Long time no see, ex-wife!

Chapter 376

She knew of my existence, so everything in the past became ridiculous and absurd. I couldn't guess how she would think about me in her heart, would she feel that my appearance was different just because she remembered a moment when I pretended to be stupid? Like a clown?

I was embarrassed in my heart, because this kind of thing is a matter of great courage, and it is not an aboveboard heroic matter. It is really far from my previous image. This gap makes me feel embarrassed even thinking about it .

However, there is joy, excitement is also there, and the expectation has gradually increased a lot, but the most anxiety is still.

Appearing in real identity is probably the most embarrassing thing. To her and to me, it is an invisible spread. I can no longer get close to her like Cui An and hold hands with her. I began to speculate in my heart about my intentions for coming back, and then I was more sad than happy. I guessed that I thought of her ex-wife because of my responsibilities and sympathy, so I came back and took care of her for no reason...

She won't listen to what I say, or she won't take it to heart after hearing it, and she won't use my crutches again, and she won't talk, laugh, or play around with me, once her nervousness subsides , she will drive me back, or pretend to ignore me and let me retreat.

I had expected these consequences clearly, so I had mixed feelings in my heart for a while, and it was even more difficult to understand than her. The time we spent together was suddenly much shorter because of this change. Originally, I still wanted to keep the memories of getting along in my mind. In the middle, after this time, I only dared to drag Ying Xun to take some DVs and come back, and lay on the hospital bed after the drug test was over for entertainment.

Ying Xun said that her mood didn't seem to have changed much after I left, but I don't believe it, because in that video, she also kept the seven or eight parts of her smile, and she was never happy. I knew her heart It's my fault, it's my fault that I come and go, come and go, come and go, I don't know how many times I hurt her, but I can tell anyone in the world about my difficulties, but I can't tell her. If she felt guilty, it would be better to let her hate it. At any rate, she didn't have to always think about repaying it.

She was very misbehaving for a while, and always liked to run out alone, because of this, she would always report her to me. I understand that she was depressed and wanted to go out to relax, but the body can't take jokes, So I had to wait a little longer and be more careful with her. She will print out several copies of her daily physical report, and one of them will be left to me. After such a long period of treatment, I will almost become a doctor after a long period of time. Watch her symptoms You can roughly guess something, Ying Xun didn't hide everything from me, in his opinion, the decision-making power for Aladrin rests with me, because I don't know how many times more concerned than she is.

Because I have personal experience, I know how painful she will be every time after taking the medicine, so those two hours are torture for her, and it is like purgatory for me. Again in general.When she finished her work, I was already in a cold sweat.

The more advanced the treatment was, the greater the danger would be. Many times, I grabbed the hem of death's clothes, thinking that I would never wake up again. Many times, the pain was so painful that even the sheets under my hands would be torn to pieces. Later, people became even more unconscious, and Ying Xun always had the idea of ​​stopping. In his eyes, this matter was worthless. As long as I smiled lightly, I don’t know how many women are waiting for me. Why bother to choose...

I don't blame him, because he doesn't understand, he has never experienced the years between me and Aling, and he never knew the twists and turns in our hearts in the past few years, how many wrong paths we took before we could faintly feel the shadow of the future, How precious it is, other than us, outsiders will never understand it.

And, I think it's worth it, just listen to what others do?
For a while, Elling's appetite became very good, and she became more energetic. She had a lot of things to do every day, and sometimes she would sing quietly in the room. When I heard Ying Xun say these things, I couldn't help but imagine that When I asked him what she sang, he waved his hand in pain and said not to mention it again, I chuckled, Aling's singing voice is really amazing, and I heard him say that Aling seems to be Missing my aunt, I thought about it, she was really boring in the house every day, so I contacted my father to discuss calling my aunt to accompany Yaling.

Before my aunt arrived, Yaling got sick for the first time. I just finished trying the medicine and heard the noise outside. As soon as the door opened, Yaling curled up on the cart in pain, and I really wanted to hug her, or I used her hand to give her some strength, but at that time I was praising her for a long time even the strength to speak. This feeling of powerlessness was very frustrating, as if every time she was in pain, I would cry for various reasons. If I can't help her even a little bit, thinking about it makes me feel desperate and want to cast aside myself, shouting her name with all my strength, asking her to cheer up, and unexpectedly seeing her nod very lightly, my heart is relieved.

