Long time no see, ex-wife!

Chapter 379

I don't know how long I slept, I just remember that when I opened my eyes, there was a setting sun in the sky, burning red, it was really beautiful.

Yaling squinted her eyes and looked at it for a long time before she felt the warmth on the top of her head, and her breathing was strong, so she couldn't help raising the corners of her mouth.

She was not willing to wake him up, although she wanted to share the scenery and tranquility with him, but she also knew that it was a rare time for him to rest. When she woke up now, she didn't know when she would be able to calm down again.

I remember that before marriage, I really looked forward to the sweet life of the two after marriage. It was him who woke up every day, and it was him who suddenly looked up during the interval of doing things. He was the one who cooked a new dish and wanted to find someone to try. The one who wants to rely on him will not be anyone else, and when taking care of the child to sleep at night, he should be by his side, coaxing and joking, until everything is peaceful, it is she and him who are chatting on the sofa...

It's so good, the complete life, the complete him, are all in her hands, quiet and powerful.

But, it's life after all.

Even if the other partner is already as strong as him, he still has to step on the road of life step by step, working hard and hard.

Although the days of broken locks are now tasted, but looking back at the beginning, they were almost separated again, and they still feel a little scared.

At that time, it was a period when his career was rising and stabilizing. He was very busy with work and had little time to spend with his family. The two of them got together less often and often had to bring home work on weekends. At first she could bear it, and Actively convincing herself that these are normal, but gradually her mentality changed.

Because there is no man in the family, she always has to solve the troubles on weekdays by herself. Mrs. Li is getting old, and she is not used to outsiders walking around the house, so she has to be a woman as a man. Repairs and climbing are common things. Well, it stands to reason that she has always been a self-reliant, strong woman, and such things should be resolved easily, but that's not the case.

Sometimes, he was not around when the headache happened, and he couldn’t find where to put the medicine all over the house, and Mrs. Li was absent on leave, crying and screaming in the house one by one, trying to coax my sister, but tripping over the littering things, her knees were swollen Lao Gao, even though he couldn't help crying, it still makes people anxious and distressed. Just happened, the electrical appliances downstairs broke down again, sparks flew everywhere, and the strange man outside the gate kept ringing the doorbell, saying that the property was under normal maintenance, and everything was wrong. After getting together, I was about to call him, but remembered that he had a very important meeting today, and I couldn't delay it, so I had to give up, gritted my teeth and dealt with each piece, and finally I was embarrassed, clutching my painful forehead Sitting on the bed, I was so wronged that I burst into tears.

For another example, Fei called to go to a picnic, saying that it was a very suitable place for a tryst, with the most effective prayer stones and the most beautiful sunset in the world. ...and Su Wei wasn't around, she couldn't answer, it was as if she felt lonely without her and his participation in the love, or she watched some TV show one day, and a certain sentence in it made her I was moved to tears, but when I turned around to speak, I found that there was nothing around me, and all the emotions disappeared in an instant.

This kind of thing happened a lot, and for a while, I was very angry, and a thought came to my mind: Whenever I think of him, he will not be there, so what do I need him for?
She was quite frightened by this thought, she didn't know what was wrong with herself, she seemed to have shrunk back from an adult to a child in an instant, and gradually lost the ability to live independently, she only wanted to rely on him, without him, the sky would collapse I even want to yawn in his arms, and I have to look at his expression to choose whether I want to feel happy or not when I tell a bad joke...

Always thinking, what would happen if he was here?It's better to give up this difficulty, because with him, he will definitely solve it. She is too dependent, so when her happiness has passed the highest point and she has returned to her life, she will not be able to find her original self.

She can find any topic to trigger a moderate war, but he is always tolerant and talks less and less. Ya Ling's mother saw that something was wrong and suggested that she go to the hospital to check if she has postpartum depression However, she felt that her life seemed to have become a mess, and even the children felt the oppressive atmosphere. She seemed to think that the two of them were about to end.

