when I am able to take on everything.

So, I worked harder and improved myself. I arranged every day to be busy, but when I was tired, my heart became more peaceful, because I knew that no matter what, there would always be her pushing me gently behind me. Let me fall, she sees that I am more important than myself, I don't have to devote any thoughts to other places, as long as I give my back to her.

I gradually calmed down and became more calm and mature. The smile on my lips implied confidence, and I became more comfortable in handling things. I walked step by step from the most humble clerk in the company to the right side of my father, and finally I could stand Looking down on the city and the people below.

I almost succeeded.

but

Suddenly one day I received a phone call from overseas, and Jiaru's voice sounded the same as in memory.

She still chatted with me in the same tone as in the past, and then she asked me how I am doing now?
I felt a little out of shape, and I couldn't even remember how I answered it, except that she said that she might come back in a few days.

she will come back !
The news has left my mind blank and unable to say what feels unreal.

It’s like when I was told by my playmates that I was a fool when I was young, I couldn’t let go of it for many years, and I always wanted to ask him why he said that, but one day, he suddenly called to say that he was really coming back, but you almost You have to forget what it is you are struggling with.

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Thank you for your support. Hua will remember all the touch you left for Hua.

(End of this chapter)