Long time no see, ex-wife!

Chapter 369

If I guessed right, that thing should still be in the old place. I saw her carefully rubbing its surface and suggested to order a new one by chance, but she shook her head, saying that there are too many such things not good.

Yes, it's not good to have too much, no matter how shabby it is, it's always the 'original match'. She didn't say it, and I didn't guess it. I didn't understand it until the end.

I found it easily with my fingers, hooked and pulled it, and the thing was already lying in my palm, and it still carried her warmth, warm, and I carefully threaded it firmly with the self-made thread fly, because I was worried that it would be careless. It slipped off, and the loose button was lightly knotted with a fly, but it was still twisted off by me.

Then she broke down completely, with tears streaming down her face, but she didn't bother to wipe it off, she was determined to snatch the little ring back from my hand, as if it was her last pillar.

I put it away carefully, no matter how awkward my heart is, I can't let go, sorry, I can't give it to her, what's the benefit of keeping these for her?Looking at the bitter miss every day?That might as well leave it to me, or simply throw it away, destroy it, and let them disappear from now on!
She was crying so hard that I almost let go, flustered and didn't know how to comfort her, I always didn't want her to suffer such pain in the end, that appearance would shake my determination to leave.

There are too many things I want to say, so much that I can only look into her eyes, but I can't say it.

Life is slowly compressed into a thin picture book, which is opened little by little in front of me.

I saw her walking alone in it, through 30 years old, 40 years old, 50 years old, 80 years old, having a baby, or having a grandson, becoming a mother and then becoming a grandmother, grandmother, falling in love again I married a man, and the days are like water, the man may have a bad personality, the two quarreled constantly, she became tired of life, and suddenly thought of me one day, but she turned around to cook for the man with a bitter smile
Drinking "luxury" red wine alone at night, muttering to the empty house, when the child wakes up, she will put away everything on the table and return to the role of mother, because there is no time for her to be "sentimental", nor People are willing to listen to her unconstrained thoughts, she no longer likes to grow flowers, she only buys some fake flowers that don't require much effort to care for them, facing her husband, she becomes more and more silent, but she never thinks about divorce again. Mention the word love, learn to be patient and smile at every one, when she is alone at home but don't know what to do, her face is expressionless, her heart is barren, finally, she no longer insists, no longer stubborn, no longer sharply hurt herself with emotion, she will Tell the child: "That man is not suitable for you, what's the use of love?"

She finally became 'sensible' and became more and more sensible, but she lost the most precious thing. Maybe one day, she will suddenly see news about me, and she will raise her eyelids slightly, and continue with her hands unchanged. While knitting a sweater, when she heard my mother teasingly talk about how passionately she loved me when she was young, she actually laughed at herself and said with a really silly expression on her back then: "You are also young, you did it A lot of stupid things, if it happens again now, I might as well die."

Don't worry, really don't worry, throwing her into such a rough world, allowing her to be soaked, assimilated, and swallowed a little bit, thinking of these, I can't help but hug her tightly, as if I want to strangle her It's the same as dropping everything that's bad.

Please don't lose faith in life and love.This is what I most want to say to her.

The short time we spent together made me feel suffocated, but she fell asleep in my arms when we were about to leave.

I wiped the tears from her eyelashes with my fingers, held her face and looked at her carefully, I really wanted to flick the tip of her nose, wake her up, tell her that everything is just a joke, your body is very healthy, I am coming back this time to pick you up, we must live our lives with heart, be happy, and let others envy you.
But that in itself is a big joke.

Put her on a steady position, the man has already entered, my fingers seem to be glued to her face, but I can't remove it, and I can't take it off, I only have a general understanding of the man's details, I don't have time to do it again For other decisions, I can only bet, bet that he will pity her, bet that he is a man who is straightforward and willing to love, because he is a smart person, I am even more betting that he can see her fragility.

Those jealousy and jealousy instantly turned into a heavy entrustment. I really want to get a strong guarantee from the man, but the man's ambiguous words have already satisfied me. He has no reason to promise me anything. He just accidentally appeared between me and her Just a role in life, I can't push all the arduous tasks that I can't complete on him, and, different people have different ways of bringing happiness, I can't use my standards to ask him, I I don't have this ability anymore.

Opening the door, that step was extremely difficult. I don’t know if anyone has experienced such a choice like me. One step may be a lifetime. If you step out, you may not be able to come back.

This step almost exhausted all my strength.

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After leaving the hospital, I immediately stopped and flew to the United States to discuss with Ying Xun the implementation of relevant plans. He has always been a genius in medicine, so I put too much hope on him. During the conversation between the two , He repeatedly mentioned the topic of my safety in the plan. I didn't care. I just asked him what is the chance of success, and how many chances will he have to start again if he fails. For the first time, he was silent for a long time, saying that such a thing should not be rushed. We can only touch it slowly, if luck is good, everyone is happy, if luck is bad, one is saved, one is gone, and if it is a little worse, the one that should have gone, and the one that shouldn't have gone.
He is a person who wants to scare me away wholeheartedly. In his opinion, such a desperate effort seems too meaningless.But even if I don't buy his account, he can't.

I rejected the conservative plan, and I was very interested in his so-called idea of ​​planting poison. His attitude was very tough, and finally he couldn't bear it anymore. He patted the table and stood up. After biting his teeth for a long time, he asked me: " Is it worth it for a woman?"

"worth."

He couldn't say anything more.

The preparatory work started quickly. All I need is to keep testing and provide various data. I don't want to know about Elling's life, because before I left, I secretly sent someone to take care of her shop, and there were also people in the hospital. It's staffed, so I don't worry, and I don't need any of the information they provide me with Eladrin.

Because, I dare not listen, I am afraid that when I hear how depressed she is, I can't help but run back.

However, I did go back several times during this period, but I didn’t dare to stay in her city. Sometimes I would take Jiaru to look around the home area of ​​various large shopping malls, and sometimes, I would release some unknown news. To confuse the public, and sometimes, I will buy a large page of the newspaper to publish some of my current situation, and then add a photo of my healthy appearance that has been processed.

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It's updated, folks, come out of the water and breathe out.

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