However, one day a long time later, when the two talked about the scene at that time again, there was a smile and a helplessness.Su Wei said: "I always thought that I was a failure, unable to guess what you needed, and unable to give you what you wanted most."

But she interrupted his self-blame: "Actually, it has nothing to do with you, it's just because, at that time, I was really in love."

Yes, later on, she realized that it wasn't a big dispute in the first place, it was just because she finally changed from being in love with that person to being in love with that person.

In the past, she loved him unilaterally, and she could bear it without getting anything in return. Now that the man clearly stated that she wanted to live with her for the rest of her life, she felt panicked, nervous, uneasy, worried about gains and losses, and a little at a loss. They are all too instinctive and immature, thinking that love means embracing each other every second, loving each other all the time, every day except sweetness is happiness, the earth revolves around them, there is no work, no difficulty, only love.

Love that is too idealized is destined to suffer.

Because of the grievances, no matter how hard it is to calm down in her heart, she will be ambiguous when she speaks, drawing inferences from one instance, if Su Wei comes to comfort her at this time, she will definitely shed tears of grievance, and keep criticizing him for his mistakes , although she didn't think so in her heart, she always wanted to get cheap from the other party, as if this showed that he loved her more, and if Su Wei remained silent, she would suddenly become sad, thinking to herself that he must It's because I'm tired of her, otherwise why didn't I even say anything to her, didn't even have a rebuttal?So the original complaint turned into anger, and over time it became heart disease...

During that time, it was really terrible. She didn't understand what happened to them. After going through so much, they finally got together. Why couldn't they support this happiness and continue walking smoothly?There is also a child, and the parents also kiss each other. It stands to reason that they have no burden and should be enviable in happiness, but she just doesn't understand why the laughter at home is getting less and less, and why Su Wei's face is getting more and more tired. more and more?
The most intense quarrel was because Su Nian had a severe fever, but Su Wei was on a business trip and couldn’t make it back. The two old people rushed to the hospital. On the screen, but still unable to press down.

When Su Wei returned home three days later, she lost her temper almost as soon as they met, and kept blaming him for being irresponsible, insinuating that he was escaping the responsibility of being a father. He was extremely tired, and when she had cried enough and made a fuss, he said, "I'll go get something to eat."

"Don't dare to trouble me!" She yelled angrily, turned and left, ran to the guest room and locked the door, and fell on the bed alone in a daze.

Almost before and after, there were footsteps outside the door. She knew who it was, but she didn't want to open it. The two of them were angry before, but they had never been like this. She was very angry this time.

Su Wei stood outside the door for a long time, and suddenly started to talk. He talked a lot. He talked about the scene when the two first met, every detail of the school, the six years of marriage, and the first parting. Days, talking about the later meeting and the last confession, she got up from the bed and sat by the door. The two leaned against the door to talk and listen to each other. After there was no more sound outside the door, she gently opened the door.

He was half leaning against the wall, already asleep, and before he could take off his suit, the buttons on the cuffs were a little unthreaded.

In a flash, the war is over.

It turned out that all the fussing and begging was for this man's care and cherishment.

The clouds cleared and the fog dispersed, and the gloom disappeared.

I also understand that love must also be based on life, no one can achieve ten points, then seven, eight, and points are enough, why bother to bring him here?
On that day, he was just like today, sleeping very deeply, very deeply, alas, no one can tell which is more tiring, a man or a woman, but she thinks that discordant love is tiring, and people cannot always be innocent. Going on, there are some things that should be discarded, should be suppressed, should be discarded, and should be dealt with quickly, whether it is a woman or a man, it is best to move forward and backward with equal footsteps. After all, in life, you have to be born before you can live happily.

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Hua You said: Marriage is a hurdle, getting in is only the first step, the running-in between the two must be more than that, but I don’t want the article to go on endlessly, so I have to stop writing, because the content is boring, so I give away [-] words, and Fanghe will ask about the last [-] It will be delivered seven days later, if you want to shoot bricks, you have to be lighter, huh.

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