I believe in her, if she nods, she will definitely do it, she... Sees how heavy I am from the bottom of my heart, I know better than her.

During the four-hour rescue, I was lying on the makeshift hospital bed outside the emergency room. As soon as the lights went out, I stood up with my head held high. Ying Xun pushed the door open and made a victory gesture to me.

On the days when she was unconscious, I would lie next to her, and there was a curtain between the two beds, so I didn’t have to put on any coats to pretend to be because I already smelled the same as hers at this time, even if I stood In front of her, she probably wouldn't smell anything unusual. Occasionally, Ying Xun would hold Yaling's hand for me when she was in a good mood, and sometimes when she was troubled by sesame mung beans, she would deliberately pull the curtain extremely tightly. No matter how much I glared at him, I have the right not to see it, but most of the time, Yaling and I are very close. When the nurses come in to make rounds, I don't shy away from it. I will ask them to be gentle later. Yaling was afraid of the pain, so she asked them to move her to me a little later, and pull the quilt up for her...

After stealing a few days of intimacy, Yaling also showed signs of waking up, so she had to obediently go back to her ward, listening to Ying Xun's description of her every day.

The content of the call between Yaling and Jiaru should be forwarded to me. I have already suspected Lin Luo, but there are too many unexpected things and I don’t have time to investigate. I heard that he did it. Such an unforgivable incident and Jiaru actually participated in it. I calmed down after several times of suppression, but I firmly remembered these things in my heart. , my help ends here.

Yaling's illness has turned around, but the turnaround comes at a price. You should ask me for my opinion, whether it is for light or for memories.

Smile, do I still need to choose this?If it can get better, the memory will be lost if it is lost, and it may be good for her, isn't it?

no regrets?Why not?When she no longer has love and attachment to me in her eyes, how can it be a regret that can replace it?

But, I can only choose this way, I want her future, even without me; it is good to keep going.

The coat she returned, the ring she secretly buried, the me you called Cui An... Those days when we were together, the figures walking together on the two campuses, those pictures, Those voices, those tears, those pains, that girl who only looked at me, that girl named Elling, that pot of flowers on the balcony that was still facing the sun...

It doesn't matter if she forgets...

I will help her remember, remember firmly, one part in her mind, and another part in her soul.

Elling, if I'm lucky enough to stand up again, then you don't need to do much, just let me find you.

You stand there without saying anything, and you don’t need to look at me. When I approach, don’t panic, because the deep emotions in my eyes won’t hurt you. Those emotions have accumulated for too long, maybe I will lose control for a while, but I will try my best to suppress it. When you see him, he will be a gentle, considerate and graceful man. Don’t think that this trap will not hit you, and don’t think that this must be a big joke. It’s true. Yes, everything this man said to you is true, you don’t believe it for the time being and you can’t defend yourself, but don’t run away because of timidity, please give me time to prove it, I can’t explain too much to you, maybe occasionally I will hesitate and make you suspicious, but you can only understand that I have other difficulties. Please don't alienate me and give up on me because of all kinds of thoughts, okay?
I may be eager to get close, and I will spit out affectionate vows after only a few days of being together, and I may unconsciously make extremely intimate gestures, as if I have done it countless times, and there will be many expressions that you don't understand. You only understand one or two copies of what I say, I even understand all your little tricks, I know how to make you happy when you are frustrated, and I am used to knocking out the little fire that rises when you are proud, I know which smile you like the most I like it, I know which sentence you are most looking forward to, and know when to turn around and catch your eyes that you are not in a hurry to dodge
This feeling of being too known can be a little scary at first, but trust me that over time, you will enjoy it, revel in it, and again, immerse yourself in it.

Because of you, you once loved me like this.

And I can only anesthetize myself like this.

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Su Wei's side story is officially over. As for the reunion between Mr. Su and Ya Ling, because Mr. Su's inner description is already included in it, and there are not too many doubts in it, Hua will not be cumbersome anymore, but the key Fanghua will mention it briefly in the post-marriage episode, other than that, Hua doesn't know if there is anything missing in it, if anyone has relatives, please bring it up. Not the first man of Elling, the answer is no, and this question will be mentioned in the episode after marriage.

(End of this chapter)